Hui Tian Tian Xiang Ni.. Xiang Si Ni Le...

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2008-06-10T16:15:00.002+08:00

runaway! (:

catch me if you can :D

i had told some of my friends alr about the runaway!!!

oh well,
shall try to keep blogger alive :D

i miss running track,
i want a running track of my own one day! (:

manyloves to all my friends! (:

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2008-02-27T22:25:00.005+08:00

BOO! i am back to update my blog! cheeerssss! (: although i have not been blogging here, i had been updating my life on my cousin's blog! hahas! so i am still very active in blogging :X

met up with my primary school mates last thursday! one word, FUN! we went to our primary school teacher house and i played cheesss with her grandchildren! i won, omg, i won! alrights, i should not be cheering abt it as i am so old yet bullying them with chess! hahas, we bought KFC to her place and the kids love KFC! so we shared the KFC together, and there were 16 pieces of chicken!!! oh yea, gen drove us there and drove us back! cool ah! yay! yay! more meet up will be coming, hope more ppl will come and then we had more fun! cheeerss!

met up with nana at admiratly first to travel down to suntec on last saturday! (: so we walked around and settled down at subway to have our drinks while waiting for zx and sj to come! hehe, so we were chatting and looking at things as well! so after that, met up with zx and sj, and guess what, zx wore until so formal! o.O! i got a shock! wahahahas! after that, we ate our lunch, bake rice for nana and me, while pizza for zx and sj! NICENICE! (: then we went to catch the movie, L change the world! hehe! nice, but abrupt ending only :p before the movie starts, we went shopping! wahahahas! left suntec at 7:55pm! nice outing! LOVES!(:

met up with superman last sunday as well, at first i thot it was just passing of badge to him! in the end, we walked and chat for at least near 3hours! met up at 7pm and reached home at 10pm! wahahahas! so we sat at the fitness corner near my house and chatted! wahahahas! alrights, time to plan for the b'dae celebration for my bestest boy-friend xiaoxin, so that that sai di can go and buy his gift for xiaoxin!!!! hehe! LOVES!

met up with anne yesterday! omgomg, yay! it is like so long long that we met up! so we went to have dinner, we ate pasta! my treat as it is like so post celebration for her! sorry lovely! i am glad that she enjoyed it very much! then we went walking around and took pictures of cos! (: she said that my hair is short, hehe, actually now very long le! (: arghhh! then we went shopping for awhile and we went home around 1015pm! (: nice meetup with her! i think i'll be meeting her up soon again :D cheeeerss! (:
oh yea, on that day i met up with my turtle bro too! omgomg, it is definitely fun! talking with her for abt 3mins? although it is like such a short chat, we managed to make ourselves happy! thanks brother! hehe, turtle bro, LOVES! meet up during march den! miss ya!

i got a super cute bestest buddy! (: PS, i love you! wahahahas! remember to rest well for ur attachments! i love my buddy! (: LOVES!

went out with my brother and sister today! cheers, and i had bought those little gifts already! thanks to my sister for telling me what to buy as well! hehe! we bought bubble and food back home to eat! family is really LOVES! we had planned for our mum's birthday celebration! cheeerss! LOVESLOVES!

certain things had happened,
i do not wish to elaborate on that matter anymore.
alrights, dont make it sound so sad,
so this time,
leaving is a good thing and it is for everyone's good.
osh, i still need to thank you,
so thank you.

lily and anne :X

alrights,
takecare everyone!
LOVESSS! (:

forgive and forget! (:

2008-02-17T22:30:00.003+08:00

hey yoyo ppl, i am back to update my blog again! (:

today i am a happy lily because i met up with my bestest friend aka long lost sister, nana! cheeerss! we met to have our breakfast at Mcdonalds! we ate and chit-chat at the same time! wahahahas! so we took quite a long time to eat, but it is definitely fun and nice! after that we went hunting for present, what a big mission! this time nana decide what to buy, so we managed to hunt the present fast! yay! so after that, we went shopping!!!<3>
nana is super funny when i am going to buy a keychain for the frienship we bulit so far! hahahas, she keep on saying NO NO NO! hahahas, in the end, i still managed to buy it! (:
only ling-er,nana and anne are the only one with those special keychain as they are indeed the most special people who had appeared in my life during different time! (:

after walking around for hours, we went to buy bubble tea! OMG, i miss bubble tea and nana miss the donutssssssss! hahas, so she bought one even though she is very full! she just cant resist the temptation of donuts! so we sat down in one corner, chat, drink at the same time! then also arranged the present that we bought! after a while, we took the train to marsiling mrt station to meet up with the rest! (:

reached there and waited awhile for the rest to come, so we went to zx's house! so we sat there and talk! we reached there around 2pm but nana and me left around 3+pm cos we need to do something! so nana's parents send me home as well! thanksssssssssss! ((:
i become more lady i supposedddd :p

reached home and changed before going out to the temple to pray! so my uncle came and fetched us! we didnt spend a long time there so after that my auntie went to buy dinner for my grandma! so my cousin and uncle came my house for a short rest! wahahahas! less than 1hour time, they decided to go out again, my dad and mum and my 3 little siblings went! (:

so now here am i blogging and waiting for my mum to come back home!!! ((:
i love my family<3<3<3

i dont know is something weird or what, or can say the person is lucky!
whatever, things are okie now! (:

caden daddy, can you dont talk nonsense ah! i am not going to allow you to do something that i dont like :p cant blame, cos i am going to control your actions! i like the way you are as my wonderful, helpful, lovely, nice, sweet daddy! no need to do any EXTRA CHANGES ESPECIALLY... u know u know!!! i must also stop you from imagining too much things :D hahas, wahh! some many tasks need to be done just for caden daddy!
so you see, caden daddy! i really love you so here am i helping you :x
and plsssssss dont die because of something except for mummy okie! ^^
oh yea, must thank you seriously for telling me "forgive and forget" and been the one who understand the whole matter the most! THANKS!!!

alrights, thats all i think!
everyone enjoy (:
takecare & loves!

sereve gastric!

2008-02-14T22:15:00.008+08:00

i am suffering! )):

suffering until i feel like tearing away my stomach!

alrights, today i went to see a doctor because i was feeling very very terrible, and my stomach is super super pain! i feel like as if there is something biting it, pulling it, squeezing it! so i went to see a doctor with wanting to faint look! hahas, i even squad down a few times on my way there because i feel so horrible! like abit giddy, ears cannot hear anything clearly like that! HORRIBLE HORRIBLE! so when i reached there, the nurse said i looked very pale, so she helped me with the registration and i consulted the doctor in less than 5minutes time! so the doctor said that i had severe gastric and it is because i did not eat my meal regularly! he told me if this continues i will get stomach uclers, SCARY!!! so i the nurse helped me to hail the cab and off i went home! reached home, ate medicine, slept, eat lunch, then slp, wake up, eat medicine, eat dinner! oh gosh!

finally i came online! *tada* so i stayed at home for the whole day and my mum says i cannot go out since i am sick!

i missed the date with shuhui and tania!!! ): it is just because of the gastric pain i am suffering! nvm nvm, more will come! ^^ hope you guys enjoyed!!!

GASTRIC, dont come and find me again!

since sec 1 i got gastric, but that wonderful me took it like normal illness and dont really care! hahahas!

so last year, the pain is horrible! i still remember it is during the national day eve celebration!!! miss baey and nana and me took cab to national library! that time i still dont know it is gastric because i feel better after the medical oil that nana introduced to me!

this year, today! v-day / international friendship day, i got it again! luckily i consulted the doctor this time round and knew that it was severe gastric! so i shall take more care of myself now!

anw, my mum is so blur ah!!! she gave me eat the wrong medicine for almost 2mths? i eat until sick cos my mum say fa re liao! hahahas! my mum is so blur, but cute! ^^ i still love my mum!

i am a little moody i guess because something happened.

maybe i am sensitive, but i think my instincts proved i am right!

if thats the case, what am i going to do?

this thing is bothering me since Jan!

till now, i have not overcome it and i am feeling from bad to worse!

i did not tell anyone about it,

i keep it to myself all these time,

because i dont think anyone else will understand.

i hope things do get a little better at least,

i just hope everything continue to be fine.

i do not want because of this matter,

then it is the end of everything.

i am holding on to it still,

i strongly believe.

do you ?

i shall rest early today! x)

the pain faster go offffffffff!!!

takecare everyone, cheers!

LOVES! (:

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:

2008-02-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

GONG XI FA CAI!!! (:

alrights, i know this come abit late but still happy chinese new year again! hehe!
hope everyone enjoy it as well! cheers! x)

chinese new year was fun, nice and crazy! my family actually went to Sentosa twice, how funny can it be! hahas, alrights, SENTOSA GOT REALLY NICE NICE FLOWERS!!! i fall in love with all the flowers there :P! not only that, my aunties and uncles and of cos cousins came my house on sat, BOO! the house is omggggggg ren ren nao nao ah! hahahas! overall, chinese new year is fun! (: FAMILY IS DEFINITELY LOVESSSSSSSSSSSSS!

happy birthday to ltx on 10feb, and happy belated birthday to ltx on 11feb : DD hahas! cheeers!

more meet-ups with my friends again! x)
- shuhui, tania!
- christina!!!
- anne, faster sms me tell me when :D !!!!
- cien, van, anne as last time was a failure ah!!!
- caden daddy as he promised me to have lunch, sweet! >.<
- lovelyclique (not all though), going to zx's house this time! :DD (SJ is planning!)
- guanhui and xiaoxin!!!
- weeling, gary, serene after their EXAMS! hehe!!!
- lgy, my cousin as he promised to bring me for shopping =x
- jinger as i wanna give her a kit kat! :x
- michelle & gang, michelle will plan right : DD

CADEN DADDY! THANKSSSSSSS for getting so happy, high, excited with me! ^^ xiexie! hope you faster recover, then can go playplayplay! hehe! LOVE U DADDY! x)

SHUHUI QINGAIDE! everything willl be fine and look forward to what you are supposed to look! hahas, LOVESLOVESLOVES!

KID 2! TAKE CARE HOR!!! LOVES!!

CHRISTINA,
although i didnt pluck a sunflower, i took a picture of it! so this is for you :DD LOVESSSS!
BESTEST FRIEND FOREVER, LONG-LOST SISTER FOR LIFE! ((:

so everyone takecare, smile and enjoy!
happy chinese new year again! ^^
LOVES!

Random (:

2008-01-16T12:20:00.000+08:00

i am back to update my blog again (: recently i had been reading other people's blog (okie, i read almost everyday :x), however i found out that life could be so interesting, fragile, cruel ... ...

1) to my bestest buddy aka telepathy-mate, WEELING (ling-er)
we had been bestest buddy for erm... sec 3 till now, 6years for 2oo8! OMG, time flysssssss~ i really do miss those little days when we actually crapped, went cca together, went home and many many more! i do miss your mother as well =x hahas! (: well, thanks for playing a role in my life! my days are always (: with you around, though we hardly meet up, catch up, talk, i do still believe that our friendship is going strong! dont you agree? like what we often said, best friend no need to meet up like every single day to prove that their friendship last forever, it is just the heart and mind that matter, and they are the one which keep the friendship going strong! : D furthermore, we do share secrets :x i must thanks you there for listening to my complaints, nasty comments, and do give me advices on what should i do! i am really glad that we are still the bestest buddy after so many years! it would still continues... our story is never ending, i love you my buddy : D LOVES! (:

2) to my bestest friend aka long lost sister, CHRISTINA (nana)
2 years passed, we had been up and down together, i am glad that we braved through those storms and rains together! (Wheees) not only that, those little quarrels, those little cold wars that we used to have during our J1, and those seem to disappear during J2? hahas : D i am glad we pull through all those disasters together, and thats why our friendship is keep going strong! i am really thanks for being such an understanding friend, because you know i am super sensitive! a little changes, i could turn my mood to like OMGGG! sometimes i know it can really made you so angry, but you never scold me, yet talked nicely to me always! i am really thankful for that! arghh, thats why most of the times, i feel i am not a nice friend because you are really way to nice! thanks for all those motivation, helps, encouragement, you never fails to make me a little happy lily! oh yea, small = weak(i will remember it for life!) not only that, gossips never fail to be our main topic =x hahas, i just love crapping with you! our friendship will keep going strong, stronger... LOVESSSS!

3)to my bestest bestie aka superwoman, ANNE (LOVELY)
floorball yo! our friendship starts with floorball, and floorball is definitely fun with LOVELY! is a pretty sad thing that i only knew her this year! after knowing her, my life is a (:! As she is always there for me when i am down, and i am always there for her! (: we do always sms-ing, talk to each other about our happenings, even during school times! oh dear, i remember we used to have very late dinner on friday! furthermore, i do still remember she always tell me that i had improve my floorball skills especially when i feel so lousy! not only that, i remember we used to complain about the things that we are unhappy about to each other as to make us feel better! : DD LOVELY, must believe that o1o1o7 will always last! I LOVE YOU, HUGS! LOVES!

4)to my dearest ijo37, JinLong (Leader!), FangWen (ACK!), LinKai (Wrapper!), Christina(Nana!) (3R3R3R!)
although the days when there is PW is omg, totally SO STRESSS!! but we overcome it! HOHO, with the lame jokes that are always provided by JinLong, with the wonderful help that are provided by FangWen, with the resource-pro LinKai that never fails to save us (nana and me) when we are always doing pw, and of course with the songs that Nana always sings to us! i did contribute by laughing loudly as well! hehe : D alrights, the 4 of them are really the ones who allows me to talk without brains as they would correct me, guide me and lead me! OH NO! they are really so great : D to be frank, i do always go to them when i meet any problems as i know they are always there to give me many helping hands and i am abit problematic :x ! I do not actually hide anything from the 4 of them, except some only nana knows cos she is girl girl ma : D in my heart, the 4 of them do stand equally, with no tall and short : DD hahas! not only that, i cry, i laugh, i shout, i scream, i angry, i went crazy in front of them! they are always so understanding and forgiving as i am always emo emo emo! hahas, so stupid ah come to think of it! hahahas! oh yea, the weird thing is i do always chat with them till very late of the night! HAHAS, 3R3R3R! i love 3R song : DD alrights, i must thanks them for stepping into my life, and i do love them alot alot! 3R! yea, we are all green rangers! LOVES!

5)to my dearest LOVELYclique aka 12Wonderers! Christina (nana), JinLong (Leader), FangWen (ACK), LeShan, LinKai (Wrapper), ShuJuan&ZhongXun (Couple), XinFang (Kat), HuiYang, Vincent, Clarence (Sherzzz)
this group of people is really wonderful as we are always late dinner after school! i dont know why, but our dinner always end so late? hahas, till now i still cant figure out! maybe nana and i do figured out? although the clique is a super big group and inside the clique, there are 3different PW groups! how cool is it : D furthermore, the favourite outing is BOWLING i supposed! even though, now we seldom meet up, but we do still keep in contact via sms, msn! thats great and wonderful! LOVELYclique, LOVES! i know i always say this, but still i love LOVELYclique! (:

6)to my LOVEones! Shuhui (QAD), Brenda (Mummy), Caden (D'maid), Jinger (SLP!), HuiZe (Teacher), Tania (Lover), JingJie (Dearie), HanInn (Sweet), Ain (Clown), ChunLi (TeddyBear), YokeLing (Egg Yoke)
those people who really bring me with joy outside my school life! wheeeees, i love every single one of you! : D hugs to you guys as you guys make me a little happy lily outside school : DD thanks Shuhui for always showing me the map and of cos the closest one to me among them! : D thanks Brenda and Caden for being so nice and sweet to me, of cos they are super understanding! they shower me with lots of love!!! thanks Jinger for listening to my nonsense always and sending me songs! thanks HuiZe for the one giving everyone a shoulder to lean on! Thank HanInn who really talk so much to me and make me happy! Thanks JingJie for being a nice dearie although u didnt come so many outing ah : D thanks Ta-Ni-Ah for treating me as a guniea pig! Thanks Clown for sending me songs and listening to my school complaints : D Thanks Teddy Bear for letting me to sing the Teddy Bear song as and when i like : D Thanks for letting me to know egg yoke, the latest friend that i know : D so i do not really know her well, but soon soon, well, i just know she will vomit lots of blood while talking to me! i LOVE THEM! you guys really added so much colors to my life! LOVESSSS! (:

7)to Kid2 aka Coach, GARYuen (Shigehisa), VincentYip (Mr Nonsense), Eddie (Chessmate), Yusi (GF), Eric (BRA-DA), Yiwen, Shufen, ViVi (Da Ding Dong), ShiFang, HuiFang (Siao Char Bo), Sam (Ai Ren Guo), Cindy, XinYu, YunXuan (XiaoMeiNv), Lester(Bestfriend!!!)
I get to know these people during different timing in the 2 years in JC! they are really great friends in JC although we are all different class, and i do not really know them well! however, we do joke, crap and talk nonsense : DD hahas, wheeeees! JC life is so fun with you guys around especially YuSi! the girl who never fails to say HI and i do remember our old floorball days! floorball miss you, lily misses yusi more : DD SAY LOVES TO THOSE PEOPLE IN IJC! LOVES!

8)to my floorballLOVES! vanessa (Gullible Junior), Ci'En (Turtle Bro), Anne (Lovely), Michelle Tong (Lovely), Iris (Wonderful), Aza (Agar Agar), Natasha (Nata De Coco), Siti
thanks you guys for making floorball such a wonderful CCA by bringing so much joy, fun and laughter : D Never fails to make me feel that floorball is fun as ... Although the trainings are always tough, with the super high timing that we are supposed to meet for our morning runs, i still do love floorball : D it is because you guys are in that CCA! although now there is no more CCA for some of us, however, the love that we used to have in Floorball would never ends! LOVES!

9)to Ryan (Hungry Monster), Kelvin (happyfruit), Christina (Nana)
stop gossiping! : DD hey yo! nana + kel + ryan : D always my canteen mates! we always eat our meals together and never fails to see ryan eating his second round! HORRIBLE! but the weird thing is he dont grow fat! remember the horrible fight with kel? oh wells, it is all over! we are still happy friendsssss : DD oh yea, ONG AH!!! u are in army for a number of days? do you miss your computer? hahas, dont forget you still got BA BING in my handsss : D update you more via SMS! we can really talk everything under the big bright sun =x oh yea, kelvin going in hmmm, in months time? so fast : DD the 2 botaks who grew hair are becoming botak again! cool ah! they really lightened up my LIFE! LOVESS to them! (:

10)to the 12b-eess! (both intakes!)
12b-eess, IJC seem to be the best school with you guys around! : DD those who never fails to bring joy to the class by saying lame things, talking nonsense thing, worse is being a king in the class! hahas! i would remember those little outings, those celebrations and chalet times that we sharedddd : DD those are really sweet memories which make me feel omg, love! not only that, still remember the separation time, when it is really heart breaking and sad, however, we managed to overcome it and not only that, we still do keep in touch with one another! Allena yoyo! when is the outing? (okie, linkai will plan it!) hahas, i do really love 12b and the class is really so fun with all the different fun, laughters, joy that we shared everyday with jokes! i supposed most of the jokes are like lame lame one, but it is still funny! 12b-eeesss is really LOVE! i love all the beeess in the class, Keep in Contact Everyone : D LOVES! (:

11)to bestest boy-friend aka xiaoxin, guanhui KORRRRR!
the 2 boys who never fails to make me happy by just simple chat : D it is because they are really nice people to chat with : D especially when someone demand to be promoted to my kor so he could teach me duno what : D hahas, xiaoxin is the more quiet one but he is lame and crappy if you know him well! hahas, i still do remember the times when the 3 of us would talk, and they teach me LMAO! hahas =/ they really add on so much happiness to my life with those nonsense chats (: F.I.R would continue to go strong! LOVES

12)to ShiQi meimei, Anita MeiMei, PeyLih MeiMei, Poixin (Ultrawoman!), LongYun (Kaixinguo), YanPing, Alvin (LaoDa), TimJang, Jason Kor, Raymund (Mok Zai), Daven, Vera, Amanda&Natalie (NuEr`Mei), Ginny, ZhenHao, WeiPin, PeiYing, SuYin, Jackson, others who i know from riverside!
those people who i met during my secondary school life and till now they are still close to my heart! (: those people who really warmed me up with just simple hello (especially PoiXin and Tania), their Hello is really SUPER SUPER LOUD ONE! not only that, they also give me encouragement when i fall! thanksssss girlsssss! furthermore, timjang is the one who we really share secrets in our secondary school life, and SJAB made me know her better! and also that kxg who never fails to say BSL BSL BSL! hahas, crazy : D thanks YP for giving suggestions on what am i supposed to wear and we do talk alot of things under the sun : DD hahas! Mok Zai who is always nice! Jason and Daven, the brothers! both are nice : D Vera, Natalie, Amanda all came from the same group as they are part of their pigletsss : DD they are real sweet girls who you can never fails to be happy after talking to them! Still remember how ginny, zhenhao, weipin they all talk! it is super funny! hahas, PeiYing and SuYin from the St.John training! Jackson who never fails to surprise me with all his SMS! hahas! (: I LOVE THEM!
i did not forget knowing Regina MeiMei who really can talk so much to me in the past : D i do miss those chatting and the songs that you will send me! : D ZhiJun the sai nu er who never fails to say SAI MA~~~ hahas! Michelle Nu Er who never fails to call me LAO MAAAAA~ and also Sarah Sai Mei who always give me a nice smile when i met her : DD the Veron Meimei who never fails to surprise me with the piercing near her lips! omg, i got a shock when i really look at it : D oh no, i do miss them (:

13)to my dearest partner (nadiah), hasanah (Gigi), Yiwen (Mosquito : D), LingKwee (OrhJiao!), GaryKoh, Marvin (LaoPa), LaiSheng (Doctor), Jazzreel (NuEr), Serene (NuEr), Angeline, Amaluna and others from 5/1!!!
You guys are simply the best who never fails to cheer me up with the uniquely 5/1 spirits that we always haveeeeeee! the 3 years were really the fun days when we are stress about our examinations! however, we still never forget to ask miss chithra we bring us go walk walk : DD not only that still got the wonderful farm that we decorated for our class, OMG, it is real beautiful : DD hahas! after 5years, the class spirits is still good : D I LOVE 5/1! LOVES!

LASTLY, i would always want to thanks my family! hoho! PAPA, MAMA, MEIMEI, MEIMEI, MEIMEI, DIDI! : D they really make me omgggg, loveddd and always there for me! 24/7 : DD they never fails to cheer me up with those silly actions my siblings do and my little naughty brother who trys to BOO me always but fails! hahas! furthermore, those shopping times with my mama : DD hahas! those buying me food when i want, all thanks to my papa! hahas, happy family! (: i really LOVE so much : D
furthermore, i also love all my grandparents, uncles, aunties, cousinsss
LOVESLOVESLOVESLOVESLOVESLOVES!

I would like to thanks everyone of you guys who made my life so HOHO, fun! : D
You guys made my life colourful : DD especially those people who are so close to me!
Nevertheless, those people who i knew, but are not that close, you guys are not forgotten by me as it is always fun knowing you people! : DD

alrights, i am done with my post : D
takecare everyone and goodbye : DD
LOVESSSSS (:
PS: Sorry i am those forgetful kind, so pardon me if i forget anyone of you guys (: Overall, I love all my friendsss : DD

oh yea, JinLong see that,
I LOVE JINLONG (:

2007-12-31T00:25:00.000+08:00

YOZ people! i'm not lihui. but lihui's maid.
haha.
here to clear some dust before people start sneezing when they come here.

2007 is coming to an end. she said that she doesnt want 2008 to come.
because... A's results is coming and she would be crying.
friends, please console her and give her more confidence!!!

hehe..
okies. let me self-intro abit. i met this lady during the chalet about 2 weeks ago?
she's the i wont say talkative, but rather outgoing kind. which i was quite surprised.
and she know me as the maid of the chalet. hehe.
okies. i think i'm talking more about myself. i'm supposed to be the mysterious one.

ho ho ho.
whatever it is.
merry xmas and happy new year to all friends out there!!!

SLP<3

2007-12-19T23:29:00.001+08:00

THIS POST IS DEDICATED FOR MY SLP<3, JINGER!

you are missed by me x)

C.H.A.L.E.T! x)

2007-12-19T15:30:00.000+08:00

CHALET IS FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN with shuhui QAD, brenda mummy, anzel teacher, tania lover, jinger slp, ain clown, sweet haninn, D'maid caden!! x) i am hahahas, going crazy for being so happy ^^! we had BBQ and of cos steamboat! o.O! cool eh : DD furthermore, we watched movies at midnight! hahahas, the movie which i forget the name, is super omg, scary and disgusting! hahas, i am so scared that i screamed! hohoho, i still cant watch scary movies! after that they actually watched the DATE movie! it was super funny but... some parts was dots! not only that, i also went to the beach with QAD, shuhui! we just walked around and pick some shuhui named as "YOU DE MEI DE", which is sea shells! HAHAHAS! well, the 3days2nights passed very very fast, x) so after the thing, we cabbed home to rest a while and we went partyworld after that! after the partyworld, they went for dinner while shuhui and me walked home and chatted alot. somehow, somewhat! hahas, i always talked nonsense : DD alrights, i love them and i really love hanging out with them! (: oh yea, i know a new friend, CADEN! hahas, SHE IS COOL i tell you guys : DD so she is the D'maid! : DD! so i should spend time hanging out with them, just like how shuhui said to me before my A starts! I LOVE YOU GUYS! MANY MANY LOVES TO MY LOVELYpeople! (:

so now i am sick ): fever, sorethroat and abit flu! hoho! so i should rest at home today (: jl is crazy, ask ack and me to dl gb and played with him! hahas, he is indeed crazy! furthermore, he asked me whether do i know gb or not! OMG, he is crazy! of cos i know : DD GB IS A GAME (:

hey hey nana! we actually talked so much during the chalet! HAHAHAS, it was really funny that make me laugh like crazy! : DD hahas, furthermore, we chatted so much other things as well! hahas, we are always crazy when talking about the past! HAHAHAS! but she is definitely LOVES<3

so i am done with blogging! everyone take care and goodbye! i shall go and watch my show now! hahahas, LOVES<3

random x)

2007-12-11T19:45:00.000+08:00

1. days are pretty good for me except for sometimes i feel i am really rotting, which is horrible!

2. meet up with my bestest buddy is coming soon, cos she will be ending her CT very soon (: jia you buddy, and of cos LOVES! the long long delay due to my outing with my friends, so i am at fault for not able to go out with her monday and tuesday! nvm, we are going to have more dates after her CT! (: LOVES!

3. outings with secondary school classmates is also soon, but i need to plan about it! OMG, bigg for me!

4. meet up with jangggg xDDD i miss that girl, we used to talk so much in the past! must really meet up and talk more :DD LOVES!

5. chalet which is 16-18dec with the LOVELY people that i love! (: i am looking forward to it! x) [shuhui, i am looking forward to it, are you happy?]

6. meet up with LOVELYpeople this saturday to prepare for chalet thing, should be YAY but quite worried as i dont know such things! but nvm, got them, i should be just taking and writing! [shuhui, you have to admit that i haveee the nicest handwriting as compared to yourssss!]

7. i wanna meet up with fbLOVES, shall really asked them because LOVELYanne is working, GULLIBLEjunior also working, AGARagar should be free, brother turtle i supposed is free as well, WONDERFULiris must ask, WAHpiangggg NADIAH also must ask! whatever is it, i miss them (:

8. i need to meet up with that SAI SAI SAI SAI DI~~ hahas, must advance tell him becauseee he is a busy man! hahas, must meet up with my BESTEST BOY-FRIEND, XIAOXIN, who is also sai sai sai di good brother! ^^! we shall have loads of fun :DD

9. bowling outing was fun with LOVELYclique, although not all present, and i did not play as well! it is nice to hang out with them! ^^ furthermore, i am crapping with them! xDD omg, i love them : DD

10. MEET UP WITH ALLENA! hahas, i think linkai is planning it! (: great great! finally we got a chance to meet up! LOVES! i am looking forward to it! x)

11. hoho, going to ask our chairperson to plan an outing before those b-ess<3 going to ns when jan come! hoohoo, i will get to see 12b-eess aagain! omg, it is definitely LOVES!

12. went to the library to return the 13books, i did not read all of them as some are omg, the first few pages after i read, then i am off to lala land :DD! not only that, i borrowed more books from the library again! was looking at those cute polar pictures with KAT on the way home from bugis~ to admiratly! ate Mcdonald breakfast with her, chatted with her abt some matters, come to a conclusion! hahas, but whatever, i shall try to care less :x hahas! LOVES kat! ^^

13. must meet up with jl! hahas, guitar, swim or run! either one or all :DD i am smart for the first time because i managed to do something! (: man and woman are indeed different ah, hoho!

14. chatted with my friends and realised things are getting so complicated, and i could not get myself out of the EMO-ing period! things are getting out of my control and i could not do anything to make it better or what. what had happened to happen, i also could not turn back time and stop all those things from happening. furthermore, it dont involved me, all i want is to see all my friends are happy with each other! so i am going to be happy, because i am going to care less, i am going, i am going! not that that, i shall try to control my emotions to prevent myself from being so emotional! being too emotional is not good, it just make me feeling worse, helpless! so i am going to be strongg x) well, just hope all my friend are happy and less conflicts! x)
thanks to those who really understand and try to make me feel better by helping, listening, giving advices, seriously i am so thankful to those people! a big thanks to kat, wrapper, jl, ack, clown, fj and of cos my family (:! thanks so much to them, my life is better after all their help x)
clown: i am really okieokieokieokieokieokie! ^^ see that! (: even if i am sad, i would tell you de, no worries! hoho, dumb clown is not dumb for most of the times ah xDD i love clown! ^^

15. something happened yesterday due to my stupid-ness, random-ness, crazy-ness. heartless! i am simply uttering so much nonsense, but like a second later.. i regretted so much! hoho, i am glad everything is okie! seriously i love you as a friend and letss be friends for life :DD

16. recently chatted with alot of my friends! omg, they really make me so happy (: a simple chat can really make me happy (:

17. time that are spend with my dear siblings is great! they are always so lovely, i love my siblings lots! (:

18. i love my family and my friends (:

19. i will always be a happy lihui (:

jinger*slp<3 and lk*wrapper! i blogged x) SLP<3, the day had come, happy ma? xDD not only that, wrapper, please also faster blog:D

i think thats all.!
blog more next time x)
takecare everyone (:
LOVES, and be happy!^^

^^

2007-12-02T17:40:00.000+08:00

YOYOYOYO! finally i am back to update my blog! hahas, alrights, i miss my blog at times, but i am just too lazy to keep it update! the lazy lazy me xDD!

firstly, WEELING BESTEST BUDDY and VIVI DA DING DONG, i blogged since you guys asked, so cannot say anything more le okie xDD
i miss bestest buddy, it has been a long long time that we last meet up to chat chat and shopping! but whatever is it, our friendship is still going strong, i love the feelings<3! BUDDY BUDDY, please welcome my presence 24/7 soon since A is over! hahas, my turn to pester you almost everyday! hehe ^^
VIVI DA DING DONG! I MISSSSSS YOU OKIE! no more school, so i cannot see this da ding dong anymore! hahas, if not i can start asking you nonsense questions again! hahas, shall hang out one fine day okie ^^ hahas! MISSES! (:

went for 12b chalet, it is really OMG SUPER GREAT! i just 12b-eeessss<3 never fails to make me laugh at all the crazy things that they really do or talk, they are simply crazy! had really a good laugh when chatting with daph and nana, and the weird thing is des is there LISTENING with his small ears! HAHAS, but it is really fun la!! arghh, 12b 12b 12b! hahas, made something for mr ang too! hahas, because of his B'DAE! ^^ we are indeed a nice class :x!! argghhhh, although i didnt stayed for the whole chalet, but i really enjoyed myself during the time when we spend together! i misss 12b seriously! we shall hang out often in order to stop me from missing any one of the b-eees<3 hahas! 12b is LOVE!<3!!

worked for only 3days with KAT! hahas, it is super tiring! i cant stand the pain of my back especially the last day, and poor KAT had to help me carry my things! hahas, thanks KAT! not only that, i must thanks my leader, jl for carrying my bag on our way back home, omgomg, thanks so much! we made 6 new friendssss ^^ thats great! furthermore, the ladies there are super nice and sweet too!<3 argh, it is really great working with them although the days are short! hehe, shall keep in contact with them if possible! hahas, i still want my photos taken with the clientssss ((: hehe!

went out with LOVELYanne and WONDERFULnana on anne's last paper! the journey to harbour front is horrible, i feel like dying! hahas, i managed to be okay after alighting the bus! ^^ *winks* so we ate our lunch and we actually helped anne to shop for her prom dress! hahas, managed to see only like 2 to 3 nice prom dresss! hahas, took photos with them too!! ^^ alrights, shall invite LOVELYanne to my house to play with my little brother soon! LOVES<3

OUT with LOVELYclique after our last paper! hahas, we had our mealssss at seoul garden! hahas, i was eating hotdogs only! hahas, i think JL got phobia of eating hotdogs! hahahas, had fun eating as well as had fun taking pictures! hahas, the LOVELYclique is always so LOVELY that makes me cant stop loving each and everyone of them la!!! hahas, the 12WONDERSSSSS! we shall be LOVELYclique for lifeeee, LOVES<3

went out with my siblings during the weekends! hahas, thats wonderful and we actually went to see the DORA THE EXPLORER! hahas, cute cute! hahas, my little brother really enjoyed the show! hahas, it is always great to spend time with my siblings as they are super lovely! took alot alot of photos, and i love all those photos! HAPPY BELATED B'DAE TO MY YOUNGEST SISTER TOOOO! I LOVE MY FAMILY! LOVESLOVESLOVESLOVES!<3

chatted with fungus(ACK) yesterday! omg, we chatted alot alot online and we really never like keep things from each other! he is like one online journal that can make me speak whatever i want! he told me something too :p okie, we acutally trust each other and tell each other our own feelings! and hey, come to think of it, i am really thankful to find a friend like you! you're seriously too nice! ACK! (:

chatted with that shuhui (QAD) just now and got a shock over one thing that she told me! hahas, i really got a shock! we got chalet that is coming real soon! OMGOMG, going to enjoy myself with my LOVESone and i promised to enjoyed myself to the max man! i love love love the group of LOVESone that i had always! you guys are definitely LOVESSSS<3

chatted with alot of people tooo, really had a nice time chatting with all my friendsss (: i love all my friends, i really really do! ^^ not only that, there is still more outings to come, ZOO with fbLOVES, SHOPPING TRIPS with friends, LIHUI'S house for LOVELY, 24/7PESTERING of my buddy, OUTINGS WITH SECONDARY FRIENDS, OUT WITH ALLENA&12b(since long we wanna meet up), and many many more! ^^ i just loveeeeee my family, all my friends and my TOYS! hahas, thats nonsense! i love i love i love! ^^

now currently waiting for my mum to come back and we will be going down to expo with my uncle tooo<3!
thats all about it,
so everyone take care,
remember to be happy!
LOVES<3

sick >.<

2007-10-05T20:20:00.000+08:00

i am sick again, and that is so irritating. i want to get recover fast and hope that my toes infection will get better as well. i had been wearing slippers to school this week, it was pretty cooling ah! hahas, well, if not my toes will be worse! >.<

chatted with my buddy like many days/weeks ago! we were talking about serious stuff, it was rather a heart-to-heart buddy chat and i really enjoyed it! thanks buddy along! oh ya, buddy come back from shanghai without me knowing ah! you this buddy, good la! come back liao den forget me is it! i am going to ignore you then you know! well, i still love my bestest buddy! (:

something is better to be left unsaid. the reason is because i do not wish for any unhappiness, tension, coldwar, fight, or i do not want to be so sensitive. sometimes i would rather avoid than facing the reality. i know i am such a loser for doing such things, but i cant bring myself to be so strong and firm. i know i would most probably teared if i am going to do anything, i just feel so emo recently. i find it hard to accept the emo me as well, i just cant be that joyful and happy-go-lucky, i wonder what is wrong. the emo me has really caused me alot of troubles and unhappines as it makes me to tear much more easily and i feel that i am really so omg, super useless to cry over silly things. however i am still afraid that i would went crying for one day, i just pray that i wont do that. for now, i just do not wish to say anything to avoid any problems to arise.

why would the person who hurt you always be the one that you love and care for? i dont understand, and that does not mean that you should not love or care for someone anymore. the reason is because i am being troubled by something, i do tell myself that i should not be so sensitive and things will be better if i look from a different point of view. however, i failed to do it, or you can say that i cant do it. so for now, i was rather confused on what should i do, i do not wish to think about it as well.

things get better, you will be happy for it. i cant deny that i was happy for it as this is what i wished for along. however, it caused another things to occur because of it. so what should i do or what should i choose? alrights, i dont know it as well. sigh, lets hope things get better before i become real crazy. i wish for the best, and of cos happiness!

ONE LIFE,
LIVE IT!
how far do you agree with this statement?

alrights, just hope things get better! everyone takecare and goodbye (:

LOVELYclique<3

2007-09-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

today had my LOVELY lunch at a LOVELY place with LOVELY people of the LOVELYclique!<3<3<3!
Everything was so wonderful at that point of time, i really find myself loved by these people, there are really the reason why i am happy most of the times. maybe at time, we might be fighting over things, saying this and that, complaining this and that, but i still strongly believe that we love each other! nevertheless, there are the ones always by my side for me, listening to me, go crazy with me, eat with me, play with me, and of cos cheer me up! i am really thankful to find friends like you guys in my life, it is totally a gift!

this is specially for SHERMAINE aka my HAO JIE MEI! hey pretty girl(my princess), you know me so well that a little change in my mood you also know! argh, thats SCARY! eeeyeeer, then i cannot hide anything from you liao ah! hahas! but hey, i really want to thank you for always tolerating my nonsense, my crazy-ness! you never fail to make me smile whenever i am real real sad, you are so funnny la!! not only that, you never fail to tell me this and that, encourage me when i am depresssss, make me to think positively with your super positive thinking! i am really thankful that i found jie mei like you in my life! (omg, i am not lesbian! HAHAHAHAS!)! stop eating so much cheese, later you grow fat fat then i dont want you as my PRINCESS liao ah! hahas!

well, i just LOVE my friends around me so much, not only that i SUPER SUPER LOVE MY FAMILY!<3<3<3

i am high high high because i chatted with kid 2! hahas, i was like omg, happy till i am like siao char bo! he was omg, super kid! he also say the same thing as me!!! not only that, it had been a long long time that we last chat with each other! we like got so much things to say at that point of time, cant stop typing!!! both of us like the new channel 8, 9pm show! hahas, see see, we got the same taste! hahas, KID 2 IS SO CUTE! ARGH, I LOVE KID 2!!!<3<3<3

OH YA, my dearest ultrawoman`bestest girl-friend, thanks for helping me to take the pictures today! it is so sweet and nice of you! argh, i love my ultrawoman! shall hang out one day, LOVESLOVESLOVES!<3

i shall end today's post with a picture(my LOVELYclique<3! it is my first time doing that! hahas, excited! LOVES<3

i didnt want to do or to feel this way ...

but in the end,
i failed.

random! (:

2007-09-18T18:37:00.000+08:00

i used up the last token ...

i just cant control myself ...

LOVELYclique<3<3<3 outing tml,
it has been a long long time that we went out! (:
thanks them for being so LOVELY always,
i just LOVE them! (:

i know this is random,
but I LOVE MY CLASS,
cheers! (:

I MISS MY BESTEST BUDDY AT THIS MOMENT,
i got so much to say to her! argh!
BUDDY BUDDY, LING-ER, LING-ER! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!

NOT ONLY THAT,
I MISS
ALL MY FRIENDS!
LOVES<3!

i need a new token ...

can anybody give me one ...

LOVES<3

2007-09-09T03:10:00.000+08:00

I AM HERE TO UPDATE !!! ^.^ !

firstly, i wanna to thanks everyone who wish me happy b'dae, no matter is sms, friendster, msn or face-to-face! argh, so much thanks thanks thanks!<3 hahas! now i shall thanks those who gave me things (clar aka shermaine jiemei, you shall see your name below soon! hahas)
thanks to nana for your wonderful made card, that card is filled with memories and i love it so much! not only that, thanks for your meaningful mirror, i love it so much too ((: LOVES!
thanks to my lovely anne for the card, i almost teared when i read the content inside the card and thank you for making me feeling so loved always and will be there always when i need someone! (: LOVES!!
thanks to my dear gullible junior(Vanessa) and also my dear turtle bro(ci'en)! hahas, thanks for the 2 nice and sweet chocolates and also the very very special card that you guys made! hahas, now i can know how useful straws are! you guys are definitely LOVES! (:
hey my beloved JIEMEI, your photo card is the most unique de ah!! i know you must have spend alot of time doing the photo by editting and printing and writing! argh, thanks for your photo card that you gave and indeed it is real nice knowing you! thanks for your grape biscuit as well, it is special that i never see it before until you give me! thanks jiemei, LOVES! (:
thanks juanny and zhongxun for that present! hahas, i would never place it out and let anyone see! hahas, it is so funny when i saw it myself too! hahas, thanks for your present and card too! ^^ LOVES!
thanks to my clown(ain), brenda(mummy), huize(teacher), jinger(SLP<3), tania(lover) and shuuhi(QAD)! thanks for the super big card that you guys had made for me, i got a shock to see it when i came back home! thanks! (: LOVES!
hey, vincent soh! thanks for your ultraman keychain ah! hahas, it is more like a bear than a keychain! hahas, thanks for that! (: LOVES!
thanks to happyfruit(kelvin)! hahas, thanks for that milo! you allow me to be champion for that day! hahas, more gossips to go? hahas! thanks!!(:
thanks to leader jinlong and hungry monster ryan for that chocolate! hahas, still want to act secretive in front of me!!! hahas, i was shocked at that moment but i am happy (: thanks for that! ((:
LASTLY, THANKS MY BESTEST BUDDY! hahas, i shall pester you everyday after my As! argh, i missed the chanced of going back to school on teachers' day! arghhh!!! thanks buddy for being so nice always, LOVES! (:
most importantly, again i had grow one year older and that makes me to love my family even more! I JUST LOVE MY FAMILY!<3. thanks them for giving me their love and concern always!(: and always buy me whatever i want! LOVESLOVESLOVES!(:

alrights, shall do the test that was
tagged by allena =D
(sorry that i did it before prelims 2 =P)
list out ur top 5 birthday presents u wish for:

a) HAPPYfamily<3

b) HAPPYfriends<3

c) HAPPYme<3

d) Everything went smoothly forever! ^.^

e) HEALTHYfamily,friends&me<3

1.the person who tagged u is:

allenaaaa x)

2.ur relationship w her is:

laoda&laoxiao aka f4 mates xDD

3. ur 5 impressions of her:

a) cheerful!

b) crappy!

c) smart!

d) crazy!

e) trustworthy!

4.the most memorable thing she had done for u:

perhaps the card that she drew before she went to ajc ;'(

5.the most memorable words tt she had said to u:

the blog entries that she had written when she was deciding where she should go!

6. if she becomes your lover, u will?:

hahas, love her? but i am not lesbian xDD

7.if she's ur lover,what she has to improve on:

to have more confident in doing well for things! ^.^

8.if she becomes ur enemy,u will?

shall wait for the day to come then decide x)

9.if she becomes ur enemy,the reason is:

i dont know xD

10.the most desire thing you would like to do for her now is?

encourage her! ('',)

11.your overall impression of her:

crazy! funny! smart!

12. how do you think ppl ard u will feel abt u?

super mood swings! hmmm, cheerful and crazy?

13.the character u love abt urself is:

being crazy!

14.on the contrary,what charcter u hate abt urself:

always look at the negative side of everything! low confidence! not independent! indecisive!

15.the most ideal person i would like to be:

when i was happy!

16.for the ppl who cared & liked u,say smthg to them:

first, i would thanks my family for their love, care and concern always! although i always so hot tempered, so sot, you guys didnt fail to forgive me always! furthermore, thanks both my parents for giving such a stress-free life, they always did not ask me to excel but just to do the best i can is enough! hahas, no worries ah mother, i wont go to mental hospital de! hahas! not only that, i still got my 4 lovely, cute and fun-loving siblings! they never fail to make me feel that they are always there for me! i love them! (: argh, i love my family seriously and i want them to be happy and healthy always! LOVES!

next, i would like to thanks all my friends! thanks for giving me those concern whenever i am down, thanks for listening to my nonsense and complains always! not only that, you guys tolerate my crazyness and stupidness that could actually make you guys go crazy with me! thanks for all that, i appreciated it so much! LOVES! (:

lastly, i would like to thanks everyone again! words cant always express my thanks that i had for you guys! i just wanna to say that i really love all of you all so much! LOVESLOVESLOVES!

17.pass this quiz to 10 ppl tt u wish to know how they feel abt u.

1) weeling*bestest buddy!

2) christina*bestest bestie!

3) vanessa*dearest gullible junior!

4) ci'en*dearest turtle bro!

5) kid2!

6) shiqi*mei mei!

7) jinger*SLP<3!

8) anzel*teacher!

9) brenda*mummy

10) ain*clown!

who's n.o 2 having relationship with:

hahas, jessie? hahas!

is n.o9 a female/male:

female!

if n.o 1 & 10 be tgt,will it be a gd thing:

the day will never come! if not my bestest buddy will go crazy xDD

how abt n.o 3&4:

hahas, as in goodfriends? they are already goodfriends! (:

what is n.o 2 studying abt:

science (: < SAME AS ME!!!

when was the last time u'd chatted with n.o 3:

a week+ ago!

what kind of music does n.o 8 like?

all nice songs!

n.o 6 has any siblings?

yes! 2 sisters and 1 brother(hope i remember correctly)!

will u woo n.o 3?

of cos no ah!

how abt n.o7?

she is already mine xDD

is n.o 4 single?

yes!! (:

surname of n.o 5:

hahas, PIG!

what's the hobby of n.o 5:

running!

where's n.o 3 studying at:

ijc =D

have u try developed feelings for n.o 8?

hahas, hmmmm, teacher-student relationship! =.=

where does n.o9 live?

woodlands!

what colour does n.o4 like?

hmmm, orange?

is n.o 1&3 best friend?

nope, they do not know each other!

does n.o 7 like n.o 2?

dont know as they do not know each other!

how do u know n.o 2?

in ijc's first 3 mths and become bestest bestie after that :D

does n.o 5 has pet?

yea!

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alrights, just less than 24hours and it shall be the start of prelims 2! argh, i feel so dead! )):

oh ya, good morning!
so takecare and goodbye(:

LOVES!

2007-08-10T16:25:00.000+08:00

i am back to update my blog ppl! i think this blog is going to rot so soon if i dont find time to keep it updated! hahas, well, i will try my best to keep it updated! ^^v

firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! i know it is abit late, but i really really love singapore! *I LOVE SINGAPORE!*

secondly, floorball A div has ended! it is fun and tiring, but nevertheless, i really really do love playing fb with my lovely friends there! hahas, we shall all play fb after A levels! FB is love, IJ whoosh! (:

thirdly, my dear gullible junior, vanessa! hahas! as promised, i am here to update my blog! HAHAS, do takecare of yourself and please dun over stress yourself okie! hahas, i love you! takecare! LOVES!

alrights, school is still the same, just loads and loads of homework coming towards US! hahas, so many homework need to be done almost every single day! so i just have to love those homework so that they can make me happy! ^^v! hahas!

national day eve, our class had lots fun by going to little india to explore more things out there! HAHAS, it was fun touring ard with my class finding this and that! hahas, the weather was hot and it makes me feel so sticky! hahas, we took class photos and print them out! HAHAS, i just love my class so so so much! 12Bee is LOVE! (: LOVES!
after that, we went for a mini class gathering when we had our lunch with miss baey, OUR GP tutor! hahas, the lunch was nice because i ate it with my lovely classmates! hahas, then 13 of the 12Bee went to CSC for bowling! hahas, it was really fun there as we cheered and screamed like crazy! we took a grp photo, thats LOVES! oh ya, i saw my primary school DM there! hahas, took a photo with him as well! hahas!

oh ya, chatted with miss baey that day as well! hahas, she said things that make me feel so omg, i dont know how to describe! i agree with what she says, and i love 12B so much! LOVES! 12Bee is like unique5/1, and unique5/1 is just like 12B! i cant deny that i super love this 2 class!, LOVES!

I MISS MY BESTEST BUDDY! KOH WEELING! really thanks for being such a great buddy all along! i think i would have die and cry like no one biz if i dont ever meet such a great buddy like you! thanks for making me feeling so not stressful when i am stress! you dont necessary need to be my side, in my class or what, just photos in my phone, neos in my book, sms in my inbox makes me so fortunate to have a buddy like you! HAHAS, LOVES! Takecare and good luck for your exams ah! LOVES!

-HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO
(july) sereneKOH!, daphneDING!, ryanONG!, jianwen!, laisheng!, xiaoshu!, myra!
(august) my sister!<3, jinlong!
- HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO
(august) vanessa!, poixin!, leshan!, faizal!, gengyuan!, alvin!, kelvin!, huiyang!, my LITTLE bro!<3
*i hope i didnt miss out anione birthday! i am afraid i might forget to wish you guys! so if i ever did, come here and you will see it! (:
--end--

well,
everyone takecare
and
goodbye!
(:

2007-07-08T19:00:00.000+08:00

hello people i am back from my floorball camp! the camp is good and fun!

and yesterday is greatgreatgreat! i scored my first ever goal during a training match!!! the ball flew from my area over to opponent's area! i admit i get so excited about it because it is my first ever goal! i never had the feeling of shooting it during any of the training match! my 5seconds goal after the match started, so i scored the first goal for my line! i am really really happy over the mood for once that i could even dance! lihui, you did it finally! ((:
i admit i never experience the feeling of shooting it! so pardon me for my excitment!

alrights, enough of my excitment! it is because during the A div, i know i will never get a chance to shoot because i am not a good player, or i can say a lousy one! i feel so stress, and i know i would screwed things up when i am stress! so i shall calm myself down! the next reason is because i am a defender, but whatever is the reason, i am not those with good shootihng skills! so A div, go team ij!

some people never fail to make me strong and happy again! thanks christina! really thanks for saying so much to me, although i may cry and make myself a fool again! thanks for not giving me up, thanks for giving me a pat on my shoulder whenever i need one, thanks for talking nicely to me and tell me what should i do, thanks for giving me tissue whenever i cry! i am glad to find such a friend like you in my life! thanks so much, you are definitely a nice nice nice friend! LOVES!

went to vivo with my lovely anne on thurs! hahas, it was fun fun fun! we had our lunch and then we went shopping! i saw alot alot of dress, and also nice clothes! some of the dress i feel it is really nice or cute or sweet! whatever is it, i think i would never buy unless my mind went real wrong! then travelled from vivo back to my house to get the sticks for training! my lovely anne took a photo with my little bro and said he is cute! HAHAS, everyone says this and i think my bro is naughty! so we went back to school for training! the training ended rather late, so i reached home about 930pm! LOVES!

i miss my family after i came back from my camp! yesterday my daddy was so funny, give me those stares that make me feel =/ ! LOLS, i love my family no matter what happens! LOVESLOVESLOVES!

oh ya, thanks my deareest tangdi! he is so nice because he knows i dont have plastic cups and he went to buy for me! he is so sweet because he meet me outside the ijc to give me the cups! THANKS MY DEAR TANG DI! LOVES!

anyway, took some photos during the camp! so it give me the sense of sweetness when i looked at the photos! thats loves! (:

i shall go and watch my show now!
so bye ppl,
takecare and LOVES! (:

depressed+phobia

2007-07-03T20:00:00.000+08:00

chem paper 3 was over, was it something that i should be happy about it? hais, no way because it was terribly done! i felt so depressed when i am doing, totally depressed when i handed up my paper! i tried to control my tears, but sadly i cant. although i keep telling myself, what had done is done, no point tearing over such things again. however, i questioned myself, didnt i put much more effort, didnt i try to memorise more, didnt i try to understand more? i spend more time in studying chem rather than maths, phy, econs! but this is what i get for, for spending much efforts? not only that, i realise i really cant do well in my chem, no matter how much efforts was put in. i went almost crazy, feel like turning back my time! if i could turn back my time, i rather spend more time more physics, maths, econs! if only i could, but i know i cant. now i just know that, i did not only screwed up my chem, i think i had screwed up my phy, econs, maths(maybe). oh lihui, this is what you get for only spending your dear time with your chem more, this is your retribution!

after each paper, i feel so depressed always! W-H-Y! because i know i didnt study hard? because i know i didnt memorise whatever is necessary? because i didnt try my best to understand more? because i didnt practise any questions?
i may find tonnes of reasons to say about my poor results this time round, you may find that i am just defending myself for scoring so badly. you may find that is my own retribution for not studying hard and understanding all the things well!

but can anyone tell me what can i do!

the phobia of doing chem exams are back again. no one could understand how scare can i be when i was doing my chem! my mind went totally blank, i could not even pen down my first answer! oh dear, what can be worse than not being able to write down the first answer! i really got this phobia of doing my chem exams again, i am scare of chem exams/tests/quizs or whatever! GO AWAY!

the moment i wanna talk, my tears just wanna flow! argh, this is so omg, idiot! i feel like killing myself, knowing that my tears flow so easily always! i cant control, i also dont know why! so i really try to put myself in the best so that everyone ard me wont get affected by me! trying not to let my tears flow, trying to tell myself to calm down, trying to tell myself it is over, trying to tell myself the is next time, trying to tell myself i got wonderful parents who dont even stress me, trying to tell myself i got a sweet little bro who will give me a hug when i need one, i got nice sisters who listen to how depressed i am, trying to make myself happy! i found it is so diffcult to make myself happy for today, no matter how many nice and wonderful things i try to find.
H-A-P-P-Y < this world seem so hard to spell and so diffcult to reach!

all i could blame for is for having such POOR MEMORY, SLOW UNDERSTANDING! this 2 are so horrible that i could slap and kill myself one day to make sure i got goof memory and quick understanding!

words cant describe how am i feeling now.
i got no mood to do anything else because of today, i feel that i am such a failure!
TOTALLY A FAILURE!

i do not know what more can i say, or do to make myself feel better!

reality bites,
i could feel the pain.

the whole day is sliding by with
Guilt.
Emptiness.
Regrets.

HAPPY B'DAE TANG GE x)

2007-06-30T12:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE! my prelims one is not over yet, left 2 more papers which is chem paper 3 and phy paper 2!

talking about prelims, i think it is super horrible! terrible! didnt have good time management, should say i am slow, alrights, as slow as a tortoise! i really got no mood to talk about it, it is because i feel super demoralising.
still thanks all my friends, esp nana, anne, xiaoxin and chessmate! thank you (: oh ya, should i thanks my coach too? hahas, alrights, thanks coach!
anyway exams are fun ah, cos my brain keep uploading and deleting things in order to have the full memory space for each subject! my brain got limit memory space, so please please, dont make me even more crazy!

my right side of my body is feeling so terrible, it gets abit better at first, but now like worse! i also dont know why, feel so =/ when i know about it! not only that, my neck and back are also aching! oh dear, thats the result of slping on the floor instead of my dear bed! so cannot blame anyone except for me! i wanna to run, but i cant run! ): sad sad sad!

my toes infection are getting more and more serious, which i dont know the reason why! so i am going to listen to what the doctor say like months ago, which is to take the medicine regularly! no choice, if not next time no toes then more sad right! so i am doing something for my toes now, so dear little toes, ni men yao zheng qi! x) lets hope my little toes get real well soon! hehe!

chatted with nana one night and we found out so many omg thing! tsk tsk tsk, what is the world going on! everything is changing, the most scary is someone you know is changing as well! well, nana, you must cool and relax okie! remember less one person, more one person also same! (: so 1 person is not significant at all! xDD furthermore, it has negative externality! argh, screams! so no matter what happens, the LOVELYclique will always be there for you! hahas, anyway, dont pull your hair liao, later i cut your hands away! (: LOVES!

chatted with coach! ALRIGHTS, see the word coach! i am like flying over the mooon! i swear i am ready for anything, hahas, thats abit over! LOL, he got the power to make me cry and laugh! HOHO, i am going to make him cry too! so from now, lihui first and upmost aim - to make my coach cry! HAHAS, he is really omg, cute la! I LOVE MY COACH! hahas, i still wanna to my screw driver to help you screw down! anyway, he is lame today as he say one lame joke, thats toally so cold la! not only that, he is crazy because lihui follow a normal distribution where sample size = 4lihuis! LOL, how cute can he be! xDD hahas, but i still laugh over it! LOVES! (:

the highest level of acting skills is when you dont even know you are acting in front of others! thats like so scary! i dont think you need to deserve any kindness from the people around you anymore, because you dont treat them truely and you dont even know the meaning of true friendship! you often betray our trust, so tell me when should i really trust you. next, you always did things and do not even dare to admit it. so when things happen, you try your means and ways to push all the blames to others! thats like so omg, er xin la! can you learn to take some responsibility instead of pushing it to anyone except yourself. it wont kills you to take responsibility de okie! thirdly, you always contradict what you say and what you do! forth, dont think that you are always right, because it takes 2 hands to clap! so if anything happen, both party should be at fault. please stop creating problems then expect all your friends to help you! thats totally nonsense! fifth, dont try to leave super good impression in front of people, and make your friends like a fool. i think you should be the fool instead of your friends, tsk! the reason is because i find no such need to be so kind to you because you will never appreciate it and take it for granted. furthermore, why should your friends stand for you when you dont even do when they need your help. simply selfish! lastly, i would like to tell you that what goes around comes around! so please change or should i say please do some reflection! if not you will find everyone is going to leave you, then you would be crying! so change before everything is too late! (:

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
- Justin Timberlake

alrights, enough of that particular person. i think i have typed enough i guess! the first time i type one whole para for such person! congrats lihui, you have done it for the first time! -claps-

the reason that i blog about it is because i think you have go over your limits that is totally unbearable that make me feel so stress! i dont find it a point to be so nice to you by helping you here and there when you dont even know how to change. i would help provided you must change yourself too! if you are not going to change, so i will not help also! you didnt know how much i need to do just for your sake, sometimes i even question myself on why should i do that? tell me a good reason then! in addition, you are adding stress on to me, which i feel so terrible. do you need me to talk to you nicely?

WELL, now is 30june!
guess what, is my one and only dearest tang ge - zhi kuan's b'dae!
HAHAS, SO HAPPY B'DAE TO MY TANG GE! hahas, stop being crazy and stop recording your voice, then send it to me just in case i forget your voice! the reason is because i would never never forget your voice one okie! i also wont forget how you abused my hair, how you keep talking nonsense! hahas, since it is ur b'dae, i should praise you then! you are nice because i get to use your comp whenever i go your house! you are nice becayse you always donate the most amount of money for my st. john card! you are nice because you always allow me to say what i want to say, no matter how stress am i and keep complaining to you! you are nice, nice, nice! the nicest tang ge in the world okie!
ZHI KUAN, see that, how nice am i to say such things (: so you must stop cheatin my feelings okie! HAHAS, alrights, just be nice to me always can le ^^!
so you must be happy okie, take care always!
I LOVE MY TANG GE, HAPPY B'DAE (:

after prelims, it would be fb-days! there are so many loving people there, or perhaps i can say everyone there is nice! their encouragement and support is always the one that make you feel comfortable and warming! furtthermore, there is my little anne there, the most loving girl always! so hahas, lets hope that i dont get stress over fb and make it worse! come on, lihui! you can do it if you want! so i want to do it! jia you jia you jia you! (:

I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS,
and i LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS!

I MISS PLAYING MY DEAR GUITAR TOO, shall play it after my prelims! x)

>>SPECIALLY FOR MY BESTEST BUDDY- WEELING! seriously i miss you like crazy! I LOVE MY BUDDY, -hugs! <<

so i am done with my blogging,
everyone takecare
and of cos SMILE! (:

EMOEMOEMO! x(

2007-06-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

i feel so terrible, super terrible!
i should say that i feel super U-N-L-U-C-K-Y!
everything went so wrong!

my comp got recovered, lost every single thing!
cried for like T.T dont know what!

my blacky z610i got one very small crack!
alrights, thats make me feel so terrible when i see it!
i went almost crazy and keep saying it is
SUPER UGLY!
argh, ugly blacky now ):!

fell down during one of the fb training!
first time falling down, totally O.O!
then hurt my back somehow!

got cut by someone's blade during fb training!
thats terrible, totally O.O again!

was not on form for today's training during the front part,
after that, everything went well!
so it is like so =/!
maybe i should always be on form,
come on lihui,
do it or give up!

sleep and injured myself here and there!
i also duno why!
i sprained my right side of my body,
just from right shoulder down to my tights!
this is so idiot la,
make me feel the pain especially when i wanna to run!

bought ink cart, went home happily!
there is problem with the ink cart,
totally =.=!
not only that, I LOST THE RECEIPT!

did something so wrong,
that makes the person went screaming and scolding at me!
totally went feel like crying! T.T!

had a terrible nightmare on wednesday early morning!
fell asleep at 3am and woke myself up at 350?
i really got so scared that i went almost crying!

someone is down,
so there is problem with team thingy!
so dots dots dots,
3 or 4 ppl doesnt make any different!

chatted with clar jiemei,
and guess what, my blacky fall down again!
THIS TIME ROUND, is omg ah!
THE BIG BIG *PIAK* sound!
ARGH, screams!

the most annoying thing would be
fighting with K2! i was wrong?
although there is never one party is at fault,
and it takes 2 hands to clap!
so i scolded K2 and feeling so NOT MYSELF after the incident!
things got better i think, maybe yes maybe no?
whatever, i cannot be lihui without K2 as my friend!

feeling so emo suddenly this week!
i do not know what am i thinking either!
nothing to say about me being a emo-kid!
MISSING ALL MY FRIENDS, i love you all!

not only that,
i got a bad feeling and i told nana about it!
something is not right,
super worrying ah! i do not know why am i feeling this way!
i feel so horrible! super horrible!

find myself still running on the track,
not the first, not the second, not the third,
it is at the last last few at the back!
WORSE, it might be the last of all people who are running with me!
what am i supposed to do,
train up speed or stamina?

SUPER UNLUCKY! ARGH!

on the other hand,
there are happy things too!
1. went out to shop with nana almost everyday < I LOVE SHOPPING!
2. went for my clique outing, ZOO! < thats the most wonderful thing! took real lots of pictures, i shall post those pictures up soon! xDD
3. i got my kuku mumu lulu susu gugu dudu, thats totally loves!
4. i managed to be a new lihui after one incident, kuku mumu lulu susu gugu dudu!
5. i got super nice buddy who make me feel super good the strong telepathy we have! I GOT MY BESTEST BUDDY-KOH WEE LING!
6. going out with siblings, and have fun!
7. celebrating happy father's day with lots of fun, daddy's loves!
8. anzel says that she miss me and of cos i miss her so much too!
8. brenda mummy's b'dae & belated anzel teacher b'dae! (:
9. ate my breakfast with my lovely wonderful superwoman, anne!
10. got to know my gullible junior and find myself a brother turtle!
11. set a date to spend with michelle tong and anne after prelims!
12. my fb-skills did improved a little at least? < i hope so!
13. i realised i got super wonderful friends around me, especially to those who knows some of my problems! thanks!
14. my best friend, xiaoxin and i sms-ed and chatted quite alot, that is toally (:
15. getting a new bag soon, same as nana, thats loves too!
16. meeting up with my pri4 friend, hweehwee! she is loves! (:
17. i got super good friends who are listening to me almost 24/7 nonstop! thanks all, i really love you guys so much!
18. i got wonderful family who i love so much, and of cos my dearest cousins who help me here and there and i meet problems!

i dont know whats more to blog,
just i dont feel my those happiness are not enough to make me feel i am lucky!
just feel so horrible and terrible!

BUY ME A TIME MACHINE,
I NEED TO TAKE BACK MY TIME!

takecare and bye! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTEST BUDDY (:

2007-05-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

BOO! 24th MAY 2007! GUESS what is this special day? it is my BESTEST BUDDY - KOH WEE LING's birthday! (: hello bestest buddy, i wonder are you reading this post or not but as promised i am supposed to blog on this day for your sake! so are you touched? LOLS! MONDAY we will get to meet up with each other to celebrate her birthday, together with serene! (: YAY! finally after so many drag of our dates, we are able to meet each other up le! HOHO, cheers!

this bestest buddy i know her better when we are in sec 3! LOL, then after that we get even better, then become best! (: then we go home together, go cca together and went to have fun out together! somemore we live very near to each other, LOL! so do project or what also go her house =x LOLS!

after O, we went into different insitutions, so therefore we have lesser time to meet up with each other and hang out with each other due to the busy schedule that we have >.< HOWEVER, it does not affect any one of us to be less close to each other, and affect our friendship. so cheers to our strong and firm friendship. YAY, cheers!

one interesting thing would be that we have super strong telepathy! recently, she has her toe nail operation! HOHO, soon, i will be having toe nail operation becuase my toes are suffering infection due to the way that my nails grow! HOHO! then that time when i fall sick, she also fall sick too! somemore is the same sickness! HAHAS! oh my god, this strong telepathy will never fail to make me think that our friendship is super strong! LOVES!

BESTEST BUDDY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! i sms her at 0000am, to make sure that i am the first to wish her! SO I AM THE FIRST THIS YEAR! hoho! last year, i sms her at 2359 on 23rd to make sure that i am the last to wish her! INDEED i am still the last to wish her! YAY, i am special in greeting her happy birthday! LOVES!

HAPPY BIRHTSAY ONCE AGAIN BESTEST BUDDY! make sure you enjoy this day of every year, and be happy always okie! we shall be BESTEST FRIEND forever and be BESTEST BUDDY for life! LOVESLOVESLOVES! (:

bestest buddy, i shall pester you every single day after my A okie! as you say SURE! so i am going to make you happy by pestering you!

i am done with my blogging,
so blog next time !
take care and good bye! (:

LOVELYday with LOVELYpeople!

2007-04-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

BOO BOO BOO! i am back to keep my blog kicking and alive, so yay-ness to it! hahas, today is friday the thirteen! supposed to be a bad day, but it is a good day for me! so i feel super ultra happy now! hahas!

school as usual except that today i got back my PW results! alrights, i am like super gan chiong and was pulling my leader's shirt while waiting for it! i am totally omgomg, anxious! got back the comments first, i was like, tears going to roll down!! then take back, got a C! hmmm, not that bad cos coach told me can be band 2 or 3, so i should think of the positive side of it! so cheers to ijo37!

after school went for floorball training, i was omg, sweaty after the training! rushed to CWP after training ends at 630! ZOOM, anne and me walked like super fast to CWP! i was late in meeting my LOVESones for dinner at sakae! so i reached CWP at 645 and then went to the toilet to change and make myself smell nice before going to find them at sakae there!

went in, saw my 8 LOVESones there! OMG, i was feeling totally crazy! i saw shuhui - my qingaide! jinger - my SLP<3! ain - my DUMBclown! kye - my TEDDYbear! anzel - my TEACHER! brenda - my MUMMY! jingjie - my DEARIE! tania - my LOVER! omgomg, i totally went crazy! so we took alot of pictures there and i really had a nice dinner with them! crapping with them, laughing with them, playing with them! i really omg, love that moment! jingjie my dearie went home first! >.< sad, nvm! we shall spend more time with her next time! YAY!

after sakae, we went to play bball! alrights, i didnt play just stand there, block and throw the ball! i didnt shoot because i cant shoot! hahas, lousy me! had a great time there as well, so we went off to 883 at about 10+pm to buy things! after buying the things, we all went back home, in 3 groups! so is tania, kye, yc, anzel! jinger and me! brenda, shuhui and ain! hahas, after that jinger and me went to meet up ain! HOHO! so finally went to the bus stop with ain and jinger! ain went home first cos her bus came first! then me and jinger were there waiting for bus and we saw a drunk man! -.-! totally omg, afraid! i was praying that the bus would come faster! hahas!

the bus came, and we boarded the bus and i alighted first! reached home about 1050pm! so bath and came online!

currently, i am sending all my LOVES ones the pictures! HOHO, i am feeling still very excited now! HAHAS, thanks for the wonderful day! LOVES, lets have more!

oh ya, chalet at the end of the year! OMG, i cant wait seriously to have fun with them for 3days2nights! OMGGGGGGGG, i am going to go real crazy! yay yay yay!

now chatting with my coach too! OMGOMOMG, he is forever so cute la! nvm, now i shall call him MAN =x! hahas, alrights, he is tired now and his eyes are closing so so so soon! BUT STILL CUTE!

i love bookshop and i love buying notes for one time! HAHAS, i am crazy!

i am going to end this post cos everyone say my entry is long! so shortening it nowadays! hahas!

alrights, takecare and good bye! remember to stay happy and smile!

SHORTPOST! =DD

2007-04-08T20:30:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY SLP<3
I LOVE MY SLP<3

my first time blogging such a short post!
well, it is totally impossible for me!
but still i try!

friday i shall blog a super long post then =DD

so many things happened,
both happy and unhappy things!

as promise to be a short post,
take care everyone! bye!

BLOCK TESTS ARE OVER; YAY!

2007-03-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

BOO BOO BOO! hello people, i am back to update my dearest blog! OH gosh, it has been so long since i last updated my blog! more than one month! HAHAS, so i am back again! so hi again! HAHAS!

i am feeling rather excited or happy now because i had just finish my BLOCK TEST! oh yes, it is today, after 1047am i am free from all my books and papers! oh gosh, i hope i can pass all except GP! i know my GP sure fail, argh! sad, but nvm, shall make myself happy by saying it is normal to fail and then learn from it! hahas!

i hardly can remmeber what i had done for this one month except that i remember going back to school from tuesday to friday 8am to 5+pm just to study with nana, xinfang, linkai and vincent! it is totally omg, because i only remember doing lots of notes but not really studying and memorising all of them! hahas, it is always nice to study with them! LOVES!

i only remember going to 5/1 sentosa outing on monday! it is so nice to see so many of the 5/1-ers people turning up for the sentosa outing! i saw so many lovely people on day, argh, just make me feel like i am still in secoondary school! i really miss those days! so really have a fun time playing, talking, joking, taking pictures with them! hahas, i miss my partner, thats nadiah! i really missed sitting next to her and talk craps with her! hahas, she said that she missed my laughters, hahas, so cute! like i say, once a 5/1-er, always a 5/1-er! i just love 5/1 so much! LOVES!

so today, after the last paper phy, xinfang, shujuan, zhongxun, linkai, vincent and me went to have our lunch! nana did not come along because she got geo as her last paper in the afternoon! so the 6 of us made our way to chessclub's meeting before going to causeway point! so the 5 of them are really cute as they are following me to causeway point, i am the leader of the 6 of them ah! so we went to eat KFC as our lunch, oh yea! so long didnt eat that so i am feeling happy? excited? hahas, i dont know, but the food taste super nice! LOL!

after lunch, we went to shop around causeway point! i must admit that it has been so long that i shopped causeway point! HAHAS, so it seem new and nice to me! so went around walking and having a fun time with them, and i bought a keychain! hahas, a little chicken or chick keychain! so happy ah! i also bought one xiao ding dang hp strap for my sister! hahas, so went around walking till near 4pm and then we went home! hahas, nice time! LOVES!

yesterday[20th march] was my sister's 17th birthday! didnt have any celebrations as i was studying hard for my BLOCK TEST! but we will be celebrating this weekend, going out and have fun together with my other siblings and also to buy her a b'dae present!! YAY-ness! so happy 17th b'dae once again! HAHAS, LOVES!LOVES!LOVES!

9th march is my bestest boyfriend cum xiaodi, xiaoxin's b'dae! i wished him happy b'dae! now, happy belated b'dae xiaoxin! hahas, i just missed my bestfriend so much, really missed talking and laming with him! LOLS, now i am free from my exams, it is time to crap with him more! we used to crap so much in the past but not now as due to the busy schedule that we had! argh, i missed those times when we crap like no one's biz! now still, we are still bestest friend, just that the distance between us are far! no matter what happens, he will always be the bestest boy-friend cum xiaodi that i would ever have in my life! HAHAS, xiaoxin, dajie loves ya! HAHAS, LOVES!LOVES!

22th march is hiromi dear's b'dae! sms-ed her at 1159, the last to wish her i think! hahas, hope she stay real happy forever ah, and her A levels results power lo! hahas, she is so smart! so now she can play and enjoy her life liao ah! hahas, LOVESLOVES! time to meet up with her!

14th march, happy beldated b'dae to chessmate-eddie! alrights, this chessmate is really superb good! he is always there to crap with me! hahas, he is so nice that words cant describe that he is nice! hahas, he is as sweet as ester for sure! hahas, thanks chessmate, thanks for being there always for me, no matter how noisy i can get, no matter how irritating i can get, no matter how high i can, no matter how crazy i can be! he is just there to crap and listen to those craps too! hahas, so happy belated b'dae once again! time to go out ah! HAHAS, LOVESLOVES!

oh ya, 14th march is also zhongxun's b'dae! hahas, so happy belated zhongxun! hope you and ur girl, ah juan, chang chang jiu jiu! remain as couple forever okie! hahas, LOVES!

just talked to my bestest BUDDY KOH WEE LING! argh, i cant deny that i missed her so much although we just met each other up! she is such a love that i cant stop missing her! hahas, SHE IS REALLY NICE, i swear! no one can actually think that she is bad due to her extremely positive attitude she got for her job! i really think she is really so nice! bestest bud, u are nice and continue to jia you for that job! hahas, oh ya, we are going to KBOX soon! oh yea, i cant wait to meet her up! BESTEST BUDDY, always the one that i love so much! LOVESLOVES!

chatted with xiaowei too! OMGOMG, i missed chatting with that crappy xiaowei! he is weird la, he can get so so so crappy and so so so quiet! hahas, but today he is crappy! as usual i love his hao lian-ness! i also dont know why, he is the one that i love seeing him hao lian in front of me! hahas, i am weird, but he is weird-er! LOL! so going to find one day and shall go out and have fun with others as well! hahas, LOVESLOVES!

i forget to thanks my siao char bo, huifang! she is so sweet, hahas, because as when i get bored with studying, i will sms her and we will crap a while then after that study again! LOLS, thanks siao char bo! hahas, i didnt manage get to meet her at lala land! hahas, dont know she got go or not! hahas, aniway she is definitely one sweet siao char bo! siao char bo rocks ah! LOVESLOVESLOVES! finally we survived!

today i phoned my dearest coach after he sms-ed me! hahas, he is as usual crazy! hahas, i think he is crazier this time round! LOLS, he is so cute that i feel so happy and excited when talking to him! hahas, we were talking about exams questions at the start, then after that which i dont know how we were talking about my friends, then after that talked about other things! hahas, he is a kid as well since he say i am one of them! hahas, he is a saddist and i am an unsaddist ah, i dont know why! but i really do enjoyed talking to him as i feel i can be so crazy and behave like one siao ding dong!! i told him so many things again, argh, i am quite a idiot in front of him always! hahas, so mug hard for ur last paper, BIO okie! LOLS! LOVESLOVESLOVES!

oh ya, LINKAI! thanks so much! thanks for saving me from all those nonsense again! hahas, thanks! LOVES!

chatted with my cousin! i think i feeling quite emo when i chatted with him, argh, dont know why! i really hope things would be better than what i thought! thanks ah tangdi, LOVES!

TIME to meet up with my LOVE one! i want to meet up with shuhui*qingaide, clown*ain, teddybear*kye, teacher*anzel, mummy*brenda, SLP<3*jinger, lover*tania, dearie*jingjie! argh, i really do miss them so much! hahas, chatted with clown quite alot! hahas, MY SAMA SAMA! hahas, i really do cherish the friendship that is build between the group of us, i really do feel happy with you all around me! i really do LOVE all of you! time to meet up, promise my SLP<3 to meet up after my block tests! so here i am! LOVESLOVESLOVES!

i believe those friendships which undergo alot of up and down would definitely be stronger than those normal friendship! i love all my friends!

i do not know what to say, but i know 10years, 20years or more years, we would still be friends! we would still be the same group of people who always used to hang out in the past! we would still eat together, play togther, laugh together, joke together, cry together and of cos spend time together! i believe the friendship is strong as there are so many times i really feel we are on big family. so dont ever say we would forget you, we wont for sure! LOVESLOVES!

some times i feel so emotional, i feel so unsecure, i feel so uneasy! some times i just feel so NEGATIVE, i do not know why am i feeling that but i really hate that kind of feelings inside me. it make me feel so useless, so weak, so uncapable! i just feel that i could not do anything at all! i do not want to feel this way, i want to feel strong, i want to feel happy!

i am a happy little kid! just that i am abit crazy and i cant stop laughing when i feel like so! LOL!

just helped my sister to complete her project! hahas, i feel the sense of statisfication as well! i think her project is not fun because it is about cooking, which i do not know how to cook!

tml i am going bowling with xinfang, vincent, linkai, shujuan and zhongxun! hahas, i shall be the one sitting there and enjoy seeing the way the bowl! yay, time to relax! so YAY! LOVES!

i just miss you so much suddenly!

alrights, i think nothing to blog about! hahas, so everyone good nights, bye! takecare! LOVES!

I@fun<3; happy b'dae tianxiang! (:

2007-02-10T22:45:00.003+08:00

BOO! i am here to update my blogger again! today is 10 feb 2007, it is our school, ij's fun fair day, I@FUN! yay! so i am going to blog abt it, not very detailed, but a summary!

morning meet up with nana with my heavy rice cooker! hahas, then nana offered to help me to take till school when i meet her at the woodlands interchange! thanks nana! reached school and went to classroom to put our things and we set off to assemble at the hall! heard the teacher's talking!! then we started our last preparation for i@fun! (:

our stall's business wasnt that good at the first! quite sad when little people come to ur stall! >.< nevertheless, the stall did well in the end! hahas! (: all the food are sold! YAY-ness!

i was sabo to play gladiator with one little boy! argh, i was very very very scared! my legs cant stop trembling, and i even said to the kid that i would let him win! hahas, but he still hit me and i squad and get off! hahas, lousy ah! i am afraid of playing gladiator!

allena came today! yay, so happy to see her again! took photos with her! hahas, happy! then saw gillian also! then my friends came! shiq*mei, anita*mei, meiqi and peylih*mei! then my sister came, hahas, she came with her friends! then i saw amanda*nuer`mei, vera*girlfriend, justina, ciauer and friends! saw brenda*mummy too! omgomg, not only that, i also saw tianxiang*kor! saw my allan also! then i also saw chandra! saw mr faizal also! saw yanping*dear, lex*haldi, shayfern, weehong! so many people. omgomg, yay-ness! LOL! omg, such a happy day! i saw so many love ones today!! argh, i forget to take photos with some of them! argh, sad sad! nvm, it is the memory that is nice, although pictures speak a thousand word! argh, hahas! well, i@fun is good ah! hahas! not only that, i let my cousin be more man by helping me to take my things :X HAHAS, thanks ah! LEE GENG YUAN! hahas!!

after accompanying my friends, i went walking around with xinfang, clarence, linkai, vincent, shujuan and zhongxun! hahas, they are crazy! hahas, busy spending their "money" at the last of the day! then my cousin came and find me and give me his "money" to spend! hahas, i bought something very nice, i did it myself ah! so happy! then went back to class and use up all my cousin's "money" there! LOL!

5pm! finally the whole event ended! hahas, so omg, tired and i feel so warm! hahas, alot of people got sunburn! hahas, it is omg, super pain! took quite a number of pictures today! i am so happy! cleaned all the things, packed and mr ang say a few words! then we are released! yay, happy!

waited for nana's father to come and send us back home cos we are carrying heavy things! so nana's daddy send me back home and also send clarence to my house there to take his bus back to sk! hahas, thanks nana, and also nana's parents! reached home, asked my daddy to wash the rice cooker and i went bathing! hahas! take the sweets out and let my little bro and sister enjoy the sweets! then mummy gave me eat dont know what, i know is cooked by her friend! hahas, quite nice!
LOVE TODAY!

omg, i must say my little coach is crappy! stop asking me to play gladiator! i swear i am going to kill him if he ask me to play that again!

i wasnt happy about certain things! i am going to argh, explode so soon! it is supposed to be a happy day, but you did make my day so grey at the end of everything! seriously, i do not know what is going on, it make me feel so omg, angry, sad, idiot, whatever! just i am feeling so not happy!

i fount it so dumb to tear again! to tear for someone who is not close to me, or someone who i dont feel it is worth my tears! the reason i teared is because i could not control myself from tearing! no matter how hard i try, the tears just keep rolling down! sigh.

thanks i got such wonderful friends around me! you guys are always there whenever i need someone, can be mentally or physically! thanks, i know there are always you guys who i can depend on, even if you guys didnt say anything! not only that, they still need to tahan my moodswings ah, sorry sorry sorry! sorry to those is so good, nice and close to me! i tend to omg, shout, scream, scold or whatever! thanks for being so understanding! LOVES!

i break my little promise that i am not supposed to talk to you as i could not bear to do it! argh, useless me! i think i still need to act angry in front of him to make him feel bad!
my mind told me, i am still angry with him! my heart told me, talk to him! what am i doing ah!

i need a break from everything! i need a run to make myself feel better!

i am burnt now! hahas, sunburn! omgomgomg, pain! screams! but it is a nice day! so worth burning! LOL!

aniway, today is tianxiang's b'dae! so happy birthday, kor! hope he enjoy his days, and be prepared to go army! stay happy and smile lots okie! remember to takecare always! all the best for taking back ur results, LOVES! (:

i miss him

alrights, finish blogging and i am so tired now! hahas, going to slp real soon i guess! nites, takecare and goodbye(: !

sigh x( - Feb. 09, 2007 at 07:04 AM
i am feeling so down currently!

should i say i am feeling rather unhappy the moment someone told me about something! i try to control myself in front of everyone, that is to smile and be happy!

but now,
this is affecting me so much that i do not have the mood to do anything anymore! i am feeling so argh, sad! i cannot do anything, i just can feel sad and cry over it? is it the only thing i can do? i did not cry but i really feel sad over it! i really feel those omg, pain in me!

i should not ask anything at all.
i should not say anithing at all.

you do not seem to care,
why should i bother to care?
you do not seem to like,
why should i bother to like?

what is my point in doing all those things,
i dont understand myself at all too!
maybe at that point of time,
i am just out of my mind!

i should not fall in the first place,
it is a wrong move i guess.

absence make the heart grows fonder!
your absence does not make my heart grow fonder at all,
instead i am feeling the other way!

i am not missing you-

tml i still have to bring that rice cooker to school! hope everything went well for tml!

=sign off=

EMO EMO ):

2007-02-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

i am back to update my dear blogger after 1mth! today i have no school! SO HAPPY! finally a BREAK after 4 days of catching up with my work! SO YAY!

my little toe seem to protest more by becoming more BLACK(blueblack)! hahas! it is not that pain i think, but more black! but no matter what my toe is, i still want to run run run! i love running more than my toe! HAHAS! but just now when i cut my toe nails, the 2 little blue black toe bleed! argh, screams! i just went omg and i showed daddy my toe! hahas, he say it will grow back again! oh no, my little toe! i am so sorry but i still want to run! the nails now look so fake, argh, er xin er xin! hahs, who want to come and pay a little visit to my toe? hahas xDD

life has been so omg, when i start catching up for my work! maths maths maths! phy phy phy! chem chem chem! econs econs econs! i had a hard time running after i those 4 big people! LOL!

i screwed up my phy mock SPA skill A i guess!

yesterday went home with nana, juan, fang and clarence! ate dinner with them, walked around causeway point and went home! reached home, did my GP! i had a hard time writing it! argh, GP GP GP! it is so terrible! then online till next day morning!

i must thanks my tang di for helping me to convert all the songs for me! hahas, i am so gan dong okie! tang jie love ya so much okie! thanks thanks thanks! LOVES!

MR nonsense*vincent yip is 19 yesterday! HAHAS, so happy birthday once again! HAHAS, he is forever so nonsense! called me in the midnight and we chatted! hahas, i was on my bed while talking to him! he told me things that i went OMG! i finally know why he is feeling this way liao! well, i hope the thing would be over for him real soon as i want him to be happy! he cannot forever be sad de la! so mr nonsense, dont think too much can! dont waste your time thinking! so be happy! oh ya, he told me it is his last year of writing 1 in front for his age >.< such a funny person! hahas, i went =.=! hahas! aniway hope you enjoy your day! most importantly be real happy okie! hahas, the MMS i send over to him is very cute! hahas! so be more NONSENSE TOO! hahas! I LOVE MY MR NONSENSE! LOVESLOVESLOVES!

my chessmate*eddie is crazy! LOLS! i help him study and he help me to play! ARGH, he is siao ding dong! hahas, but he is funny i think! CHESSMATE, dont PLAY! STUDY STUDY STUDY! hahas! he is my best chessmate! hahas! LOVES!

i chatted with my coach yesterday! he is so nonsense that he keep typing eddie name in some weird way of speaking it! HAHAS, crazy coach! he is super omg, lazy! hahas, go bath ah! LOL, he is still very crappy i think! hahas, just abit more crazy than me! he is a siao ding dong! hahas, no matter what, i still love my coach! aniway, dont keep sleep, eat, study, run! hahas, remember to rest okie! LOVES!

chatted with red nose girl*alisa!! hahas, she is a very funny girl! i cant stop going haha when chatting with her! she is really omg, siao ding dong! she loves being sick because she can rest without feeling guilty! well, red nose girl! u better get well if not i will scream at u! i love my red nose girl and i am not a kid okie! OH YA, she knows my blog url! so now i must be careful of what i blog laio ar? i scare later i badmouth her here then she knows! hahas! but she is too good that i got nothing to say bad about her! hahas! red nose girl, I LOVE! LOVES!

chatted with allena*lao xiao! she is still so funny as before! argh, make me feel like going back for 1st 3mths again! now is year 2007! argh, i still love the past! she is coming back during i@fun! YAY-ness! can take photos with her! LOVES! LOVES! LOVES!-

omg, ANNE is such a sweet girl! thanks girl ah! i am really okie, just abit emo only! thanks thanks! i love her so much till i am crazy! LOVES!

i chatted with my bestest bud, weeling in the afternoon! hahas, seriously i miss her so much! ARGH, bestest bud! i think i am abit crazy when talking to her! hahas, aniway mug hard for your exams! all the best to you hor! meet up after you exams! LOVES!

JINGJIE is my dearie now! hahas, such a sweet girl! yay! i love my dearie so much! hope to meet up soon alrights! hahas! LOVES!-

i must thanks linkai to play so many games with me today! hahas, we played so many games today! hahas, we are killing time you see! hahas, more games next time ar? haha! LOVES!

my halfDI*lex is so sweet just now! i nearly teared!

for every night that have passed,
cold winds never stop.
half jie's mood mustn't be affected by these winds, because it will prepare u for the storms.

this is actually what he says! thanks halfDI(: u must be takecare too! i miss ya so much! LOVES!

some things are best to left uncleared?

maybe what has happened in the past make the future now difficult for everyone of us! it is like when you try to make things back the same as before, but fails! omg, the heart will feel that pain that no can else can feel it except you! this type of feelings really make me feel like killing myself! argh, stop the feelings now! screams!

i should not have talked to you today! making me feeling so weird and uncomfortable now! i know i should not be feeling this way, but i cant control it as well! sorry is all i can say! i think messaging you is still the best opinion for me!

you didnt do what you say! i am not sad but disappointed! maybe i should not feel disappointed because you dont owe them to me! sorry, i seem to ask too much from you!
it will never happen again, i promise!

i wasnt sure if this is what i want in the end! i think somehow i am not on the same track anymore!

my heart and my mind doesnt seem to match at all!

nothing is the same as before!

sorry people, i am just feeling abit emo now! soon, i will be alright again!

I LOVE MY FAMILY! I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS!

so byebye and takecare! LOVES!

HIGH to LOW! - Jan. 31, 2007 at 06:37 AM
i am feeling so high just now, but now i am quite down! i think something is wrong with me!

i had my own morning runs together with my friends since today! LOL! it is always so good to run! i just love the feeling of running! i ran before school, during pe, after pe, before cca, during cca, after cca! IT IS omg, very refreshing! it just feel so good! i love running!! loveslovesloves!

someone say i am slow in running! that person is none other than GARYuen! argh, i feel like killing him ah! i not that slow slow slow slow la! i know slow but not to that extent please! hahas, siao ah he! LOL!

however today i went home and realised my toes is angry! it is showing me its temper by becoming BLACK (blueblack)! so i go and press it, OMG, IT IS SUPER PAIN! well, tml i shall continue to run! dont care my little toe!

chatted with fangwen aka act cute king! told him about how i am feeling! hahas, he is funny la! i cant stop thinking! hahas, i think he knows me pretty well so he can know how i feel! LOL, i told him so many things again! hehe, he also got told me something de la! HAHAS, his secrets i know alot de okie! hahas, LALALA! anyway thanks okie! hahas, i dont deny i am omg, super happy at that point of time! hahas, LOVES!

he online! he online! he online!
we chatted! we chatted! we chatted!

i love today!
maybe yes or no!
i dont know!!

=sign off=

crazy! - Jan. 26, 2007 at 11:37 PM
hello HI5! i am back to update here!

well, today is SATURDAY! finally weekends are here, FINALLY! (:

weekends not equal to rest day! weekends are meant to be homework day! econs are having more and more homework! LOLS, so omg!

thurs-econs test! i am omg, so scare because i dont want my name to be shown! argh, econs econs econs, pray pray pray! ate dinner with my clique again! LOVES-!

met SLP<3*JINGER while waiting for my bus! she accompany me by taking the same bus with me! thanks SLP!<3 i love love love her so much! she is just so sweet! LOVES-!

oh ya, i received sweets from kl! hahas, thanks ah coach! hahas, i am so omg, paiseh to take the sweets from him! he passed them to me, i was omg! hahas! well, thanks! LOVE ya so so much okie! LOVESLOVESLOVES!-

fri- mr ang is not in school today! so we got mr ong as our phy tutor for today! hahas, physics tutorial is fun ah! LOL, the mr ong is funny! hahas, he dont know how to use the tablet pen >.< hahas, RED, BLUE FLAG! hahas, i feel he is funny! hahas! alrights, one word, fun, during chemistry lesson! the first time i feel chem tutorial is so fun! hahas! went to eat lunch with my lovely clique! hahas, so happy and we spend time talking so much! loves!

walked home with clarence after that! hahas, we walked from causeway point to my house! we talked so much today! we chatted about what to do for his matter! he gave me suggestion on what should i do too! hahas, thanks jiemei! LOVESLOVES! i waited his bus with him at the bus stop near my house! LOVES-!

i chatted with xiaowei so much on thursday! hahas, he is funny i think! hahas, well, i know i know i know! hahas, it feel so good when you told someone how you feel! hahas, i am hahas, smart okie! this is not the first time we chatted so much, but it is the omg, the first time when he starts talking so much about his own things! hahas, UNBELIEVEABLE! hahas, DIY, my favourite! hahas! LOVES-!

chatted with xiaoxin online on thurs and fri! i cant deny that fact that i got such a bestest boy friend! he is my bestest friend! i know i can always tell him whatever i want! so we chatted about something funny, which is his classmates! he told me what flower on head, HAHAS, LAME =.=! hahas, but it is funny! oh ya, he got such a nice and cool hairstyle! hahas, well, i am SUPER, omg, JEALOUS okie! hahas! xiaoxin, be happy! hahas, i love my bestest friend! LOVESLOVESLOVES!-

mr nonsense called me yesterday! we are chatting again, nonsense topic again! he sound abit, erm, i do not know how to say but i feel so weird! hey, cheer up! be happy okie! after the thing then tell me what happened, meanwhile dont worry so much! i love mr nosnense! LOVES-!

i am a CUTE king to NIK only! hahas, she is =/, i think whatever i say/do, she will say funny! hahas, i am CUTE wadd to her! hahas, that why everything also funny okie! hahas, I AM neutral! hahas, LOVES-!

ACT CUTE KING! - fangwen! hope he faster find his EZlink card okie! dont be ): le hor! thanks for helping me always! hahas, MALAYSIA AH =.=! hahas, he is funny and nice! he is another mind reader of mine! hahas, thanks! LOVES!-

someone told me sorry yesterday! well, i got a shock and i do not know what to do! i think he did nothing wrong, so i find it more weird! after saturday, i am sure you wont be feeling the same way anymore. well, no matter what happens, i just do not want the word sorry from you! LOVES-!

something happened! it is the same old matter again. maybe i am not the same, i changed! it is due to my crazy-ness that caused what is going on today! the thing wont stop unless i put in effort to solve the problem! i need time to reflect what need to be done in order to make everyone else better!

i promise this wont happen again!

tell me whats going on!
tell me whats going on!

this is so random,
I MISS MY COACH! LOVES!-

=sign off=

X-country&chocolates!

2007-01-24T21:30:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! i am back to update my blogger again! LEE LIN KAI, see see, i update my blog since u ask me to update okie! hahas, i am nice right! hahas! well, the last entry was like 1st jan of 2007! time flies, and it is going to be the end of jan!
school has been busy especially third week of the month, 4 days of tests!! i think i nearly omg, DIE! hahas, but still i survived, and the whole o612b survived too! we are great ah! JUST LOVE 12b! ((:

today is X-country! meet fangwen*ACK at admiratly first, then we went to sembawang to meet linkai, nana*darling, zhongxun and shujuan! then we went to the X-country place, which i do not know where! hahas, we are on the same bus as kelvin*Happyfruit&gf, Ryan&friend, Billy, Guanhan and Desmond! hahas, we are late by 5minutes? hahas, so we reached there at 7.35am! then settle down! prepare ourselves and the race started!

Taurus is the house champion, YAY-ness! i am so so so happy and high! i got the team medal, yay-ness! i am happy, happy and more happy! not only that, i am proud of clarence, he beat the loser who always tease him! hahas, LOSER X: alrights, the run is nice, i just love running! (: my shoes is omg, er xin now! HAHAS, cant stand it totally, going to wash it! i am going to buy new shoes, 2 pairs this time round! YAY-ness for the third time! HAHAS! queensway, i am coming! wait for me!

after the X-country, went to subway to eat with nana, clarence, linkai, xinfang, shujuan and zhongxun! hahas, was chatting and eating! then we went around shopping and see shoes! hahas, i like the nike one! brown one!! hahas, i think i will be getting that! i also went popular to buy my thumbdrive!, SO HAPPY!
then all of us went home! hahas, i was chatting with nana and clarence on the way back home!!

chatted with my xiaoxin*xiaodi on monday! he was very sad because of some matters! xiaoxin, cheer up okie. i may not know how you exactly feel, but i know how the feeling is like. i do not how to make him better, all i do is to talk to him nicely and ask him to be strong! anyway, he is getting better i guess! thats what my xiaodi should be, he is strong always! xiaoxin, dont think too much, dajie love ya forever! loveslovesloves-!

OH! that xiaowei is my mind reader! OMGOMG can! he very li hai one, know me so well! HAHAS, so i told him what happened! hahas, lets hope he keep his promise! hahas, if not i am going to kill him for sure! eh, should i thanks him for saying some things? hahas, oh well, THANKS XIAOWEI! chatted with xiaowei so many things about today, i was totally sian diao! the milo incident is a good example, lihui is =.=, xiaowei is also -.-! hahas, i think it is the omg, most SIAN DIAO THING LA! argh, its over, so nvm! btw, no need pity for my friends that i am not GENTLE! pity urself first ba, xiaowei! LOVES!-

NANA agree my coach run like a robert! hahas, it is so funny! i am still in the OMG state that dawei and friends, 3rounds in 4mins time? HAHAS, oh my god, nana got a shock too! well, i think it is omg so pro! hahas, red nose girl is also pro! HOHO! loves!-

someone praise me as a good girl today! i am so happy! HAHAS, I AM NOT A NAUGHTY GIRL ANYMORE! hahas, i am haha, happy! i am sure i am a good girl but not a GENTLE girl! thanks that someone okie! oh ya, thanks for using ur shoes to try to make the mud on my legs! it is so omg, er xin! BUT I SHALL BE NICE AND FORGIVE YOU OKIE! HAAHS, SIAO DING DONG!

OH YA, it has been so long i saw that mr nonsense! HAHAS, he saw me and asked me where am i going! hahas, funny! then i thought he want to have lunch, so ask him to join us! he replied me: you didnt ask me earlier! so OMG, slap him then he know! so nonsense okie! hahas! next time i shall ask him like ONE WEEK in adavance! hahas! TAKECARE MR NONSENSE!

i am rather confused by one thing, it has been so omg, that i did not want to solve it or to face it! i do not know whether i am doing the right thing, or i would say i feel that i am doing some sinful things! oh well, what should i do! someone told me letting go isnt a bad thing overall, but i think it is! someone told me i am doing the right thing, but i think i wasnt doing the right thing! someone feel happy for me, but i think i am feeling happy and guilty at the same time! so many someone, i do not know why am i feeling different! no particular reason, just feeling different from them! well, at this moment, i decide not to do anything anymore! maybe like the someone say, follow your heart, not your head!

i do not know whether do i owe you anything in the previous life. just my luck i guess!

chocolates make people happy! i just love seeing others people smiling! hahas, this is omg, super great to see your friends with smiles! i told alisa*red nose girl about this and i think she will think i am crazy! hahas! well, nvm! people, just smile! everyone need to smile everyday! (:

i got myself a running partner! YAY, i am so happy! HOHO, so we are going to run every morning, starting from next week! my running partner, xinyu! yay, running is fun! i love her as much as i love running! people, lets run! cheers!*

i am happy for this moment! very happy! HAHAS, issit becos of the chocolate! well, i hope it is! LOVES! chocolate make both you and me happy! LOVES-

oh no, econs test tml! hope i can pass!! oh ya, good luck to red nose girl for her geo test okie! hahas xDD so everyone, takecare and goodbye! hahas, LOVESLOVES!-

nice day // mood : sad - Jan. 20, 2007 at 09:50 AM
currently i am feeling rather sad now, or i can say super sad!

have a great day from morning till night! thanks shufen, eddie*chessmate and kokloong*coach for the skating lesson okie! shufen, the first one who teach me how to walk with my skates! i look rather dumb! LOL, but nvm! thanks to her, if not i think i will still there standing like a stone okie! hahas, she also teach me alot of things! always give me a helping hand! LOVE her so much! hahas, thanks! hahas, eddie*chessmate is really good, a good coach for sure! hahas, he was beside me always, the whole 2hours! he never left me there alone at all! thanks chessmate! i am so happy. fortunte to have such a great chessmate! my coach, omg, is pro okie! i got no comments in his PRO-ness! he can skate so well, how i wish i can be like him okie! coach, u are pro okie! hahas! thanks for trying to save my back when i lean backwards okie! SO THANKFUL!

early in the morning went outram park to coach's house! went to see his 2 lovely doggies, well, they are so cute! hahas, i am in LOVE once again with dogs! then meet chessmate and shufen at around 1pm+! hahas, finally we set off to east coast! reached there, rent skates! well, only i rent because all of them got skates le ah >.< hahas, PRO wadd xDD then started skating till 4pm! then we all went to change, and went subway to have our lunch! hoho, i am feeling omg, super full! shufen went off first, then left the 3 of us! hahas, then went to take bus and wanna go queensway!

the most idiot thing is when we reached busstop and i realised i forget to take my EZlink card back from the uncle who i rent my skates! hahas, was like omg, very paiseh! then make chessmate and coach walked back with me to take! hahas, they were laughing at my EZlink card! i dont know what is so funny, but nvm!! then took bus with them to queensway, chessmate got off the bus halfway and went back home! so left coach and me, so we were like doing nothing! play chopsticks i think, hahas, is coach suggested somemore! dont know who is more not MATURE!

reached queensway, rained =.=! well, nvm! then we went to the coffee shop and drink coach's favourite fruit drink, the taste is abit strong! so i drink my longan jelly grass! it is nice i think, but not very nice! hahas, then went to the queensway shopping centre and search for present! hahas, after 1 hour of searching, i got everything i want, so happy! thanks coach! then we went to IKEA, help red nose girl*aLisa to buy her sweets! hahas, i also bought, coach also bought! then coach went to eat something again, forever he wont be full! he is hungry monster!

hahas, then we walked to the queenstown mrt station! HOHO, long way walk okie, then we were like talking craps? finally i took mrt back home, i was feeling omg, tired? hahas, well, nvm! today is fun! ((:

oh ya, thamks xiaowei for helping to decide what to wear, what to bring! u are so nice okie, just stop talking nonsense can liao! he is crappy! xDD nice person but abit crazy! hahas, siao ding dong!

i miss my xiaodi! i miss talking to him and telling him all sorts of nonsense! he is always there to hear all my unhappiness things! but this year, he got O and i got A, so we are not talking so much le x( i miss him seriously! no one can allow me to say so much things at all. xiaodi, i miss you (:

i think my jiemei is feeling sad currently! jiemei, dont feel liddat okie. no matter what happens, you still got friends like us! so cheer up! xDD LOVES-

histroy repeats itself, i dont know what can i do? because of me or you! i think the cold wall in between us is getting more and more thick, and i dont know how to make it melt! i am sorry, but i just dont know how! maybe time will save all these! i told someone about this matter, i didnt feel better in any way at all i think. maybe i am too childish in dealing such matter!

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SCHOOL, <3o612b! - Jan. 09, 2007 at 05:11 AM
I AM BACK TO UPDATE my HI5! hahas, i am currently very high now! hahas, i think i am abit crazy and not normal ah!

School is fun i think, cos i can see my friends! this is the most HAPPY thing i think xDD it is always OMG, fun with o612b!! LOVESLOVESLOVES-
i just dont like the heavy bags!! it is sometimes too heavy till i feel like dying on spot!! but now got lockers, so not scare of heavy bags le! YAY, i am super happy! hahas, yay!

PE - just running till X-country i think! hahas, running is fun, i love running!

MY COUSIN COME TO IJ! hahas, he is crazy! trying to confuse me with his physics! LOL, well, i am kind enough to teach him cos he is omg, crazy! hahas! i think nothing better than me! DONT TALK BAD BEHIND PPL'S BACK LA, tsk tsk! u are so evil! hahas, LOVES-

alrights, i just went so high with NIK JUST NOW! omgomg, it is so fun! hahahas, i am cute to her only! HAHAS, specially let her use okie! hahas, i am KING! hahas, i live in a KINGDOM! hahas, i think i am crazy till she also want to go cry! hahas, alrights, try to be normal! hahas, chocolates tml okie, only if u get well! LOVES-

i treated my coach gelare le! OMG, so happy! at least i wont be thinking, omg, gelare everyday! hahas, i received his lolipops too! hahas, it is NICE! hahas, thanks xDD LOVESLOVES-

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HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:

2007-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

31 dec 2006, last day of year 2006! OH NO, new year is coming coming coming! hahas, wish everyone a very happy new year!

Well, a year passed so fast! HOHO, next year i am taking my A levels! SO FAST SO FAST SO FAST! hahas, well, 2006, a nice year! i found alot of nice friends in my life, my dearest o612b, my sweetest ijo37, my lovely clique, and my new friends! NOT forgeting all my other friends, LOVES LOVES LOVES!- thanks u guys for making my life so wonderful! muackies!

FAMILY! i want to thanks my dearest family for all the love and concern that they had given me always! hahas, my daddy, my mummy, my 3younger sisters and of cos my youngest brother! i know there is millions of times when i feel so unhappy and go ard showing everyone my BLACK face, making everyone also feel angry with me, but i know that no matter what happens, my family will be there for me! i know some times i do quarrel with my parents and my siblings, and i will definitely COLD war with them! hahas, thats i do always! i do not know why i do not have the guts or courage to say sorry to them as i feel it is so weird! LOL, kokloong coach should know this type of feelings! hahas! well, so the best is that i shall try my best to not cold war with them anymore! i wanna spend more time with them and buy more things for my siblings! hahas, i do still owe them their b'dae gifts! hahas! >.< WELL, i hope everyone is the family stay heathly and be happy always! daddy and mummy are still as loving as before, my siblings are still as cute as before! LOVES LOVES LOVES LOVES!-

my one and only tangGE and his brother, my tangDI! heyhey, thanks you guys so much okie! hahas, for always giving me advice on what to do ah especially LEE ZHI KUAN TANG GE! hahas, STOP being so lame and keep recording ur voices and send it to me! i will never ever forget ur voice one ah, it is so SPECIAL and unqiue OKIE! hahas, enjoy ur life at RP! oh ya, stop lying to me that u and her has game over hor, it is so not fun le okie! LOLS! try other new tricks ah! LEE GENG YUAN TANG DI, coming to IJ le ah! hahas, yay! i can see him more often and i try my best to abuse him more, well, da shi teng, ma shi ai okie! hahas! PLEASE, stop gaming till u no sleep okie! u are like robert liddat, game, slp, eat, shit! LOL, spend more of ur time on nagging me to do my homework can? oh ya, got problems come ask me, dont ask ur brother as he dont know how to give u the best advice as i do okie :X LOL! alrights, zk and gy, takecare and i love u guys too! LOVES LOVES LOVES!

XIAOXIN! my bestest boy friend and xiaodi! HEY, thanks for always be there for me to hear all my nonsense, craps, problems, and happiness! hahas, i do will be there for ya! i know u are a very strong boy and will solve things by urself and never let me worry about you! hahas, in fact, u are too strong that make me worry about u okie! hahas! he ah, very funny and lame i must say, never see him cool cool look one! i will never forget all the lame jokes he told me and he always pei he me in crapping! not only that, the shyness in me whenever i see him, which i still could not stop being so shy in front of him! LOLS, but i will never be shy to him ONLINE! hahas! well, must remember to study as next year is ur O levels le ah, do not give urself too much stress as i know u will do better if u are not in stress mode! hope u find a good GF and be happy always! hahas, please be a good boy and listen to what i say always! OBEY me okie! hahas! alrights, takecare and friends for life okie! DA JIE and XIAODI forever ah! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

LEX! My one and only halfDI! hey, know you this year ah! LOLS, it is great knowing you as u are so nice! hahas, remember how good am i in suaning u in the library! LOLS, saying u this and that, hoho, i hope it doesnt make u have any sad memory! LOLS, i think u love my suan-ing right! LOLS, both of us love old songs right, we are going to be oldies! LOLS! i know i always ask u to go and sleep, but u must know, it is all for ur own good okie :X LOLS! thanks for being lame with me always, it is good to have u as a great lamer! LOLS! remember to take good care of urself! never give urself too much stress! u are smart okie, no need give urself so much stress in ur studies and also ur cca okie! must remmeber to take enough rest and learn to be strong! alrights, friends for life, half JIEdi forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

POIXIN! my bestest girl friend and ultrawoman! this little girl here is always the best u can ever find on this world, although we know each other not that long, i think is 2years+! i still remmeber that i know her through my nu er` lover- tania! remember how loudly she can shout my name and make me go OMG OMG OMG! lols, she is always the cute little girl that i know, no change at all! not only that, she always high with me when we talked about ultraman! LOL, thanks for being such a sweet little girl to me, i love ya so much! next year O levels le ah, must remember to take good care of urself, eat more more, slp more more, study more more, play more more and of cos i love u more more! just remember, no matter what happens, i am sure there are alot of people there for you, especially your 3 little angels friends- anqi, diann, xinni! so be happy always! friends for lyfe okie, my ultrawoman! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

TANIA! my nu er ` lover! hey, must thanks u for being so OMG nice always! LOLS, hope u still enjoy ur SJAB life okie! hahas, remmeber to train hard and next year it is going to be a more busy year for ya! no matter what happens, must still keep in contact with ya because u know that i love ya! LOLS, oh ya, study hard for ur exams ah, next year O levels le ah! LOLS! hoho, i will remember all the fun and happy times we had in the past, SJAB has make me know such a great person like you! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

SHUHUI, my qingaide! QINGAIDE~~ LOLS! we are qing ai de for so long! the time when we spend in library talking instead of studying! thanks for always being there for me when i need you! never fails to make me go =/ when u are so crazy with my little brother! i know ur wish list sure got wanting to marry ur little boyfriend de ah, well, i shall try my best to abuse him and let u cry! LOLS, no la, just kidding! stop saying that i am crazy and say that u cannot tahan me and ask people to save u! i will now tell you that, i am not crazy and no one will want to save u okie! LOLS! remmeber to stay happy with clown okie! stop thinking so so so much ah, stop ur wild thoughts, instead spend ur time on thinking me ah! i think this will make u more happy because i will make u happy okie! LOLS! please, take good good care of urself, dont make me worry as u know i will go OMG OMG when i know u are not okie! hehe, so love urself more! i will always be there for ya when u need me, just sms me and i will call u okie! no matter how far am i, i will always fly to u as fast as i can to be by ur side to listen to all ur problems! OH YA, STUDY HARD TOO OKIE! friends for life, qingaide forever okie! muackies! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

AIN, my dumb clown! HEY, thanks for ur wonderful memory of telling how u become my clownl if not i also forget le! hahas, u have a SUPER SUPER GREAT memory okie! stop being so dumb ah, learn to be as smart as me! i know i am not that smart, but at least smarter than u right xD LOL! oh ya, i know u are super busy always with ur activities, please try to save some time to meet me up as i know i miss ya! LOL, treat my qingaide nice okie, if she notti, tell me, i will HAHAS, know what to do with her! LOLS, please do not say i am siao always and say that i keep laughing! well, i didnt laff much, is u laff so little ah! thanks for sending me songs when i ask u for songs, u are so nice okie! LOLS, well, take care ah! remmeber to take enough rest! oh ya, STUDY HARD TOO! HOHO, takecare and friends for life! be my dumb clown forever okie! HAHAS, LOVES LOVES LOVES-

KYE, my teddy bear! BOO! TEDDYBEAR, TEDDYBEAR, RUNNING HERE AND RUNNING THERE, TEDDYBEAR! hahas, i will sing this song whenever i get to see her online! LOLS, she is cute i must say, but not as cute as shuhui ah! LOLS, well, teddy bear must cheer up ah, i know she got problems but i do not really know well! sorry that i was not able to help ya, but i will be there for ya when u need okie! although i keep saying JC is better than POLY, but it is a fact that JC is better! LOLS, remember to enjoy ur days and study hard! dont study maple, i think it is useless! LOLS, next year all of us will be busy again, so it means less meet up! argh, well no matter what happens, i am sure i will keep myself update with ur entries! heyhey, take care and friends for lyfe! hoho, be my teddy bear forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

BRENDA, my mummy! NU ER LOVES MUMMY! hahas, this mummy here is very cute ah, she always say mummy loves ya~ LOLS! alrights, mummy, i know u love me and i love ya too! LOLS, she is so cute that i am going to love her so much! LOLS, thanks for always telling me on what to do when i face any problems, never fails to give me a shoulder pat, never fails to ask me to take care! LOLS, well, mummy, AJ good school ah, so u must study hard hard! dont feel discourage when u see ppl with good results, i am sure u are as smart as them! it is just that u haben activate ur smart cells, so activate them next year okie! it is because, next year is A levels! LOL, next year we shall study together if possible! LOL, time for mummy to coach me in my studies! hahas, be a good mummy, please remmeber to cook nice food for me! LOLS, remember to stay happy always! mummy got problems must always come find me okie! i will be there for ya always like you do! NOT ONLY THAT, I LOVE YA SO SO SO MUCH AH! friend for lyfe, mummy and nu er forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

HUIZE, my teacher! HEY, teacher, please take good care of urself and stop here and there injure okie! u ah, sick le always dont wanan take care, how can a teacher behave liddat! so notti onli, later i dont wanna do my hw, study for my test, even worse, quit school! LOLS! i know u are so free this year right, next year i make sure u are going to be busy as i am going to pester u everyday if i can! LOLS, oh ya, thanks for all ur care and concern okie, never fails to make me happy! as ur student, i will do u proud one okie, i will make sure i score well for my exams! LOLS, so u must in return, take good care of urself! lets go for more sun tanning okie! LOLS! friends for lyfe and teacher and student forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

not forgetting, jingjie and han inn! OMG, lovely people! i am so happy that i know u guys! although we do not know each other that long, but it seem like we chatted so much the first time we see each other! this is call fate ah! LOLS, alrights, i love them so much too! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

i hope there will be more outing for us next year, and lets spend more time with each other! different school doesnt means we are not going to be as close as before! we are going to be as close as each other! alrights, i love them to the bits! muacks to the 7 of them ! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

WEELING! my bestest buddy! SURPRISE TO SEE ur name here? well, i think u know i will surely blog about u one right! LOLS, hey hey, it has been 6years since we know each other le, of cos 4years to our close-ness! bestest bud, thanks for being such a good buddy to me, i think i always tell u all my problems i faced! LOL, not only that, i listen to ur problems as well okie! remember how u ask me to chill and how i ask u to relax! LOLS, life is always good with u ard, u never fails to make me happy! although we are in different school now, but i know that the bestest buddy that i have always will be YOU YOU YOU! see that, it is only YOU! LOLS, remmeber to take good care of urself! study hard, be the top of ur class okie! not only that, we are going to celebrate each other b'dae, sms more, and love each other more! hahas! well, cheers to our friendship, and so friend for lyfe, BESTEST BUDDY FOREVER! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

5/1! my loveliest class! argh, i miss the times when we spend in 2005! the last year in school has make everyone of us cherish each other more x) the walk walk times, the crazy times and of cos the studying times! we never fail to encourage each another! we always make each other stronger and stronger thanks u guys for being so encouraging! i cherish our friendship build from 2003 to 2005, some 2001 to 2005! now, everyone of us has go into the places where we want, i hope all of you will be happy always! rememeber to keep in contact always and lets have more outing! MINI outing also can! hehe! i am sure we are going to be the best class ever in RSS! hehe, 3 cheers to 5/1! i love 5/1 2005! friends for lyfe! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

o612b! the most happening class ever, no matter is jae or pae, we belong as only one class, thats o612b! well, it is u guys who added so many colors in my JC lyfe! my lyfe is never boring with each and everyone of u in class! this year has been a terrible year for us especially the promos, but i am glad the whole class promote! not only that, next year, we will be using tablet for our lessons! 12b is great right! we will encourage each other, no matter what happens, we shall give each other support to make sure everyone of us STAND! i will remember the times when i am so afraid to go for camps, it is u guys who make me feel that camps are so nice and not so scary afterall! sometimes i am sorry that i am so noisy in the class! LOLS, thanks all of u for being so so great! i love u guys, lets all do well for our A levels okie!! i am sure each and everyone of us can do well! friends for lyfe! classmates forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

my ij037! the one who i spend most of my time with during 2006! OH NO, PW really make the 5 of us went OMG OMG, argh! LOLS, i am sure there are alot of times when we share our happiness with each other! HAHAS, all of us make each other laugh so hard always, never fails to help each other in PW! hahas, PW make us united! HOHO, i love u guys! i love PW as well! so pw mates forver okie! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

my LOVELYclique! the wonderful clique i have! thanks being such a nice clique! although each and every one of us has different personality but we do love each other! i love each and everyone of u too! so clique mates forever, LOVES LOVES LOVES-

MR NONSENSE-VICENTE! heyhey, thanks for being such a nonsense to me okie! LOLS, all u know is just yea right, nonsense la u! LOLS, alrights BOO! over! stop saying that i online everyday! LOLS. i know u are always so busy that u will never have the time to slp! HEY, please sleep more more mroe more okie! stop spending ur time going here and there, oh ya, please do not study so hard le okie! STOP STUDYING SO SO SO SO HARD LE AH! u are so crazy when exams are coming! learn to relax urself, must also love urself more ah! LOLS! well, be more nonsense next year! LOLS, i hope we do spend time nonsense-ing with each other next year! LOLS, please do not be so crazy can le okie! hahas, takecare, study hard okie! friends for life! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

SHIGEHISA! OH NO, the one who got super power that make me happy always! hahas, i do not know why he got such great super powers in making me happy! well, never mind! it is really great to KNOW HIM! lols, although he is very lame sometimes, well he is dao as he dont smile! LOLS, i am going to his house this coming new year! LOLS, i am going to go his purple room! LOLS, hey, takecare and do study hard! friends for life! HOHO, u are great okie! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

XIAOMEINV-yunxuan! HEY, ur little xiao shuai ge left a message for ya! are u very gan dong! hehe, xiao mei nv ah! ni yao kai xin okie! haha, got xiao shuai ge pei ni ler, ni yao geng kuai le! hahas, must remmeber to take care of urself and dont let urself fall sick ler, if not i heart pain okie! HAHAS, remember that we are going to be DAO people next year! LOLS! i love my xiaomeinv, muacks! so friends for lyfe! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

CHESSMATE-EDDIE! OMG, it is so nice to know ya as my CHESSMATE! hahas, one match of chess make me know such a great person like you! HAHAS, i will never forget the times u want to kidnap me with the BOX okie! it will always be in my mind, so dont try to kidnap me again! WHY NOT I KIDNAP U? lol xDD hahas! aniway must study hard la, stop playing so much chess le ah! LOLS! where is the different carpets that we welcome each other? LOLS xDD next time shall go orchard and play chess okie! hahas! study hard! i am so happy to know ya! takecare and friends for life! oh ya, chess mate forever ah! LOVES LOVES LOVES!

COACH-KOKLOONG! OMG this small little boy is my coach, it is so unbelieveable! LOLS! well, dont see him small small, he run pro, skate pro, cycle also pro! hahas, overall everything also pro! LOLS! well, he is funny okie! hahas, i think he loves receiving letters! hahas, so i must write millions of letters to him next time! LOLS, hey, study hard! hahas, oh ya, my F.O.C coach, thanks for teaching me okie! hahas! well, lets go skate the next time round! hahas, friends for lyfe and be my coach forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES!-

YUSI-GF! OH MY WONDERFUL GF! ARGH, it has been so long i see u le! sch reopens must really spend more time with ya! let me craps more with u! hahas, i still remember how i know you and the times when we go to fb together! it has always been so fun! hahas, not only that the times we went so crazy over KS? hahas, well, next year is A le hor, u study hao hao okie? hehe, must remember got anithing can come and find me okie! friends for lyfe and GF forever! hahas, LOVES LOVES LOVES!-

ERIC-BRADA! HEY BRADAAAAAAAA! LOLS, i still remember how i know ya de ah! LOLS, is through YUSI! hahas, remember the times i was complaining to you about the someone and make u go OMG =/ LOLS! then we will be laffing so loudly! hey brada, next year new class right! must enjoy urself in ur new class, hahas, lets study hard for As okie! hahas, friends for lyfe and BRADAAAAA forever! hahas! LOVES LOVES LOVES!-

not forgetting,
NIK, SHUFEN, XINYU, JIEYING, SHIFANG, FANGFANG, JEFFREY, CHERLY, ANGIE, PURPLE, CHARLOTTE, AND OTHER JC-MATES!

ALL MY FLOORBALL MATES, IJC - WALLA WALLA [washo], IJC - DAKOTA [ingalik]!

i must thanks every one of u that make me feel that my days are so great with u guys ard, my JC life is better because of you guys as well! friends for lyfe okie! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

SLP<3 - SEE SEE UR NAME APPEAR FIRST! my SLP! omg, this SLP here is really OMG, great! hahas, she is always there listen to all my craps and also to craps with me! LOLS, go shopping with her is fun ah, cos she dont know what to buy! hahas, i think i am more undecisive than her ah! LOLS! SLP, next year study triple science le ah, must jia you okie! dont be so stress hor! if not i will go omg omg! hahas, take real good cares of urself! hahas, love urself is also love me! hahas, thanks for being so nice too! LOVE YA SO MUCH! friends for lyfe, SLG&SLP forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

HOTHOT sweet LAO DA! hey, alvino LAO DA! omg, u are going to army so so so soon le okie! ARGH, must take care okie! hahas, i still remember this lao da here abit =/ cos he doesnt want to see a doctor when he is sick! he is just so WEIRD la! hahas, cannot tahan okie! hahas, but he is always nice as he always YWANS? hahas! thats so OVER! hahas, well, laoda, take care ah! hahas, finish A le so shuang rights! hahas! friends for lyfe and laoDA&XIAO forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES!-

kaixinguo-LONGYUN! argh, KAI XIN GUO AH KAI XIN GUO! hahas, this kai xin guo here is forever so OMG, nonsense! hahas, he cannot be normal one i think! hahas, he is just so crazy la! he is nice ah cos he listen to my craps! hahas, then he will say still ultraman ah? OMG, thats enuff! hahas, who ask u dont wanna study in IJ to wait for me ah, thats so BAD! hahas, alrights, takecare! hahas, friends for lyfe and kaixinguo forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES!-

MY HOUSE OF LAMERS!
-ALL MY DADDY, MUMMY!
-ALL MY KORKOR, JIEJIE!
-ALL MY DIDI, MEIMEI!
-ALL MY ERZI, NUER!
-ALL MY NUER`MEI!
-ALL MY GRANDSON, GRANDAUGTHER!
-ALL MY SAIDI, SAIMEI, SAINUER!
-ALL MY LAMEDI, LAMEMEI, LAMENUER!
-ALL MY DOCTORS, BINGREN, TEACHER, AND LOTS!
-ALL MY HAPPYPILLS!
-ALL MY BAOBEI!
-ALL MY LAOGONG, LAOPO!
-ALL MY LOVERS-DARLING, DARDAR, DEARDEAR, DEAR, DEAREST, AIAI, BELOVED, MISSTRESS, WAIYU, QINGREN, SWEETHEART, GF, GIRLFRIEND AND LOTS!
-ALL MY LOVES ONES!

all my classmates from sec 1 till sec 5!
all my school mates from riverside!
all my SJAB mates too!
ALL THE WONDERFUL MATES I KNOW FROM RIVERSIDE!

thansk each and everyone of us who make me so happy always! so rememeber to be happy always! hahas, friends for lyfe and LOVES LOVES LOVES-

i must always thanks my primary school mates and also my primary school classmates, 6G! i love each and everyone of u guys!

and also all my primary 1 to primary 6 classmates!
all my qihua primary schoolmates!
my chiormates in primary school!

thanks you guys for adding so much colors in my life! OMG, friends forever! LVOES LOVES LOVES!-

i also didnt forget those people who i know through friends, friendster or anywhere else! thanks for being my friends!
OH YA, also my tution friends! thanks for making up those tution times so happy in the past! hahas, friends forever right! ((: LOVES LOVES LOVES!-

i just wanna wish all my friends, HAPPY NEW YEAR! LOVES!! LOVES!!

so everyone, happy new year! stay happy always! LOVES-!

alrights, finish blogging! x) takecare! good bye!

SENTOSA; LOVES-

2006-12-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

i am back to update my blog again! x) hoho, i am red in color now! hahas, tanning is nice eh, but the pain is terrible! LOLS!

15-12-2006; FRIDAY- SENTOSA! meet up with huize*teacher!, shuhui*qingaide!, brenda*mummy, jingjie*new friend! and YK*new friend!(i dont know how to spell his name) at woodlands! then we went to SENTOSA! hoho, the juroney is long! very long! hahas, i nearly die of the long journey :x hahas! i did not die, as i was crapping with them, they are so lovely la! hahas! shuhui gave me one small letter, which she dont allow me to reach on the bus! hahas, SO cute la she! not only that, shuhui and me also talked about what happened recently ah, hahas, update her with all my information! hahas! then reached habour front finally, then han inn*new friend! was there already! HOHO! then we took the bus to sentosa! YAY*

reached sentosa, went to take the duno wadd line bus to 7-11 to buy food and drinks! then we went to the beach! hahas, i forget which beach we went to! hahas, alrights, the SUN is hot! then we were talking instead of tanning there! hahas, talking about ghost stories in the afternoon! hahas, crazy us! hahas, then we went to play in the sea! hahas, played with the ball that huize brought! hahas! after that, tanning time! hahas, i wasnt really tanning, just sit under the big hot sun! hahas, huize, jingjie, yk were tanning front, brenda, han inn and shuhui were tanning their back! hahas, so funny! hahas!

after awhile, most of us went into the sea and played! hahas, i was sitting down there talking to shuhui and brenda! we talked about so many things, we seem to wish holidays will never end! hahas, as we were talking, we also find those heart shape red small sand! then brenda mummy bring us to see a beautiful place? hahas, i dont know where is it but the place is quiet! hahas! then we took pictures! hahahs, i think YK is the onli guy so he took pictures for us! hahas xDD our camera-man! lalala xDD

around 3+pm, we went to bath and also change! hahas, so many people! hahas! after bathing, we also take pictures! hahas, then all of us went to eat dinner together at the hawker center! hahas, the chicken rice was not bad! hahas! after dinner, jingjie and han inn went to take mrt, while huize, shuhui, brenda, yk and me went to take bus! hahas, the jourey was long again! hahas!

reached woodlands finally around 8pm! brenda*mummy went home to sleep as she is tired, PIGGY mummy! then huize*teacher went to meet up with her colleges, while shuhui*qingaide and me went to meet up with clown*ain, kye*teddybear and 2 of their friends! hahas, they wanna go foodcourt eat dinner but no space so we went to blk 300+ to eat! hahas, i did not eat as i am very full! >.< then took pictures with clown and teddybear! OH NO, LOVELY friends again! LOVES- after they had taken their dinner, i went home first while they went to buy something! hahas! reached home at 930pm! hahas, LOVES-

today is so nice! hahas, like what shuhui*qingaide says today get to meet all my LOVES one! hahas, i meet HUIZE*TEACHER! BRENDA*MUMMY! AIN*CLOWN! KYE*TEDDYBEAR! AND OF COS SHUHUI*QINGAIDE! they are always my love ONES! argh, just love them so much till i also want to go crazy! i must really thanks my qingaide this time, because she planned this thing! hahas, it is great to spend ur day with ur love ones especially them! although all of us are different schools, hahas, well, only shuhui and ain same school >.< LOLS! the time that we spend together were so little now, but no matter how far we are, they are always my lovely friends who i depend and love alot! just cant live without them! hahas! LOVES-

hahas, not only that, the new friends i know today were great too! HAHAS, JINGJIE is really pretty! i think we talked so much, hahas, really know how to craps and lame! ALRIGHTS, lovely GIRL, I LOVE! then HAN INN! she is also very pretty! LOVE tanning ALOT! hahas, can jokes and be crazy together! LOVELY girl again! hahas! LOVES- LOVES-

shuhui*qingaide came up with such a great idea on next year event! hahas, she is so smart till i got nothing to say u see! hey qingaide, thanks for ur letter, it is so touching! i know what to do, no worries! I LOVE U TILL I DIE OKIE! by the way, u see whether i got miss out any important details that u want me to blog, if got, tell me, i edit for ur sake! hahas! loves-

i just love today so much! those pictures are sweet memories to me! let me go crazy with them again and again! I JUST LOVE them so much! lets have more outing okie! LOVES-

14-12-2006; THURSDAY! went to junrong point with my siblings! hahas, reached there, first time is to eat my lunch! hoho, i am really hungry! hahas, bought food for them too! spend around $20 on just FOOD only! hahas, then we went walked walked, didnt really buy things until we went to the wallet shop! hahas, i bought myself a wallet, my sis a wallet and the other sis a pencil case! hahas, just hope that they feel happy ah! hahas, around 7pm+ we went home! hahas, went to buy icecream for them before going home, while my litte brother bough sweets and chocolates! hahas! HOME SWEET HOME!

i just love my siblings so much also! LOVES-

well, i think thats all about today! hahas, i wanna go watch tv with my family ler! family time, LOVES- TAKECARE everyone!

2DAYSSS! x) - Dec. 13, 2006 at 07:57 AM
ALRIGHTS, I AM BACK AGAIN TO UPDATE MY BLOG!

YESTERDAY- 12-12-2006 > went for my cca morning runs in school! run 5 rounds and did some stretching? did i spell it correctly? hahas, then it ends around 830! so i went home and took a bath and sat down there watching VCD! i was watching LA BI XIAO XIN! then watch yi xia, feel head very giddy so i went to sleep again!

hahas, woke up and on the computer! hahas, surf the nets and then went to watch YU LE BAI FEN BAI! it is not nice, so i decided to watch VCD again! hahas, xiao ding dang this time round! hahas! then my sister came back from work and bought food! hahas, NICE! hoho :X i drank my lychee green tea! hahas, it is super nice! lalala xD aftter that went online and chat with friends! hahas!

after that went to watch tv with my sisters! alrights, i saw the 4x400m relay! i went OMG, are they humans! then my mummy also watch with us! hahas! then my mummy turn in while my second younger sister and i were doing so stretching? hahas, trying to break myself up! hahas :X but it is always nice! x)

TODAY-13-12-2006 > went to school for fb training! hahas, ran 3 rds and start doing those dont know what it is call! hahas, training ends at 1030! agreed to meet up with my sister because she got track and field! then meet up with my tang ge first because he needs to give me money! HOHO! before that, went library find bestest bud*weeling and jazz nuER! bestest bud was studying for her exams! hahas! then her friend came, i think is cindy if i remember the name correctly! hahas, finally my tang ge came around 1150! SLOW ah he! hahas, then we went to meet up with my sister who just reaced causeway point! hahas!

walked around, did not saw the thing i wanna to buy! so i need to go other place and hunt for it ler! sad! then my sister and i send my tang ge to CWP door and say bye to him! after that, my sister and i went to buy something! hahas, finally we went home! reached home at 1pm! bathed and then slacked again! hahas, watched VCD again! xiao ding dang! hahas, well, my sister bought me curry puff today! HOHO x: thanks for ur treat! hahas!

watched tv with my family! hahas, played games with my sisters! my daddy is funny, he is playing games now! hahas, so ren zhen ah! hahas, my sisters are playing also! hahas, wadd onli!

YAY! friday going sentosa with my LOVELY ones! HOHO! cant wait! LOVES-

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RAINBOW x)

2006-12-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

BOO! hahas, i am back to update! so, hello everyone!

11-12-2006 > today i went town with my SLP*JingEr! hoho, so happy la! hahas, finally get to see her after super super long time! meet her at 1230 at CWP after her self-training with her friends! i reached CWP, and go to B1 and happened to see her with her friends! hahas, then all of us went to foodcourt to eat lunch! alrights, her friends are crazy, can hungry till no strength! hahas, quite funny ah! then i was not hungry, so i didnt eat! after that, SLP and me went to town, while the rest go to dont know where!

reached town, went to far east shopping centre! hahas, the shop was CLOSED! wadd only, i nearly kill myself on the spot! hahas, then we went to i dont know where! just know we went hunting for SLP's adidas jacket instead! hahas, went around looking at town! after much thoughts, we decide to go vivo, to try our luck to see whether there are more jackets! so we make our way there!

reached vivo's adidas shop! not that many varieties that i expected, hahas, so SLP tried a few jackets! finally she decided which jacket to buy, they say that there is no M size for what she wants! SO omg, then asked them whether which places got the size of that design, they say the place, which i dont know where! so we went back to around plaza singapura there! hahas, we are like playing some games, travelled here and there! before going to PS, went to the rooftop of vivo! OMG, the scenery there is so so so NICE! i love that place so much now! hahas, then SLP ate the cake that i bought for her! hahas, LOVES-

reached that place! WOAH, more adidas jackets! so SLP tried the brown adidas jacket that her sis say! hahas, it looks rather weird! then after that, she try one more! hahas, after alot alot alot alot of considerations, she bought the jacket finally! hahas, black with red strips! it is nice, hahas, looks nice on my SLP! hahas, then we went back home! OMG, i am so tired but it is nice to spend time with my SLP! hahas! then finally went back to woodlands!

before going home, i gave SLP the card that i wrote! then SLP went to meet her sis for dinner and i went back home to eat dinner! finally i reached home! HOME sweet HOME!

i hope the trip today was not bored for my SLP! hope she is happy with the jacket she bought and enjoy today! LOVE my SLP so much! hahas, thanks SLP for today! lets go kallang one day ah! tml she is going to thailand liao, oh no! i miss my SLP, argh, enjoy urself okie! remember to take care also ah! LOVES, LOVES, LOVES-

OH YA, xiaowei came back today, received his sms! YAY-ness! hahas, finally he is back! can crap with him liao! hahas, alrights, finally i can dont waste time missing him liao! LOVES-

chatted with mr nonsense just now! hahas, he is so crappy! funny la he, he smsed me to ask me to call him and i didnt see the sms! then he called me, then i faster asked him hang up so i can call him, see, i dont want him to waste money! hahas! he is forever nonsense one la! hahas, hey, mr nonsense, take good care of urself okie! hahas, shall go and check his msn now! he told me something, but i do not know what he is talking, so he asked me to go check it out myself better! LOVES-

10-12-2006 > yesterday, went out with my mummy to the NTUC to buy something! hahas, bought so many things! haha, it is always with my mummy around :x stayed at home for the whole day and slacked! my back are aching! hahas!

09-12-2006 > went out to meet nana at 11pm at admiratly! hahas, saw teddybear and chatted with her! hahas, she is still as cute as before, LOVES- then nana and me headed to yishun! hahas, we went to buy some food and drinks before going to OCC to meet up with the rest! reached OCC, saw shujuan, xinfang, huiyang, zhongxun, vinCENT, clarence, linkai and jeffrey! then they played while nana and me chatted!

after that we left OCC. nana and me headed to queenstown, huiyang and clarence went home, xinfang, shujuan, zhongxun, linkai and vinCENT went to harbourfront! nana and me chatted so many things on the way to queenstown! reached queenstown, we went to shop around there! OH NO, there are so many things at queenstown, so many things i wanna buy the next time i go there! hahas, then nana and me ate the katong laska! HOHO, it is nice i think! i gave nana the prawns because i dont like! thanks nana! then walked around again and soon we went home because nana was tired! hahas!

took mrt back to woodlands and meet up with my sis! hahas, on the way, saw zhilun and his friend! hahas, meet up with sis and we headed to novena! hahas, funny la! it is the first time we went there! we went there walked walked and saw many things! after that, we went to paya lebar, i dont know how to spell! went there and saw many bags there! HAHAS, my sis wanna buy one bag but i stop from her from buying due to some reasons! oh ya, there are many clothes also! hoho, next time go there again with my sister!

after that we went back to causeway point to meet my family for dinner! hoho, we ate chicken rice, my favourite! after eating, we went to take neoprints! family neoprints, LOVES-! then we went walking around and went to buy bubble tea! hahas, saw veronica*mei and vivien*mei! hoho, long time no see them ler ah! then mummy and sister wanna go metro while my daddy, my other 2 sisters, brother and me stayed outside! hahas, i sat on the floor as my legs are tired :x hahas, so no YI TAI, but nvm! then went back home!

finally reached home and online straight away! HOHO, chatted with my friends! hahas! then went out and watched the show that my youngest sis helped me and my sis to record one! hahas, XIAO YU ER YU HUA WU QUE! hahas, NICE! then 3am+, my sis and i were doing all sorts of nonsense things la! we are just like going to break ourselves la! hahas, we are crazy!

maybe i had been thinkin too much recently! rainbow after the rain! x)
i am so tired now :x hahas, there is training for tml! hahas! so everyone sleep well, be happy! x)

BACK BACK BACK!

2006-12-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

alrights, i am back to update my blogger again! LONG TIME NO UPDARE LER AH!
did nothing for these few days, just slacked myself! it is always nice to slack, i love slacking! hahas! oh ya, chatted with my crazy cousin! hahas, he is forever crazy! HIGHLIGHT MY HAIR, i think he is crazy! hahas! i love my crazy cousin! hahas!
xiaowei LEFT SINGAPORE! argh, he is back in 5days time! heyhey, hope he take good care of himself! LOVES-
chatted with ij037! hahas, OMG, long time since we had our R-chat! hahas, every one is back in singapore now! we got our R-na, R-long, R-wen, R-kai and lastly me, R-hui! hahas, we are going to have ONE MORE OUTING! IJ037! hahas, finally got one more outing! hahas, lets take one more neoprints too! hahas, I LOVE IJ037! LOVES LOVES LOVES LOVES-
chatted with my halfdi*LEX TOO! hahas, he is forever so tann! hahas, he is half clever and half dumb, because the other half is with me! hahas! alrights, LOVES-
chatted with my xiaodi*xiaoxin too! hahas, oh ya, i called him halfdi yesterday! OH NO, i am crazy! hahas, hey xiaoxin, dun be so lame ler la! hahas!
hey, michelle*NUER! i update my blog le ah, better feel honoured hor! hahas! oh ya, fix date then can go out wadd! u fix, i go! hahas, LOVES-
hey qingaide* SHUHUI! so nonsense la she! hahas, i think she is crazy! hahas, alrights, break up then let u flirt until u happy okie! hahas! LOVES-
the breaking part is just my usual craps, hahas, i still LOVE her so much u see! hahas, QingAiDE, dont u love me so much too! hahas, yesterday i found the letter that u wrote to meet me in the library to study! hahas, WAN ME SHOW U? hahas, sweet memories and i was laughing when i saw the letter ah! lets me write on letter for u one day, i will make sure u will cry and cry after reading the letter okie! hahas, QingAiDe, i love ya okie! hahas, LOVES LOVES LOVES- i will LOVE u for life okie! CHEERUP hor, dont let ur mood being affected by those ants ah! cute la u! hahas, i will bring ur little boyfriend who is my brother out one day and let u see him again okie! hahas, LOVES-
jinger*SLP! hey, dont say sorry to me! hahas, i love you so so so much! I LOVE MY SLP loads, muackies! LOVES-
BESTEST BUD*weeling! she must be so happy yesterday hor! hahas, I HELPED HER TO DO something! soemthing which can make her so so so HAPPY la! hahas, thanks for ur LAME way of letting me to forget ultraman ah! jia you for ur CT! hahas, LOVES-
lazy to blog somemore ler, so everyone, take care and goodBYE! loves-

DOWN- - Dec. 05, 2006 at 07:00 AM
ARGH, screams! i am feeling so fan now! i dont know what has happened to me and i am feeling so vexed now! the feelings is terrible! HORRIBLE! it can kill me! SCREAMS! i hate it but i cant make it go away at all!

it has been a long time that i chatted with my dearest clown-ain, qingaide-shuhui, teddybear-kye, teacher-anzel and mummy-brenda! all of us seem to be always busy and do not have time to meet up! maybe i do not have the time but not them! i am always busy for my PW and studies before november! not only that, after that i still do not have time for them! seriously, why didnt i spend more time with them! i know i am not always there for them! i seem to sms them lesser also, why? maybe all the times, i just send those gretting sms to them! i do not send them sms that need them to reply it back to me! so maybe it is one of the reason! now i am free, but clown, qingaide, teddybear are studying, mummy working, teacher injured! argh, so no time also! lihui, when are you goinh to meet the 5 of them OUT one day! u are so bad to keep them waiting. sorry guys, but the day will come, i promise! now i am waiting for my qingaide to decide when to go east coast! LOVES-

not only that, i neglected my one and only siao ding dong sweet lao po, jinger! we know each other during my 1st 3mths in JC, after that we got closer! now we are stil close, just that i do not have time to spend with her! i got so many things to do, do not spend time chatting with her! well, we smsed each other, it is a way of letting me to show that i still remember her! maybe she will feel that my studies overtaken her in some ways, so i contact her so little! SLP, no worries, u will be my one and only SLP! LOVES-

someone is so serious now! too serious till i got a shock and i even thought that he is angry with me! seriously, i am thinking too much! he told me, that is the real him! oh no, he is so serious that he dont even have any haha, lol! argh, what has happened to him too! why did he changed so suddenly! well, i do not know what has happened but i think something has happened. i just hope that i am able to make him at least haha, lol one time! if not, i will be more vexed! LOVES-

clarence told me he is going to die soon and his reasons are so crazy and funny! well, i am not laughing but i feel that he should face the reality! clarence, it is a fact that you could not change. LOVES-

my bestest bestie, nana chatted with me yesterday! both of us seem to talk so little nowadays! well, she is busy with the attachment! she told me that she is super angry yesterday, i dont know what has happened but i know who make her angry! well, nana, take care hor! i know u very tired, so rest well! LOVES-

my bestest bud - weeling is so stress this few days! hmmm, maybe not stress because she also dont know what happened. she just feel every little thing will piss her off! relax bestest bud, everything will be over soon! not only that, she told me we could only be angry when we want to be angry! so each and everyone of us should not be angry unless we want to be angry ah! same goes for bestest buddy, she do not want to be angry because she got me as bestest buddy! arlights, this is so bu yao lian! BUT! we are always bestest buddy, XIN LING XIANG TONG ah! remember to update ur blog often if ya got time. oh ya, remember to take alot alot of care hor! dont overwork, rest more! i know ur Common Test coming, so all the best for you too! LOVES-

i chatted with my bestest boyfriend, xiaoxin too! yap, i told him about the incident that make me sad until i wish i am dead! other than that, we are just lame-ing around and crapping with each other! my life is good with this bestest boyfriend i had! i also didnt forget my bestest girlfriend` ultrawoman, who is my poixin! seriously, i love them! they are my bestest boygirl friend always! LOVES-

xiaowei had gone for class chalet! i missed him! he always make me feel better by just chatting with each other! maybe i feel so much happier even if just BOO! it is just those happiness that i found when i chatted with him! now he is not online, so nvm! i am going to be happy even though there is no him right! we got sms-ed today so we still got chat! LOVES-

my mr nonsense! i hope he is fine now! it has been a long long time he called me! well, just a few days? alrights, it is consider long to me as we chatted everyday during the exams period! not only that, we also chatted when either one of us is bored! it is always so causal chat but sometimes we will chat some matters that are so secretive! not only that, i will always tell him what happened and how i feel! well, i miss his nonsense somehow! hey, i am going to register for the car thingy and i am going to tell him for sure! HAPPINESS spread, lets me share the joy with him! LOVES-

my LOVELY clique- nana, jinlong, fangwen, linkai, xinfang, clarence, huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun and vinCENT! argh, i miss every one of u la! we are going bowling this saturday, for those who can make it! i am so HAPPY! those who cannot make it, it is okie because i know we can hang out always one! my LOVELYclique, MY LOVES-

i got so much to say to all my friends! sorry, that i did not blog u guys down! maybe u guys will think i didnt blog means i forget u guys, dont worry, u all will always have a place in my heart, dont think i forget u all! i know that there are alot of friends there for me whenever i need u guys! just that i did not list u guys down! i know u guys will be there always, mentally, physically or in whatever ways! i am thankful that i found each and every one of u guys in my life! u guys make my life so beautiful, it is coloured with beautiful colours! my life is just so nice because of family, and of course, FRIENDS! u guys step into my life and left all the footprints, so i love each and every one of you! I REALLY LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS, no matter what role u play in my life, LOVES- LOVES- LOVES-

there are always so many people for me to care and concern with but i am not doing it always. i dont know whats the reason! maybe i will be there, but i do not know how to deal with it. maybe i will not be there, but just send one sms over to concern the person. i feel that all these have seem useless. it is no longer the care and concern ppl needed again. i failed to perform myself as a friend that concern all my friends.

my siblings make me smiled so hard for these few days! well, it is so funny! especially my youngest sister with all her funny expression and with my little brother naughty looks! not only that, my first younger sister also working, somemore she seem to injured nowadays! next, my second younger sister just came back from camp, so look rather restless! my daddy and mummy look the same! no change, good good! so my life is fun with my family always! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

i should be a good daughter and good sister from now on! sometimes i get so bad-tempered that everyone in the family will feel like killing me off! i want each and every of my family to be happy! LOVES-

i am disappointed with myself! argh, my stamina dropped so much! well, it is due to my laziness! argh, why am i so LAZY! now i am going to make up for my laziness! i want to improve my stamina, if not i will be CRYING out loud!

i feel there are so many things need to be done but i am not doing any of them! maybe i should sit down and start reflecting myself! reflect what has i done so far! reflect what are the wrongs and what are the rights! reflect should i continue the way i behave now! reflect what should i do for the future! reflect what is important to me now! reflect the main thing that i should pay my fullest attention to it! so many things for me to reflect but i am not doing any reflections! what has gone wrong with me, seriously, i dont know what is wrong!

i know i cant always tell myself and others that i am feeling so fan and i dont know what is the reason! it is time to reflect what is making me so fan! it is time for me to do some things about it! argh, time time. there are always so much time for me now but i am not using them wisely! LEE LIHUI, WHAT ARE YOU THINKING AND WHAT DO U THINK U SHOULD DO NOW!

i always find myself unable to cope suitations like this! i will always be stuck here blogging in order to let me feel better! i wonder how many times should i do this, why cant i sit down and think quietly! i always tell people what to do when they are stress, but in fact, i am the one who is unable to cope with all those stress! well, am i feeling stress! i wonder how can i be stress as there are no SCHOOL! argh, SIAO ah me!

i had weird dreams for the past two nights! why am i having such dreams! why why why! i dont understand, and i just woke up suddenly today at 7.25am! i opened my eyes and realised it was all a dream! it makes my heart feel so much better, if not i dont know what would i do! i told my youngest sister that i had dreamed of something that is so weird, well, maybe i had been thinking too much in the day so result in all this nonsense dreams!

maybe at this point of time, i am still feeling rather sad because of the things that had make me so sad. in fact, i do not know how to control my emotions always. in less than 2 weeks, i feel so sad for 3 times. the last time was the worst of all! seriously at that point of time, u can just kill me and make me disappear from this earth! it is foolish i think but that time, it is the only way to make myself feel no longer sad! i do not want to feel so sad over it, but i just cant control myself! argh, useless me!

overall, i am still the one who can only control my own moods and stuff!
so, it is time to start everything all over again.
so i should just continue my life like last time happily, but with more smiles, with more laughters! HAHAS!
not only that, shower more love and care to my family, friends, and whoever in this world that need it!
LOVES-

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SIGH! - Dec. 01, 2006 at 08:05 AM
alrights, i am feeling so sad now because someone just told me something! argh, i think he also feeling sad too ba! well, dont be sad okie, no matter what happens, the little group of us will be there for u! all of us love u, so dont care about others okie! LOVES-

my mr nonsense called, he was sad about alot of things! argh, he told me what happened so i am somehow affected by him too! argh, how can this happen! well, not only that, he is troubled by a lot of other things! dont be sad le hor mr nonsense, i will be there listen to whatever u want to tell me one! somemore he is so nice la, he introduced me duno to eat what that is good for my cough! HEY, THANKS! hahas, u are always so nice!!! HAHAS, LOVES LOVES LOVES!

clarence called me and chat yesterday! hahas, HE IS SO FUNNY OKIE! hahas, i talked to him until i also tired! LOLS! he dun wanna come ONLINE! SO BAD ONLY! LOLS, please COME ONLINE MR CLARENCE! hahas, i asked my little brother to talk to him also! hahas, guess he must be very happy la! alrights, nice chat! LOVES-

i am feeling rather weird nowadays!
maybe is i over sensitive again!
well,
nvm!
everything will be fine soon!
LOVES-

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19 DEC! - Nov. 30, 2006 at 07:27 AM
HELLO EVERYONE! i am back to update my blog!

well, i am sick now! argh, cough, flu, sorethroat and muscle aching on both my 2 arms! ALRIGHTS, IT IS VERY PAIN! i am feeling rather very uncomfortable as i keep vomitting out my food! so nonsense, nvm, it will be fine soon! argh, faster get well ah lihui!

today went for my cca! alrights, training wasnt that tough but it seem like i had not been training hard! ended at 1015am, so i went home!

reached home, bath and online! hahas, did not online whole day but MOST of the time of today! hahas, as usual! nvm!

ultrawoman make me happy today! LOLS, she got me very excited! hahas, i am going to meet her at 19DEC 2006 with shuhui*qing ai de! and tania*my nu er ` LOVER! hahas, great! finally get to meet my LOVES one out!

iWebMusic! argh! it say send verification mail to me but omg, i didnt receive! somemore my coach, that KOK LOONG GOT IT! HOW COME! SO JEALOUS LA! hahas, then decide to give him radioblog because it is BETTER! hahas! well, MY COACH IS SMART AH! NOT BAD NOT BAD! LOLS!

i am just feeling different today! sigh!

alrights, ONE MORE MONTH OF HOLIDAYS! argh, SHIT! there are still so many things no done! argh, so many HOMEWORK waiting but i did not even attend to them! hahas, well done man!

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TOWN! =D - Nov. 29, 2006 at 08:02 AM
BOO! i am back again after 2 DAYS! hahas, these 2 days just went out with friends and also family! LOLS!

tuesday - went out with mummy and siblings to CWP to eat chicken rice! TELL U GUYS, IT IS SUPER NICE! LOLS! i just love chicken rice so much! LOLS, then we went to popular and bought so many things! it is $130+ after 20% discount! LOLS, well, it is paid by my mummy! LOLS, we just take whatever we want! LOLS, then we went to buy bubble tea! LOLS, i got mango ice again! no one seem to say mango ice is nice except for my little brother! LOLS, he got good taste bud la! LOLS! then bough sushi back home! LOLS, got back home at around 6pm so i went bath then come ONLINE LER! LOLS!

chatted with many people yesterday! i chatted with allena! HMMM, it has been ages since we both last chatted! it is always nice to chat!! hey, enjoy urself ah! MEET OUT WHEN SCHOOL REOPENS! hahas! LOVES-

today - went for my CCA in the morning! hahas, did 1hour of warm up! then we sat down and chat! LOLS, not that we are slacking just that there are no BALLS! lols, so nvm! then i go home at around 9+am? reached home at 10am! LOLS, well, i walked home! LIHUI is great! LOVES-

then reached home, online and then went to bath and prepare to go out! LOLS =DD then i went out and meet zhongxun, shujuan, jeffrey and patrick! well, we went to bowling! LOLS, i just watch the 4 of them BOWL! LOLS! i was sitting there and watching like from 12pm to 2+pm! LOLS! then nana and clarence came! LOLS, finally we- nana, clarence, shujuan, zhongxun and me went to town! LOLS! hahas! OMG! town got so many things! hahas! well, i am going to BUY BUY BUY! LOLS! hmm, buy something for others too i guess! FRIENDS! x)) LOVES-

took neoprints with shujuan and NANA! lols! so fun! LOLS, well, we really shopped alot today! LOLS, we shopped until 7+pm! LOLS, finally reached home at 810pm! LOLS, then meet my sister at CWP! LOLS! alrights, went to cwp with my siblings, but not all >.< WE went to take neoprints! LOLS~! it is FUN, hoho! then buy bubble tea back home! LOLS! well, i drank lychee green tea this time round! my youngest sister say NOT NICE! argh, nvm! my little brother like lychee green tea too! HAHAS, WE GOT SAME TASTE ONE OKIE! LOLS!

i keep on sneezing just now! OMG, it is just so irritating! LOLS! I DUN LIKE FLU! argh! then muscle ache on both arms but my left arm is so so so PAIN! argh, i am like unable to move my left arm so WELL! hmmm, nvm! it will be FINE soon soon soon! LOLS! i also got sore throat and a slight cough! SO IRRITATING LA! sick is not GOOD! argh!

oh ya, I MET TIM JANG, my nu er AT TOWN! LOLS, TAKA i think! LOLS, it has been real long time since i last saw her! she finish her A levels ler! YAY for her! well, i know she will do well for her A levels de! x)) LOVES-

funny things happen la! today that clarence is choosing his jacket! WELL, ORANGE IS CONFIRM OUT FOR HIM! hahas, should say ALL THE BRIGHT COLOURS ARE OUT! lols, we were like telling him which jacket is NICE! WAD ONLY LA he! keep saying LIGHT BLUE~~ i feel dark blue is nicer! nana also feel dark blue is nicer! LOLS, SO DARK BLUE IS STILL NICER! LOLS, shujuan say the person there keep looking at us as we were choosing the jackets for him! LOLS! alrights, it is okie! LOLS!

chatted with nana on the mrt! it is always nice to chat with her! we chatted about so many things again! i understand when u worked so hard but others who are born smart always did so much better than u de feelings! argh, well, nvm! well, no matter what happens, her rq will be there, lihui will be there, ij037 will be there, LOVELYclique will be there, o612b will be there, her sec 2 gang will be there too! so no scare ah nana! we love you! LETS TAKE MORE CARDS NEOPRINTS AH! HAHAS, LOVES-

i called and chatted with my chessmate today! HAHAS, well, he called me too as i called him first! hmmm, i know it is confusing but nvm! hahas, we just chatted! hahas, we are quite fated as we both happen to be in town today but just that we did not meet each other! hahas, NVM! we shall play more CHESS at orchard! LOVES-

i am crazy liao! hahas, i wanna to learn how to do PUSH UP! argh, i want i want i want! then asked xiaowei how to do! LOLS, hmmm, just one word- DETERMINATION! LOLS, hahas, i hope i got enough determination! i shall try my push up as i cant even DO ONE! LOUSY LIHUI! BEN DAN LA! oh ya, thanks XIAOWEI SO MUCH! LOVES-

HELP ME WITH MY LEFT ARM!

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HAPPY B'DAE SIS! - Nov. 27, 2006 at 05:51 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SISTER, LEE YINGHUI! lols! FINALLY SHE IS 9 YEARS OLD! hahahahas, BIG GIRL le ah!

well, today did nothing much! stayed at home in the afternoon and went out with bestest buddy in the evening! argh, it had been so long since we hang out together ler! I MISS HER! x) she is just someone who can know me so well! somemore we always think alike, sometimes talk also same! MO QI! it is just the MO QI that we build over the last 2+years! hahas, we even live so near! LOLS, hey bestest buddy, i hope u like the gift! LOVESSSS- remmeber to study hard horrrr! LOLS! TOP THE CLASS PLEASE! HAHAS!

saw marvin, tinshen, aisha and faizal at CWP also! LOLS, I MISS OTHER CLASSMATES SO MUCH TOO! HAHAS, LOVES LOVES LOVES- oh ya, tml my lao pa, MR MARVIN LEONG b'dae ah! SO HAPPY 18TH B'DAE LAO PA! finally 18 liao la! LOLS, so hope u faster find a MUMMY FOR ME LA, I NEED ONE PLEASE! HAHAS, well, stay nice always! U KNOW WHERE MY HOUSE IS, PLEASE DO NOT COME AND BURN IT DOWN!! HAHAS!

i found out some shocking things yesterday! alrights, i am feeling so angry and also sad at the same time! how could this type of things happen again and again! argh, what is my life all about!

it is always happening over and over again especially when i do not wish to KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT LA! argh, well! I AM VERY VERY SAD! can say i sad over the whole day! even when i went out with my bestest bud although my heart is happy but my face just dont wanna to show my smile la! so bestest buddy, dont wu hui i am not happy okie! I LOVE her so much la, how can i be sad with her around! somemore she also know what happen to me! so nice my bestest buddy! hahas!

mr nice, vincent! i know you do not know what happen to me exactly yet u just keep telling me to cheer up! i really appreciate it, just that at that moment, i just feel i am really so dumb that i do not know how to pick myself up!

nana, thanks! she is always the one listening to me! hahas, thanks!! i will be there listening to whatever u want to say! hahas, i still remember wanting to call her to tell her what happen but she called me instead! such a sweet nana i had! NANA, LOVES- BESTEST BESTIE OKIE!

XIAOWEI! I MUST THANKS HIM SO MUCH! NO MATTER HOW SAD AM I, i just need to chat with him no matter is just a few lines, my heart feels so much better! i know you always did nothing and do not know why am i thankful to you, but i really feel so much better always! LOVES YA OKIE! LOVES-

alrights, linkai going hongkong! take care hor! argh, then fangwen still in m'sia and jinlong still in CHINA! only left nana and me in singapore. i am missing IJ037! argh, lets hang out often soon! LOVES-

am i doing that is worth it or not? sigh `

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LOVES- - Nov. 26, 2006 at 05:48 AM
WOOTS! I AM BACKIE!

sat and sun stayed at home with my family! the only time i went out is to have my guitar lesson and also to buy things with mummy! hahas, YAY* finally got time for them! LOVES-

today which is sunday! we hold a mini celebration of my youngest sister's b'dae which is 27th nov! HAHAS, we ordered pizza and also bought a small gift for her! HAHAS!

my room is messy again! i need to tidy my desk again! LOLS! i wonder how many times must i tidy in order not to be messy after a day or wadd! LOLS!

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ARGH! - Nov. 23, 2006 at 06:19 AM
alrights, i am back to update!

didnt do much these few days! hahas, just went for my COP at one pri sch! LOL. then everytime after COP also go walk walk to shop for people present! LOLS!

my fingernails got stuck in my skin! IT IS PAIN! SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE ME!

IJ037! JINLONG AND FANGWEN ARE LEAVING SINGAPORE. JL going to china while fangwen going to malaysia! ARLIGHTS, I WILL MISS THEM! loves-

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SAD- - Nov. 21, 2006 at 06:06 AM
SECOND TIME!
I AM FEELING SO SAD NOW!

FIRST TIME is when i go to here and there,
then saw something which make me rather sad!
because it is the second time happening.
somemore the person are both the same?
ARGH, i am feeling so SAD SAD SAD at the MOMENT!
seriously, can kill myself!

now IT HAPPEN FOR
THE SECOND TIME!
this time is the thing CAME to me without i want!
ARGH!
SERIOUSLY, WHY! HAIS.

i am feeling so strange since afternoon! maybe i heard something which i do not wish to hear,
why are all these strange things happening?

please control urself lihui.
not only others are hating you,
lihui is also hating you now.

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CHALET! - Nov. 19, 2006 at 07:21 AM
first, let me say,
my neat and tidy room on 12nov is messy again now! HAHAS,
this time round is onli the things are messy on just part of my desk! LOLS! well, girls? LOLS =X

next,
i need to thanks my wonderful ultrawoman to save my templates because it is very messy! hahas, my blog seem nicer ah although i know there is no different! i feel the diff in the blog! thanks ultrawoman! LOVES-

BACK FROM CHALET A WEEK AGO? LOLS!
now i shall blog whatever i remember! summary of it!
well, the chalet is fun! hahas, i LOVE o612b! we took real lots of pictures! hahas!

firstday- went to school for lessons first with our big big BAGS! hahas, so funny la! hahas, went to causeway point to buy tibits before going to downtown east! hahas, alrights, went there with nana, daph, clarence, huiyang, xinfang, clarence, linkai, shujuan and zhongxun! hahas, OMG, long EXPRESSWAY journey! hahas, reached there and saw guanhan, desmond, kelvin, billy, ryan, jianwen! went to see the guys played pool! hahas, NICE TIME SPEND WITH 12b!

then we went to eat our dinner! hahas, we ate like one big family! hahas, finally fangwen appear ah! LOLS, he duno is which class de lo :x hahas! then went back to the chalet! oh ya, our chalet is B12! hahas! nice one! went back and rest, bath! hahas, finally it is time to tell ghost stories! ARGH, i nearly die of hearing all those ghost storries! hahas! nvm, nice experience! hahas!

secondDAY- went to school with nana, daph! hahas, but we took the bus with shujuan, huiyang, zhongxun and vincent too! hahas, they are going out to eat breakfast! hahas, went to school for GP lesson! i am dying there :x hahas, then all of us slept like for one hour before daph and clarence got their physics lesson! hahas, so nana and me went to canteen! hahas, saw chessmate, shufen and nik! hahas, they taught me how to play BRIDGE! hahas, nice nice! chessmate is so JIAOHUA~ hahas, alrights, he is a nice guy actually! hahas! then went back to downtown east there with nana, huiyang, daph and clarence!

went back and ate our lunch! all of us ate chicken rice! hahas, OH YAY, chicken rice is always nicest! hahas, then went back! went to skate! hahas, oh no! i am a NOOB! actually i dun even know how to cycle even! OH NO! ben dan lihui, dont know how to skate or cycle! hahas, nvm! nana and daph held me, make me feel secure! argh, i got myself injured while skating! terrible! hahas, went back and saw jinlong, biyong, chandra, hanmun, jacob! hahas! YAYness! 12b is going to start BBQ~

hahas, BBQ is nice! hahas, mr clayton ang came with his girlfriend! hahas, good! took alot of photos by then! hahas, finally YY came, with his girlfriend! kelvin's gf came too! hahas, finally took 12b classpicture! hahas, i know not all 12b ppl are present, but nvm! must really thanks YY's gf for helping us! hehe, after the photos were taken, went to bath and then XX came! hahas, so long no see her le la! hahas, MISSher! oh ya, by the time, kelvin and his gf, YY and his gf had left! then alot of the 12b ppl are sleeping! so guanhan, billy, clarence and me went to see stars~ OMG, it is really very nice! hahas, LOVES LOVES LOVES-

thirdDAY- early in the morning went to eat breakfast with nana, daph, huiyang and clarence! hahas, NICE breakfast! hoho :x then came back feeling so terrible! stomache! argh, took medicine from daph! hey, beloved, thanks so much! hehe! went to school with nana, clarencen, shujuan, zhongxun, vincent! OMG, clarence really got uncountrolable slp! nana and i were laughing so loudly! hahas! we went for GP! argh, i am feeling very very terrible by then! i think i am going to die so soon! argh, feeling so giddy, weak and most importantly, i feel like vomitting! then nana and i took 900! went back home immediately!

back home, unpacked things! hahas, then went to bath! mummy at home and she gave me medicine before i went to sleep! hahas! alrights, after my bath and medicine, i am off to my COMA! hahas!

0612B<3
Chia Xin Fang
Christina Te Lifang*DARLING!
Ding Yan Fen*BELOVED!
Farzaana Bte Zainudin
Lee Xiuxian
Oh Shu Juan
Tay Hui Yang*MISTRESS!
Yan Tee Ting Allena*LAO xiao!
Ang Li Feng
Chandra Charles Wimenta
Chia You Ying*SHI FU!
Cho Yang Yang Billy*JIE BAI DIDI!
Chua Feng Jun Desmond
Kelvin Zeng Ruixiang*HAPPY FRUIT!
Khoo Zhong Xun
Lee Lin Kai
Lim Fang Wen*ACT CUTE KING!
Ng Kai Ming Melvin
Ong Ka Tat Ryan
Ong Rong Hwee Jacob
Pan Biyong
Phua Jian Wen
Tan Guan Han
Tan Jin Long*LEADER!
Tan Wen Jie Clarence
Vincent Soh Mingshen*MR NICE!

chalet is nice! very very nice! it is super super nice because of them! 12b are closer after that! HAHAS, LOVES-
lets have chalet again? hahas! I JUST LOVE GOING FOR CHALET! CHALET!!!!

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the end of pw; but ij037 last forever!

2006-11-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

i am back to finally back update my BLOGGER! i miss blogging here! hahas, well today marks the end of PW for the whole school! yay, IJ037 is done with their PROJECT WORK! proud to say this, we did it. Well let me blog about IJ037, my LOVEones!

summary of IJ037! (i shall try to remember as much as i can)
5 students of 0612B form a PW grp of IJ037 in around april 2006!
LEADER- JIN LONG
SECRETARY- LIHUI
TREASURER- FANGWEN
FILE MANAGER- CHRISTINA
IT CONSULTANT- LIN KAI

after the group is form, we are supposed to do our first GPP, that is when we got our first project work meeting! we meet up at outside civics centre mcdonald for the first time, i remember fangwen is late as he saw the wrong time in the sms that was send by jin long. then the 4 of us went to the CWP's mcdonald while waiting for fangwen to arrive! remember that christina and linkai ate their breakfast while waiting for fangwen to come! jinlong got himself a lemon tea i think! hahas, thats the best i can remember! hahas, then come fangwen!

as soon as he come, we started our projects by looking at each other's PI to see which one is better to do! i remmeber fangwen say my PI can kill people cause i want invent new medicine! HAHAS, then we also brainstorm for ideas! at times, we think of coming the 5 PI together to come up with something, but it is so funny la! hahas, aniway it is just nosnense! we had a hard time choosing which ideas to do! in the end, we choose jin long's PI! he got the best PI among us! then we spend at CWP's mcdonald thinking of his PI and what can we do to make it better! then we spend almost 3hours there sitting and thinking and talking then we went to popular to look for ideas ah! HAHAS, then we go down to under block to think again! we spend 5hours just to think one SCOPE! the worst is that, it was raining cats and dogs that time! argh, that is the most terrible thing and i will remember that for lyfe! HAHAS!

then i remember the first time i talk with nana on the phone till 2am in the morning just to discussion on the ideas of the GPP! then we come up with ideas but it is so funny! MUST DO IT! i still remember that! hahas! anyway, that is so terrible! then after that nana and me were in charge of the ideas for our project! the next day after the 2am talked over the phone, we still meet up as a group to do our GPP! hahas, we went to the library, borrowed some books! then we went to under blocks to discuss our GPP and also our ideas! hahas! after the first GPP done, we send to mrs yap! HAHAS! after our gpp is done with aims and target grp, we also approach mr john ng! we approach him because he is the GREEN club teacher ah, and we are doing on 3R so he is the right person! he is keen to co-operate with us, after his talk, we found out that our things are not well done at all! so we change our target, from residents to students!!

then after that jinlong spend 24hours just to think of the proposal! argh, then we also spend time discussing with mrs yap and mr john ng! then there are alot of mistakes here and there, then keep changing and changing! do alot of GPP drafts!hahas, i also remember the one of the GPP is done at jinlong's house and we left his house at 10PM! the first time we went to his house, nana and i got afraid by nikki, his dog! he is scary, make me lock myself outside his house! hahas, anyway we ate dinner at his house for the first time! we are joking with each other as we are eating! hahas, the funny thing is jinlong's mummy cook alot of vegetables which make us so GREEN! hahas! then come the holidays! hahas!

holidays is always PW for the 1st 2 weeks! everyday without fails, go back to school for pw i think! argh, PRO hor! hahas! remember counting the numbers of trees in school with fangwen! hahas! we also had our survey being set by fangwen! nana and i set the survey but it is terrible i think! sorry fangwen! then we also had a lot of time that we meet up with mr john ng to talk about our project!! not only that, we also went to the library to do our literature review during the holidays at bugis national library! that time we went without jinlong as he is sick! aniway, IT IS SO OMG, due to our first time experience! we are like so blur there, hahas, so funny! then we start looking at schools' year book at the library! i managed to see xiaowei, teddybear, clown and a few photos there! hahas, they are all so cute ah! fangwen just dun wanna let us his primary school year book! so nonsense! hahas, well, nvm! then we ate long john silver and went walked walked before we go home! hahas! we had a nice trip eh!

then we also went to conduct our first interview with the GVN! then i remember kenna say by jinlong they all cause i dont know there is such station! sian diaoz, ah! well, it is okie! we meet early and actually reach there early! but as it is the first time we went there, we actually lost in finding that place! hahas, OMG, the place is so difficult to find! spend our time finding so hard just for that place! alrights, reached that place but was late by a little! the first time interview is so gan chiong la! fangwen and jinlong did the talking with the GVN ppl, linkai, nana and me were like writing ah! we also got laugh a bit la! hahas! hahas, then we had our lunch at the place where we conduct our interviews, i dont know what is the place we had conduct our interview and had our lunch!! during the lunch time, i still remember fangwen and jinlong ask me to do duno what as i like beach cleaning so much! so nonsense, sad ah! hahas, aniway, A NICE experience for me i think to know there are such places!! then went to marina bay with nana and linkai to study our phy and chem! hahas! HAHAS, so in conclusion, holidays = PW! good ah!

after holidays! after holiday! we had our interviews with more people such as NEA! hahas, fangwen, linkai and me went! hahas, i am very gan chiong due to my "good" ang mo you see! hahas, i kept very silence until it is at the end of the interview! ahhas, pro hor! then also got laugh ah! hahaha, STRAW-LESS DAY! hahas! while around that time, jinlong also conducted interviews with his secondary school teacher! hahas! everytime different interviews, different people go! we also had e-mail interview with the GVN and also other ppl! not only that, we also give out our survey for students, find out more literature reviews, monitor our GREEN WEEK! oh ya! i remember that time we wanted to do the leaf bookmark! we went to jinlong house to do our experiment for the first time! sad to say, it fail! sigh, everyone of us are very sad! not only that, all of us also got tried doing the leaf at our house! argh >.
before GPP is submit, an overview is needed to be handed in! remember that got someone told us that our Project is duno what and what! she even say our project is too big scale, i guess everyone got a shock! ARGH, STRESS at that time! then we do extra things to it to make it something god! finally the day when the final GPP is submit, i remember i did not sleep! HAHAS! aniway the GPP is submit, so the start of WR! well, WR is written by FANGWEN! IJ037 IS VERY THANKFUL FOR ALL HIS EFFORTS! thanks fangwen! IJ037 LOVES YOU!

the start of WR is also the start of more substaination for the WR! so nana and me were in charge of this! we went to the library, spend hours there but nothing useful is obtained x(! we were depressed and we went so crazy doing nonsense thing in the library! we looked at old newspapers and also others books to make sure we can find something useful, in the end we told them that we could not find anithing! well, linkai helped us in the end! thanks linkai! he really got so many BOOKS that are useful to our project! hahas, so nana and i copy down all and went it the next day to read and photocopy those relavant pages! hahas, then we highlight and mainpts that we need and send to FANGWEN! hahas, well, substaination is so hard hard hard to do! >.< then fangwen used those substaination to do the WR! hahas! remember our meeting for one of the WR is at the library! hahas, we went to the library, book a discussion and disscus! hahas, well, that time it is so funny! hahas, all of us keep laughing and laughing! hahas! IJ037! I LOVE!

the day when WR is to be handed in! stayed up late to print one copy and fangwen printed 2 copies! everyone is anxious when we found out that there were some mistakes in the WR! cries! then finally when the final final final final WR is okie, we handed in! OMG, the feelings is duno to be happy or sad! that is when we say byebye to our WR! then we start our OP slides~!! hahas! all of us did about 20+ R-marks at jinlong's house! hahas, we also do some of our OP's slides! hahas!

spend day and night doing OP rehearsal! OMG, we practise almost 30times i guess! NOT 20 TIMES I THINK! we after lunch also practise! we also got go jinlong's hosue to rehearsal ah! HAHAS, JINLONG'S HOUSE IS ALWAYS OUR PW meeting most important and comfortable place! so we love his house! the last day of rehearsal at jinlong's house is the most memorable to me due to nikki's attack on me! we, IJ037, shall remember nikki's that notti peace maker! hahas, i think jinlong practise about 50 times ah, not more not less! HAHAS! rehearsal day is always fun because we are always joking and playing with each other! HAHAS! i love those days!

OP actual day which is monday, the first day! reached school early and jinlong actually make us laugh again with his lame joke! HAHAS, i remember nana saying, only our grp dare to laugh and joke! we are so crazy especially lunch time! hahas, singing and laughing! nana and me were like keep singing the 3R-songs that we know making the fangwen more anxious! hahas, OMG, IJ037! jinlong keep asking me to druen druen druen! hahas! so nonsense! 1.30pm is coming! then before the start of the actual OP, we sing the GO GO POWER RANGER! hahas, THE 5 OF US ARE THE R-RANGERS! 230PM! END OF OP! IJ037 ARE DONE WITH OP! hahas!

then today it is the end of PW! arghh! sad sad! jinlong was not in school so i helped him do those stuff! i realised how stress a leader can be at that point of time! leader, hard on you liao ah! OMG, i really dont wanna to end PW somehow! hahas, somehow i miss PW so much! so sad! x( still have to say byebye to my dear PW!

i really remember nana saying, today[5 nov] is the last time we are going to jinlong's house ler!
sad ah! i listen liao also feel so sad! we can move to his house to live or not? hahas!

while IJ037 braved through so many rains or shines, up and down times! finally, we had ended all these!
there were so many unhappiness times, so many cold-wars times, so many arguement times, but we are proud to say that we brave through all these ALSO!

we had alot of fun and laughters that i will remmeber too! all the lame jokes provided by TAN JIN LONG! i just cant stop laughing at all this lame jokes! hahas! then we still got so many funny things that make me feel so happy when i think about it! i remember the times when we always have fun and spend our times laughing so hard after every meal times! by the way, our leader is always the us saying PW band 3 liao, concentrate on ur 90% =x hahas! so nosnense la! but he still do pw the most i think! HAHAHAS =D

i also remember those times when all of us stayed up so late just for this pw! nana and me had long chats over the phone till the next day morning! also all of us always almost went crazy when something in the pw went wrong! i also remember that we went wrong track somewhere around june i think. we always had a lot of meetings, no matter is face to face or online msn meetings! oh my god, those were the time when we crap, had fun and at the same time talk about our project! we never fail to laugh during any meetings as there are always jokes! hahas, so happy ah, I LOVE meetings! hahas!

i feel that all those unhappiness in my group has make the group feel closer with each other, we are now very bonded!! not only that, through that, we know each other's character better, like each other temper! we understand each other better too! we also try our best to make each other happy by compromising each other! we also understand each other limits and dont go over it! this must thanks fangwen who do the whole WR just not to give nana, lihui and jinlong stress in doing the PW so we can concentrate on our STUDIES for midcourse! ARGH, how nice he can be! i am really touched by his actions! i bet others also feel the same as i do!

we always solved every problems we faced as a group! all those cold wars and quietness will be gone as the time pass by! i think we always fight and quarrel especially at the start of this PW but as the time pass by, the fights and quarrels IS NONE! as we know, no matter what unhappiness we really had, it will be gone, very very soon! i like the way that everyone of us solve those unhappines between us!

i believe through PW, it really make the 5 of us feel closer and bonded to each other! just like what nana say, they will be us, so not to worry! like what linkai say, no one dies, so ask me dont miss too much! he also tells me that i still can continue calling jin long leader! HAHAS! i just cant stop calling him as my leader! he is really a nice leader! hahas! just like jinlong say PW can end, IJ037 wont end! OMG, it really make me so gan dong!

JINLONG! IJ037 leader! hey, thanks for being such a nice leader to me always, u must really forgive for my mood swings! sorry to scold you so many many times until you can go and crry liao!! i know you wont cry one la! hahas, aniway he used to say he is an IN-leader as he is IN-effective, IN-decisive, IN-efficiency and alot more which i forget liao! nonsense one la he! hahas, aniway he is also the one who make the group work so hard! he is also blur i think, always forget to attach file befor sending to us! hahas, his fav is to do TO DO list i think! hahas! aniway, thanks for being such a understanding leader to me, most understanding leader award goes to you for sure ah!! he likes to provides the group with all those lame jokes which make me really can laugh until fall from the chairs la! hahas, such a funny leader! most importantly, stop being so LAME as it can kill us! hahas! lastly, i shall continue calling him LEADER~ LEADER~! hahas, LOVES!-

NANA! my bestest bestie! thanks for being so nice to me always! we always had so many chats and nice talks whenever we take train or walked around in CWP! sorry that we argue a lot of times but we always solve! hahas, i think no one knows that we argue! hahas, I LOVE NANA! arguements make us stronger, so through arguements, i LOVE u more! i believe that u noe that no matter how many times we argue, we still trust and love each other! i still remmeber those times when we fa xie together in CWP! hahas, we always make ourselves comfortable by scolding other ppl ah! thanks for being by my side always, i know you are always lack of sleep due to pw! hahas, now no more pw! so sleep more okie! so we can go more swimming and we are going to challenge leader one ah! hahas! hahas, i LOVE my bestie! LOVES!- hahas!

FANGWEN! stop showing me what my brother will do to me 16 years down the road! thanks for always telling me what is right or wrong! hahas, thanks for educating me so much on PROJECT! thanks for ur efforts, i will make sure that i will success in making myself the manager of some waste collection company okie! hahas! i will try not to disappoint you!! dont get so fierce always la! hahas, aniway i think i also no scare of you liao as i am LIHUI! hahas, alrights, must really thank you so much on the WR! hahas, the best WR writer surely goes to you one la! hahas, remember got problems must can find IJ037! we will always be there!! LOVES, hahas!

LINKAI! stop doing all those dangerous actions! HAHAS! IJ037 dont wanna to see u injured ah! later u injured liao, ij037 will cry for you one okie! hahas, oh ya, remember to wait for me to o2JAM! lets play maple, gb also ah! hahas, IJ037 played toegther!! hahas! hahas, thanks for always explaining to me what are the definations of so many wordsss if not i think a lot of things i cannot make it one! thanks for ur helps in my studies too! smartie! hahas!! hahas! XIE XIE! dont always sleep so much ah! hahas! LOVES!-

IJ037 really give me alot of support! they are always the ones for me whenever i need them! they never fails to make me happy whenever i am with them! they never fails to be by my side whenever i meet problems and unhappiness in my life! no matter what happens, they always ask to stand up and start all over again! their words can always full of encouragement that make me feeel stronger and stronger! not only that, i always feel that we are just like one family! it makes me feel so safe and secure when they are with me always! thanks IJ037! i really glad to be in this group!

AFTER 8months of PW, IJ037 are proud to say it is all over now! just one blink of eyes, it is all over!
although PW is ended, everyone is happy but definitely i will miss those PW times. they will always be my fondest memories!

oh ya! THANKS MRS YAP! she is always the one who never give up IJ037! she never give up on us which make us stand even stronger even when we meet any setbacks! she never fail to reject any consultation that we wanted! IJ037 really really LOVES her! no HER, no IJ037! thanks for all ur help always! remember to keep that certificate that IJ037 give u one hor! hahas, i shall play with her HP more often! LOVES-

2006 has been a wonderful year for me with such one and only IJ037 and LOVELYclqiue that i found in 0612B!

we took alot of photos as a group and also we took our first pw neoprints! OMG, they are so precious to me now and forever! thanks them for giving me such a wonderful memories, I LOVE! we had also our first PW outing which is at cwp! really so memorable! hahas! more outings! hahas!

I WANNA TO TELL TO THE WORLD THAT I REALLY LOVE IJ037!
I LOVE CHRISTINA TE LIFANG!
I LOVE TAN JIN LONG!
I LOVE LIM FANGWEN!
I LOVE LEE LINKAI!
I LOVE MRS YAP!
I LOVE MYSELF TOO!
I LOVE IJ037!
LOVES LOVES LOVES-
i know IJ037 will last forever!
THE BEST IN INNOVA ALWAYS! WE WILL LAST FOREVER! LETS HAVE MORE PW OUTING AND NOT PW IN-TING OKIE! =D

i think that is about it! bye everyone! takecare, goodnites! be happy! ^^v

I REALLY LOVE IJ037 > MEMORIES! - Nov. 06, 2006 at 06:03 AM

OP is over! all we left is I&R, GPF, after that, it marks the end of Project Work for everyone in IJC, especially IJ037!

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LOVES- - Nov. 05, 2006 at 03:15 AM

YO. after 2 days of break, i am here to UPDATE! hahas, alrights, this 2 days are just PW! hahas, aniway i LOVE PW! hahas!

sat - went to meet nana, clar, shujuan at admiratly for breakfast!! hahas, i was late! sorry for those waiting! hahas, then i saw teddy bear there! OMG, seriously i miss her! hahas, saw her and i chatted with her as she is going off to chalet! hahas, she looks more and more cute ah! hahas! i did not eat breakfast as i dont like to eat ah! hahas, then nana, she was testing me! HAHAS, good job lihui! hahas, manage to answer those Q! hahas, feel happy! then come zhongxun! hahas!

then we went to jeffery's house! HAHAS! then we slacked at his house! HOHO, played and had fun! but nana and me were like tired that we are going to sleep on his BED! hahas! the 2 of us were like bored bored de, but it is nice to be with my lovely clique! hahas, then nana and me went off to jinlong's house for PW at 1245pm! hahas!

walked from jeffery's house to jinlong's house! hahas, walked around 25mintues? hahas, then we reached at around 115PM! hahas, we are late ah! hahas, then we start our OP rehearsal! hahas, QnA by IJ037 to lihui! hahas, i can answer! OMG, seriously i am feeling more confident with them beside me! I LOVE IJ037! hahas! do our project till about 4pm! quite fast ah! hahas! then nana, linkai and me went over to my house first, took my guitar and off we go to jeffery's house again! HAHAS! nana, linkai and me were like chatting about jinlong dont like to go out so we should have IN-ing inside of OUT-ing!

reached jeffery's house! saw lifeng on our way to his apartment! hahas, then we went in! saw a lot of people! zhongxun, shujuan and clarence are still there and xinfang is there too!! HAHAS! then played o2JAM! hahas, i am like OMG, seriously NOT born to play such things! hahas, nvm! then went in to jeff's room and see his friends around too! hahas, that day is the day that i know i spelled jeffery name wrong all this time! OMG, sorry! then went to eat dinner with nana, clarence, linkai, shujuan and zhongxun! hahas! nana and me left early for our dear guitar lesson! hahas!

reached bukit gombak at around 740pm? hahas, then went to buy bubble tea! hahas, chatted so much with nana before the guitar lessons! we talked about our PW! hahas, going to miss the times we spend at JINLONG's house! we talked about how we used to hate the stress from pw in the past, now everything has come to a end and we are like missing them so much! we chatted about how much sadness and sufferings we had go through as a group! how many fights, arguements we had. how many cold wars we had! no matter how many it is, it is all in the past. then we say about our JC's life! hahas, so sweet! argh, i miss so much! hahas!

went back home after my guitar lessons! then did my IandR draft 2 and submit to mrs yap! hahas!

sun - went to JINLONG'S house at 12pm! hahas, we had OP rehearsal again! hahas, then had fun and laughters also! hahas, seriously, i am enjoying my day with IJ037! hahas! i was bullied by NIKKI! OMG, I AM going to sue NIKKI! hahas! then we stayed back and see how others play o2jam! seriously, there are so PRO until i went omg! hahas!

went to 768 to have my lunch with nana at around 4pm! hahas, ate and then we sit 913 going one big round! hahas! then went back home! hahas, reached home and then on my comp! hahas, i am so msn lover? hahas =DD

nana told me that she was touched by one of jinlong's words! hahas, i think all of us are touched too just that we all dont wanna to show it out! hahas, one for all, all for one!

time flies so fast till i am lost in my world.
why did time pass so fast always?
i dont wanna it to pass so fast,
lets hope that time will slowly down its pace one day!
let me spend more time loving my love ones,
let me spend more time with my family,
let me spend more time with my friends,
let me have more time!
TIME,
are you willingly to slow down just to let me feel a little more happier and fortunate than now?

OP tml, it is going to be the last time we are going to suffer! soon everything will be over.
IJ037, i love my LOVELY PW group!
TAN JIN LONG - THE BEST LEADER!
LEE LIHUI - THE BEST SECRETARY!
CHRISTINA TE LI FANG - THE BEST FILE MANAGER!
LIM FANGWEN - THE BEST FILE MANAGER!
LEE LIN KAI - THE BEST IT CONSULTANT!
IJ037 - THE BEST PROJECT WORK GROUP!

i shall post one of our PW grp's pic!

my room is in such a mess now!
shall tidy them next saturday!

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LIFE (: - Nov. 03, 2006 at 09:12 AM
CHINESE A level is gone, coming up next is OP on next monday! after that i will be free! then can meet my LOVELY ONES!

yesterday went to study with nana at library but we change our venue ah! hahas, we changed to jeffery's house! HAHAS! the day is full of fun and laughters ah! hahas, OH no, i guess we spend time playing more than studying ah! hahas!

then at night, i called vincent up for help! hahas. thanks ah! LOVES-

chinese A level today! OMG, i guess i did not prepare well before the exams ba! well, nothing more i can do, so i shall look things from a positive side ler ah!

after chinese, got lecture from our principal! then we went back to class to get back our results slip! 12B, no one retain! OMG, LOVES-

had OP rehearsal! OMG, everything is so ARGH. nvm, still the lowest in the group no matter how much i do! sigh, i am worry somehow!

went to eat dinner with nana, clarence, vincent and jeffery after school! hahas, then meet up with weeling*bestest bud, gary, angeline, serene, jazzreel, kuanyen, simtheem and ginny! hahas, I LOVE THEM! i miss them! LOVES- lets have more outing! I WANT THE WHOLE CLASS OF 5/1 to be there, LOVES-

mr nonsense called me up today! hahas, he get promoted! OMG, i am like so happy for him! hahas, just feel so so so happy till i can laugh non-stop! hahas, i guess i should believe the power of belief! mr nonsense, u rocks! hahas, see that, you are J2 now! LOVES-

now i am thinking of so many things,
certain things are back in my mind again.
i just could not shake it off,
no matter how hard i try to shake it off.

that is the reason why am i feeling so emotional right now.
i cant stop myself from being so emotional.
this is going to kill me if its continue.

i dont wish to be any burden.
if i am ever a burden,
i shall choose to go and die.
like that, there wont be any more burden.

i dont know how to bring myself from all those negative thoughts in my mind,
some things which really make me feel that i am going to bring so many harm.
i cant let myself feel better by telling myself the positively when i know there are no positive things at all.

no matter how i feel or what,
this time round, i wont show it on my face.
i rather to bottle all of them up in my heart.

you dont get what you want always in your life,
although u work hard for it.
everyone has unlimited wants,
how many of them can actually has all their wants.
i cant understand why some people enjoy their wants by not working hard,
while those who work hard for that did not get what they want in the end.

i did really try my best,
what more can i do now?
i really got no ideas.

life is just so unfair i guess,
so i just have to accept it (:

not to worry,
i'll be fine after this entry =D

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BORING DAY! - Nov. 01, 2006 at 07:51 AM
HELLO PEOPLE! hahas!

stayed at home for whole day today! omg, the feelings is great just that i find it too boring! hahas, ONLINE almost for the whole day! erm, can say not online but ON the comp for the whole day! hahas!

mr nonsense called me in the afternoon ah! then we were like chatting then he told me not to be scare for OP =/ not to scare for QnA =/ hahhas! sian diaoz ah! hahas, then can feel that he is worry for his chinese ah! hahas, so i tell him that wo dui ta you xin xin! hahas, he say i am the 2nd person ah! HAHAS, NOT BAD NOT BAD! hahas! then chatted a few more things! LOVES-

tml i am going to library with nana! LOVES-

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lovely clique < LOVES- - Oct. 31, 2006 at 07:57 AM

today is OP mock! omg, the feelings is terrible! Oh no, i really feel so gan chiong that before i speak i feel the pain in my stomach! my hands are very cold and i feel so anxious! argh, sigh! no matter how i feel, i still manage to get over and done with the OP! my A&Q still cannot make it and i do not know what can i do now! either is i could not answer or is never elaborate! sigh, sad ah!

had OP debrief after school and we got back our OP mock comments! i got a terrible grade and seriously i dont know what to do! today i tried to be calm but somehow i am still unable to do that! sigh, the burden to the wonderful grp i think! i can never help them in any ways! useless me! sigh x(

seriously, i hope the group performance will not be affected by me. i just cannot do well although i try my best ler! i really try, but where does all my efforts paid off to? so even if i cannot present well, i hope it does not pull down the grp thing one!

after school, took so many pictures! first, we took a clique photos! the photos were wanted before the promos but we did not take! so take it now, it is late but still better than did not take it at all! clique < nana, jinlong, fangwen, linkai, xinfang, clarence, huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun, vincent and me! 11 of us! hahas! alrights, i love my clique so much! hahas, LOVES- after taking the clique pictures, we took so crazy pictures! hahas, mostly is nana and me! HAHAS, LOVES- then waited clarence, xinfang, shujuan and vincent at the canteen! hahas, took pictures with lifeng too! hahas! then nana was telling me something, i was like sian diaoz! then come the 4 of them we were waiting and off we go! hahas! LOVES-

went to CWP to do whatever i need to do and i feel so happy! hahas! clarence praise me! hahas! then we went to ang mo kio with nana, xinfang, shujuan, zhongxun, vincent, clarence and linkai! hahas, a nice trip there only i am very tired! hahas! walked around there and buy something to eat! went home around 7pm! hahas! HOME SWEET HOME! LOVES-

i wont be sad in front of people anymore. no matter what happens, i will still carry that smile of mine in front of anyone! i dont want because of me the whole group of us get so affected! just like what mr nonsense told me > happy or sad, life still has to go on. so why not be happy? hahas! it makes sense! so people, dont think too much okie! LOVES-

i heard something which i dont wish to hear at all. did she try harder than me? i know she is better in the sense that her english is better than me, fluency better than me, pronounciation better than me. didnt i have confident? some one tell me how to show that i am confident! i shall continue to try harder, that is the only thing i can do only! i will do it, i can do it.

no matter how much you hate one person,
the hatred will slowly fade as the time goes by.

i love my clique!
they are so wonderful!
i really wish this last now
and forever!
LOVES-

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the first time i feel so guilty! - Oct. 30, 2006 at 07:01 AM
yesterday i only sleep from 5+pm till 7+pm! hahas, because afternoon i was having fun by chatting online! HAHAS! yay!

well, today is monday which is the start of the school holidays! hahas but we still need to go back to school for chinese and also OP! hahas, a long long day for me!

first in the morning, i got a SHOCK! hahas, my chessmate eddie trying to kidnap me using a BOX! hahas, alrights, i really got a SHOCK that i nearly die! hahas! then clarence told me something about someone! really is REN BU KE MAO XIANG AH! hahas, forget it!

OP, i always canot stop laughing when it come to Q&A! totally dont know what should i say! argh, stop laughing, i am going to do it! give me some time!

after school, do a few times of our skit and went home with nana, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, linkai and jeffrey! hahas! then we went to CWP and xinfang and clarence came! hahas, so we went around and go home after that!

bought things for my 3 little sisters and 1 youngest brother! i realised i neglected them for so long! argh, i am not a good sister! somemore i neglected spending more time with my family! i shall spend more time with them now! hahas, LOVES-

went home and realised something so serious! OMG, i really wonder what is wrong with me! i am like OMG OMG all the way on the bus! i could not think properly! argh, i am feeling so guilty! told my clique about it and i am not so afraid after them telling me what should i do! hahas, LOVES-

mr nosnense is chatting with me now! he is forever so nonsense de la! hahas, but always nice! LOVES-

all i can is to wait for tml to feel better!

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sunday morning! - Oct. 28, 2006 at 06:11 PM
YO PEOPLE! hahas! now is 9am, sunday morning, so good morning everyone! hahas! feeling so energentic now because i took a bath at 8am! hahas!

finally i had finish transfer all my old computer things into my new computer and i also rename all the files! hahas! it took me hours! hahas, from 12am or 1am till now! HAHAS, the feelings is nice because i always want the old stuff to be back on the new computer! so i am happy NOW! hahas!

currently chatting with my xiaoxin*xiaodi! omg, he very crazy ah! wake up so early one ah! chat with him about deathnote! hahas, he likes KIRA! hahas, he is so funny la! hahas, i simply LOVE my xiaodi!, LOVES-

sat- went to jinlong's house at 1245pm to do our project work! HAHAS, nana and me were the first to reach, follow by fangwen then linkai! hahas! started to do the project by editing our skit ah! then we do rehearsal at his house! HAHAS, we even do OP dry run again at his house! this time i did not laugh ah! HAHAS, not bad not bad lihui! hahas, then took pictures! HAHAS, nice pictures and i will love them lots for sure! HAHAS! i just LOVE IJ037 no matter how hard Project Work is! ((:

then went to eat with nana at 768! hahas, ate then walked around there! hahas, then we walked back to my house! hahas, around 30minutes okie! HAHAS, nana and i were exercising after our lunch`dinner? hahas! then went home, take my guitar and off we go to bukit gombak! then went to nana's house and took her guitar! hahas, off to guitar lesson! this time round, we pay our attention okie! hahas, i am sure the teacher got a shock too ba! hahas, we were like lost? hahas! nvm, we shall try harder!

reached home about 1030pm and i saw my daddy! hahas, i did not know he was behind me till i got into the lift! hahas! then went home and something bad happens! well, things are fine now! hahas, then mummy bought food for us to eat! HAHAS, i ate and started to do my things!

i am sorry daddy and mummy, i know both of you are always so nice. sorry for being such a unreasonable daughter today!

will the past always better than the present? some times i really wish to go back to the past so much, i rather to start everything all over again, i know it is impossible.
i guess today i speak too much or rather give too much of my point of views. i should keep my mouth shut and keep all thoughts for myself only.

i am still convincing myself some things that i want it to be to make myself feel a little better.

life is hard,
i will still go on (:

LOVES-

my room is so messy,
i shall pack it during the holidays.

i am not tired after the bath but i am supposed to sleep so i am going to try sleep later ah! before sleeping, let me chat with my xiaoxin till i get tired! hahas! nights!

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NICE DAY! - Oct. 27, 2006 at 08:07 AM
HERE TO UPDATE AGAIN!

went to school as usual with nana, shujuan and zhongxun! hahas, had a long day today! no OP today but there is A&Q! seriously, my A&Q is like omg, cannot even interpret the Q well. lihui ah lihui, better know that day! hahas, well, whole day do A&Q with my grp! LOVES-

ate lunch with nana, jinlong, fangwen, linkai, huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun and vinCENT! hahahas! a nice lunch ah! hahas, fangwen, linkai, nana and me were like making fun of our leader! hahas! i was like laughing like mad because i did something so terrible to my leader, jinlong! hahas! oh my god, it is funny! hahas!

then xinfang and clarence came and sit with us! hahas, full clique present! hahas, sad to say! i forget to take PICTURE! DUMB LIHUI! how can i forget! hahas, nvm, there will always be a NEXT TIME! hahas!

clarence update nana and me about something today! OMG, so over la the thing! hahas, we are going to burn away chinese books? hahas!

had chinese mock exam today! omg, i am sleepy, very sleepy! hahas, i even write the word GREEN on my paper! that is like so terrible! i love PW too much i guess! hahas! then saw 2 miss calls by angeline! hahas, called her and she want to meet me! HAHAS! yay!

after school, walked to CWP with nana, clarence, fangwen, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT and jeffrey! then i meet up with ANGELINE! hahas, then we walked around CWP! hahas! then faizal came and meet up! hahas, soon kuanyen and serene came too! HAHAS! then amaluna happen to passby! hahas! then we took alot of pictures! soon, faizal and amaluna went off first! hahas, angeline, kuanyen, serene and me went to took neoprints! hahas!

then after that angeline left! hahas. then kuanyen, serene and me went walked around! went to MCdonald and chit chat! hahas, mr nonsense called and chatted with me that time! hahas! he is on his way back home after his duno wadd ah! motorcycle training, i think so ba! hahas! hahas, so funny la he! hahas, he is nice! hahas!

went home around 9pm with serene! hahas! took 912 and i was talking with her! hahas, updating each other with our lifes! hahas! so happy! hahas, she is always my bestest sister! hahas! just love her so much! we are going to meet each other out again as she wanted to watch DN! i am going to watch with her again! hahas, LOVES-

mr nonsense is chatting with me now! hashas, he sound so dead as he had just came back home from a run! a long distance run ah! hahas, chatted and i sing songs for him! i know it is quite terrible but he still listen! hahas! oh ya, he is working tml! hope the best for him! LOVES-

i am trying to convince myself with some things that i am having negative thoughts in it! was i feeling the way that i am supposed to feel? was i thinking the way that i am supposed to think? i really dont know what more can i do now beside convincing myself to what i wish i want to be!

i am happy with my life now x) it is because i make all my unhappy things into happy things. however, a corner of my heart is craving more, i dont know what is missing <

there is PW again tml! LOVES-

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HAPPY =DD - Oct. 26, 2006 at 08:27 AM
BOO! BACK AGAIN!

the most important thing of today is that our class got selected for the tablet PC thing! OMG, screams! next year, whole year AIR CON! so happy ah! we are the best, LOVE 12B! hahas!

today had the whole OP thing~! OMG, Q&A! i cannot stop laughing! omg, it is just so funny! i dont know why too! cannot stop, just cant! stupid la, i feel so dumb to laugh! sigh.

as usual, got chinese lesson and also PW! hahas, thats the lesson we had for the next few days!

after school went to chess club! hahas, played 2 different chess with shujuan! hahas, fun i can say! ended at 630pm! hahas, a long day in school! hahas, went to ate dinner with nana, xinfang, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, linkai, clarence and jeffrey! hahas! a nice dinner!

chatted with clarence while accompanying him to wait for his bus with vinCENT and linkai! hahas! omg, clarence keep asking me to go PHB! hahas, so nonsense! hahas! thanks for ur concern!

chatted with ultrawoman`darling, poixin! OMG, seriously i miss her! i miss her! hahas, talked to her and she say i am sweet! hahas! i love my ultrawoman! HAHAS, LOVES-

talking to mr nonsesne right now! hahas! he is so funny la! LOVES-

MY TANG DI got a SIAO A-Maths teacher! hahas, going to teach my tang di maths! hahas, so nonsense la he! keep on promoting me! hahas, siao tang di! hahas!

tml there is chinese mock exam, OMG, i am so gan chiong!

happy day i guess! (:

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MY HOUSE! =D - Oct. 25, 2006 at 07:45 AM
YO people, i am back to update my blog!

today i got my OP rehearsal, OMG, it is so terrible! i could not stop moving around and most importantly, i dont even have any eye contact! a big big sigh! i must done extra extra for my OP, if not i am going to be dead for sure!

today was not a long day for me, can say it is rather a short one! hahas, so ate my lunch at CWP with nana, clarence, shujuan, vinCENT, huiyang and yiling! we went to buy things after eating our lunch! hahas, after that, nana, shujuan, clarence and vinCENT came our to my house! hahas, omg, my house is messy ah! hahas!

played the show that they wanted to watch! hahas, after that nana, clarence, shujuan took picture with my brother! then they continue to stay as shujuan doing her project! hahas, nana actually slept! clarence looking at my school year book! hahas, then vinCENT reading comic! hahas, so nonsense! hahas!

after that we left my house about 5pm and we went to westMALL with nana, clarence, shujuan and zhongxun! HAHAS, OMG! IT IS SO FUN! reached home at about 7+pm! hahas, had a nice day! hahas!

nana, clarence, shujuan and me talked so much on our trip to westMALL! hahas, a nice chat! hahas~!

oh ya! I SAW MY DEAREST XIAODI XIAOXIN TODAY! omg, i am so happy to see him! he is so handsome la today! hahas, cant take my eyes off my xiaodi ah! hahas, alrights, actually called him up and appear in front of him! such a idiot dajie ah me! hahas, I LOVE MY XIAOXIN! we shall go out soon! LOVES--

some times i just dont have the luck and also the ability! i guess i should stop dreaming and waiting, i shall end my dreams.

somehow i am convincing myself about some things.

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sigh! - Oct. 24, 2006 at 08:10 AM
*SCREAMS!

i am feeling so worried now! i am feeling so worried till i could not even think properly now! how! what am i supposed to do! i cant stand myself for being so useless as i could not do anything, but just to keep asking myself WHY! the fact is i dont know what can i do now? keep talking to myself?

I DUNO WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW! People will just think that it will be over soon but for me, i really cant think it. i admit i am useless but i am really afraid. who can understand me? sigh.

thanks mr nonsense x)) thanks for listening to me yesterday! jia you for ur model ah!

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LONG ENTRY! (: - Oct. 23, 2006 at 09:26 AM
i am back to update again after so long! hahas, should say i miss blogging? hahas, somehow miss to blog but i dont know why i did not blog!

now only busy with my MT and also my PW! OP OP OP for PW! i am going to be so dead for that! i dont know why, i feel so afraid always! i just cant afford to present myself in front of people! argh, i wish i can speak as well as what others! sigh.

now i shall try to blog whatever i remember ah! hahas! going to test my memory!

i remember knowing 2 new friends! hahas, one is my chess mate! hahas, we know each other just for a game of chess! hahas, the other is know her when playing with my chess mate! hahas, is fun okie! hahas! knowing more people! i get to know more people during the IJC open house! hahas, knowing more people is always good! i would want to have unlimited friends always in my life, that is like what i love and what i want (:

16-10-06! mon! dont remember what happen for the day! just remember that is the day i got back my econs results! OMG, my heart is like going to stop beating when i got back my paper one! it is done badly! argh, i feel like crying but i did not because i want to see my paper two! hahas, in the end, I PASS! hahas, i screamed and throw the paper when i received it! hahas, nana got a shock when i did that! hahas, thanks nana for giving me that wonderful courage! LOVES-

17-10-06! tues! hahas, had my lunch with shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT and linkai at CWP! hahas, i remember something happen that day and sj was not happy about it ah! juanJIE! dont be sad ah! got USSSSS! hahas, then went back to school for chess club meeting! meet clarence and xinfang! hahas! hahas, it is so funny and i cant stop laughing at it! hahas! after the meeting, we went to play Table Tennis! hahas, happen to meet gary, nik and edide*my chess mate! that is also the day i get to know shufen! hahas! new friends made! hahas! then went back home at around 7+pm! hahas, nice day with them! LOVES-

18-10-06! wed! stayed back in school to gossip with shujuan and nana! omg, we really chatted so many things ah! hahas, nice day! hahas, ate dinner with them! hahas, A REEAL NICE DINNER! hahas! thanks and i love my clique! LOVES-

19-10-06! thurs! had a long long long day in school! hahas, PE was cancel! hahas, so no more PE! so stayed in school with clique to play Table Tennis! hahas, nana and me did not play so we went walking around and in the end went to help xinfang's group! hahas! stayed in school till very very late but i forget what time! i think is about 9pm! hahas, then went home! hahas, HOME SWEET HOME! LOVES-

20-10-06! fri! only remember we had a very short day and it is the day that we submit our WR! finally that is submitted so there is no more to change! argh, PLEASE PLEASE, we did our best! then had chinese lesson! did my compo and realised that i forget to write the most important thing that is required in the compo! sian diaoz! after sch, stayed back with nana, clarence, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, jeffrey! hahas! nana and me actually sleep for 1hour! hahas, i am feeling so energentic after that! hahas! LOVES-

21-10-06! sat! went to birdpark to do my COP with nana, xinfang, clarence and linkai! hahas, nana and me were together again! this time round, we are like gardener ah! hahas, cutting of grass! so nonsense la! then xinfang, clarence and linkai went to duno where! hahas, just know that is the place where nana and i did for the last time! hahas, nana and me had almost 3hours of slacking time! in fact, we only do like 1hour+, the most 2hours! hahas, the rest of the time is for slack or is the uncle do we just need to take the things to the trash bag! hahas, simple hor! hahas! then we went to took lots of picture after our COP! hahas, is so so so so fun! hahas, nice time with them! hahas, ate ben and jerry after our COP! hahas, omg! it made me feel so full after eating it! then we went to jurong point to walk around with our drinks! hahas! it is fun again! hahas, then went home peacefully! i love my friends! hahas! LOVES-

22-10-06! sun went to our leader house to do project! hahas, we are doing for our OP slides! hahas, i was drawing my things and nana was helping me out! hahas, was fun with them for sure! hahas, we are having all sort of stupid ideas for the OP! hahahs! we got real crazy and we also got real serious! hahas, no matter what, it is just so fun! hahas! after doing our PW! we slacked at JL's house! hahas, played guitar and JL is sure better than nana and me! sian diaoz ah! then he teaches me some new things also, thanks ah LEADER! hahas, his house is fun with nikki! hahas! then we went home about 6+pm? hahas, is really nice to be with IJ037! HAHAS, LOVESSSSSS-

23-10-06! mon! no sch for IJC! hahas, went out with my beloved clique! hahas, not everyone present but it is definitely fun! hahas! went to meet clarence and nana to catch world trade center first at vivo!! hahas, omg, it is just so touching! everyone should go and watch! then shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, linkai and jeffrey came and meet us after our movie! sad to say, vivo got no more tickets for DeathNote so we decided to catch it somewhere else, that is bishan! hahas! before that went to buy shujuan's laptop! hahas, went into candy empire and bought choco for mr nonsense! OMG, i got a shock for my life! i think nana and clar did too! the choco there are expensive! bought one not expensive one and also limited edition for mr nonsense! hahas, just hope he likes it!

headed to bishan! hahas! bought the tickets for DeathNote! hahas, went to have our lunch after that and we bought some snacks inside too! here we go for the movie! the movie is nice! hahas, YUE is handsome! hahas, many of us agree! omg, L is so girl in the movie! argh, cannot tahan! hahas, then went home at 8pm! hahas, bought things back home for my family as they requested me to buy! hahas, thanks vinCENT! hahas! =DD home sweet home after that! hahas! LOVES-

specially for NANA > thanks for giving me wonderul pats on my back when i am feeling so down! thanks, you make me still continue to believe what i always believe in! that is only true friends are able to brave through all rains and storms toegether, share happiness, sadness, hardness all together! thanks! LOVES- rememeber that no matter what happens to you, i will always be there for you, no matter how hard is life, you got me and i got you as bestest BESTIE! u say that we are ULTIMATE best friends! so u going to trust me and i will trust you, we are able to overcome lots more of things okie! about you asking me to read ur blog, i read and i believe that you wont think too much after blogging okie! hahas, LOVE ur family and love urself! just rememeber u still got RQ to love u okie! and there are many more people who love you! LOVES- rememeber lihui LOVES you alot okie!

specially to DAPH > beloved, I READ ur blog! dont be sad when people say u ah because i am nothing better okie! dont take people words into heart, i tht u ask me not to take ppl words to heart! now i am asking to you to do that okie! hahas, remember you still got ur bestie zhilun and mel to be there for you always! so be happy and life goes on! hahas, nana and me will be there too if u need us! (: oh ya, dont say u pulled the class down, because as a class, we survived together and scored well together! no one is ever a burden in this class okie! LOVES- last say, hope u know ur CC4 soon! hahas! LOVES-

chatted with my qingaide yesterday! hahas, she say i got good memory! hahas, i hope it is true so i can memorise my organic chemistry well! hahas! we are going to east coast to skate ah! hahas, lets fall toegther! hahas, going to ask anzel*teacher, brenda*mummy, kye*teddy and of cos ain*clown! hahas! all of us are going to SKATE! hahas! oh ya, my qing ai de is not supposed to hate the word LOVE that come out from LEE LIHUI! hahas! yesterday clown and i were playing nudge in msn! hahas, we seem that we first time use nudge! hahas, nice time playing! hahas, nice chat with them again! hahas! LOVES-

i remember there was a few moments i feel so strange, those feelings i could not even describe. i guess i think too much as things get better as time goes by. should i think things in a positive way instead of letting my mind running wild and getting lost in the end? i think i should allow my mind to think positive and not to allow any negative thoughts to get into my mind! thats what a happy lihui should do! hahas!

suddenly, i miss so many things that were in the past. i miss the PAP gang in sec 1 and 2 < angeline, kuanyen, sherleena and me! i miss the times when the 4 of us are together in sec 3 and 4 < angeline, kuanyen, weeling and me! i miss the times talking to sherleena every afternoon and also going to school very very early to school! i miss the times the 3 of us hang out together during sec 5 < weeling, serene and me! i miss the times when the big clique of us hang around together and watched movie together always! i miss the times when weeling and me go home together! i miss the times when i got SJAB and i always complain it is a waste of time! i miss the times when poixin and tania will scream my name in school! i miss the times when i get to see my xiaoxin in school and i always aviod him as i am shy! hahas! i miss the times when i get to know anzel my wonderful teacher and she walked past my class everyday without failed! i miss the times when qing ai de and me went to the library together! i miss the times when qing ai de, clown, teddy and me hang out together after my school! i miss the first 3 mths when nana, allena, XX and me hang out together! we named ourselves F4! i miss the times when 12B first stick together as a class! i miss the LCD when i used to have in the past < nana, daphne and me!

there are still many more things that i miss! why is there past, present and future?

well, as promised, i am going to my bed at 1230 today! LOVES-

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back in action!-

2006-10-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

BOO! i am back to update finally after my promos!

finally promos is over, but i dun feel happy somehow! some strange feelings which i am unable to describe? A level MT and PW? sigh. dont know!

promos is terrible! i did badly for sure! argh, i can kill myself now or later i guess! last friday, my GP paper and MT paper, oh no! i am like worry till crazy for my GP! i know i wont do well, but that day, it is worse than what i expected! sigh! MT paper, the most unpredictable topic come out! totally sian diao ah! argh! >.< somemore it is so funny that, mr nonsense actually ask me about that chinese topic the day before the MT paper! OMG, his sixth sense so accurate! ARGH >.<

after that was my MATHS & ECONS on monday! CHEMISTRY on tuesday! PHYSICS on wednesday! then i am done with that! argh! EVERYTHING IS SO ARGH especially the CHEMISTRY! i just cant recall what i studied at all! not a single thing, how pathetic it was! phy, i dont even recall what i read before exams! sigh! a big trouble for me now! i am worried of being able to get promoted or not! anway thanks mr nonsense, he never fails to call me everyday just to have little chats with me! THANKS! hahas!

after physics paper, we waited for nana and clarence to end their geo papers! xinfang, shujuan, huiayng, zhongxun, vincent, linkai and me played table tennis while waiting for them! then we went to ate seoul garden with nana, juan, zhongxun, linkai, vincent, clarence and jeffery! really had fun there! hahas, I LOVE my CLIQUE! hahas, they are such loving people! hahas, making my lyfe so wonderful! hahas! thanks! bought something for them after the dinner! hahas, although is abit funny, but it the thoughts that count! LOVES-

after exams then got PW to do already! OMG, PW! i still prefer life with things to do, so i love PW so much now! hahas, did pw on thurs and fri! OMG, we are just having all jokes! all funny and lame jokes! we even lame and joke in msn too! OMG, we are seriously nuts! and omg, i love IJ037! hahas! the days with them are always so great! we got PW outing on FRIDAY! omg, it is so great!!!! argh, had lunch with them and we went to take NEOPRINTS! hahas, omg! nana and me feel so sweet after taking the neoprints! hahas! then nana and me went sitting at a corner talking about our lifes again! then saturday went back school to do PW again! ahhas, was quite fun to be with them again! i really love them too much! hahas, PW also seem nice with them ard! LOVES!-

SKIP my guitar lesson because my father's cousin is getting married! hahas, go for his wedding dinner! hahas, quite nice i guess! hahas, all my relatives are so fun and they are nice! hahas, talked to many relatives! hahas! I LOVE my family! hahas! i LOVE I LOVE I LOVE! screams*

today went out with xinfang, shujuan, zhongxun, vincent and jeffery! hahas, we went to play pool at jurong east there! hahas! NICE TIME WITH THEM! played from duno wadd time to 1pm+ hahas! then we went for our lunch! hahas! ate KFC then went to yishun only with xinfang, vincent and jeffery!! HAHAS, tour tour ard and play play ard! hahas, vincent wanna get his comic but dun have! hahas, so we walked until ard 6 then go home ler! hahas! a NICE DAY OUT WITH THEM! hahas! LOVES-

chatted with my xiaoxin*xiaodi sunday 1am+! OMG, i am so happy to chat with him again! ARGH, simply miss him so much! i like 3 weeks no talk to him at all liao! really miss talking to him so so so much! although we sms each other on friday! hahas! just miss him so much always always! hahas! hahas, as usual he is so nice and sweet always! HAHAS, no wonder is my bestest boyfriend ah! thanks xiaoxin! hahas! he still very cute ah, he ask me to come for his wake because he scare his eng will fail then he die ah! omg, hao de bu xue, huai de xue! hahas! anyway, then i started to lame with him by acting in the msn again! hahas! I LOVE my xiaoxin! argh! DAJIE really loves xiaodi! hahas! MISSES and LOVES-

chatted with shuhui*qing ai de! hahas, sms brenda*mummy! chatted with ain*dumb clown! chatted with kye*teddy bear! just chat with anzel*teacher yesterday night! hahas! OH NO! i miss them! really miss them so much! hahas! remember promise qing ai de to bring her out! hahas! rememeber promise mummy and teacher to meet up soon! remember telling teddybear that i am going to stick with her everyday after my promos! hahas! going to spend my time with them more! HAHAS! lets go out soon! really miss them so much! didnt get to chat with them, didnt get to update each other's lyfe! argh, just miss them so much till i could not say how much i miss them! I LOVE THEM! LOVES-

chatted with my BESTEST BUDDY KOH WEE LING! hahas! she asked me to update my blog! see BESTEST BUD! I UPDATED! hahas, dont u feel happy or honoured! hahas, the last met was on teachers' day! seriously, i did not spend much time with her at all! ARGH, sorry bestest bud! i shall make up for that okie! hahas, somemore her present is still my house! omg, fungus are all growiing on top of it liao ah! hahas! her b'dae is on 24MAY and the present is still in my house?! OMG, thats terrible ah LIHUI! going to meet her up soon and spend time talking to her! always did not manage to go any class outing i guess! hahas, I MISS BESTEST BUD KOH WEE LING and i miss 5/1 TOO! LOVES-

chatted with my SLP*jinger! HAHAS! she is still as mad as before! still as funny as before! still as crazy as before! she is still as my SLP as before! hahas, simply love this SLP so much! thanks for being so nice to me always! going to bring her out one day, as promised!LOVES-

i chatted with my dear`wife! HIROMI! hahas! OMG, she this SIAO ding dong la! dont get too stress till siao ah! i think she already siao liao ah! she already wanna start planning if she fails her GP! what kind of dear i have! OMG, so terrible! DEAR AH DEAR! dont worry okie! LOVES-

i chatted with xiaowei too! hahas, talked to him about the midcourse! dont worry so much ah xiaowei! i believe u can do it de ah! hahas, so must got believe in urself too! hahas! he is such a nice guy and clever guy! hahas, choose to die together with the girl she likes! so no one suffers! why didnt i think of that? hahas, he is so clever to know who is mr nonsense! hahas, so clever ah! LOVES-

everday also chat with my mr nonsense! he is forever such a nonsense! hahas, but he is nice! he allow me to do anything to his friendster acc and also his MLG! hahas, i can go in as and when i like! hahas, THANKS mr nonsense! both of us are going to shopping after the nightmare come back! if really things happen, we will be gone! hahas, somemore we had a funny deal with each other! the first is either i slap him or he scold me! the second is either he slap me or i scold him! had lots of chats with him! hahas, saturday and sunday he is like so funny! i think he is mad at night! thanks ah! and I GOT CHOCOLATE ON next monday that means tml! hahas! he is so funny to ask what choco i like? hahas! such a nonsense guy ah he! hahas! then today 12+am we were like argugiing! hahas! he so nonsense one la! hahas, go movie no ask me den of cos i go play pool also dont wanna ask him along la! hahas! den he everyday sms sms sms! den he say me everyday msn msn msn! so like wadd onli la! hahas! ROJAK IS NICE AH? omg! dun like =x! he told me such funny incident that really pissed him off while make me feel so funny and i am laughing like omg!! such a funny guy! hahas! hahas! OMG! mr nonsense told me that he bought chocolate that he feels it like me to me! OMG, screams! HOW CAN HE DO THIS TO ME! hahas, so bad! tml i am getting my choclate with nice plastic bags! HAHAS, such a nice boy! hahas, he is so funny, he really can make me laugh when i am so sad or angry! hahas! he is so nice ah, my mr nonsense rocks! aniway just wanna to thanks him so much! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

linkai wanna make me die ah today! he told me that someone go to my blog! ARGH, scrreams! i nearly die! hahas! aniway he still tell me the truth later on! so nonsense ah he! hahas! PW rocks ah linkai! hahas, leader fainted =x hahas! lets report ah! LOLS!

i made someone angry today! someone who is so nice to me always and someone who always listen to what i wanna to say! argh, i admit i am foolish! how can i did such things when i promise him le ah! argh, i feel like dashing out the road and die! i feel like giving myself a million of slaps! i feel like killing myself! i know no matter how many sorry i say or whatever i do, things wil never be the same anymore. just that it is the trust between 2 people. trust between anyone, i would say it is like sandcastle! it is always difficult to build it up, but if just one little wrong step, the whole thing will just collapse! so due to my carelessness, the sandcastle between he and i had collapse down! so no matter what i do now or how much effort i put in, i just could not build it up again! before this sandcastle collapse, the trust between us is never strong before! now instead of buliding the sandcastle stronger, i went to make it collapse! sigh. how dumb can i be? argh, i really feel so angry with myself. i really feel so bad! i just could not forgive myself now even when he say nvm, dont think about it and stuff. i just could not stop thinking about it at all. i dont know what else can i do to build the sandcastle up again! if time will to turn back, i will never make such a silly mistake again! i will never, but sad to say, time will never be turn back. so what more can i do? can someone tell me what more can i do?

furthermore, this is not the first time i guess! he is always very nice and forgive me millions and millions of time, i just did not cherish all his forgiveness and did not learn not to make the mistake again! instead, i made my mistake again and again! i know i am such a idiot person who do not know how to learn from my mistake! when can i actually learn all my mistake? when! i wonder why am i so dumb to make my mistake again and again! not only that, i always do things without thinking about its consquences! then when the things actually become worse, i will then start blaming myself. however i know, it it always too late for me to feel guilty and sorry about it now. i should not have done it at the first place. all this can just blame that brainless lihui! sigh.

i am so sorry for my own actions and i dont expect you to trust again or to forgive me because i am really that idiot this time round. but anyone willing turn back my time just for this? i am sorry once again!

i am talking to my mr nosense now! he is still so funny now! so nonsense! thanks ah mr nonsense! hahas! LOVES-

well, thats all! everyone takecare and goodbye! hahas!

HI-5 ENTRIES!

2006-09-18T03:42:00.000+08:00

LAST ENTRY! - Sep. 17, 2006 at 12:38 PM
FINALLY i am back to update my blog but this is going to be my last time to blog before my PROMOS are over! argh, promos are killing me now!

13 SEPT -WED- had a very short day in school! hahas, not really that short because we studied in school again! not only that, nana and me did our PW again! hahas, i phoned up those boss of companies again! nothing to say, just know my english is really so TERRIBLE! cries, when can i speak really well? sigh, went home quite late! hahas, ate PASTA as my dinner with my LOVELY CLIQUE who are nana, huiyang, shujuan, linkai, vinCENT and zhongxun! hahas! i love my clique!

14 SEPT -THURS- OMG, it is the longest day of the week! hahas, went back home straight away after school with my CLIQUE which is like EARLIEST SO FAR! hahas, reached home at 7pm+? hahas, very EARLY! hahas, just know the first time i reached home so early and i think my parents would get a shock =x! hahas! OH YA, happy birthday to my dearest clown! hahas! hope u had a real good and nice b'dae okie! LOVES LOVES LOVES ALWAYS!

15 SEPT -FRI- had quite a long day i supposed! argh, friday! OMG, i only remember it is the most terrible day of the week! argh, i broke down when i received my EoM from fangwen! cries, i was totally so sad! argh, i broke down after physics tutorial because i cannot get the things that mr ang teaches during the lesson! i really cant take it anymore so my tears rolled down! sigh. after that was econs! argh, my econs test! argh, i broke down again! ARGH! then someone make me so argh!!! then phoned nana or nana called me? argh, i dont know! i just know both of us were very sad! argh, cries! anyway thanks to my lovely CLIQUE- nana, jinlong, fangwen, linkai, xinfang, huiyang, shujuan, vincent, zhongxun, clarence! thanks u guys for making me to see the light in my lyfe again!

dinner with nana after school only! linkai just sit and watched us eat =x hahas! chatted with linkai and nana so many things, somemore we got a shock by seeing something so NEW! hahas! OMG! hahas, a very nice dinner! after that waited for huiyang, shujuan, vincent, zhongxun to come CWP! hahas, went to buy zhongxun's sister gift without nana because she went home! hahas! anyway, went home by taking the train to Jurong east then back to admiratly with shujuan and vincent! hahas, was like sending zhongxun and huiyang home! hahas!
anyway, hope shujuan gets better okie! dont get too stress up hor JUAN JIE!

chatted with vincent so much on the way back home! i told him so many things and i think he should be sian diao ba! i told him how i feel and some things, argh! thanks vincent okie! hahas! he is such a wonderful friend! hahas!

i am happy to find such a wonderful and lovely clique in IJC! i really love them so much!

oh ya, something terrible happen during chemistry tutorial! OMG, i feel like jumping out from the building! mr johnNG took my B as a HEART shape and he asked me not to be so da dan to propose my love for him in front of the class! OMG, thats like so NONSENSE LA! argh, my whole face just went so RED all thanks to him! OMG, how can a B be a HEART? although i admit it look quite similar! SCREAMS* everyone is laughing eh! hahas, sian diaoz huh!

16 SEPT -SAT- slacked at home for the whole day! well, not for the whole day! went to CWP with my little brother! OMG, it seem like a long long time i bring him out ler! argh, such a terrible sis ah me! got a shock in the LIFT! argh, sian diaoz lo! hahas, nvm! went to return my books and after that went to walk and buy things for my little brother! well, he is so funny, he just ask me to buy a chicken wing for him! hahas, so cute! hahas, so i bought for him and i bought food for my 3 little sisters at home too! argh, i love my family so much but nowadays i seem to neglect them so much too! sigh.

went to guitar lesson with nana! hahas, chatting again! argh, this time round we are supposed to perform something for the teacher as birthday gift! hahas, nana and i were playing the guitar and not only that, we were singing too! OMG, hahas! i love the day because we played quite well! hahas!

alrights, i just know i got a silly dear*hiromi on sat! she is so sweet ah, suddenly say she misses me! OMG, i got a shock in my lyfe! hahas, such a sweet but silly dear! hahas, somemore i am going to teach her guitar soon as she wants to play songs for me! hahas, not bad ah! aniway study hard hor, hiromi dear and i will do what i am supposed to do, thats to study right =D love ya always ttttooooooo! HAHAS! muackies!

mr nonsense called me again! hahas, one night received 5 calls from him! somemore one is like early in the morning duno what time! argh, he is studying so hard always! takecare ah, mr nonsense!

18 SPET -SUN- i did not sleep till 5am+ in the morning! argh, i am so dumb to doze off! LIHUI, u this siao ding dong! who ask u to slp! argh, cries! whole day do nothing, just locked myself in my room and did not do anything at all! argh, i just could not let my mind settle down! sigh, such a big failure ah lihui!

i did not talk much today too. sigh, i dont know what is going on me! argh, lihui! i am feeling so sick! headahce, backache, slight flu! argh, sick? i dont wanna fall sick again!

finally completed my new EoM on 2.15am! argh, finally! i am afriad of what mrs yap will say again! sigh!

i dreamt of having SPA on 24th SEPT! argh, it is a sunday! argh, i am afraid when i woke up! such a scary dream i had! i told nana and vincent about it! argh, i am really really afraid, who can understand me?

nana, sorry for being so siao ding dong on sat nite again! hahas, u are forever so nice to forgive me! hahas! thanks for being such a wonderful bestie to me! aniway, take good care of ur eyes huh! go see doctor if it worsen! it is a must to see! hahas! LOVES-

shuhui*qingaide, ain*clown, kye*teddybear, anzel*teacher, brenda*mummy! I LOVE U GUYS SO MUCH! LOVES-

i am afraid now! i dont know what to do with myself. i guess i sleep too much this few days! i should not be sleeping so much always! i should sleep less! LIHUI, why are you sleeping so much! such a LAZY pig!

time should stop now! i want time to stop now! i really dont wanna it to pass because i am afraid of promos! i am really afraid that i do not wish to take the challenge at all. sigh, what can i do now and when can i concentrate?

i am not concentrating well i guess. i dont know what is bothering me again! i guess it is my own stress, pressure or illusions again! why am i having such a strange mind always! argh, someone please save me!

saw my primary school friend on sat on my way back home from CWP! hahas, he lives just next blk to me! hahas! he still look so like chinese and he looks still handsome ah! hahas! takecare ah shah!!!! hahas!

chatted with clar*jiemei! argh, he said something that really make me feel so sad! cries!

somethings is not the same anymore. this is not between one person but between a few people around me! sigh, it is because of my doings? sigh.

now is 3.33am! such a funny time! i guess i wont be sleeping anymore ba! argh, i am afraid to sleep because i dont wanna to dream! sigh!

i am going to let myself free from all those thoughts, the only thing i could do is to RUN or walk a long route! argh, someone please save me!

i am losing myself `
sigh.

=SIGN OFF=

LOVEones > x) - Sep. 12, 2006 at 08:14 AM
MSN is active again! yay, i am happy!

KOH WEELING !!!!!! > BESTEST BUDDY!
JAZZREEL GOH !!!!!! > NU ER!
GARY KOH !!!!!! > SITTING PARTNER!
SERIOUSLY, I AM TOUCHED BY THEM! VERY VERY VERY TOUCHED BY THE 3 OF THEM! thanks for giving such a HUGE surprise for me! is really a big surprise for me! you guys never fail to make me touched always, especially KOH WEELING! u guys really make me feel like crying when i see them! HOW I WISH I COULD FLY TO U GUYS NOW AND GIVE U GUYS A BIG HUG! i really really really dont know how to express how much i love you guys! i really dont know how to express how touched am i too! i really could not use any words to describe how i feel! you guys just make me feel so alive, feel so touched, feel so fortunate, feel so happy, feel so thankful,! just so many feelings mixed up! argh, thanks the 3 of you, you guys never fail to be my side always! i love u guys! LOVES- friends4lyfe, no matter where we are (: i will never forget the good times we enjoy in our secondary school lyfe too! memories stay with me forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

today is a short school day for me but i got extra maths lesson! still end lesson early! hahas, i am still very active today! i am abit crazy too! stayed back with my CLIQUE! this time round i stayed back with xinfang, huiyang, shujuan, clarence, vinCENT, zhongxun! HAHAS! nice time doing my homework with them! this time round without my darling NANA so feel abit weird! nana went out with her rq! hahas, her bestie =D argh, nana i miss you! hahas! went home after that and met my senior junjie! hahas!

seriously, i dont know how can i express my love for those my love ones? i wish they could feel my love for them because i really could not find any ways to express my love out to them! I LOVE THEM! i really love all my friends!

mr NONSENSE aka mr vincente called me up again! it is like finally i answered his call and i feel so nice talking nonsense to him again! HAHAS! mr nonsense rocks!! hahas! he say he is not DAO, lets see! hahas!

omg, fangwen is funny today! hahas, i strongly agree with nana! he is funny ah! somemore he can show all his actions in MSN! omg, it just get so funny! hahas, act cute =x hahas! somemore he wanna sue me! hahas, so NONSENSE ah he! hahas!

tml i bringing nice chocolate for my LOVE ones in 12B! argh, i cannot afford not to love them because they are the one who bring me hopes in JC! seriously, without them, i dont know where will i belong too! without them, i cannot even study well i supposed. thanks for being by my side, never fail to give me up! (:

=SIGN OFF=

MSN DOWN > bored =D - Sep. 11, 2006 at 08:11 AM
oh my god! i am still so active and energentic now! argh, someone please ask me to be stop being so active! HAHAS!

slept too much during sat and now causing me to be so energentic now! hahas, i cant even sleep for the last 2 nights! ARGH! i slept too much i think! hahas, should not be sleeping too much the next time! hahas!

i bought my bag! hahas, that bag i wanted long time ago! hahas, the CHECK one i will buy it the other time ba! hahas! asking my sister to buy maybe so can share share and use? hahas =D such a evil idea! hahas, cannot blame =D! hahas, i am happy because of the bag! at the same time, i felt so worried for the bag i am going to carry now! argh, someone please save me! hahas!

today is a long day at school and i am feeling so energentic! hahas, for the first time! hahas! oh ya, today school start early! hahas, 20 minutes earlier! hahas, was kind of sian diaos! hahas! so the first lesson is like 1hr and 20mins! OMG, hahas, thats like LONG?! hahas!

had tennis as PE lesson! hahas, OMG! IS FUN! just that i cannot control the ball well! so SIAN diaos de lo! hahas! then got 2 lectures! hahas, both chem and phy! hahas, i was attentive this time round because i am not TIRED! hahas, pro ba! hahas! first time being so attentive for lecture! hahas! DID AQ after that! OMG, i simply just wrote nonsense on the paper! arghh, sad! going to fail it! cries!

chinese lesson is fun today because we were simply just arguing! hahas! not arguing, should be debating ba! hahas! hahas, quite fun huh! hahhas! erm, end chinese lesson quite fast i supposed! hahas =D

went to CWP to have my dinner with my clique! hahas, just simply LOVE them! hahas, dinner is always nice with them! hahas, then went to the library with shujuan, vinCENT and zhongxun! hahas, after that, they accompany me to bishan to get my reserved bag! hahas, I AM HAPPY! hahas! thanks them so much! hahas!

my ah kor and i sms-ed today for the very first time! hahas, i am quite shock! hahas, erm, feel happy too! i just simply love my ah kor!

i am feeling somehow like sad, not because i am not happy with the bag! it is just that some times things happen too fast! i cant even stop the thing from happening! arghh, useless lihui!

i am thinking too much i think! argh, i should not care so much about what other people think at all! i should just dump whatever people think of me to one side of my mind! argh, i just cant stop thinking all these things! STOP STOP STOP! argh, lihui lihui lihui! i feel so useless when i could not do what i am supposed to do! just a simple of stop thinking i also cannot do that! SIAN DE LA! argh!

i am feeling different now! sad, i dont know what should i do now! i am giving up on something that are not meant to be mine at the first place! i am going to give up! argh, just keep telling myself, to let the person go means you are giving the person the best happiness he can ever get! (:

how could this happen to me, i made my mistake! argh, i feel so bad after doing some things, sorry! although i say sorry too many times, i just cannot afford not to say sorry to you since i think i am always at fault! trust me there wont be anymore time! arghh! sorry!

maybe it is the way i am showing to you make you feel that something is wrong! just trust me that, i am not those kind of people who make people to allow them to think much i supposed! i know myself well, so i know what can i do and what things i cant. i know what are the things for me and what are the things not for me! i am so sad when i let you feel this way!

i feel bad after treating you this way! argh, people see, people comment, people say! they really make me feel that i am so bad! ARGH, i am going to wake myself up with those badness!

seriously, i do have some problems which i cannot solve always! LIHUI, time to be independent and grow up ler! stop behaving like a little kid!

argh, screams!

msn down-
bored (:

=SIGN 0FF=

sadness > happiness - Sep. 09, 2006 at 09:56 AM
out of a sudden, i am feeling so strange. i am feeling sad. i am feeling lonely. i am feeling unwell. i am feeling different kind of pain in me. i am feeling down. i am feeling stress. i am feeling afraid. i am feeling bad. i am feeling so useless. i am feeling so weak. i am feeling tired. i feel like crying for no reasons.

my back is giving me big headache < sigh. i just dont want to see any doctor!

just slacked my day! i really did nothing for today, just went for my guitar lesson with nana!

qingaide is not feeling okie i think but she did not want to say it out only! however, she still come and asked whether i am okie? so touched by her always! thanks my qingaide! i hope she will be okie because i love her! HAHAS, i want my qingaide to be okie la! hahas, OH SHU HUI, must be okie if not i will be sad! hahas, LOVE ya always! LOVES-

'the more i love you, the more i have to avoid you.' < it is a very beautiful as well as a meaningful sentence to me! is sentence is taken from my qingaide!

i tried to put myself in a coma state! argh, i sleep alot alot today! i think i almost sleep the whole day! i did not feel anything better instead i feel worse! argh, why everyone told me sleeping is good because you will feel better after a good sleep! why didnt i feel the same as others? argh, screams*

i was having alot of thoughts in my mind. i was thinking about alot of things on the way back home from my guitar lesson. i questioned myself alot of things and i was not able to answer them.

should i feel useless because i cannot answer to my own questions at all. i cannot even figure what what is wrong with myself now. maybe that is the reason why i am feeling so strange now?

i did not tell anyone about anything nowadays. i just keep everything i had in me. i sealed them up in the bottle which i used to have always. i dont want anyone to be bother by my problems, i dont want to let people have extra burdens. i just keep everything silently to myself and i wish those thoughts will be remain in the bottle forever.

i am always a trouble to people. i created so many problems that i cannot even sloved them by myself. sorry guys, i always create so many problems. i am sorry.

sadness more than happiness. this is what i hated always. i rather sadness is the same as happiness or the other way round where happiness is more than sadness. if sadness is more than happiness, the only way to make myself happy is to turn all the sadness to happiness. this is the only way where people will feel best i think. a way of comforting myself and trying to convince myself that i got only happiness.

i always try to hold on to something which is going to be let go by me sooner. i am too stubborn to let go of anything i supposed. i always tell myself, lihui, this thing is not meant for you, whats the point of holding on to it? after scolding and telling myself all these, i will try to let it go but later on i will hold it on again! this is totally so nonsense! argh, lihui lihui lihui! just let it go and everyone around you will be happy about it.

why did you let me have the feeling that you are afraid of me. why did you let me have the feeling that we are not the same anymore. why did you let me have the feelings that you dislike me? why did you let me have the feelings that i am irritating to you? why did you let me have the feeling that you do not trust me anymore. sigh, am i over sensitive?

i had lost a friend recently. on the surface, we might remain as friends but deep in my heart i know i had lost her. i dont know what can i do.

i feel i have to take initiative always! thats what i really dislike? i dont like to take any initiative at all because i feel that whatever i do will only be wrong. sigh. why must i always be the one at fault? maybe it is because i am too bad! thats why i guess.

i may be always laughing in front of everyone and telling them that i am a very cheerful girl. who ever knows what am i thinking in my heart? i may be laughing on my face but bleeding in my heart. laughing is the best way to hide the sadness in me from others.

i am hiding, just dont want to face any cruel reality. i dont want to face anything that i dont like or to face anything that i am afraid. i dont want to face reality as reality is also cruel.

i always want to put a strong face in front of others. i dont want others to know that i am weak but how longer must i put that strong side of me? i am afraid that one day i will just show all my emotions out! sigh!

maybe i am just too tired, so i am feeling this way now.
just some random thoughts x)

i dont feel like sleeping tonight because there are too many things for me think! argh, go away all the thoughts.

=sign 0ff=

NICE DAY < LOVES- - Sep. 08, 2006 at 08:44 AM
FRIDAY! time passed so fast! REALLY SO FAST TILL I LOST MYSELF! argh, holidays are going to be over soon! seriously, i love holidays and i will miss holidays! holidays = spend more time with clique! I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE!

went back to school with nana, xinfang and huiyang today for phy consultation! hahas, OMG, i am so crazy! hahas! hmmm, did not really consult very long, just one and an a half hour! hahas! went in at 1pm and went out of the library at 230pm! hahas!

headed to admiratly to meet shujuan, zhongxun and vinCENT! hahhas, so nana, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT and me headed to TOWN! hahas, went to check our bags at check! then xinfang meet us at city hall or duno where! hahhas, then we went to bugis! hahas! went walk walk and see see!! then we went to eat our dinner? hahas! had a great time with me CLIQUE! hahas!

finally reached home at 7pm+ hahas! A NICE DAY WITH MY DEAREST CLIQUE AGAIN! hahas! LOVES-

i bought 2 ultraman badges today! it is so NICE and CUTE! i love ultraman =D

thanks mr nice vinCENT always! he always tried to lighten my LOAD! hahas, thanks for being such a nice guy! i hope whatever i do will make you feel much happy okie! hahas, remember what i told you and i will do what i promise him de! hahas! thanks always! it is always so nice with him around! so everyone, try to know him ba! hahas! LOVES-

xiaowei is so funny! he told me expensive things mean better quality! hahas. what only but quite true ba! hahas, he say i am easy to bluff! OMG, i feel like killing him! hahhas! thanks xiaowei! hahas! LOVES-

out of a sudden, i feel that i could no longer be myself. i found myself being such a fool. why am i such a fool. hais, lihui, time to stop being a fool.

i guess jc changed me alot. i am not the same lihui anymore. i told like no one else business. i feel that i dont know what is pai seh anymore. i feel that i am being too noisy. i feel that i am being too crazy. i feel that i am being too bad always! argh, screams! someone save me from all the thoughts please! SCREAMS!

dont ever link me with people who i hate. why did everyone wanna to link me with him which really make me feel like crying. i feel that i am always such an unlucky one to be link with people who i dont like at all. seriously, dont make me feel worse. i am already dying-

i am always over sensitive that will seriously make everyone around me feeling so unhappy always. sorry people. i feel so bad with my over sensitiveness too! i shall try not to be that way anymore.

concentration is always so hard for me! argh, can someone teach me how to concentrate well! i need guidance i think!

my back is aching so much till my stomach also aches! argh, i feel so sick now with backaches, headaches, flu and abit cough! argh, i dont wanan feel anything worse! sigh. i dont want to see doctor also! i dont want! argh, someone just cure me please!

why did you let me fall again. why why why! stop letting me fall while you walk away from me! argh, i dont know what am i feeling now! i should not let my mind run wild. i dont wanna have any thoughts of other anything! argh, stop making myself being such a fool!

i love the way back home always! (:

i miss the times always.
i wish the time will stop in the past always.
i am feeling sad.

i miss my xiaoxin so much now, where are you my dearest xiaoxin. dajie miss you so much!

=SIGN OFF=

HAPPY > <3myCLIQUE! - Sep. 07, 2006 at 07:37 AM
back to update my blog! my back gets a little better i supposed till i carried the back pack! argh, forget it because i dont wanna see a doctor! hahas!

went to school today! hahas, stayed in school until like 5+pm then we went off ler! hahas, today is the day that we went off the earliest! hahas! quite good i supposed! i had successful teached mr vinCENT how to fold little birds although he doesnt want to learn! hahas!

went to CWP! hahas, bought something for my dearest nana and mr nice vinCENT huh! hahaha, mr vinCENT looks so moody after dinner and i dont know why! hahas! anyway tml i shall give the rest to my dearest clique! hahas! nana and me are in loved with the bag which we saw and we wanna buy the same one! argh, excited!

went back home with mr vinCENT! hahas, i was very scared of giving him the things i am supposed to give! haha, just feel that guys will think it is so BO LIAO! haha, i still gave in the end! hahas, i am brave! =D aniway i wanna to thanks him for carrying my bag always although my bag is not willingly to be with him! hahas! i also want him to be happy eh because he looks real moody! hahhas, try to get more sleep okie! hahas, thanks for being so NICE to me always! NICE PEOPLE RULES ME! hahas! oh ya, thanks for the trip back home! LOVES-

oh ya! i bought a toy today but it lost half of it! BIG BIG SIGH! ARGH! SAD! i find it so funny when i lost my toy and nana, huiyang, shujuan, vinCENT and zhongxun were helping me to look for it too! hahas, it is so funny but sweet! I LOVE THEM!

tml there is conslutation with mr ang! hahas!

seriously, i love my clique! thanks!

did alot of quiz just now! hahas, quite fun i supposed! hahas!

the reason for being happy is simple - to be loved and love others.

i love the way it is now. i am happy because of many reasons! hahas, thanks!

why am i still wasting the time now when i know i got no more time left! argh, when will me feel the heat! i know i am slow in learning when i am still wasting all the time i had? argh, seriously there is something wrong in me which i do not know as well. sigh, time is running out!

i guess is time for me to be awake now!

=sign OFF=

nice day < happy =D - Sep. 06, 2006 at 07:51 AM
BOO! back to update my blog with my backbone still aching! argh, it aches so much especially at night! i cannot stop the pain! help! hahas!

today went to school with my clique-nana, shujuan, huiyang, zhongxun and vinCENT again for chinese lecture! hahas, my first ever chinese lecture! I SUPPOSED i didnt pay much attention to it as i was busying laughing! hahas, nana, jinlong, fangwen and clarence make me laugh so much! omg, i was telling them how one of the teacher in sec4 read my name! she actually saw the liHui as liNui! argh! terrible! hahas, then jinlong started saying lame things! OMG, it is so funny still! hahas, it get so funny when the part i said something to fangwen! OMG, am i still lihui! hahahas!

after chinese lecture had lunch with my clique-nana, huiyang, xinfang, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, clarence!! this time round got 2 more friends- yiling and mingli who are close friends of my clique! hahas! had a very wonderful lunch! hahas, i love my clique! hahas!

went to library after that! argh, the librarians are so OVER! haha, went to the foyer at 3pm+ to study again? hahas! nana and clarence went off first because nana's friend coming her housE! finally went home at 6+pm with huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun and vinCENT! hahas, is a nice trip back home always! hahas!

anyway today read my laoda's webby again! seriously, i am falling in love with his webby for sure! i just get so addicted to his webby! once i go to his webby, i can stuck there for hours reading all the things! argh, i love his webby so much! hahas!

i feel strange somehow, a feeling which i cant even describe with words. i dont know why am i feeling this way! are we drifting apart not on surface but in our hearts? am i thinking too much again? did i have a wrong feeling? i hope there is someone there to tell me what is the real feelings now.

i do not wish to face you again because i know i will be lost in front of you. i will be not lihui in front of you. i will not be able to do what am i supposed to do in front of you.

i am afraid to be lost again x(

it's too far away for me to hold... guess i'll let it go < should i ?

i am afraid to fall again/ sigh `
think i have fallen -

out of a sudden, i wanna go back to the past so much when i browse through my photos.

=sign off=

BACK HURTS < SCREAMS ! - Sep. 05, 2006 at 08:50 AM
ARGH! my back hurts so much now! it is like getting from bad to worse! i wonder how am i going to survive~! I AM STILL strong i supposed so i will sure survive! hahas!

today went to school with my clique! hahas, before that mr vinCENT meet me! hahas, he cute la dont know how to come and still say want come find me! hahas, CUTE AH HE! hahas! then went to woodlands interchange to find nana, huiyang and shujuan! hahas, sad to say zhongxun didnt come with us! is fun coming to school with people that i love! hahas!

went for my GP lesson! omg, i am very tired! hahas, feel like sleeping~! hahas! didnt do the AQ test because the class managed to stop ms ester leong from giving us the test! HAHAS! after that went to have lunch with my clique again! hahas~! LOVES-

nana, xinfang, huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, clarence and lifeng! all of us went to eat at vista point again! ate and went back to school again without lifeng!! the clique is effective today ah because all of us did our maths! HAHAS! WE ARE PROUD TO SAY THIS! hahahas!

went at 6.30pm+ to CWP to have my dinner! hahas! went to have dinner with my clique again! HAHAS! LOVES- i got too full i supposed! the noodles! omg, i am so full! hahas! reached back home finally at 9pm!! hahas, omg, i am tired!

mr vinCENT! thanks okie! the bag carrier of mine and the one who always listen to me! hahas, i am so so so touched okie! hahhas! oh ya, he is the first one to manage to get me on bed for like hmm, about 6 or 7 hours? hahhas! thats so PRO! hahas! thanks okie! stop arguing with me! LOVES-

thanks NANA for saving my lyfe! hahas, u are so nice always to me! bestest bestie rocks! LOVES-

LIM FANG WEN AND TAN JIN LONG ARE SUCH NICE PEOPLE TO ME! hahas, i am greatly happy to know that in my lyfe! thanks for bullying me! thanks for helping me to establish my career huh! hahas! I REALLY NEED TO THANKS U GUYS! hahas, thanks for all the bully thing but it is so fun! we are still the same as before! hahas, i am so happy! argh, no words can describe how i feel! just feel so happy! thanks for the wonderful chat and bully! hahahas! I LOVE THEM! I LOVE MY PW GROUP ALSO! HAHAS! LOVES-

i am so bad to hurt someone! sorry jiemei! i guess u are really hurt this time round! i hope u will be fine okie! no matter what, i will be there for you surely!

i wanted to forget you, but i forgot to!
maybe i really need a long time to do so.

=SIGn off=

LOVE 0612B < SCREAMS ! - Sep. 04, 2006 at 07:31 AM
I AM FEELING SO SWEEET AND HAPPY NOW JUST BECAUSE OF A TURTLE! hahas! my class is such a kind and sweet class! everyone put the turtle for the croc hunter!

If u haven't heard already, Steve Irwin-crocodile hunter died today on the 4th of September, on the Batt Reef, near cairns. "He came on top of the stingray and the stingray's barb went up and into his chest and put a hole into his heart " As a sign of respect for the Australian tural icon, please place a turtle ( tu ) at the start of ur msn name and forward this message to others pls spread!

i feel the love from the class! i really really love this class! this class forever making me feeling so sweet and nice! hahas, I LOVE 12B! even mr ang is also a nice teacher! hahas, i love mr ang too! hahas! i really really love 12B! i hope we will last forever! there is no end to JC lyfe! there is no end to our friendship! I LOVE 12B; I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS MY LOVE FOR YOU GUYS!

today went to school for PW lecture! hahas, the OP lecture! argh, i am feeling so nervous always for that! i wonder will i be able to overcome the fear in me? hahas, i believe i can because there is 12B with me! hahas!

after pw lecture went to have my lunch with nana, shujuan, huiyang, jinlong, vinCENT, zhongxun and clarence at vista point! omg, it is such a great lunch with them again! hahahs! that clarence is abit siao ding dong! cannot really tahan him la but he is nice! hahas!

then went back to school with nana, huiyang, shujuan, clarence, vinCENT and zhongxun to study and also do PW! hahas! clarence went off early! hahas! then we didnt study because quite a few do not have the mood to study so in the end we went to CWP instead! hahas!

went to eat and also walk around at CWP! hahas, vinCENT and zhongxun bought lifeng's b'dae gift! hahas! such nice friends ah they! hahas! the rest of us just went hahahas! finally went back home at around 7pm! hahas! it is raining!

the moments in CWP are forever so sweet and nice!i love the time i spend with my clique! hahas, oh ya! i am too dumb to know that the MMS vinCENT send to me got music! hahas! i just know today! hahahas! it is so funny! hahas!

i love my clique! hahahas! thanks for being so nice and sweet to me always!

my back hurts so much! argh, i dont wanna go and see a doctor again! sigh! what should i do?

called my qingaide to chat just now! hahas, OMG! i miss my times chatting with her and talking to her everything! hahas, now i am singing to her! i am being such a crazy little girl! i miss teddybear's voice too! too bad her dinner came home late x( hahas! i miss qingaide < shuhui, clown < ain, teddybear < kye, teacher < anzel and mummy < brenda! argh! i miss them! LOVES!

his words still make me feel that i cant bring back the friendship between he and me! what can i do? i really got no ideas on what to do in order to make things the same again! i really did not hate you, trust me!

little things can make me happy for the whole day! LOVES-

i feel happy whenever i feel so sweet! hahas! i love 12b for sure! i love my clique for sure too! i love all my friends for sure too! hahas!

somehow i am missing xiaoxin now! LOVES-

=SIGN OFF=

mixedUP < x( - Sep. 03, 2006 at 09:05 AM
HI EVERYONE! hahas, today did nothing ah! hahas, just went out with my meimei and didi! hahas, went to changi airport there! OMG, just went there and walked around! hahas! then we went to CWP to buy wadd my mummy wants us to buy! then finally reached home at 7+pm! hahas! i love spending my time with my siblings! i love my family too! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

i am feeling so sad when one of my friends keep insisting that i hate him! i really really dont hate him at all! why did he wants to keep insist that i hate him, i really dont know why! he told me that he believe his instinct more than my words. sigh` i really got speechless when he said that! i dont know what more can i say! sorry is all i can say! just to say again! i dont hate you at all!

i am feeling bad because i am behaving too over! i should seriously learn how to control myself! dont get too much! just remember to think of people's feelings and thoughts! i didnt know my limits always! i didnt know what is others limits too! i really got no brain at all! i cant even feel what others feel! am i a human?

i guess i had been speaking too much all these times! seriously i just cant keep myself silent for a minute! i just cant behave myself always! i dont have my image always! please make lesser noise ah lihui!

lihui, time to grow up! his words strike me and make me to grow up! sigh. is time is time is time for me to grow up!

i must learn how to survive by myself without anyone by my side. i guess is really time for me to learn things! to be independent and to be strong! i must not cry too often! dont get too emotional!

xiaowei got a shock when i share the background picture with him! hahas! he look so cute in the picture! hahas! aniway i must really really thanks him for yesterday! i told him what happen and ask him for advice! hahas! thanks xiaowei! my nicest and cutest friend! hahas! LOVES-

thanks mr vinCENT too! hahas, thanks for hearing my words and stuff! thanks for sending me his first ever MMS! hahas, thanks! the picture of the MMS i will keep for lyfe for sure! hahas, thanks! LOVES-

nana is funny and she says my nick is funny!
nana's nick : tell me when will the wind stop
lihui's nick : to nana: i also dont know when the wind will stop!
i love my BESTEST bestie always! LOVES-

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the WEEK < LOVES- - Sep. 02, 2006 at 05:55 AM
BOO! i am back to update my blog! a week and a day that i did not update my blog le ah! hahas! getting abit rusty liao! hahas!

26 august-sat! a free day for me i supposed! only went for my guitar lesson in the evening with nana! hahas, talking all the way again! yay, we are going to intermediate ler! finally! hahas! guitar lesson rocks (: i only remember doing my homework until i only sleep at 6am+! hahas, i was very very stress when doing my homework!

27 august-sun! went to meet vinCENT at morning dont know what time, 10am i supposed! i also forget liao! hahas! we- nana, shujuan, xinfang, zhongxun and me going his-vinCENT house to play and study! hahas! i was busy doing my sketch book! omg, it is so irritating! i dont like to do midmap! i do until i also wanna cry liao! we play the cluedo! omg, i am too dumb! everyone know the murderer while i am still guessing who is the murderer! argh, somemore play 2 rounds, i didnt even get to guess fully and correctly for both games! ARGH, sad! hahas! played, studied, do homework, chat until 7pm then we went HOME! hahas! went home and continue the last 2 topics for my sketch book! hahas, did not get to sleep again due to my chem test on monday! argh, oragnic chem is killing me! somemore still got equilibrium and kinetics reaction < forget how to spell! hahas! all my killer topics! CRIESSS*

28 august-mon! a long day at school again! had my chem test! argh, i feel so stress and panic before the chem stress test! sian, i am so pek chek with the test eh! argh, someone save me from organic chem pls! sigh! went to library with shujuan, zhongxun, huiyang and vinCENT! hahas, reached home at 10+pm! hahas, went to eat my dinner with nana, xinfang, shujuan, huiyang, zhongxun, vinCENT and clarence! hahas, i love them! hahas! oh ya! is my dearest hothot sweet lao da b'dae that day! hahas, called him and wished him happy b'dae! i was the last to wish him! hahas, happy b'dae laoda! hahas, i love my lao da always! hahas!

29 august-tues! a short day for school! lend my vedio camera to clarence for the sake of his pw grp! hahas, i was so dumb! hahas, too dumb till i video without taking the video camera cover out! hahas, kel*happy fruit told me because i was wondering why no matter where i video also black one eh! hahas! dumb! hahas, went to eat my dinner with them again but without xinfang, clarence! hahas! love love love them! hahas! oh ya! is huiyang b'dae! hahas! so happy belated huiyang! hahas, all the best in wadeva u do! hahas, loves from me always! take care my dearest mistress! hahas!

30 august-wed! 12am! nana and clarence called me up and sing a lot of version of b'dae song to me! hahas! thanks! u guys are so great in my heart! hahas! LOVES- got alot of wishes from all my friends too! hahas! thanks! hahas, a short school day for me again! hahas, had the pop talents programme after school! very very nice, thats all i can say! hahas! do our pw after the pop thing! hahas, my group is so lame la! hahas! i love my pw grp, nana love too! hahas! IJC037 is always the best ever! hahas! went home late because nana and i were waiting for our friends! hahas! went home with nana, huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, clarence and linkai! hahas, went to eat our dinner too! hahas! always a nice nice day with them around! oh ya, nana thanks for the best wonderful flower i ever received! thanks! loves-

31 august-thurs! teachers' day celebration is nice at ijc! hahas, only got very depressed due to some matters! well, it is all over so i shall forget it! hahas! thanks nana, shujuan, huiyang, xinfang, zhongxun, vinCENT, jinlong, fangwen, linkai, clarence for not giving me up always! u guys are so great till i do not know how to thanks u all! i really really love u guys, i can never ever live well without u guys at all! hahas! i love u guys, always always! went back to rss with dawei! OMG, i miss rss! hahas, i was behaving like a little monkey when i went back! hahas, i just cant stop jumping for a minute! i get to see so many people who i love also! 5/1 is always the best! hahas, went out with them, is always a very nice time! hahas~ i hoppe the 5/1 spirits in us will never die! hahas! LOVES!!

i received a hug from faizal law! omg, the feeling is nice i tell u guys! hahas! the time i spend with my secondary school mates make me feel like going back to my secondary school life! i realy really misss those times! i really really wish time will to pass slowly or stop! memories of us will always remain in my heart, always!

1 sept-fri! hahas, went out to play pool with shujuan, xinfang, huiyang, zhongxun and vinCENT! hahas! a very very nice day again! play pool from 10am to 2 or 3pm! hahas! went to have our lunch and we went to bukit panjang plaza! hahas, the first time i am taking LRT! hahas, i was just so excited! hahas! i am always behaving like a kid and to my clique, i am just 3 years old! hahas! i can be very very crazy till i jump to sit on those put in coins then it will start to move thing, i will go and play with the kids in the playground and smiling and laughing with them! argh, i am going to behave myself! i am going to get the picture that i was on the kids' vehicles picture from vinCENT! haha! it looked funny i think! hahas! lihui, time to grow up! hahas! my day was great with them again! hahas! LOVES-

2 sept-sat! hahas, went to do CIP with nana, xinfang and clarence! linkai was not feeling well, so take care eh! hahas, nana and me saw the biggest bird ever! OMG, it is just so big that some are more than half of my height i supposed! hahas! i am so scare of all those big birds! hahas, they are cute, noisy, big and funny i supposed! hahas! the uncles are nice! hahas! i just love working and talking craps with all different kind of people! hahas! went to tour around the JBP with them after our CIP! hahas! we agreed the next time we are going to buy back home a lot of things from JBP! reached home at 6+pm! no guitar lesson suddenly, i dont know the reason! so i rest myself at home! hahas!

tml is sunday! most probably slacking and resting at home! hahas, i am going to school with my clique during the one week break to study hard! hahas! cant wait to study with them! hahas! i love them them them! LOVES! hahas!

xiaoxin! OMG, seriously i love my xiaodi so much! thanks for being my support always! a person who i can turn to always, i love ya always! hahas, takecare hor! LOVES-

mr nonsense! sorry that i dozed off yesterday! i feel so bad when u called and i feel asleep! sorry! thanks for all ur chats always! hhahas! LOVES-

i love alot alot of people! i just dont know how to express my love for the people sometimes! i wish they could always feel my love for them! the love i have for them will never never die or fade away! LOVESSSSSSSSS-

to give up is never a easy thing to do, i am going to give up! i cant possible hold on to it i think! i cant hold on to the grip anymore, so i am going to let it go. time fade feelings always, all i need is just time i supposed! how much time i need depends on myself. i guess i will need a long time!

he didnt even remember you at all! it realy really hurts me to accept the reality! some told me maybe he is just too busy so it slip out of his mind or he doesnt want to remember! argh, why cant you just remember me for this time. i did not ask much i supposed! just remember me for once, thats all i want.

i am tired, just get too tired to go on anymore. i dont wanna to run away from anything anymore. whenever i choose not to run, i will get very depressed! whenever i choose to run, i will get very troubled over it! so what to do!

never ever make me fall and ask me to stand up again. i am not that strong i supposed, i cant afford to stand up and be the same anymore! i am just too emotionally! sigh`

special thanks to-
zhikuan*tangge!
gengyuan*tangdi!
xiaoxin*bestest boyfriend`xiaodi!
weeling*bestest BUDDY`laogong!
serene*bestest friend`nu er!
nana*darling`laopo`bestest bestie!
vera!
shuhui*qingaide!
ain*dumbclown!
kye*teddybear!
huize*teacher!
brenda*mummy!
allena*laoxiao!
huiyang!
shujuan!
vinCENT!
zhongxun!
jinlong*LEADER!
clarence*haojiemei!
yusi*bestest girlfriend!
poixin*bestest girlfriend`ultrawoman`darling!
jinger*sweet lao po!
hiromi*dear!
marvin*lao pa!
cheewei*korkor!
shiqi*meimei!
anita*meimei!
pey lih*meimei!
shuyi*meimei!
macgyver*didi!
tania*nu er` lover!
timjang*nu er!
jieying*nu er!
jazzreel*nu er!
angeline*nu er!
michelle*nu er!
kelvin*happyFRUIT!
veeling*primary school bestest friend!
laisheng*doctor!
hasanah!
yiwen!
amaluna!
yilin!
kuanyen!
faizal!
garyKOH!
dawei!
junxian!
tinshen!
ginny!
peiying!
jackson!
fanella!
gina!
pearl!
mingfan!
wenping!
cher fu!
caroline!
cynthia!
iyis!
nisha! < she wants to be the last!

thanks!

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BACK finally =D

2006-08-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

back to update here finally! going to blog from wednesday to friday! =D!
wednesday- i got my chemistry SPA! argh, got very depressed in the morning somehow! i feel so lost in my chem, i feel i know nuts about the SPA at all! i am totally lost somehow! i cheered myself up by calling my friends' name! hahas, a nice way of making myself happy! thanks for all my friends who have been by my side always! i love all of you! hahas! the spa is like mock spa just that i am just as panic as any spa! argh, cries! went to siling primary school to interview the teacher who our group supposed to interview with! hahas, nana and me went to find shujuan, huiyang, zhongxun and vinCENT they all after that! hahas! we did nothing but just crapping? hahas! they did their pw while nana and i were like slacking as usual! hahas, went home with vinCENT after school! hahas, can say this is the nicest and most memorable trip back home somehow! hahas! (: thanks vinCENT so much! hahas, he should know why i thanks him so much! hahas!
thursday! LONG lesson day! hahas, went for my cca morning run! hahas, run 2KM only, i was feeling rather afresh after the run! hahas, i love running! hahas! spend my day with those people i love as usual! hahas, went back home super late not because lesson end at 5.40pm just that we stayed back to do our homework! hahas! then mr vincente aka mr nonsense came and look for me for chemistry! argh, feeling so funny and dumb in front of him! he dont need me to help me at all actually because he just sit there and did his work by his own! hahas! mr nonsense is cute ah! hahas! stop sleeping late during school times and thanks for all those late night chat! hahas! just love crapping with him and love him scolding me nonsense! hahas! we went to eat our dinner together! hahas, i was just playing with the drinks! hahas! i love my days with them!
friday! hahas, a long day again! hahas, had econs test! argh, should say i know nuts about what am i writing! argh, i am afraid to fail! please please, let me pass! had my cca training after school! hahas, we did some sticks work and ran 3KM outside school! hahas, the run is cool! hahas, running; I LOVE! hahas! nana, shujuan, xinfang, clarence, zhongxun and vinCENT waited for me! i am so touched by them! hahas, sorry guys to make you all wait till 630pm! thanks and love you guys! hahas, play bball after that? hahas, went home at about 730+ or later, forget! hahas, then went to have dinner with them! hahas, went home at 9+pm! argh, bath and online! hahas!
oh ya! wednesday is my tang di LEE GENG YUAN'S birthday ah! finally 17 liao hor! hahas, respect me okie! hahas, remember to do well for you O levels and come to IJC! hahas, it is the best JC always! hahas! thanks for being such a nice tangdi always! hahas, remember i used to abuse him by drawing on him! hahahas, i think i am so crazy last time! thanks for listening to what i wanna to say always! thanks for being the best tang di although u are not the one and only tangdi i have! u are the closest tang di to me! hahas! tangjie loves you! hahas, happy belated birthday! LOVES-
well, today is faizal law's birthday! hahas, going to sms him later! going to make sure that i am the last one to wish him happy birthday! hahas!
xiaowei is cute i swear! hahas, he is like so cute to me always! thanks and try to get enough sleep! hahas!
nana, remember no matter what, i will be there for you! i am a friend who will never give up on you, just like how you dont give up on me! hahas!
my lovely, wonderful, nice clique! thanks for being by my side always! i really really do not know how to thanks you guys! i really really love my life because of you guys! i appreciated you guys always! love you guys! nana, shujuan, huiyang, xinfang, zhongxun and vinCENT! hahas! thanks for making my lyfe so nice always! LOVES- i love my pw group as usual too!
my lyfe just is not as smooth as before! someone really make me so angry this few days! what is no one cares about you or what! just that your actions make people angry or the way you speak does not have any positive impacts on others. do you ever think before you speak? do you ever think before you comment on something? i am just so angry with the way you present yourself now, you are just not the same as who i used to know!
i feel i am not on the track anymore! i dont know should i be off the track this time round or it is just another moment that i will be out, the next moment i will be on the track again! i am really really confused! i dont know what to choose, either be out of track always or try my ways to get back to the track! argh, someone tell me what to do!
i just cant express my feelings well, i wish i can speak what i wanna to say always! it is like i dont know how to start! argh, i wanna to say my feelings out loud!
dont make me fall any deeper, dont make me hold any longer! i just afraid that i will not be able to take it anymore. i dont know what am i supposed to do with you! i really wish i can be my usual self in front of you! not to ignore you but went to say a hi to you and give you a smile!
so many things to be completed over the weekend! every subject also got homework i supposed! argh, i wanna to cry! i got so many homework to do somemore got chemistry test! argh, the chemistry test cover almost the whole of the chemistry that we had studied! what is a difference between this test and promos? hahas!
i wanna be who i am, i wanna be the one who bring a smile to everyone everyday of my lyfe! i wanna everyone around me to be happy!
thats all. bye and take care everyone! hahas!
nites and bye everyone! takecare!

thoughts / feelings - - Aug. 22, 2006 at 07:00 AM
i am back to update my blog!

my feelings are so mixed up, i dont know what am i feeling now! sad? angry? depressed? happy?

saturday slack at home and went for my guitar lesson! hahas! a rest day for me finally!

sunday! went to zhongxun's house and had fun with nana, xinfang, shujuan and vincent! really really a very nice day! hahas, played badminton! hahas! omg, my fav! thanks to them if not my racket would be still in coma state! went to CCK with them to eat my dinner! hahas! they are supposed to do CIP but shujuan's toes injured so postphoned! hahas! went to take neoprints with nana, shujuan, zhongxun and vincent! hahas! OMG, i just love hanging out with them! hahas!

chatted with shujuan and nana alot during the badminton breaks =X just one solution for me that is either to say it out loud or to give it up! argh, my heart tell me to say it out, my mind tell me to give it up! so should i listen to my heart or my mind! i dont want to make any decision for the time being! argh, shoo!

monday! had my long days in school! i was dumb! very very dumb! argh, i tried to control my tears in front of my friends! i really really hold back my tears, somehow the tears still rolled down! argh, i am so useless!

tuesday! argh, i screwed my physics SPA! i went totally so nervous for the last 10minutes! i feel like crying but i cant! my hands were shaking when i was writing! argh, i was totally very afraid! i dont know how to describe how i feel! why must i screwed up all my SPA? hais, i am very very disappointed with myself! hais.

walked back home with nana, xinfang, shujuan and vincent! hahas, just love them! hahas, after that walked home with vincent because xinfang say i lazy >.< hahas!

someone asked me, why are you in JC? the answer is i dont know which course to go to and i dont seem to have any sense of direction in my life at all! i dont have any future in the other words! hais, what am i supposed to aim! a life without a aim is meaningless no matter what!

i dont know who am i at all. i know i am way to dumb to be in JC, my english is so lousy, very noisy, irritating, fan and qian da! argh, what am i supposed to do?

i dont wish to be the cause for the problems between 2 person. i really feel so bad. i dont know what am i supposed to do. confused`

chatted with xiaoxin yesterday! didnt really tell him the problems i am facing, just tell him a little! i dont know how am i supposed to tell him! i know i trust him alot, just that i dont know how to tell him! xiaoxin, thanks! i know you will be there supporting me always like what you say! thanks, i love my xiaodi!

i am not feeling lost this time round. just that the words that people say make me reflect alot on myself. i dont know whether i should take those words to heart or to ignore them! seriously, i dont know what to choose! i cant choose to ignore. i cant run away from my feelings!

alhtough i told myself to ignore those words! i cant ignore! my mind will just keep on reflecting what they say about me! argh, my mind is running wild again, i dont know how to stop it! i really really hate the feelings!

you stil choose to ignore me.
i am going to be dead one day.

sigh`

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happy belated b'dae ultrawoman<3 - Aug. 18, 2006 at 09:48 AM
just end hang up my phone with vincente and i am BACK to update my blog again! hahas, finally this week ended. this week is full of tests and the days are long always! monday long day, tuesday phy quiz, wed chem mock spa, thurs maths test, friday econs test and chem skill D quiz! hahas! i cant believe i passed this week with all my tests and quiz! hahas, it is so unbelieveable! YES, i did it! hahas!

dinner with nana, huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun and vincent really make me laugh until my whole stomach almost cramp! hahas! i love laughing!

today is photo taking day! OMG, finally i stand up to take class picture! not that i am tall, it is just the arrangement! hahas! i am super happy!

today is also my happy fruit kelvin's b'dae! HEY, Happy b'dae my happy fruit! hope ya dont be sad fruit anymore and all the best in whatever you do! hahas!

went to science centre to meet the scientist! hahas, science centre is so fun, just some thoughts came back to me and i feel so paiseh! hahas! nevertheless, nana, xinfang, shujuan, huiyang, zhongxun, clarence and i enjoyed! hahas!

next week, i will be having both my phy and chem SPA, tues and wed respectively! i am afraid for chem spa this time round! i always screwed up my SPA! i dont know why i just got so panic when it come to SPA! omg, please save me and pray for the best for me!

this week i spend my time with nana, shujuan, xinfang, huiyang, vincent and xiaoxun! hahas, we are somehow become closer and closer! hahas! i love my PW group also, thats is nana, jinlong, fangwen and linkai! hahas! LOVES!

chatted with my dearest xiaoxin today! OMG, i really really miss my xiaoxin! hahas, just talked to him and i feel so nice! thanks ah xiaodi! hahas, i really really love my xiaodi! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

chatted with my little ultrawoman! happy belated b'dae my dear! i hope u will be happy always huh! hahas, once my friend, always my friend! take care huh my little ultrawoman! hahas, i love love my ultrawoman the most! hahas! remember to enjoy ur lyfe to the fullest! LOVES-

online chatted with nana, shujuan, zhongxun! hahas, vincent is in but he is not saying a single word! hahas! wadd onli! nice time with them, just abit crazy crazy like that! hahas! LOVES-

sms-ed vincente! hahas, the mr nice guy who i used to joke with him! hahas, as usual he is very very nice! hahas, thanks for being so nice always OKIE! hahas! LOVES-
was on the phone with him just now! we chatted for nearly 2 hours! hahas! thanks to him and i am not so sian always! LOVES- hahas, i am super crappy and he is busy doing his maths! hahas! mr nonsense! =D

eyes contact with him on wednesday! omg, i am so shocked and scared after the moment! i was telling myself that i am not dreaming! hahas, yes, i am not! hahas! i just went so HAHA! i will stop that moment if i can! LOVES-

the backview of you is so nice always.
i still choose to ignore and
you ignore me too!

dont ignore me,
i will be crazy over you still.
i will never give you up till i could no longer hold on to you.

i choose to hold on `

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HIGH! - Aug. 15, 2006 at 08:02 AM
I AM HERE TO UPDATE!

alrights, a nice day because today i feel so happy! hahas, just feel singing is nice always! hahas, vinCENT sing cute eh! hahas! just spend my day after school with nana, shujuan, huiyang, xiaoxun and vincent in the library! i just keep singing KISS GOODBYE! hahas!

i am very high today! hahas, just just just very high! dont know what got into me?

you always choose to ignore me x(

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down // hais ` - Aug. 14, 2006 at 07:20 AM
i am very down now, just feel that i am such an idiot! argh, i dont know how to explain.

i guess i should not be in JC seriously. i am too dumb to be here with all the smart people all around me. someone say my studies is like shit and my understanding is real weak! hais, it just break my heart into pieces! do you think i really want to be that dumb? do you think i want my understanding of things to be so weak? i wish i can be as smart as alot of people but i cannot be smart! i wish i can also dont study alot but score well in the examinations and tests! i study so hard for my examinations but i am just the one who dont do well for it always! hard work dont paid off, is it the results are trying to tell me that? it shows clearly one thing, hard work dont paid off! so what am i supposed to do? the only thing i can do is to be more hardworking because i am not born smart and i am slow always! just one thing, i am not smart!

i dont belong to JC at all. i dont belong to this world at all. so where do i belong to?

what is going on to my chinese? how am i going to score well again! hais, my composition just did so badly. i am sad, did anyone knows?

why must i be stress by my pw whenever i got my tests, examinations, SPA or alot of homework? why must it always be like this, i dont want to give up on my studies for the sake of my PW. i really dont want to give up my studies! i really cannot take it sometimes, i will just cry and cry! i just feel so hopeless!

i am sorry to my pw mates because the file is too big to be send! sorry guys! i am really very sorry! hais.

so many things going on this week, i am going to be dead again i supposed. how am i going to survive! can someone teach me how am i going to survive?

he seem to hate me still, just somehow i cant get the feeling off from me. i know i am very irritating to him, i dont know how to change his point of views on me when he already fixed the point of views! it is hard to change people point of views on others always, so it means i got no more chance to make him change his point of views. today is definitely a day to make him to hate me even more, i am just so irritating.

i dont know how to hold on now. seriously, all of them are driving me to the corners of the walls. i dont know why am i still alive now? i should be dead, seriously, i wish to die. just let me die.

chatted with huiyang after school today while waiting for my friends! i really have a very nice talk with her, told her what happened and how i feel totally. i told her frankly about how i feel. somehow our character are alike in the terms that we are always thinking too much and are always overstressed by ourselves. i hope she dont think too much because she is very smart and things will be smooth for her.

thanks xiaowei. he is the first i talk to when i am feeling so down.

i am trying to hold on still because i know i am going to break down anytime. i cant guess when i am going to break down again. hais, save me if you can.

dont make me feel worse.
i feel like dying `

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3DAYSpost! - Aug. 13, 2006 at 05:40 AM
finally i am back to update my blog! i am sick! argh, totally sian diaoz when i fall sick! headachde and flu < screams*

FRIDAY!
had my long long day! hahas, was really a nice long long day! hahas! did not go for my cca because i forget to bring my PE attire! hahas! after school played with my classmates! hahas, we were playing MONKEY! oh god. i cant believe we are JC mates! hahas, played MONKEY with nana, xinfang, xiaoxun, vincent, clarence, patrick! hahas! the GIRLS vs the BOYS! shujuan and her friend just sit there and watched the 7 of us playing! hahas, i really played until i am so happy! hahas, just keep running after the little rice balloon! hahas! I LOVE MY FRIENDS! hahas! went to have dinner with nana, shujuan, xinfang, xiaoxun, vincent and clarence! OMG! is great! hahas, i love to play MONKEY! lets have MORE!

SATURDAY!
went to JURONG BIRD PARK for my CIP with nana, xinfang, linkai and clarence! omg, is great! hahas, i was helping at the phototaking area! hahas, is great! hahas, i am not afraid of little parrots! they are so cute! hahas! i just played with them! hahas! did 5 hours there and i did not even eat my lunch! hahas, is fun being there! i love JBP! hahas! then shujuan and xiaoxun come and meet us! shujuan played a little future game with me! alrights, got perfect after so many tries! i went lalala after perfect! hahas =D! then the 7 of us went to jurong point to buy ah long present! hahas! before that i went to eat my lunch at mcdonald with shujuan!! omg, i am really very hungry! hahas! went to shop around! we found out that there is nothing we can buy there so we decided to went to bishan! hahas, was playing on the mrt with xinfang and nana! hahas, playing with the rice balloon again! took neos at bishan! we were pulling one another in! hahas, is fun because only nana and me were taking the neos nicely! the rest of them is LIKE SIAO DING DONG! HAHAS! i still love the neos! it is so SWEET! i will upload the neos here! hahas! supposed to be a 7 ppl neos but now is like dont know what! hahas! is fun being with them! then went off feeling not very good mood due to someone! hahas, went for guitar lesson with nana! hahas! is fun again just that we keep talking nonstop! hahas! GUITAR LESSON IS FOR US TO TALK! hahas! xiaoxun called me and i went on chatting with him till i got home! hahas, i am stil chatting with him when i got home, so i chatted till the time i was supposed to bath! hahas, i am so siao i think!

nana know i am happy because at least the someone cherish the friendship between he and me! hahas, i was happy and i forgive him straight away i saw the sms he sent to me! i know you cherish me as ur friend and also ur jiemei! hahas

SUNDAY!
did some reading on PW again! PW PW! hahas, i really really LOVE IT! hahas, watched tv! hahas, dont feel like doing anything at all! hahas, did my maths tutorial! hahas, just slack the whole day!

send a song to xiaowei! hahas, he loves the song too! is a very very nice song! hahas! LOVES-

qingaide- i am sorry i cant make it! i promise i will make it for the next time! thanks for being so understanding! I LOVE U SO MUCH! LOVES-

hiromi dear! stop being so busy! hahas, i know you miss me because i miss you too! hahas, make sure you spend ur day with me after your A levels! hahas! LOVES-

xiaoxin! I LOVE MY XIAOXIN! hahas, stop saying you are BAD huh! ahJIE loves ya the MOST! HAHAS! XIAOXIN XIAOXIN XIAOXIN, WO AI NI! LOVES-

what i want actually! this question really make me feel i got no direction in my life so far i supposed! argh, what i want!

perfection dont happen so easily! it is always a mircale that it happens! it just happen once in my life after so many tries. i am too stubborn to give up i supposed!

i still got a long way to go!
i am still on my long way!
i will enjoy for sure x)

my days were nice all along as long as i think it is nice!

belief -

=sign OFF=

i love today / x) - Aug. 10, 2006 at 09:05 AM
alrights, i am back to update my blog again!

today went to do PW with nana*darling! hahas, meet her at 1pm at civis library! did whatever we neeed and we went to eat PASTA again! hahas. one week i dont know eat how many times liao eh! hahas! then clar called me and nana and me chatted with him for almost an hour! hahas! suddenly nana got the mood to take neos so we went to take neos! hahas! shujuan called me and asked me something! HAHAS! it is funny! hahas!

went to jinlong house at around 5.05pm! hahas, went to collect my paper! hahas! then went back home online to chat and did my homework at 8.45pm! hahas! i am too blur and dumb because i thought i need to do the chem till assignment 13! sian diao! i am supposed to do until arenes nia! so i should not take my paper back from AH LONG! hahas! sian diaoz!

saw so many people at CWP again! hahas! got a shock by my saidi! hahas! thanks for suddenly appear beside me! hahas!

i am dumb for the sake of xiaowei! hahas! because i am dumb! hahas! i am still smart because i guess twice then i got it right ler! hahas! i am smart and also dumb!

chatted with the 4 or 5 of them today! haha, going out with them on SUNDAY! omg, i cant wait to go out with them! i hope teddybear can go! hahas! i just miss them!

chatted with bestest bud too! takecare eh bestest bud!

love today because today is good! in fact, i am going to love all my days! hahas!

i still chat with him! i failed again! sian diaoz!

tml there is school! YAY! LOVES-

=sign off=

a brand new ME < - Aug. 09, 2006 at 09:00 AM
happy b'dae SINGAPORE! i LOVE singapore!

spend my day with my family<3! i love my family! hahahas! bought things too! hahas. LOVES-

xiaowei say the sms to friends is mushy? hahas! oh no, i feel it is a very very meaningful SMS! wadd only eh he! hahas, he is always too cute so maybe the sms is only mushy to him only! hahas =D! i miss xiaowei! hahas! LOVES-

hahas! alrights, i love all my friendship!

chated with teddybear just now! omg, i miss the 5 of them! my qingaide, my dumbclown, my teddybear, my teacher, my mummy! hahas! just cant stop missing them! going to meet them up! hahas, teddybear promise to let me pester her every single day after my promos! hahas, i shall pester her till i get to move into ur house and she spend her 24/7 with me! hahas! teddybear is NICE! hahas!

nanaDARLING! dont think too much eh! think i dont know whats on ur mind? hahas! u are wrong nana! hahas, we are bestest bestie right! so i know u super super well! hahas, remember just trust me and things will be fine! hahas, remember what i promise to you also! hahas, lets brave through all together!

leader! oh god! stop hating the post! hahas, i love my LEADER! he is nice just sometimes get so OVER! hahas! stop saying i got alot of friends at CWP! hahas! remember not to fall sick! x)

9august! i am a new lihui! hahas! just too new that people will be shock! hahas, dont be shock! hahas! the new lihui is still funny and the one who cant stop laughing LOUDLY! hahas! CHEERS*

dont fast forward time! i wish time to stop now! hahas! just dont wish to fast forward time! give me a chance, i would choose either to let the time stop now or to turn back the time! i will never ever choose to fast forward my time!

i dont want to grow up! i dont want to get promoted! i dont want to work! i dont want to go to the future so fast!

she misses him! so where is him! hahas! i just feel like typing alot alot of nonsense here and there! aniway i am always full of nonsense!

the last day, the last night, the last time, the last moment, the last dance, the last me - all these last thing, will you ever remember?

i told myself that i am going to stop talking to him but i cant! omg, someone tell me what should i do now! i just cant stop talking to him whenever i see him ONLINE! hahas! stop me from all these chatting! i want to stop talking to him! someone just control me please!

i admit i am just too weak when i see him!

tml there is PW again! hahas, PW is my lyfe and i am loving it! hahas!

=SIGN off=

national eve x) - Aug. 08, 2006 at 07:34 AM
back to update my blog again! today is national eve! hahas, nice day of cos! tml is singapore's birthday!

meet xiaoxun at 7.45am to go back to riverside to receive our awards! hahas! saw riverside friends, omg, i miss them! i miss riverside too! OMG, so much of misses came to me at the same time! argh, i just miss riverside!

recevied the awards then xiaoxun and me went off at around 10am! we rushed back to innova to watch ijc's performance! so we reached ijc at 10.10+am! hahas, then the auntie take our ezlink cards! sian half! hahas! then we went to watch performance! hahas!

the performance is nice! hahas! saw my classmates and my friends performing on stage eh! hahas! then went to CWP to eat with my PW grp! pasta again! hahas! nice day with my PW grp even though it is just a meal! then went to boon lay with nana to buy books! hahas!

went to catch a movie - click! it is a very nice movie! everyone must go and watch it! hahas =D! went home after shopped for awhile! got home, online and started pw at 7pm! argh, pw! i love i love i love pw! hahas!

chatted with nana and clar on the phone! hahas, clarence say i am CUTE when i am stealing the cheese eh! hahas, thanks so much eh clar! hahas! chatted and had lots of fun in there!

xiaowei is CUTE and HOT and COOL today! oomg, i just went omg omg all the way! he looked very very very cool till i dont know how to express my views! hahas, he look very very kid always! he is the nicest and cutest and hottest and coolest xiaowei i ever know! LOVES-

today i didnt get to see my xiaoxin! OMG, very sad la! i dont know why! argh >.< he says he saw me on stage while i didnt get to see him at all! cries! LOVES-

what is ENOUGH! i dont know what is ENOUGH, SOMEONE EXPLAIN TO ME!

dont wish to say anything more.

the world is fair always, so if anything go wrong also i am to blame of it.

=SIGN OFF=

coincidences<3 - Aug. 07, 2006 at 08:09 AM
alrights, my mood shoot up to the maximum! i am very happy now! COINCIDENCES occur between people! hahas!

my ah kor nick is like "do you think you have a choice?"
my nick is like "do i have a choice?"

omg, coincidences! hahas, i feel so OMG happy! hahas, this ah kor of mine is nice! hahas! I WAS VERY VERY shock to see this similar nick! hahas! feeling happy! hahas! =DD

we talked about areospaces somehow because i like! hahas! then i think he like it too! hahas!

he is so sad because he think he do not have a choice! so i told him i give him a choice! hahas, then he is happy because he will be doing what he want to do! i manage to make him think abit positively! hahas =D

i hope my ahkor is not sad or stress! hahas, A levels he sure can do it one! hahas, dont be stress! hahas =DD
i know he must be lying himself that NDU < National Diving Unit is good! hahas! NDU is good! hahas! the uniform is nice, the unit is respected! hahas most importantly! hahas, it is his honour to be in that unit! hahas!

ahkor ROCKS!

xiaowei` thanks to him too! hahas, always the one who can make me feel better by talking nonsense thing! hahas! messy hair is NICE i supposed!

jinlong`nana`xiaoxun`weixiang > thanks =D! i love my friends! hahas! =DD

i cant never forget`

he say good nite again`

=SIGN OFF=

choice // time ` - Aug. 07, 2006 at 06:00 AM
alrights i am back to blog finally! yesterday i just cant update! hahas, i dont know what is wrong with HI5! hahas!

today was not a very good day for me because new things are ahead again and i am going to face them again and again!

lessons were long and after school went to eat pasta with nana and clar! i vomitted after that! i dont know why i just feel so full! aniway it is nice to spend time with them somehow.

saw alot of people today! i saw my HALFDI*LEX! he is smiling! omg, i am very very happy to see his smile again as he is always very depressed? hahas! TAKECARE HALFDI!

called my qingaide and SLP! hahas, i miss them so i called them up and chat for a few minutes each! i really really miss them! LOVES-

i dont know what is wrong with me today, i just cant concentrate well, i just cant let my mind stop running! i feel like running on the track, no matter is how many rounds! i just feel like running alot alot today!

i must be too stressed! i must be thinking too much again! i must be crazy again!

seriously, pw is adding on to my stress! i feel so stress again and again! i dont know what to do to let all the stress go! imagine to do everything in ur pw, i am really really dead! i am tired, can anyone just let me have a break! no matter how much i do, it is never enough i supposed. what is enough? hais ` i dont know limitations now! i love pw seriously! i love pw! i love my pw grp too! thanks! LOVES- i am going to be alive again!

xiaowei say i am fierce today, i think i looked very fan instead! thanks xiaowei for his smile! hahas, i just love see-ing people smiling! hahas! thanks! LOVES-

is the person who you trusted most always is the one who betrays you? is the person who you loved most always is the one who hurts you? can someone tell me the answer because i dont feel good at all. are all my feelings lying to me or is it my illusions again?

i want to hide away from the reality. i dont how to react i supposed. i am just behaving not like what i should be i supposed. i am just not lihui today!

how i wished everything is like a dream but it is not a dream at all. i got no choice but to face this cruel reality at all.

this is not the ending i want ever, i swear i dont want this to happen to. i dont want to face it too.

maybe i am too harsh, maybe i am too crazy, maybe i am too bad, maybe i am too sin, maybe i am too childish, maybe i am too dumb ` just alot of maybe!

the ship sank, everyone is still separated and i am still lost. i should not let the ship sank at the first place, i should not let everyone separated even though the ship sank. i am useless -

i realised i am too mood swings. i should change this or not i am going to have a serious split personality illness which i dont want.

everything is not the same, everyone is not the same, feelings are not the same, just then i realised the whole thing is not the same, it is too late. i just cant turn back the time anymore.

if give me a choice, would i choose the same. i doubt so. i really want the time to turn back then all these things would not become reality anymore.

turn back the time, just turn it back to the point i love the most.

i realised all these are just my thoughts` sigh!

i am always the cause of everything that has happened! i really wish i am dead because i am too sin. too sin that i cant even believe myself! argh, lihui why dont you die?

-end for today`

<<<< YESTERDAY POST >>>>
i am back to update my blog! supposed to update yesterday but i didnt because i do not have the mood to blog at all.

went to nana house in the afternoon around 12+pm! put my guitar in her house and we went to swim! hahas, we swim for almost 2 hours and we went off at 3pm!! we become darker! we had lots of fun too as we were talking alot there too! hahas! =DD then went to west mall to have my lunch! hahas! ate lunch and went to library! we borrowed same books from the library and left west mall at 5+pm! hahas, went back to nana's house and i did the R-mark design! NANA say it is nice! thanks NANA! hahas! then we practise our guitar too! then we went to our guitar lesson!

nana and me wished jinlong happy b'dae at around 12! so leader, stay happy okie! dont feel so stress always! hahas, got sick on his b'dae! hahas, so heng! hahas! aniway we going to celebrate his b'dae as PW group! IJC037! I LOVE!

nana was very angry yesterday because one auntie make her fall! oh my god, never u can imagine how fierce nana was! she was VERY VERY fierce! i got a shock! i was very shock! so people, dont make nana angry by letting her fall! you will be dead! hahas!

i was not feeling nice yesterday night! i just feel troubled. hais, just to say the ship has sank, everyone is separated and i am lost-

today went to library and do research with nana! hahas, we photocopied whatever we need! then we were very very tired! so we went off at 3pm! hahas! reached home and wanna to take a nap but somehow i just could not sleep! hahas! then slack the whole day! =D

xiaowei! he is lost! hahas, i miss him see-ing him online! XIAOWEI! WO XIANG NI! LOVES-

xiaoxin! hahas, i am going back to rss soon! i know he cant wait to see me and i cant wait to go back! hahas! we can meet each other ler! yay! miss! LOVES-

i am addicted to a song! hahas! is very nice!
> i can choose to cry, i can choose to hide, i cant possible choose to forget your smile.

everything is in a mess now. i dont know how to clear the mess. i dont know what more i need to do again. just dont feel like doing anything too but i cant i supposed. should i do what i am supposed to do? argh, i am going to be STRONG and do whatever i am supposed to do!

I LOVE SCHOOL!

=sign 0ff=

gone- - Aug. 04, 2006 at 07:38 AM
today is a very nice day i supposed! hahas, was feeling very tired right from the morning! VERY TIRED! i really want sleep today!

i was not in a very good mood because i just dont feel like talking. so i just on my MP3 to the max volume and listen to just ONE song! i just dont wanna to listen to what is happening all around me. i want to be in my own little world.

after school went to find teacher, waited and waited till 5.50PM! then went to CWP with nana to eat dinner then we went to walk around at CWP! we chatted alot alot of things. hahas, feel very very nice after chatting with NANA always!

XIAOWEI dance very nice today eh! just a few moments very stange nia! he is just so afraid of not nice, but today he was not looking vert strange instead the part on the floor is so perfect! hahas! he is very kiddo and blur BUT HE IS VERY CUTE! hahas =D i am just very siao nia! HAHAS!

NANA told me to put that thing behind my PW! yes, i did what she told me and i feel better. i am going to put that matter behind my PW! thanks NANA for making me feeling better and better as the days passed by. thanks! LOVES-

everything is so fan to me. am i so bad or what. these things are mostly caused by me i supposed. without me, maybe all these wont happened. i dont know what to do with myself at all. i dont wish to see all these. i dont wish to have things more to worry about. i dont want all these things at all!

i am having so many things to worry now. i dont even know what is right or what is wrong. everything that is in my mind is MY PW! my studies! i dont wanna anything more to be added in my mind! if not i am going to break down again!

i just dont wanna to talk. i just wanna keep my mouth shut. i just wanna to let myself be strong and dont be affected by anything at all. i am not going to be affected by anyone too. i am not going to be AFFECTED-

i am STRONG-
i will be STRONG-
i must be STRONG-

i still pretend i didnt see you.
i do not know is whether i want to avoid you or i am afraid to look into ur eyes.
i am gone now because he say good nite to me.

=SIGN OFF=

behaviour / x) - Aug. 03, 2006 at 08:33 AM
i am back again to update my blog! hahaha, today is a very gan chiong day for me because i am going with linkai and fangwen to interview the people of NEA! hahas, very very scared as my english is like OMG!

the day begins as usual just that today i meet yusi instead of nana! we had our cca morning run today. 6rounds x) hahas! so went for my lessons as usual after that! i was very very hot during the morning assembley! HAHAS!

today i wasnt very attentive in lectures or what because i am just too scare. i cant even think properly at all. my brain just cant stop thinking well. all the NEA things were in my mind always, never disappear at all! NANA gave me a big hug before going down to the canteen with linkai and fangwen! the best and warmest hug i had ever! thanks NANA, u make me rather strong at that time. i remember ur areoplane! =D

we left the school compound at 12.39PM! i was very anxious that i called xiaowei! hahas, i decided to tell him that in case if i die, he must buy 12lilies for me! i was feeling rather giddy and anxious while talking to him, i dont know what more to say! hahas, so i hang the phone after 1min+ talk! hahas, thanks XIAOWEI, u really make me feel better! i cant called xiaoxin because he is having lesson!

reached there, the place is very nice i must say! HAHAS! so we started our interview with them and i was still very very panic! cant stop feeling so panic! the interview is nice i must say! especially towards the ending part when i start talking nonsense again! hahas, i feel i am such a clown! we gave them our hotmail and the person was like ULTRAMAN! hahas, i was feeling so paiseh as well as the same time sian diaoz! hahas! i love ultraman, ultraman rocks! -D ultraman is really cute to me!

the interview lasted for an hour! hahas, we went back to woodlands after the interview! hahas, i was jumping around as i feel so happy! alrights, i dont mind saying that i LOVE NEA! NEA people are nice, friendly, funny and great! hahas, NEA; i LOVE!

we had our pe lesson! hahas, pe lesson is fun today! volleyball! although i dont realy like volleyball but today seem fun to me! HAHAS, i love PE so much! hahas, had maths test after PE! hahas, again! lesson ended at 7.05pm! hahas, the latest of the week! went to have dinner with nana, linkai, clarence, xiaoxun and jeffery! hahas, i was playing the MOBILE phone games with nana and linkai! hahas, this is fun and i must thanks guanhan for starting it! hahas!

saw rigel at causeway point's mcdonald! hahas, i miss her! hahas! then i started talking to her friend, if i remember correctly the name is mei wei! hahas, i dont even know her then we talked like as if we are friends that has lost contacts for 10years! hahas, i think i am seriously crazy for being too socialise! i just somehow keep talking to her! after that i talked to rigel's 3 other friends too! so i just talked to 4 strangers! hahas, i am mad seriously! they are very friendly i dont deny which make me feel that we seem to be friends somehow! hahas, i love talking to strangers =D i love making new friends out from no where! HAHAS, I LOVE!

went home at around 8.30+PM! hahas! took a bath and online! i am still doing my homework! today there is so much homework again! HAHAS!

nana, i feel the same way as you feel. thanks for making me feeling much better no matter what happens! BESTEST BESTIE ROCKS! LOVES-

xiaowei! he is so suay today! hahas, he agreed too! tml he is playing his bball again, well all the best for him tml! HAHAS, TAKECARE! LOVES-

i dislike the feeling! i hate it alot alot!

i wanna to ignore you in msn but i cant bring myself to do that. i cant stop looking at ur nick if i dont wanan talk to you. so i try my ways to talk to you somehow. i cant control my hands. i cant control my mind.

i didnt dare to look back.
i didnt dare to look at you.
i didnt dare to say hi.
i choose to ignore.
i choose to walk away.
i choose to act blur.
i choose to notice you secretly.
i choose those very irritating way of behaviour in front of you.

how more longer must i behave like this.
i wish i could do the opposite.

i wish to talk to you but i am afraid that you will ignore me. i am really afraid.

i am afraid i cant hold longer.
i am afraid i will be lost.
i am afraid i will be out from track.
i am afraid i will be gone.

dont ever say good night to me because i will be gone --

homework time =D!

=SIGN OFF=

thoughts x) - Aug. 02, 2006 at 07:27 AM
today is a very very good start for nana and me! we were both very happy! hahas! i am glad that things are the same which means we are happy! hahas, NANA, jia you!

NANA! thanks for the areoplane that you gave me! dont worry, i will always look at the letter when i feel down or what! i am so glad to have u as my friend! i thought u just fold a plane and gave it to me! just then i received, i realised it was a letter! no words can describe how am i felt when i read the areoplane's letter! hahas, NANA, THANKS for whatever you have done for me! i will be the same for ya de okie! thanks for what you say tonight, which make me feel alot better! i must sae i feel very good as i am not so troubled after that. thanks! hahas, remember today is a new day for us! we must do what we are supposed to do always, thats to stay happy! hahas! LOVES-

xiaowei! hahas! i called xiaowei today! gave him a little pat on his shoulders because he didnt see me! hahas! he is very very cute! hahas, very cute till i canot imagine! XIAOWEI IS CUTE! loves--

xiaoxun! HEYHEY! dont sound so sad always! must be happy okie! DONT THINK TOO MUCH! hahas! =DD! LOVES-

mummy! i miss my mummy! dont sound so sad ler la! BRENDA ONG MUMMY, LIHUI NU ER LOVES YOU! just remember that no matter what happens, i will be there for you. remember to stay happy eh! LOVES-

i get to see my qingaide and my dumb clown today! hahas! i know my qingaide miss me too much because she always miss me alot! clown look very clown today! hahas, was messing her hair! hahas! i miss them-

something that make me ponder so much.
something that make me feel so stress.
something that make me feel so lost.
something that make me feel so confused.
something that make me feel so argh!
i dont know.
i wish to run now-

i just wanna be happy-

=SIGN 0FF=

new start x) - Aug. 01, 2006 at 06:52 AM
before i turn into a brand new me, let me start saying my unhappiness because i am not happy at all for today.

my day was not good today. somehow.. i am upset by alot alot of things. nana was not happy too so i am feeling sad too. by the time i realised the mistake, it is too late. i dont know what can i do anymore. i should not add the thing in. it caused so much troubles and worries now. i know how bad the suitation is now, i can know how helpless everyone is now, i can feel how stress everyone is now, i can feel all the unhappiness things. i dont know what more can i help since the things has happened, i dont know how to carry on with the things now. i dont know what is good or bad to the things now, seriously i dont know. all i know now is to cry over the things! seriously i only know how to cry, such a freaking cry baby! why must i cry and cry always when i feel i am lost, stress or whatever! argh, i dont want to cry anymore!

whatever i done is always never enough. never ever enough. hardwork dont pay off at all and being appreciate at all. sigh, what more must i do? i wish i can die now.. i really hope to disappear from here! i hope i will never be here at all. i wish that all these are just dreams, i dont wanna to feel it anymore. i dont wish dreams to meet reality. i dont wish to see what is happening around me.

i am tired of whatever i have been doing. i am tired, really restless now. i dont wish to carry on to do what i am doing now. i wish to take a break. i wish all these things will end.

i am overstressing myself always. xiaoxun say that too. my xiaoxin asking me not to stress. nana is always there asking me not to stress always. xiaowei saying i am thinking too much when others also liddat. seriously i must thanks the 4 of them! thanks !

NANA, dont be sad anymore! i hope u feel better after today! just remember what i told you, just remember i will be there! just remember i am another rq to u! remember all the things i say! hahas, somemore i manage to make me laugh until so happy! i am happy too! CHEERS*

-end

NANA and me decided to start our life all over again! we decided to stay happy and jumped over the happy ring together! HAHAS, I AM HAPPY! thanks NANA! =DD we are the bestest bestie! i love NANA! LOVES--

xiaowei! thanks , i always feel so nice after sending him songs! thanks , xiaowei! hahas, he is so sweet and cute! hahas, he told me that if i got no one to hear my singing, i can record it down and send him! OMG, I AM SO TOUCHED! thanks! i love xiaowei! i love xiaowei! LOVES-

my xiaoxin! omg, he is just another me! hahas, i will never be sad with him around! i will never never be sad! he just make my day nice always! HAHSAS, just the best best xiaodi i have ever! just the one that i love so much always! just the one who is always there for me! I LOVE XIAOXIN! hahas! LOVESS-

xiaoxun! hahas, omg, got him a new name! hahas, he is so nice always! thanks! just that i dont love him so much! hahas, I LOVE XIAOXUN TOO! LOVES-- hahas!

everyday will be a happy day for me =D
smiles*

=SIGN OFF=

// SPEECHLESS - - Jul. 31, 2006 at 06:28 AM
today i went home quite early i supposed! hahas, is consider early at least to me! hahas!

today went school with NANA as usual! hahas! got a real shock from CHEW DAWEI today! argh, i was totally SHOCKED and i SCREAMED! thanks DAWEI huh! hahas! alrights, today is a very not good day for NANA! her mood went down to 99.99999deg after GP lesson! i know she is angry with what
because i am not very happy with it too somehow! somemore she is more angry after chinese lesson because of 2 matter! firstly, nana, dont care about the thing that happened in class which you told me over the phone! the second matter is about her CCA! nana, dont angry! i know u are super angry because when you called me and told me i could feel the heat from you! so nana, dont sound angry le okie! GOT LIHUI HERE! HAHAS, UR DARLING HELPS U ALWAYS! GOT ME GOT ME GOT ME!

after school go and find mr ang and see the physics book with jinlong! hahas, then that jinlong want me show that woodlands popular got sell the book! so he is finally convinced by ME!

ZhongXun, GOGOGO! thanks okie! hahas, he is funny because he use the way i cheer him up to cheer me up! hahas!

i just dont like! i just dont like! i just dont like! i am just so scare! i am just so scare! i am just so scare! i just dont know! i just dont know! i just dont know!

something which make me unhappy today.. i wish i could never see it! argh, screams*

its the way you make me feel, u make me feel so sad always! make me feel so numb! make me feel so dumb! make me feel so idiot! make me feel so lost! make me feel so meaningless! make me feel so argh!

i am going to be lost from someone's eyes! i am going to keep myself quiet and try not to kaijiao you anymore. i will keep myself very very quiet in front of you now. i am going to create new impression!

my sky are getting darker and darker as the days go by! i am getting more and more afraid too! i am getting more and more hopeless. i dont know where to go, dont know what to do. feeling so lost in my world, no more sense of direction! feeling that there is no goal in my life! nothing is in my lyfe! argh, cries. sigh! big big sigh!

just feel so speechless!

=SIGB OFF=

dreams // - Jul. 30, 2006 at 05:48 AM
yes, i am back finally back to update my blog!

my days are hard and stress when there is PW! seriously, pw is driving me crazy! i cried for pw almost one day per day! friday i cried three times! i dont know why, the tears just keep on rollig down! i told myself not to cry, but i cant! i just cant stop it. argh, lihui! stop crying!

yesterday i dream of jinlong, nana and me doing our project work! i dream of jinlong having a very innovative idea for pw and he gave something to shigehisa! then i was awake by nana's sms! so i fall asleep after that again! this time round i dream of happy fruit, shigehisa and me! i dream of shigehisa not talking to me and made me cry in my dreams! thats so terrible! heng all these are only dreams!

thanks shigehisa! i really need to thank him so much! hahas, thanks for being so good and nice always! hahas, he made my bad bad day into good good day on friday! hahas. thanks! HAHAS! the way he talked make me laugh! xiexie ni ler okie! LOVES-

thanks xiaoxin! hahas! i must always thanks him no matter what happen to me eh! hahas, he always make me happy when i am sad, make me more happy when i am happy! hahas =D i love my xiaodi! hahas, thanks! -LOVES

NANA! thanks too! thanks for being my bestest bestie in my life! hahas, we last forever! through friends undergo lots of problems, i am sure we are able to overcome all these problems! not only that, our guitar lesson is always the best because we are just basically laughing like mad! hahas, TINA~~ hahas, must always come for ur guitar lesson okie =D! oh ya, we share alot of little secrets hor =DD! we updated with each other things! i share all my secrets with NANA! hahas, we gossip over the same thing! whatever i get to know, she get to know too! HAHAS! hahas, i simply love my bestest bestie! THANKS! -LOVES

BESTEST BUD*weeling! dont be so sad ler okie! still got me eh! dont ever feel so sad la! i will always be there for you de okie! JUST remember to stay happy always! =DD! I MISS MY BESTEST BUD ALOT ALOT! LOVES-

i love the times when i am crapping with NANA!
both of us are like crazy, totally crazy!
we can do things that are inhuman, we can speak nonsense thing, we imagine funny things, we buy the same thing, we angry the same time, we sad the same time, we are SISTERS! hahas =D
the days are nice; I LOVE MY HAPPY TIMES!

happy times are always short, so i cherish them!

i told myself to be just happy!
so i am going to be happy no matter what happens!
so i am going to smile everyday!
so i am going to enjoy everyday!
so i am going to laugh everyday!

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say goodnight % - Jul. 25, 2006 at 07:11 AM
yes, tml final GPP due! omg, i am feeling so stress up again! checking of final GPP, the combination of frame work with GPP! the bookmark i am supposed to think of designing it! the call for interview with SLPS! somemore somemore! omg, i am dead! i feel like dying now!

thanks xiaoxin! hahas, he really make my day good again! hahas, i kmow his day is not good also because his nick sound fierce! hahas, i almost went OMG when i saw it. he always tell me to take care and tell me dont worry about him! hahas, so cute eh! i know how to takecare liao so i should be the one telling him! somemore i am always worry for him! hahas! being such a nice bestest friend, he change his nick in order not to let me worry! hahas, instead of feeling touched, i went saying who want worry about him! hahas, then he say suan liao! hahas, so the things went on! oh ya, i made him speechless again! HAHAS, i know he know! hahas =DD thanks xiaoxin! i really really love u! thanks for being there always no matter what happens! take care OKIE! -LOVES!

shigehisa! thanks so much too! he is so nice, always show me funny video clips when i am down! thanks so much! you rock, i stone! HAHAS, LOVES-

nana, thanks for being there too. thanks thanks. i dont know how to express my thanks to you too because i also dont know! LOVES-

qingaide! thanks too! i feel so so so OKIE when you asked me whether i am okie or not! I AM OKIE; believe me! hahas! hope u are okie too hor! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

i feel so overloaded with things that i am supposed to do. i feel that my invisible bag is really too heavy! very very heavy! i feel like throwing the bag down! i dont wish to carry on; i dont wish to go on; i dont wish to live on! i got alot alot of wishes!
my love ones are here; so all the wishes are to be thrown away from my mind!

i am going to be alive alive alive.

trust me- the world is fair x)

going school tml very early due to the PW file! hahas, PW! i am doing everything for PW! please make sure PW make the group happy!

i wish everyone around me to be happy!

anyway today i saw something in school which make me feel so sad! am i seeing the wrong things, i feel like asking the person! argh, should i or shouldnt i? i am confuse-

argh, my xiaodi*xiaoxin offline ler! hahas, out of a sudden i feel like listening to say GOODNIGHT! hahas! I LOVE MY XIAOXIN! HAHAS, DAJIE LOVES XIAODI!

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// thoughts - - Jul. 24, 2006 at 07:40 AM
hey people, i am back to update my blog again!

yesterday was totally a bad and unsuccessful day! we failed so many times, till the both of us were so tired and restless! imagine how many leaves we cut and killed! argh, i am so sad and depressed when it fails. the experiment failed totally made my world upside down! argh, cries! somemore we are really in need of ideas...

celebrated my cousin's b'dae at party world and was not really enjoying myself when i received nana's call x( i went so sad after that!

went home and went online the first thing! chatted and discussed! so finally we settled on what to do! the heart feel nice, very very nice.

today went to school with nana abit earlier! went to school, settled the overview together with the guys! today nana is still very very paranoid and went to 99.99deg cel! i am not so paranoid and went to 99.98deg cel! so everyone stays away from us!

after school, went to do the things we were supposed to do! hahas, finally finally finally! i am like OMG OMG! dying please! i hope this works! printed our survey too! argh, finally finally! interviews going to settle soon! argh, finally finally! everything is going to be finally i think!

very very depressed during chinese lesson! i am just basically drawing and writing lots on a piece of papers! making it colorful and penful! dont worry so much, i will do my best for everything! somemore i wont get overwork or what okie! just believe in me!

saw the hip hop today! alrights, just so COOL and HOT! hahas, i saw shigehisa's dancing! it is so unbelievable! hahas, because i dont feel that he is in for that! nevertheless, he is very very actively involved! hahas, see him dance, i also feel like laughing non-stop! very CUTEEEE! he rocks my world always! oh ya, he say that one my picture looks like auntie! ARGH, kill him but i dont bear to do so! i will lost one NICE and CUTE friend then! LOVES-

chatted with my bestest boyfriend xiaodi, xiaoxin today! OMG, my day is grey before chatting, totally GREY! after chatting with him, my day is GOOD! hahas, he is just like the one who can always brings my day with a smile! hahas, thanks XIAOXIN! somemore he know i miss him eh, SHYSHY* hahas! i love my xiaoxin! HAHAS! not forgetting my halfDI too! hahas, LOVES-

i wish the good times will last and the bad times will be gone soon. i dont wish to see the black clouds but the big bright sun! i wish i wish i wish! argh, when can i feel good always. i wish happy last forever; forever-

simple plan got great songs which suit my mood always. hais-

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I LOVE IJC037 < screams! - Jul. 22, 2006 at 08:47 PM
BACK BACK TO UPDATE MY BLOG!

i am so tired now and i had only less than 5 hours of sleep. my whole body aching; my backbone is in pain! argh, helps-

yesterday, all of us went to jinlong's house to do our project! all of us ate pizza at his house; smell the bleach at his house! reached there around 2+ and we start doing our experiment! we were doing our overview GPP at the same time! at least we spend those waiting time into good use!

went off with nana at 7.20pm for our guitar lesson! reached my house at 7.30pm; went in get my guitar; brought nana to my house's toilet and then set off to admiratly to take mrt! reached mrt station at 7.40pm and we waited 5 minutes for the mrt! so took mrt to bukit gombak! omg, i am like rushing here and there! alrights, we was like 5 minutes late for our guitar lesson! did not really paying attention to my guitar lesson with nana when we know the experiment failed! argh, my mind keep asking me; lihui, what should you do now? what you want to do!

argh, this is killing me! so nana and me were like thinking what to do! so we were 1o1% talking and thinking! so we came up with all sort of ideas! argh, hope it works! we took photos during the guitar lesson! hahas! thats so HAHAS!

went to buy whatever nana need cos she doing the experiment at home! hahas, my house got everything, so i got nothing to buy! reached home at 10+pm! start my experiment the first thing! argh, praying hard while doing! chatting with nana online till 3+pm! argh, was like chatting and waiting the experiments!

i could not sleep yesterday when i am on bed, my mind keep asking me to work harder and sleep less. i hope everything works for my project! yes, please let us success! we are going bonkers! everyone seem to be pek chek; i understand why. because 7hours and nothing success. i would definitely CRY! we wont give up! yes, we MUST NOT GIVE UP!

virus; bacteria; fungus; germs; worms % i love all of them / <3<3<3 - i hope this will always be in my mind; it must always be in my mind! we braved through storms and rain together; we laughed together; we got depressed together; we got pek chek together; we fighted together; we argued together; we played together; we crapped together; we lamed together; we did so many things together! seriously, i just love IJC037! we are definitely the best!

nana asked me; cant you imagine one day when you do not have any pw meetings anymore?
alrights, i dont know how to answer her; but definitely i feel odd. not only that, i will missed the times.

nana and me were like talking so many things on the way to bukit gombak! we just love to hang out with our pw group! we love them; yes we do.

alrights, now i am going to prepare and meet my darling nana now! we are going to CWP and find plan B, C, D, E or whatever we have in mind! she is coming to my house now and leaving the leaves at my house before going to CWP!
today is our last trail; we will succes; we must success!

please, please, let us success.

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late at night // - Jul. 21, 2006 at 09:33 AM
i am back again! arlights, i am dying this 3 days because i had been sleeping really late and i am on the phone for 2 hours at least per night to do PW! i was typing proposal like mad, discussing on the phone like mad too and thinking like mad of course! argh, terrible but worth it.

my weekends are busy too because on sat we got to go to leader house to do our things, then got my guitar lesson till 9+pm! by the time i reached home is already 10+pm always! then sunday must go NANA house, bukit gomak and do our substantion of WR! argh, kill me! weekend = busy too! somemore sun is the celebration of my cousin's b'dae at party world, guess i wont be going because i will still be in NANA house by then i think! i want to go because i want to enjoy! sad!

now my whole body is like aching from head to my little tiny toes! my kidney also pain now! especially my back bone! oh no, is terrible! i am tired, really very tired! just one close of my eyes, i guess i will be already in my lala land! LALA land, here i come! wait for me a little longer!

today is not my day! i wasnt smiling at the first half of the day with NANA because we are worried about something! argh, i also duno why! the thing just made the both of us quiet! soon, we are still back to normal at least!
CHEM STRESS TEST! - TOTALLY GONE CASE! argh, should blame myself for being so dumb!

thanks NANA, FANGWEN AND LINKAI for ur chem guidance always if not i would have fallen long time ago! not forgetting my leader, JINLONG! please take care hor! WE STILL NEED YOU! hahas! hope he rest well for this 3 days at least!
I LOVE MY PW GROUP ALOT! I REALLY REALLY LOVE THEM! THANKS, i do not know how to express my thanks towards you guys!

everything is the same! the friendship between the lost trust is back! just because i cannot afford to lost her somehow! she means so much to me! i dont deny that i need her! argh, thanks! we will last, like what you told me. everything is the past now. history dont repeat.

i feel like breaking my bones this moment! the pain is killing me! argh, i dont like to go and see doctor again because of backbone! the pain numb my legs! thats so ARGH, UNCOMFORTABLE!

cant stand the pain,
cant make it go away.

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dreams // illusions // reality - Jul. 18, 2006 at 05:12 AM
back in action after one day break!

yesterday was school holiday for all innovians! hahas, feel great!!

yesterday early morning i am abit down at the night and i really really went crazy! so i make myself in coma so that i could only dream and dream! i sleep at 2am and wake up at 10am+ to bring my little brother to school and also fetch him back at 1pm! then after all things done, i went to make myself in coma again! so i went to sleep at around 4 then wake up at 6pm! the moment i wake up i was like why cant i sleep longer? i dont feel like eating anything at all so i just went to on the comp and do whatever i need. one day just gone x)

my halfDI was in confused yesterday. i dont know what is the best choice for him at all because i dont really know the matter well, i dont know what can i do for him. i really hope whatever choice he made, he will be happy. he will be still the little lex i know now and forever! I LOVE MY HALFDI! I LOVE MY XIAODI TOO! LOVES-

chinese a level listening comprehension today. supposed to be a very gan chiong day but my classmates make the my gan chiong day into my laughing day! i feel not gan chiong when i was laughing like mad, instead i feel so HOT! hahas, just stop calling my name so loudly and overly! hahas! 12B, i LOVE-

i told her the truth, things just wont be the same as before.

doing all the things alone now, making myself in a stress mode now, making myself as busy as a bee, making all brain cells down, making me living in a hell too. argh, i am going bonker if things continues. sigh.

everytime people make a mistake, the most they can do is just to say SORRY. thats the most the person can do, what more can they do. do we really need to forgive every mistake people make in their life? sometimes, i dont think my mistake is to be forgiven as it is too over! if every mistake are forgive, then i think everyone will make countless of mistakes in their life.

the world is fair... the world is always fair... tell me all this are not my illusions at all. tell me it is fair always. argh, choose to believe my illusions.

i hope i can make all my illusions or dreams become reality.

-GONE-

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XIAOXIN, BE HAPPY! - Jul. 16, 2006 at 07:09 AM
back to update my blog again!

chatted with xiaoxin today! he feel that his life is so .... up. asked him why and he told me! argh, xiaoxin, dont be liddat! i will be there always! i will be for sure! remember my xiaoxin are supposed to be happy! u wanna to see this ahJIE sad sad ar? hahas, we chatted alot alot of things. chatted about his friends! hahas, not to worry, u still got me! hahas! I LOVE XIAOXIN! MAKE SURE U LIVE WELL! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

WEELING BEST BUD! hello! takecare okie! dont overstress! u noe i miss you and i noe u miss me! hahas, thannks for ASKING whether i got hit my head or not! hahas! dont worry so much! i am still ur BEST BUD that will be there for ya till u die! hello! we LIVE SO CLOSE lo! hahas, less than 5 minutes we can find each other liao! BEST BUD, I REALLY REALLY MISS U! BRING ME BACK TO PAST! I MISS U! takecare!

the feeling of alone is gone. the feeling is gone when my xiaoxin talked to me, i feel that he is there always. i am wrong to say i lose my trust because i did not lose my trust on xiaoxin, lex, shigehisa, poixin, weeling, my cousins, my family and a few more.

i admit i lose my trust on someone somehow when i found out that she ... i dont know how to put those into words. i find myself being so dumb. am i wrong to trust you and ur words in the first place? you dont treat me like how i treat you, just treating me as someone who can lean on me when u need me. i dont mind be the one who always there for you but ... i dont know what to say. from today onwards, no more calls from me to you, no more sms from me to you, no more chats from me to you, no more outings from me to you. everything will be gone and be a history. thats what i am going to do. sorry.

what am i going to do? i am very confused this time round. i want to be heartless but i cant bring myself to be so heartless sometimes. i dont know why too. i am crazy. i am nuts. so let me be who i am, dont bother about me.
go away go away go away from me. i am full of torns that will hurt you. go away before i hurt you.

tell me that everything is just my illusion.
soon all this will be gone.

i am just a little unhappy, i will be okie soon i think.
dont stay with me because you cant breathe.

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my lyfe? - Jul. 14, 2006 at 08:27 AM
hello people! i am back! finally finish my PW survey! argh, spending 2hours+ typing and editing and i am going bonker. i am like so dead now, hais.

i am stress, stress, stress! very very stress. i got so much things to do in a limited time. argh, i am really going bonker liao! argh, save me!

i dont feel nice anymore. i dont feel good at all. i dont feel the same anymore. out of a sudden, i feel so alone. i feel there is no one else beside me now. i am just so not okie.

why am i feeling this way out of a sudden. i thought i could be strong. i thought i could brave through everything. i thought i could still bring a smile on my face everyday. i thought everything was as simple as what i think. i thought everyting will be solved.
just then i realised i am too naive. if everything is like how i think, things wont be like what i see now. so am i wrong for being naive?
i have been thinking alot nowadays. i have been thinking who can i put my trust to now. no one seem to allow me to put my heart and trust on now. am i feeling very very wrong. i told myself before that i trust all the people who i know. how about now?

i describe relationship between people as fragile, no matter is friendship or what. every relationship is so fragile that they would never be the same if something happen on it. no matter how much effort you put into it, it will just never ever be the same as before.
someone told me that once you know a person longer, you no longer feel the same. why?

i want to be just a simple person who leads a simple life, with simple thoughts. i dont want anything to be so complicated. i dont like things to get complicated because i know i could not handle complicated things. if things are not as simple as i think, i would start to have lots of different thinking in my mind. alot alot of thoughts would come in. then my mind will run wild, and i am going to start imagining alot of things again. can someone tell me what to do in order to let these thoughts go away?

i know i am nasty. i know i am irritating. i know i am noisy. i know i am stupid. i know i am petty. i know i am very moodswings. i know i am very hot-tempered. i know i am very fierce. i know i am very childish. i know i am very idiot. i know who i am. i just want all this who i am to get away from me in order to make me feel better.

i am not okie this time round. i am really really not okie. just stay with me or go away from me.
this life of mine seem to be so worthless now.
i dont know what to do anymore, hais.

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random x) - Jul. 04, 2006 at 05:49 AM
BOO! had my A level chinese oral today! i am going to flunk it, argh. no words can say how i feel now. people told me is over, so let it be. sigh. i dont know.

saw my xiaoxin*xiaodi and guanhui*saidi in CWP today! i saw xiaoxin and i hide myself behind NANA*darling eh but still he saw me! hahas, so CUTEEEE eh! hahas, anyway NANA*darling also agree he handsome! hahas! chatted with him and he asked me is it that i am scare of him? omg, no huh xiaodi, think too much! anyway i LOVE my xiaodi! LOVES-

shigehisa is funny eh! today saw him again! hahas, that time saw him was outside CWP! hahas! so paiseh eh! hahas. anyway jia you okie x) all the best eh! hahas, takecare! he look like hua ze lei eh! hahas, make me think of sec 2 ah and my korkor is hua ze lei eh! hahas! LOVES-

everything seems to be a nightmare to me. i am feeling so scare now. very very scare. i dont know what to say at all.

studies? everyone is so competitive and i am so scare. even though the person may tell you that he/she is not competitive but they are still challenging with you deep in their heart. sigh, i dont wish to see this at all. everyone around me is getting such a good grade except for me. so are they all liars or am i the dumb one?

all say NO STUDY NO STUDY then come out results PASS furthermore some can even come to me and hao lian their RESULTS! so idiot please. i feel like killing them. no need to show off that you are smart, get lost of my sight.

BIG BIG sigh. making myself more dumb/stupid or whatever it is everyday. i am losing hopes in everything, that includes my friends. i am losing trust not only on them but also on myself. i found myself being such a dumb one in the class.

i dont trust anyone more because all are just someone who come and talk craps with me and turn their back doing another different things.

the one you love most is always the one who hurt you the deepest. i am full of wounds and injuries. what should i do. someone tell me should i let those wounds heal or make them worse. argh, full of thoughts now. i am hurt by someone, thanks to that someone.

i feel i should not be carrying my mask anymore. i am going to drift myself apart from everyone but i always fail to do so. i dont understand why i fail too. i dont wish to see myself another break down again, i dont wish to see myself feeling so down again. i dont wish. how much longer can wear my mask?

i feel so bad whenever i feel like telling someone that i really HATE the way you treated me yet i did not tell how i feel! i really feel like shouting it right in front of the person, but i do not have the courage to do so! i feel that i have LIE to the person on what i feel about the person, what am i supposed to do. should i tell the person how i feel or should i be quiet as not to hurt anyone still. i dont know. i am feeling so terrible inside me. the person took me for granted i think, so i should not give the special grant to the person anymore.

STOP CRITISING! i am sick of hearing all those nonsense from that VOODOO again! if you like to comment, save those comments to yourself, i dont wish to hear a single thing. do you know that you are very very irritating! you really make me hate myself so much till i can no longer think of any good things on me again! i dont care what you want to say because is your mouth, just get lost away from me!

i will forgive but i will never forget. call me petty or whatever you like but this is me. i can forgive you but i will never forget how you treated me once before. i will remember till i die, i assure you for that.

SIGH. why am i still here. why am i still carry on my lyfe. is it better to end it now or later? chang tong bu ru duan tong. so how?

i dont know what to blog, so this is just a random entry. people, dont think too much okie x)
just feel that my lyfe is meaningless and blog all this for fun!

DO I HAVE A CHOICE? -sigh.

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HAPPY B'DAE halfDI - LEX x))

2006-07-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

YO! i am back to update my blog! hahas, today is a very special day! today is my halfdi - lex's b'dae! muhahahas!
today went out with my siblings because exams period didnt spend much time with them so must faster spend with them now! hahas! went out and bought things! hahas, nice day out! hahas!
today went out saw my kaixinguo! hahas, very very long no see him liao! he no wear specs now ah! more shuai liao ah! HAHAS, kaixinguo rocks! hahas! today chatted with him so much also! hahas, poly see chio bu eh! hahas! SE LANG!~ hahas! aniway hope he enjoy his poly lyfe! hahas!
chatted with xiaoxin*xiaodi too! OMG, today we are really crappy! hahas, we say about so many lame things! we talk about husband and wife! hahas, my ex husband- xinzai, current husband- linxin, going to be husband- kaka, future husband xiaoxin! hahas! so crappy! i nearly die! hahas, somemore got son with my ex husband! hahas, sian diaoz! all the husbands there also same person just that we use different pictures of my xiaodi, even the son!! hahas, thats so lame but fun! hahas! just enjoy myself crapping with my xiaodi eh! hahahas! LOVES-
shigehisa is great ah! he can always make me addicted to one song for so long! OMG, thanks so much! hahas, he is CUTEEEEEEE! a very nice word for him always! LOVES-
alrights, today is 3rd of july which is my dearest one and only halfDI, LEX de b'dae! OMG, so happy eh! hahas, was supposed to go out with him de but i got to go out with my siblings! sorry halfdi! anyway i think we going out this saturday! OMG, i am very excited! hahas! this halfdi i get to know him 5th of march!! i am very glad that i know him! although i did not know him as long as how i know xiaoxin, but he can realy make me feel strong sometimes! he is really a very great halfDI always! he is very strong i can say but he is too arggh, i dont know what to say! i wish my halfDI wont put on his mask ler! i really wish that he will take off his mask and show how he feel always! i dont like him to be liddat! i always told him how i feel and what to do and he admired me for that! hahas, halfDI, you see since ur halfJIE also can do that! you can also do that de too! remember i want the OLD LEX okie! hahas! today is ur day, make sure you dont think EXTRA things for today! just want your day to be a happy one! i dont want to see u sad sad for today! at least for today! i wish for my halfDI to be happy always! although you told me that there is no happy forever! x) i shall make ur happy last as long as i can! hahas! I LOVE MY HALFDI! dont die before me okie! want also i die first, then at least you can help me prepare my funeral hor! hahas! i say before that i will treat you like how i treat xiaoxin, i will do so. we will be the next best halfJIEdi beside xiaoxin and me okie! the F.I.R- remember? hahas! smiles* happy b'dae to ya! i hope the best for u always. no matter what happen, i will be the one who you can lean on always! we promise to walk this journey together! we shall make it till the end! LOVES-
MYRA AIAI b'dae on 1st JULY! hahas, i just know it today! sian diaoz! anyway promise to go out with her liao! so hahas, going to buy her gift for her when we go out! I LOVE MY AIAI okie! take care huh! stay happy always! SMILES! LOVES-
tomorrow school! so good nites! x) takecare!

ARGH // hais - - Jul. 02, 2006 at 05:23 AM
the pain in my heart;
the tears in my eyes.

argh, i am feeling so sad because of just one matter. why am i feeling this way? i thought i want to be strong? i thought i want to be happy! argh, howhow! i dont know what to do! i am feeling so LOST just because of this matter! argh, how dumb can i be! dumb lihui, wake up! just one thing i can say is - GAME OVER!

xiaoxin, where are you? shigehisa, where are you too? halfdi, where are you also? why the three of you are not online? i am feeling so lost yet i cant find the three who i can talk to? hais-

brazil lost to france. i think my xiaoxin will be sad because he loves brazil! no more kaka! xiaoxin, i hope you are fine because i want to see the little happy xiaoxin i have ever! LOVES-

yesterday chatted with shigehisa! a very very nice chat too! chatting with him is always nice! he is just one word to describe CUTEEEEEEEEEEE! anyway he is really a nice guy! thanks! LOVES-

anyway tml is my halfDI's b'dae! LOVES-

deng dai by chen yi is nice.

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HAPPY B'DAE MY TANG GE - LEE ZHI KUAN!

2006-06-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

BOO! back to update my blogger! today i must update because today is a very important day! it is my tang ge's 18th BIRTHDAY! hahahas! shall blog about the day first before i blog about birthday! hahas!
today we have our PW outing at CWP! hahas, i know is abit sian diaoz but my leader dont wanna go too far so CWP will do! hahas, dont care where is it ah! as long as is a PW outing! hahas! i shall blog in details then, hope i can remember all ah! we agreed to meet 1230 outside CWP! hahas, NANA*darling reached, follow by me then linkai! hahas, where is our leader! hahas! he called me and asked us to go first later then he come and find us? so we went into CWP's toilets first! then when we were about to take the escalator down to B1! guess what, i saw ultraman! OMG, i nearly sian diaoz! hahas, so we were trying to act that we want to buy cake outside the shop! hahas! then we took the escalator down to B1! hahas, hmmm, MOS? MCdonald? Pasta? hahas! so we decide to eat Pasta! after decided to eat pasta, nana*darling called jinlong and tell him where we decided to have our lunch! then he say okie! hahas, so we sat at the chairs there waiting for our leader! hahas, we saw ultraman again =/ hahas! leader came and out of a sudden we decided to go seoul garden? hahas! so we took the escalator up and halfway we changed our mind again! hahas, so we were like undecisive! anyway my leader is so like wadd only! he can predict what i want to say him ah! hahas! so we shall use O-YA-BEI-YA-SOM to decide what we eat! hahas, i think it is a good method! hahas, i always use either sissor, paper, stone or O-YA-BEI-YA-SOM to decide what i want to do! hahas, so i won and i represent MOS! so we went MOS! hahas, we order our food and crapped while eating! jinlong told us his suay things ah! all of us were like laughing like MAD?!?!? hahas, it is so funny! somemore his lame level has reach MAX liao! hahas, after eating we continued crapping and laughing! NICE time! hahas.
so we went to POPULAR after we left MOS! hahas, jinlong went to buy his file while i was reading choose the right dog for you! HAHAS! we only stayed in popular for awhile and we went to ARCADE! hahas, OMG, is fun seeing others playing the machines! so we spent our time by seeing this uncle playing the sweets game ah! hahas, no la actually the JP is a SOFT TOY! after he won the soft toy we went to see linkai dance DDR! hahas, thats like OMG =/ all of us went =/ =/ =/ hahas! then we spend our time in MINI TOONS! seeing all sorts of things and playing with a POOH bear that can blow a thing! hahas, i dont know whats that call! next we went to KIDDY PALACE! omg, is a GREAT PLACE! hahas! NANA*darling and me were like going WOAH WOAH WOAH! hahas, OMG, babies' things are really cute! hahas, somemore jinlong ask me dont get too excited because of my first time being a MOTHER! =/ thats so FUNNY! he told that to NANA*darling too! hahas. then we went to MORE THAN WORDS then i saw many kinds of "army pants" so i told linkai and jinlong to come and choose their army pants! hahahahas! thats so lame! then we went home after that because jinlong need to rushed home of his DOG! hahas! NIKKI NIKKI NIKKI! hahahas!
went home and online and chatted with jinlong and also my halfDI! hahas! chat and chat and chat! hahas! jinlong is still as lame huh! hahas! somemore he say my entry are too long and should type in POINT FORM?!?! thats sound so =.=! hahas! chatted with HALFdi! omgomg, i missed him ah! hahas, somemore he say i am CUTE >.< because i did something funny! hahas or rather i type something funny! hahas! angry ah because i dont like! hahas, told him that!
today i chatted with shigehisa too! hahas, a very very very nice chat! hahas! somemore i try to cheer him up huh! hahas, is very nan de that i will cheer ppl up de! i was trying my best to cheer him up today! he sound so DEAD?!?! somemore do not have the mood to smile or laugh even! but he CUTEEEE eh! hahas, he went HAHA the first sentence when i was chatting with him! no mood to laugh but can type haha! CUTEEEE! hahas, he just hao lian to me ah! hahas, OMGOMG, i missed his hao-lian-ness! hahas! MISSED! anyway hope he can try to sleep ah because he is TIRED! how can a person dont rest when the person is tired! dont because of some thoughts then dont want sleep! HE IS A NAUGHTY BOY but CUTEEEE eh! hahas! LOVES-
my qingaide is sick x( takecare ah! LOVES-
i dont know whether my cousin will read this post or not cos i think he seldom come my blog ah! but i still will blog for his sake! hahas! today is 30JUNE! so is my dearest one and only tangge- LEE ZHI KUAN'S B'DAE! hahas! i really got only one TANG GE! so is my one and only tang ge!! hahas! this tang ge of mine is always so great because he always CHEER ME UP and told me so many things! hahas! i only know i keep on suan-ing at times but his suan-ing skills also not bad de ah so is i learn from him de! hahas! somemore he always talk nonsense things de ah but he also tell me what to do when i am lost or what huh! hahas, so overall still matured! we grow up together de ah! he is like actually 2months older than me so we are same age! we took photos together when we were very young still sitting on the baby chairs! hahas, got one photo make us look like TWINS! so issit i am the one who look like guy or issit he is the one who look like girl? hahas! so funny! hahas, same primary but different class. same secondary school and same class for FIVE YEARS! hahas, so GREAT ah! everyday in school can hear him calling me AH HUI in a very loud tone! hahas! everyday in school SEE him, after school go his house also see him! sometimes weekend go his house also SEE HIM! omg, one day 24 hours, i spend like 23hours 59minutes and 59seconds seeing him! hahas! anyway since he is 18 years old liao, i hope he can know what is right and what is wrong ah =x! hahas! no la no la! just hope u enjoy today and good luck in whatever you do! hahas, anyway i havent wish him happy b'dae because i told his younger brother that i want to be the last person to wish him! so calling HIM tonight before the clock strike 12am! HAHAS! i love my one and only tang ge!
i just found someone who hate soccer like me! HAHAS! the person is shigehisa! HAHAS, was quite shock ah! just like how i tell jinlong, i hate guys who love soccer, i hate guys who shake legs! hahas!
this few days i am very happy ah! hahas, i am happy x) special thanks to that person! hahas!
alrights, nites and take care everyone! bye!

ARGH// - Jun. 29, 2006 at 08:51 AM
i am here to update again! is the second time of the day! argh, i am feeling abit tired now but i do not have the mood to sleep. somehow my mind is thinking about things. dont know how to stop it.

jinlong, thanks! thanks for saying so much today! thanks for listening! sorry if i am not okie! sorry but as you know my pattern one! sorry, but still appreciate your kindness and talk always! x) a great counsellor!

send shigehisa a song called ke ai cos he is ke ai! suit him alot alot ah! ke ai ppl must listen to ke ai song! HAHAHAS, he is just so CUTEEEEEE! hahahas! LOVES-

i am not okie?
if i am gone, will you all remember me the least?
i am losing myself again.

=sign 0ff=

SHIGEHISA<3 - Jun. 29, 2006 at 07:43 AM
finally summer test is over. no more stress? maybe! today is my last paper- CHEM.

i went crazy 1hr before the paper. i just feel so stress suddenly, trying to calm myself down. i try and try. so i went to hide myself in the corner of the stairs and let my tears flow. i tried to hold back but i really realy cant. the chem notes were still in my hands, i dont know what am i supposed to do at that moment. at that moment, i feel so lost. not the first time anymore, how many more times i need to hide. sigh. i dont know what i am doing nowadays. i feel so argh, dont even know what can i say! sigh.

after the papers, waited for NANA*darling 1.5hrs with linkai! hahas, we were talking and using the comp in the library! i looked at his phone of our last pw meeting, thats very very funny! i feel so so so happy and feel so sweet when i see it! how i wish, time stop there! pw is a stressful project but when i think of my 4 pw mates there, i just feel so happy doing it somehow! hahas. i love them, IJ037!

btw i saw shiyang today! OMG, get to meet him at CWP twice liao! hahas, somemore is everytime he come back! hahas! still remember last time i call him soo gui niang! hahas, he always cover his mouth when he see me because it is the way i laugh? hahas! MEMORIES, so fun so fun! we have so much fun during the national training in 2003! argh, i want time to turn back! hey, takecare! x)

shigehisa is very very nice! he make me feel so alive alive alive! i thought i will only be dependent on my xiaoxin*xiaodi! i think i also dependent on him somehow! only in front of them, i feel so alive. thanks shigehisa! he is CUTEEEEE ah! but he just dont want to admit that he is CUTE ah! chatted so many things x) a nice nice nice nice chat! very very nice which make me feel so alive! he is good at SJ-ing in msn ah but in real life he wont! hahas, so funny ah! going to give him 2 gifts ah because i want to give him! hahas! thanks him so much! really really i found one more xiaoxin in this world. although i might not be as close as him as compared to xiaoxin but he talked like xiaoxin. he cheer me up like xiaoxin. i feel xiaoxin inside him somehow unless i feel wrongly! thanks shigehisa! thanks, LOVES-

ka jiao ong katat yesterday again! is so funny okie! somemore he say i am JEALOUS?!?!? like where got lo! so accusing! WHERE IS UR SISTER! hahas!

i dont like the way some people treat their friends. i dont like, i just dont like. i might not voice out but i will keep it to myself. i will keep rather an invisible distance from them! i dont like, just hate it.
when can i be as clever as 4E. i can never catch up with them in studies. i always cant. thats why i am in 5N. i am dumb, yes i am. i dont deny that i can be classified as the dumbest in class! all say didnt study then all know the things. so lying only! argh. liars-

i am just hating it.
hate the feelings.

=SIGN OFF=

PW GROUP<3 - Jun. 28, 2006 at 05:48 AM
why am i still here blogging while others are mugging so hard! hais, i cant start mugging till 10pm! i also dont know why, just cant concentrate! argh, LIHUI; WAKE UP PLEASE. GO TAKE UR K UR BOOKS NOW. DONT WASTE ANYMORE TIME!

alrights, chatted with linkai, fangwen just now! OMG, is so funny please! that fangwen started talking to me by asking me where we wanna go on friday! when i told him go ZOO? then he went typing animals' voices! oh god, thats so siao la! hahas, but funny! then we started talking so so so so much! till i also cant catch my breath! hahas, really, he type SUPER FAST! like machine! hahas, zzz ... zzz ... ! oomg, i fainted! hahas! somemore he say i am UNDECISIVE! wadd only la he! hahas! I WON HIM TODAY BECAUSE I SAY HE IS AH BENG SINCE HE SAY I AM AH LIAN! hahha, i am winner! GOGOGOGO! x)
linkai is so lame please! omg, i think i nearly cold to die while talking to him! he is so funny too because he is being possessed by FANGWEN and i am the priest ah! TIAN LING LING, DI LING LING! hahahas! so funny.
i found this so funny > fangwen being possessed by ryan and linkai being possessed by fangwen!
I JUST LOVE MY PW GROUP! I LOVE I LOVE, FRIDAY OUTING FOR PW GRP! x)

i crapped with xiaoxin just now again on msn! hahas, asked him whether i am ah lian or not! then he told me to tell the fangwen say i am not born for him to JUDGE! hahas, omg, i am so so so so omg. hahas, my xiaoxin is always so nice to me! loves loves loves. then started crapping with him! i even proposed to him ah as asking him to JIA GAI WO! hahas, told him i am a very good guy! hahas, i am the male party =x hahas! anyway my xiaoxin is so cute! omg, LOVES.

halfDI! glad that you are fine now! i am so happy ah! LOVES YA okie! thanks for giving me blessing ah! hahas!

shigehisa is so cute ah! HE TOLD ME HE WILL HATE ME IF I BLUFF HIM because he say he cant get even 13 marks for maths! he must be playing with me ah! anyway, i believe he can do well beccause i find him very smart! really smart but only a bit naughty at times! NICE GUY! hahas! anyway good luck for ur GEO tml! x)

teached my tangdi one maths Q! hahas, he very funny ah! ask me then i told him wrong things but lucky this time round i realised! hahas, i helped him solved the Q! hahas, tangdi, i teach you new amaths things ah! remember okie! hahas, i am better than your teacher =DD anyway thanks for being there okie, thanks for asking me to x2 hor! hahas! x) my tang di rocks!

now i am telling shigehisa how am i feeling now! i dont know why! he just know somehow know i cant take it anymore when i didnt even say it! telepathy ?!?! i wonder how he can read my mind! really wonder how! just told him so much things that is always in my mind. thanks shigehisa, thanks for being so nice to me today, seriously, i am touched by you. thanks! he talked like xiaoxin! clonz!
argh, what should i do. sigh.

afraid of being lost again.
i dont wanna be the little lost child again.

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x) // x( - Jun. 28, 2006 at 01:33 AM
I AM BACK TO UPDATE before i go and mug my chem chem chem! argh, stress!

today maths is totally OMG. i am feeling very depressed, very depressed! sigh.

went home with NANA*darling and linkai! hahas, ate and chat on phone with xiaoxin*xiaodi while i was with them! i just feel the urge of calling him, so i called and chat with him! hahas, i miss him so much!

my xiaoxin is so cute! hahas, he sound rather funny huh! the way he talk so cute! hahas, he told me school change to 7.40am then start school! thats mean i wont get to see him anymore! so sad ah! cries. chatted with him for 19mins+ hahas! we talked about my maths first! hahas, then talked about his maths! then go about talking soccer when NANA*darling and linkai were talking too! hahas, NANA*darling going hate my xiaoxin because he say germany will lost to A [ dont know how to spell ] so funny ah! BRAZIL BEST i think because KAKA in brazil team and my xiaoxin likes KAKA! hahas, so i am with xiaoxin! hahas! told him about my friends wanting to know him! hahas, so cute ah he! OMGOMG, i just went laughing like mad! hahas, feeling so happy! HAHAS, HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! hahas, i just love xiaoxin! x) muackies.

my halfDI got a talk or scolding from me yesterday! hahas! i also dont know! he make me angry because he say lex is ruined! since when! somemore how can he say that! make me just feel so angry and worry for him! argh, dont hate school my halfDI. if you going to hate, i am going to make you like it! anyway, we agree to walk this journey together! so no worries ah my halfdi, i love you as much as xiaoxin! x)

why everyone around me seem to be so smart, big big sigh for me!

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XIAOXIN; LOVES LOVES LOVES! - Jun. 27, 2006 at 05:43 AM
BOO people! i am back to update but i have not end my summer test, big big sigh.

2 more papers to go - MATHS and CHEMISTRY!
i hope for the best, how i wish-

i was very sad when my teacher*anzel is going to poly! argh, the moment i know about it, my heart just feel so pain. dont know why, sigh. i think i have feel the pain for days not only now. sigh.

xiaoxin made my day! he made me from a little sad sad girl to a little happy happy girl! omg, i really really love my xiaodi*xiaoxin! i wonder what would i become without him! i wonder will i be strong? hahas, i think wont because i think i really depend alot on him! thanks xiaoxin! and also thanks for asking how is my test ah, so touched also! hahas! i am so so so touched when he put the nick that i created for him! omg, i am just so touched! wanna see what i create for him, here it is, xiinzaii_ * i am who i am << i am attitude, whether you like it or not >> . OMG, very very very happy ah! my xiaoxin really really make me feel that i am living in the heaven! no one knows how happy am i because i am really happy till i cant even describe how happy am i! omg, i really really love my xiaodi*xiaoxin so much! LOVES LOVES LOVES!

HALFDI*LEX! i was shock when you come HALF JIE! T.T i nearly scare till die! argh, dont feel so stress okie! i also very stress so i understand what are you going through! canot say that you dont want study or what ah, i slap you till you study hor! i got power!! hahas! somemore he very cute to ask me composition! i bet he dont know how lan is my english! hahas, but i still tried my very very best to help him! jia you halfdi! halfjie loves ya okie, so dont make me into sad halfjie okie! i love my halfdi as much as i love my xiaodi. LOVES LOVES LOVES!

my pw grp. omg, i really love them so much now! i dont know why! is like i cant live without them in school now! they make me feel what i never feel before ah, which is being an ah lian! thanks FANGWEN! hahas! I LOVE MY PW GROUP although FANGWEN AND JINLONG KEEP ON BULLYING ME! HAHHAS! i still love them! LOVES! we are going out soon as a GROUP FOR OUTING! hahas, thats great! I LOVE THEM!

anyway i think i keep on ka jiao-ing RYAN ONG nowadays! hahas, sooner or later he will kill me! but i just love to just shout KATAT and say hi or bye to him! he is so nice to lend me his physics short notes ah! hahas, somemore is with me now! hahhas, i am going to keep for memory!

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zi wo cui mian! - Jun. 23, 2006 at 05:58 AM
YOYOYO everyone i am back to update here ah! hahas! today went to school early in the morning again ah! hahas, went to school at 7+am as usual meet my darling`bestest bestie christinaNANA! hahas! went to school with her and bought linkai breakfast! hahas!

reached school went to 4th storey and started to study! hahas! physics! omg, i can report dead liao! hahas! i went bonker and i feel so argh, STRESS? hahas, dont know why, just feel so STRESS! hahas! linkai came around at 8am+ hahas! he started teaching us again! hahas, thanks linkai! never give me up always in my studies! thanks so so so so much! million of thanks! hahas, all of us chatted too but only awhile then study more! hahas! we are on STUDY track this time around! hahas! anyway today i just know world cup soccer player get $$ for playing! hahas, omg, i am so SLOW at times! damn retarded! hahas!

so funny when NANA put her alarm sia! i thought got people sms her and linkai thought got people called her in the end is alarm! OMG, so funny! went out of school and eat! bought them to vista point- VIVA foodcourt to have our lunch! NANA eat the CHICKEN CHOP again! hahas! i ate noodles and linkai ate my fav food- chicken rice! hahas! we chatted after that as we were having our desserts! hahas! i told NANA lame thing ah! hahas, went back and told linkai! he totally went sian diaoz ah! so wadd onli! hahas! i gave linkai one of my longans to eat since i am eating ice longans! anway NANA say the thing i eat very easy to do ah, i think she want to do for me to eat la! hahas, thanks hor NANA in advance! ice jelly nice right, i told you is nice because i love it ah! as usual linkai eat his ICE KAJIANG? hahas! brain freeze! hahas!

went back to school around 1pm or later than that? hahas! went back and start on physics again! omg, i can report dead once again! hahas! jinlong came around at 2pm or duno what time! forget liao! hahas, jinlong is so NONSENSE LA! keep on saying i am secondary kids, worst is primary school kids! he say the way i behave is so childish ah! so wadd onli! later i kill him den he know! hahas! linkai show me the video he recorded yesterday during our talk in PW at the food court ah! hahas, basically arguing with jinlong and fangwen who ask them ask me go collect rubbish since i love cleaining the beach! so like wadd onli la!! hahas! linkai took alot of our candid picture ah! hahas, so funny la, i see liao also want laugh! NANA, dont act hardworking always huh! hahas =x

argue and argue with jinlong, so nonsense la he! hahas! bleahs! hahas, NANA always help him instead of me for one time for the XIN HUAN AH! hahas! NANA, YOU GOOD! i am going to HUMPH!!!! jinlong more and going to tell him he very fan more lo! hahas! who ask him to bully me ah! hahas, linkai best ah! he just shoot us and say nothing ah! hahas! what only! aniway i still love them!

went to meet mr clayton ang at 3pm with jinlong and NANA while linkai went off ler! hahas, we are mr clayton ang last customer huh! hahas, asked alot in 2 hours time! hahas, NANA and me even invented our own physics theories! hahas, precisely, i am nuts! hahas! went off at 5+pm and went to cwp with NANA. reached home at 6pm! hahas, then watch tv! LAN SE XIAN REN ZHANG, OMG, SO NICE! everyone please watch! hahas!

gave my halfdi 49.9% of my heart yesterday! hahas! he too cute ah, let me want fall on him liao! but i still love my xiaoxin more, and i gave him 50.1% of my heart! now i am taking back my halfdi 49.8% liao, and gave him only 0.1% AND I GIVE MY XIAOXIN 99.9% hahas! i love my xiaodi, xiaoxin so much! XIAOXIN, DAJIE love ya okie! hahas! my halfdi told me so nice stuff yesterday, aniway dont feel sorry because you didnt go out with me! as the both of us were busy, i am sorry too okie! LOVES-

chatted with shigehisa yesterday! asked him so Q ah! hahas, he also say i am not ah lian ah! hahas, so happy ah! hahas! thanks huh! dont be so sad when i am more pro than you at guitar huh! hahas! somemore he say i am miss STM, then i shall name him mr STM too! hahas, he is blur at times but cute ah! hahas! I LOVE I LOVE! oh ya! he say i look weird on one of the picture and i put my idiot picture and he say nicer! SO LIKE WADD ONLY! hahas, i love shigehisa! TAKECARE; LOVES-

-XIAOXIN*XIAODI, i love i love i love! i didnt see and chat with you so long. sorry i am busy but i will still update with him with my stuff! LOVES LOVES!

i love those who i love. i just cant stop loving all the people who i love so much! make sure everyone happy okie, dont be sad hor especially my teddybear! dont be FAN ah! anyway qingaide, i am not sad ah!

browsing my pic now! hahas, seeing my pw pics! omg, awww, i feel so sweet! hahas, i dont know why! i feel so sweet whenever i see my pw pic! hahas, maybe my pw grp are my sweety pies! hahas! i love them! i want go out with the 4 of them ah! hahas =D

zi wo cui mian! i am listening now! i feel like doing that! hais, give me more time please. how i wish time could stop! hais.

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LOVES!!! - Jun. 22, 2006 at 07:34 AM
i am back to update here again!

today went to meet the GVN people ah! hahas, went our way to tahjong batka? hahas! i dont know how to spell! i didnt even know there is such a station called that! very mountain tortise ah me! hahas! very hot ah the weather, we walked so long before getting the correct place! hahas, scare of getting lost like what i used to get lost in the past! x(

everything went smoothly i supposed! hahas, went to have lunch after that! only jinlong and nana ate! the 3 of us sat there and wait! hahas, did a short project meeting again? hahas! all of us went off at 12+pm ah! hahas, then linkai, nana and me went to marina bay to study! hahas, a nice place! very quiet, i love! hahas. then jinlong and fangwen went home i think! hahas, i know fangwen go home, jinlong i forget ler! fangwen say i am ah lian! T.T, wo hen sad to hear that ah! i am not ah lian! hahas, NO okie! hahas! that naughty little fangwen dare to say i am ah lian, wait i kill him ah! somemore jinlong say i am guilible, i dont know how to spell! argh, i am not hor! shigehisa also sae so before! i am very argh, not guilible huh! hahas!

hahas! we clear our doubts with linkai! my best tuition teacher ah! we chatted for very long because i think i am the one who started it! chatty person wadd me! aniway that time nana also dont like to study so chat ah! hahas, i am helping nana in another way! hahas! chatted so much! our dreams, our friends, our past, our childhood, the old 12b, the new 12b, what we do, the cartoons! hahas, my image in front the both of them went so OVER ah! hahas, dont care ah! i even show them pokemon la! hahas, i did for them to see ah! i saw linkai laugh until! first time see him so happy ah! HAHAHAS! nana also! i am happy too! hahas!

the 3 of us chatted so much about the class! talk about what we used to do ah! hahas, sweet memories! i love the old 12b! argh, i love i love i love! i cant forget them at all! we just keep on chatting and we are really like in the past! hahas, 12b the best in my heart always! hahas! I LOVE!

chatted so much, we talked about secrets too ah! hahas, is among the 3 of us, no one will get to know ah! hahas! linkai told us something which make nana and me got a shock! hahas! I LOVE CHATTING WITH THE BOTH OF THEM! i am like free to say what i love! i hope everything for the best ah! hahas! thanks NANA and LINKAI for today! i love you guys! x)

went to have my dinner with NANA at CWP after that! we chatted again and tml we are buying linkai breakfast ah because of his help! i never regret coming to JC since the 1st 12b make me love JC so much! thanks NANA specially for being such a bestest bestie to me, i love you ah! thanks for being so nice to me always!

oh ya, did i say that i saw my xiaoxin*xiaodi in the morning in the bus interchange! omg, i was rushing while i happened to see him! he didnt saw me because i ran side and he was in the middle! difficult to explain! then i called him and ask whether he in bus interchange! he asked how i know! hahas, told him that i saw him! feel so happy after seeing him in the morning! i feel so sweet! hahas, i love my xiaoxin! i really really do love him and nothing can ever make me stop loving him always! I LOVE XIAOXIN! hahas! I LOVE I LOVE!

ultraman asked me maths yesterday! i went OMG, very anxious that i can do intgreation to differeniation! omg, totally OMG! hahas! told him my answer then i very scare ah, then go around asking people whether their answer is similar to me or not! hais. anyway i did not help at all i think, it is J2 maths! sorry ultraman kor! sorry!

jinlong was so nice yesterday ah! he helped me with the maths i asked him! thanks ah! he is super nice ah! i am shock too ah, i am not sad hor! hahas, thanks =D thanks wenyang too! thanks linkai too! thanks fangwen too! thanks daph too! thanks! hahas! special thanks to jinlong again ah, must help me ah! hahas, permission given to you liao! hahas!

chatted with happyfruit today! hahas, talked about whether i am ah lian or not! he say definitely NO! hahas, so happy ah because i am not ah lian wadd! YY shifu make me worry for nothing ah! so naughty ah! hahas, thanks the both of you, i love! hahas!

i went to ka jiao ryan ong just now! hahas, he will cry for me when i fail my summer test! OMG, very nice ah! thanks RYAN ONG! hahas! I LIKE RYAN ONG SCOLDING ME AH! I LIKE RYAN ONG ACTS LIKE HE DIDNT SEE HIM! hahas! thanks for being such a wonderful friend to me always!

chatted with teddy ah! aniway congrats my little teddybear! she is happy now for sure! hahas, i feel happy for her too! hahas! also chatted with dearest qingaide! i miss her, i really miss her! miss the friday dates i used to have with her! very sweet and nice one ah! now i am the one busy who cant meet her! if not i am the one who is always sick nowadays! i really miss the past where she, clown and teddy no school! then i will meet them after my lessons to see them play bball! hahas! i miss that time, i miss the times! i miss wonderful times! i miss them alot alot la! i cant stop missing the five of them! i really love the 5 of you so much! friday dates is back, so i am going to keep it going! FRIDAY DATES WITH THE FIVE I LOVE ALWAYS!

oh ya, shigehisa asked me a funny Q yesterday ah! hahas, i feel like laughing ah! my mission is to steal he lo! hahas! funny la, i love shigehisa to chat with me always! he is the one who cheer me up! hahas! always told him all sort of idiot and retard things i do! hahas, just feel nice telling him what i love to tell! hahas, he is a very very nice friend to me, a very very cute guy, a very very very sweet friend to me, and I LOVE HIM OF COS!! hahas! thanks ah so much!

nana asked me if no more pw, will you miss pw? yes, i will! i love my pw grp, i really really love pw grp so much!! really, they are so nice always! we admit we faced alot of problems but we solved every single of them! i feel so great when i know we are able to solved it everytime! PW meeting always full attendance! no one absent before so far! see the group, so united, i love my pw grp! i love my pw grp, i am sure nana love too! the 3 guys of my pw grp are called real guys! hahas! pw rocks because of you guys. thanks! going out soon right, i want i want! hahas! i dependent alot of them i think because i need them ah! hahas!

xiaoxin, i miss you now! where are you, i miss you so so much now!

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just some thoughts.

2006-06-21T19:25:00.000+08:00

1. Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED BY: myMEI, veronica x)

Favourites
favourite colour: orange, limegreen, blue, pink, black, white.
favourite food: chicken rice =x
favourite song: Santa Monica < savage garden
favourite day of the week: FRIDAY, SATURDAY AND SUNDAY!
favourite season: winter, summer.
favourite ice-cream: chocolate chips.

Currents
current mood: HAPPY x)
current taste: -
current clothes: sec5 classT and shorts.
current desktop: classpic-12b.
current toenail: -
current time: 7.10 PM
current surroundings: clean.
current annoyances: -
current thoughts: lots, sighs.

First
first best friends: VeeLing.
first crush: cant remember.
first movie: cant remember.
first lie: cant remember.
first music: how i know =.=

last
last cigarette: i hate cigarette =D
last drink: ice cold water.
last car ride: -
last crush: hmm, LOL!
last movie: Da Vinci Code.
last phone call: brenda mummy.
last CD played: cant remember

Have you ever
have you ever dated your best friend: yap.
have you ever broken the law: nah.
have you ever been arrested: nah.
have you ever skinny-dipped: no.
have you ever been on tv: no.
have you ever kissed someone you don't know: NO!.

5 things you are wearing: hair accessories, shorts, shirt, ear studs, spectacles.
4 things you done today: online, eat, went out with siblings, watch tv.
3 things you can hear right now: santa monica, tv, my sisters' voices.
1 thing you do when you are bored: dream.

*5 people to tag?
NANAdarling, BRENDAmummy, ANZELteacher, TEDDYBEAR, ALLENAlaoxiao.

finally back to update my blog!
hahas, i am going to have my friday dates again! hahas! everyweek, everyfriday i will get a chance to meet the 5 who i love so much! i get to meet my dearest qingaide, my funny dumb clown, my cutest teddy bear, my coolest teacher and my nicest mummy! yes, i get to meet them every friday from july! we are going to do that till all of us get old! i love the 5 of them! i miss them so much and i dont think i can live well without them! my friday date with the FIVE of them; I LOVE!
I LOVE MY BESTEST BOYFRIEND, XIAOXIN! I LOVE! x)
I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS TOO! thanks everyone for being part of my sweetest memory!
i am letting my mind running wild now. no one can stop it and i dont want to stop it too!
i am tired of things.
been sick for so long! when can i recover! hais.
bye everyone, takecare! =DD

LOVE YESTERDAY NIGHT<3 - Jun. 20, 2006 at 08:55 AM
I LOVE YESTERDAY because i was on phone with xiaoxin and guanhui! we are on phone from 11+pm till dont know what time! hahas! we are like in the past to talk on the phone together again! i love i love i love! i love it more because there is xiaoxin who someone i really love in my lyfe! xiaoxin, thanks for being my bestest friend! thanks! i was teaching the both of them amaths! hahas, just keep on asking guanhui to an jing yi dian when i know xiaoxin didnt speak! hahas! he sian diaoz but dont care ah! sorry guanhui saidi, ur saijie just love xiaoxin more =D talked some craps also then xiaoxin laughs! SO CUTE AH XIAOXIN! then he say i sound like someone! hahas, so funny ah! hahas. not only that i remember scolding him and asking him to switch off his music! hahas, he went wahlao! in the end also turn off? hahas! so cute ah my xiaoxin! I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE THAT DAY! hahas, ended call with guanhui quite late ah! hahas!

went out with my siblings in the afternoon awhile, feel i neglect them again x( hais. then saw TAY HUI ZE ANZEL IN CWP! omgomg, hahas, called her and told her we cha jian er guo! hahas! actually is my soul not my body! hahas, she sound so BLUR! anway happy hor! I LOVE MY TEACHER! MUACKS!

teddybear- a million of thanks! LOVE YA<3! meet out soon because i miss the 5 of YOU! i miss my dearest qingaide, i miss my funnyest clown, i miss my cutest teddybear, i miss my coolest teacher and i miss my nicest mummy! i love the 5 of you, i cant live well without you all x(

my teacher mr ang is so funny okie! having date with my leader ah! HAHAS! nonsense, now we aree crapping! hahas!

today is my brenda mummy b'dae! going to call her before the clock strike 12! hahas, hope that she enjoys her b'dae! I LOVE HER! mummy, thanks<3!

i feel so dumb-
i feel so lost-

where is my xiaoxin! hais x( i need you! i am dying soon.

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misses- - Jun. 19, 2006 at 06:56 AM
BOO! WENT SCH for awhile only >.< hahas! did i get scare easily? nah! but my leader TAN JIN LONG SAYS I GET SCARE VERY EASILY! HAHAS, u wait and see ah! ahahs!
chatted with that fangwen! crap with him and told him so nonsense! hahas!

chatted with qingaide and teddybear! omg, miss them > qingaide, teddybear, clown, teacher and mummy =DD hahas!

anyway, I LOVE LCD<3. i am sure we last till we die! LOVES-

i miss my xiaoxin! i miss him, yes i do! i wish i am still in sec sch now! so i can see him everyday! x)) LOVES-

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CUTEST XIAOXIN <3 - Jun. 16, 2006 at 08:08 AM
the person who make my lyfe DOWN then UP is my dearest xiaoxin*xiaodi.
xiaoxin, sorry tml i am unable to meet you out! i am so sorry, i will call you up when you need me okie! anyway i was sad by his words. he told me, he prepare to fail, fail to prepare! how can he say this when he revised things this few days. is he telling me he is giving up! angry and sad with him! more sad than angry! we are sms-ing with each other that time! then he come online, scolded him notti boy! hahas! then he say he hope he can pass ah! hmmm, better than previous! feel better! hahas! after that to make him more confident, passing all my amaths genes to him ah! hahas, doing in the lame way! then he tell me no brain detected! cries! hahas! then i told him i dont like your attitude lei! then he cries! omg, so cute! hahas! i almost fainted! then i told him to cry more since is so cute! then he cry more and feeling so sad to have a jie who hope he to cry so much ah! hahas! funny la! omgomg, surprise by him is so OMG! hahas, then he is i am funny because the funniest person say i am funny! the funniest person is he! =/ so cute ah! then i say he good dog cos he listen to me! he asked me where is his bone! hahas, told him buy for him tml! then he say no, he want now cos i sae he gd den no prize and show me a crying face! so cute! then pass him little *bone* then he say eee. where got! then say i bluff him think he stupid dog cos lex is clever dog! cute!! hahas! I LIKE I LIKE! I LOVE MY XIAODI!
HE NEVER FAILS TO CHEER ME UP WHENEVER I FEEL SAD OR WHAT, EVEN WHEN I DID NOT TELL HIM! TELEPATHY BETWEEN US ARE STRONG, VERY STRONG!

studies. what am i supposed to do.
dumb. dumb. dumb!
liars-

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parents <3 - Jun. 10, 2006 at 09:23 AM
i realised my parents always give me whatever i want and also whatever my siblings want! however i am the one who keep on losing things which means losing their money too! i am sorry my daddy and mummy! hais x(

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hais - - Jun. 08, 2006 at 06:24 AM
i lost something which i like so much and means so much to me now! what am i supposed to do? thats wadd i call dumb and careless in my mind now. in my eyes, i cant see anything nice anymore. i feel so sad now. nothing can describe how i feel now. i am cursing myself hard now. hais.
can the thing come back to my side now. hais.
everything went so wrong again and again because of me.

i am sorry that i am going to give up what i used to like or love now. not going to love or like anything unless ...

i know friends ard me are concern especially jinger*SLP. i know no matter how i scold you, you still insist on talking to me. i am sorry that i wish to think more.

HATRED-

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