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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

SWEET; BITTER; SOUR; HOT! <3<3<3

AHA!! back to update. today is a long and tiring day. took bus to causeway point as usual but this time round, omg, all my surrounding are all riversidians! i feel so like being a riversidians again! I MISS RIVERSIDE! I MISS 5/1! I MISS MY TEACHERS AND FRIENDS! I MISS RIVERSIDE LYFE! suddenly, i just feel like going back to past when i used to disturb my teachers and laugh aloud in class! haha! echo laughter in class, walk walk and alot more! memories just flash back so fast! omg, i <3 riverside! once a riversidian, always a riversidan! i feel it now! the RSspirit will never be apart from me! HAHA! RIVERSIDE ROCKS!
first period-PHYSICS lecture. we have our re-quiz today! lesser questions. then did my mass pe again- running 2.4KM! haha, is fun running! (: did sit-ups, standing board jump and shuttle run after 2.4KM! haha! damn tired! BREAK time after PE. i was listening to my MP3 player and feel like singing at that moment! haha, was damn high at that time! half an hour break passed fast, so was GP! BOO! our teacher is back, so we got GP lessons again! haha, quite boring i think. haha! NEXT was civis lesson! OH NO, boring! haha. desmond even say is a waste of time! AHA! after civis is lunch, ate with christinaNANA, HUIYANG, LINKAI AND HANMUN! shujuan and allena didnt come today! kinda of miss them! hehe! we had our maths tutorial after lunch! crapped with mr chin awhile! LOL! he is so funny as he really can jokes so well! LOL! a funny and nice and clever teacher! MATHS rocks, so maths lecturer rocks alSO! lol! last period was physics tutorial! HOHO! finally, we all were tired! went through some questions! haha, get to know more new things. happy thing i supposed. LOL!
christinaNANA was damn angry during the last part of phy tutorial! OMG, so damn angry larh! i also got a shock! HAHA! somemore the bunch of us were talking about the BO thingy! LOL! we are evil but he is evil-est larh! who ask him so hao lian? LOL! aiya, smart jiu hao dont need show out de wadd. haha! hao lian de yao si, tao yan larh! LOL! went home with christinaNANA, huiyang, linkai, guanhan, billy, hanmun and chandra! LOL! then went causeway point walked walked awhile and went home with NANA accompany me to wait for bus again! thanks NANA! lols! we chatted quite alot too before my bus come! NANA, dont regret wadd u have do, he deserve it somehow? haha! so not to worry so much okie
SHIGEHISA is so siao one larh! he say his picture is more shuai then my xiaodi*xiaoxin! eh, haha, no comments larh :DD to be fair, well both also bu hao kan! LOL! somemore he complained that i am fierce huh! wadd only larh, since when i scold him lorh! that nonsense kia! LOL! somemore he told me something is a bad word! so sorry huh, i dont know larh! thanks for telling me, since i know now. i will not use it anymore okie! haha, see i am guai and ting hua! (; somemore he HUMPH larh! so funny larh! like xiao hai zi liddat, sa jiao-ing sia! LOL! funny funny funny. he say my xiaodi bei wo pian huh! wadd onli lorh! i am really a good jiejie, so u die die also must admit it! LOL! somemore he say something like so kuangzhang when i allow him to steps my toes! wadd my nails will break! LOL! =/ thats is being too OVER! he just like a parrot sia, repeat what i say! LOL! parrot, well he must admit i am a good jiejie! somemore he always SAY SORRY when he told me apologise too much is useless! LOL! then he say i also always say sorry, so he bu guan larh. so must say too? LOL! siao ding dong! i am not scare him larh, he argued that i am scare of him! u wait and see, then u will know who scare of who! LOL! i was so shocked that he says: GF sucks! =/ that is really wadd a siao ding dong will think larh! LOL! somemore he say i bian tai when i say i feel WOOT! lols! dont know who is bian tai sia! LOL! nonsense daoooo. lols. say i in love with my xiaodi! WADD SIA! then he must be in love with his DI liao lorh! HOHO :X his prey! LOL! he really make me feel like talking to my xiaodi[well, he feel honoured about it] a million of thanks. haha, REALLY THANKS LARH! i give him 2 full pages of nice thing hor! so better cherish me! LOL! GREENY MAN[he wore amkss U again]! i just trust you how much i trust my xiaodi! u really really rocks my world, thanks!
this para is for SIAO DING DONG jinger again! LOL! she is crazy larh! but I LOVE HER SO MUCH THAT I COULDNT BEAR TO HATE HER larh! LOL! she is so funny =/ she gets so ji dong when i kiss her? LOL! somemore her friend is crazy one lorh! haha, so easily jealous de! wadd onli larh her friend! HAHA, well, you want me to tag again in ur tagboard? then blogged about the reasons! LOL! i know you need me to tag, so just say it larh! SIAO DING DONG! STUDY HARD FOR UR CT1 okie! then i can celebrate with ya ur b'dae liao! JIA YOU!! haha! i give u all my luck!
my saidi is in LOVE now hor! LOL! that siao one! sms me just to tell me he miss me! OMG, saijie so happy larh! LOL! somemore he suspect whether did i really miss him =/ well, should i be the one who suspect whether he miss me? LOL! saidi, all the best for ur CT and rememeber no matter what happens, i will always be there for u like how i did in the past (: LOL! stop saying u miss me when u dont! stop saying u love me when u dont! LOL! alrights, saijie know saidi are honest always! so i trust him! LOL!
we walked passed each other today. i didnt even bother to say hi to YOU because you are with your classmates. we are fated or not fated, even myself also lost currently. should i be the one taking all the zu dong and not you? argh, i dont know. i am lost lost lost lost lost! but i really cant take my eyes off! really! i wanna to see you now and then. <3
i am tired of everything now. let me get over all this and i will be free from all the trouble le! i just need a break- people, take care! good luck to all Riversidians! all the best for the CT1! bye peepz!
Feb. 27, 2006 at 05:34 AM >>> simple plan - untitled
currently, i feel like blogging here now.
i am feel so sad now! SAD UNTIL i nearly can die larh! the sadness is not the normal saddness i always have, is different, is pain and i feel so much like dying now. i wonder issit i just cant get the songs and that is the treatment i get from you? oh ya, can i choose to die now if those are the treatment i get from you. wadeva u want to say, i dont want to know. i really dont know who to face to now. my online chatter no online, who can i pour my problems too? my xiaodi online but he got common tests, well i think i really need to let him study for his common test. i can never always bother him. so who can i turn to now? NO ONE AT ALL! i feel so terrible now. feel like dying now. why not just put a knife in my throat now. i can really really die now. i rather die than being wu ru in front of people. first, u asked me to called. then once i get into the conversation, dont tell anyone about this? hais. should i say no? i dont get a point what is there to hide? then you started to say this and that, i give u the address, u dont want. then come tell me this tell me that. argh, what you want from me seriously? SERIOUSLY, i dont know what you want at all? can u like just tell me. issit i am the one at fault or u? issit i am the one who is so freak but not you? issit the one that i really pissed you so off that you cannot stop shooting me? issit this and that? why not u just tell me and i will GET AWAY FROM U! NOW AND FORVER! den u wont see me and i wont see you den we have no hard time for each other anymore. SHORT PAIN IS ALWAYS BETTER THAN LONG PAIN! seriously, i hate the feelings now. hate i used to have now. i really hate myself more than anyone of you do. i really hate until i can just bang myself against the wall! i really cant help but only know how to cry~ CRY AND CRY THAT'S ALL I KNOW! well, a crybaby i supposed! i know it is pointless to cry over such things. but i really really cannot take it anymore. i feel the breakdown inside me which make me cant control my tears not to drop now. i cant control. why can we just take one nice picture and let me keep for memories for the rest of my lyfe. why cant u just grant the wish i have for friends. are u really that cruel that you can just say wadeva u want to me. everyone dont want people to critise them, so before we really want to critise anyone. we really need to think hard of what are we supposed to say. sometimes words are hurting, actions are hurtings and most importantly, u are hurting me. u want me to hurt you too and let you have a feel of wadd i am having now? DO YOU WAN? really. i feel so worst. the feelings just cannot speak anything at all. i feel so dui lian. why dont you put urself in my shoes? is nice to have jokes or wadd but everything and everyone must have their limits. i really dont want to make things so bad at all. but you are the one who forced me to do all this thing. whenever someone comment about wadd, you will just say U LARH U LARH! everything me. why everything me? WHY! why not someone else? issit becos i am not a girl? okie, let me tell u i am a girl. i have the feelings of girl. i have the thoughts of girl. i am really a girl who know how to laugh and cry. would you rather to see me with tears of joy or tears of sadness? hais, i dont know! i really feel so argh now! why! why must be me! why must it happen on me? i always feel i create lots of trouble already. i dont want anymore. i really dont wish to create anything anymore. i know i am really irritating at times, really stupid at times and really 38 at times. but whoever told me i OVER, i will try to be back to the limits. why cant you be too? what is there to be afraid of when you did nothing wrong? must we really keep a distance away from each other? if there is really a need, i will. but i feel there is no such need. we are PURELY FRIENDS wadd. why should we be frends under so sheng mi? why? i dont get a point there. maybe i should scream to the world, maybe i should announce to the world, maybe i should prove to the world. is this what you want me to do? is it? maybe this is wad you want, i will grant you from now onwards. somemore we are not that close anymore since you told me this and that. we are not that close anymore since this matter happens. we are drifting away from each other too. i know it myself too. this is call friends, oh no. then i what should i call those who are nice to me? can u tell me! U CANT RIGHT! so respect me. if u want me to respect you, then you should respect me. dont expect me to respect someone whom i dont think i should. i respect you before anything happens, do you ever respect me before? u ask urself. somemore are there trust between us? do you trust me? if no, THEN why bother to tell me things and ask favour from me? WHY, are u using me in another words? why not just tell me the FACT and DONT USE ME ANYMORE. should i be really harsh that we break off everything including our friendship. issit what you really want me to do? hais. why must forced me into this state. why. cant we just like the same as before. we can always be the BEST pals with such a same character! i really enjoy the times in the past. can we just turn back the time? can we? i rather be the best pals with you, rather to be the best ENEMY with you. it is terrible to see such a thing happens < when friends become foes. i dont want to see that happens on you and me. you can comment that i am rude to hang up the phone. but the problem is i cannot take it anymore. if i dun hang up, will i get more wu ru? will i get more worse than previous? U TELL ME. what am i supposed to do. i did try not to hang up the phone since you told me the rude-ness for hanging up but the problem is i really really really really cannot take it anymore? if u really wan to wu ru me, why not talk to me personally? u wan me xia bu liao tai issit? ISSSIT WADD U WAN ME TO BE! i hope i never come to this world at all too. i feel i am always a burden to this world, why should i come here! why should i know you. why. why must fate let us know each other? will you and i be happier if we do not know each other? would it be better? i dont know. why must i be born? i used to have the thinking of ending my lyfe soon but whenever i am feeling down, there is always someone who save me from jumping~ should i be grateful to the person or hate the person? because if i am not around, i wont be suffering anymore. i will be living happily in the other world, with no happiness, no saddness, no worries and most important NO YOU anymore. you really make an impact in my lyfe, a positive or negative impact? i dont wish to talk about it. hais. i feel like runnning away from everything and DIE! the sooner the better! u can say me little gas over such matters, but it really hurt my heart < do you ever feel this way before? DEFINITELY NOT! you are not me, and u can never be me always. so u can never never understands what i undergo now! I REALLY HATE MYSELF MORE THAN ANYONE OF YOU WHO HATE ME SO MUCH. CAN I DIE NOW?
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I FEEL THIS SONG REALLY SPEAKS MY THOUGHTS (:
i cant take any things anymore, just let me off please, i am begging you now.
-GONE

=signn 0ff=

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

6:24 PM

<3<3<3 the BEST F4 i have!

BOO! back to update my blog again! just got the mood to update my blog! ((: HAHA!
today supposed to be a long day but it become a short day! LOL! first period is physics practical! LOL! was fun because of the STEAMER! haha! the guanhan and gang are damn bian tai larh! HAHA, alrights, i really must admit that his english is GOOD and i am sure he will ACE for his biology if he didnt dropped it huh! GUANHAN, U REALLY PRO IN KNOWING ALL SORT OF NONSENSE! LOL! next was break and follow by MATHS LECTURE! hoho! is FUN with the NEW TOPIC! maths ROCKSSSS always in my world! next was LUNCH! ate with christinaNANA, ALLENA, SHUJUAN AND HUIYANG! we all ate the same thing larh! haha, is fun eating the same thing! the food taste nice always with them around, i <3 ALL OF THEM! after lunch was chemistry! HOHO! yeah, finally like to love chemistry again! BECAUSE i understand the topic this time round! omg, so happy larh!! LOL! the only part i am really lost is the gaseous state one >.< after chem was econs tutorial! HOHO! so suay larh! second time kenna the lecturer called to answer the Q liao! suay! >.< the ryan is mad larh, he keep on HEHE whenever he see me! OMG, next time i shall HAHA in front of him! LOL! oh ya, chandra really smart sia! I GOT NO COMMENTS ABOUT RICH MAN SON! HAHA! HAHA! supposed to have chinese lesson after econs tutorial but we all decide to go home since the teacher is not there! LOL!
so went to buy my school U with christinaNANA, shujuan and huiyang! allena went off first as she need to meet her friend[s]! LOL! we waited so long sia! we ate something and i atE FRUITS! hoho. jelly is not nice :x we played a trick on chandra larh! so funny, i really can laugh until my mouth cramp larh! we also played on jacob and hanmun? LOL! funnny, CHRISTINANA IS TEACHER sia! LOL! nonsense! HAHA! we chatted with mr clayton ang outside the bookshop before buying our school U! after buying our school U, went to causeway point with christinaNANA as shujuan and huiyang both stayed in school to wait for their friends! went to POPULAR and bought some cards that i want to make for 0612B peepz! haha, bought pens too and NANA bought stickers! went to buy something to eat from crystal jade and went home with NANA! NANA accompany to wait for BUS AGAIN, i must say NANA! U ARE SO NICE LAR. next time let me accompany ya okie? LOL
ALRIGHTS, i going to blog about the CUTE SIAO DING DONG-JINGER larh! is a MUST TO BLOG ABOUT HER okie! haha! hello! please blog too okie! haha! u this siao ding dong! LOL! she so damn nice larh, sms me to keep me accompany! OMG, is around 1+am to 2+am nearly 3am! i really LOVE HER SIA! haha, although she is siao ding dong larh. haha! somemore she send me really nice nice songs to hear larh, really thanks that i know this little CUTE girl huh! OH YA, she dont scare her sms BOOM, so let me try it for her! LOL! she ar, so funny one, worry about her test but study nothing larh! so =/ pls. somemore she think too much lar, keep thinking that she will fail when she wont lorh! haha! i promise to lend her my shoulders when she CRIED < should be she asked for it de larh : XX HAHA! no larh, but i will lend her de larh! SEE, JINGER! I AM NICE OKIE! I AM STRONG TOO! PLEASE ADMIT THAT I AM STRONGER THAN YA OKIE! haha! oh ya, this cute siao ding dong with such a beautiful eyes got eyes infection larh! somemore she toooo stubborn to listen to me not to wear contact lens larh! haha, PLEASE PLEASE TAKE CARE OF UR NICE BEAUTIFUL EYES OKIE! haha! or not i will cry for ur EYES LARH! jia you for ur CT okie! I <3 CUTE LITTLE SIAO DING DONG JINGER! MWARHS MWARHS MWARHS!
szeling, that CUTE meimei want me to blog about her too! so i blogged. i am a good jiejie :X HAHA! she want me to LOVE HER! lols. nonsesne sia! i always LOVE HER DE LARH, must she think too much bah! LOL! alrights, i must really thanks her for letting me to know JINGER okie! HAHA! AH MEI, XIEXIE NING SIA! LOLS! AH JIE LOVE U SO MUCH STILL OKIE! dont anyhow think and i am NOT BIAS and i am also the most normal people eva! (: haha! mwarhs toooo! take care okie! stop changing ur URL can :x jia you for ur CT!
LINKAI, please admit that i am a good writer okie! haha, i can make u and allena cried okie! so i am great writer larh! PLEASE ADMIT LARH!
shigehisa, LOL! i think he is fine now! totally fine! HAHA, budden his nick-why must there be death? omg, i am afraid he is thinking alot again! shigehisa, no matter wadd. lihui is here! HAHA! he told me girls have low taste larh! wadd sia! he is so OVER and the layup is nice, cool and shuai larh! admit it :x HAHA! well, he said i looked like 2.45M in the photo-the photo which i took with dawei long time again! HAHA, thank you sia! I AM 2.45M offically! LOL! shigehisa, you rocks my world! HAHA!
XIAOXIN! ahjie sure ur english can pass one okie! ahha, ur best friend is ur guardian angel (: HAHA! gonna to celebrate ur 17 b'dae with u hor, excited? LOL! i am too!!!! so all the best for ur CT and jia you! enjoy after ur ct!
i got a very not good feeling larh, dont know whether is i sensitive or wadd. i hope you will never do this to me. i really wish we are the same as before. if a matter really change the both of us, lets overcome it and forget about it.
well, finish blogging finally! i have physics re-quiz again tml! haha, wish all the H2 phy people all the best again okie! TML I GOT PE, yeah^^ mass PE-RUNNING! tml gonna be a long long day, let me enjoy! SHIGEHISA, u got a chance to show off to me about your high PHYSICS MARKS AGAIN, AHA! bye everyone and enjoy ur day! i<30612B and i cherish the last few days with all of you guys especially allena and those who are leaving! THE F4 (: I<3<3<30612B!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

8:23 PM

LIHUI<3POIXIN&LINXIN THE MOST!

WOOT! i am feeling so honour now larh! both of my xin[s]-poixin and linxin are fighting over me larh! haha! because of me, they both start fighting larh! is so funny larh! i cant help but only laugh and laugh all along! LOL!
chatted with poixin*ultrawoman`darling about alot alot alot of stuff. she says i can says totally what she feels. haha! somemore she love me cos after so many things i am still the one who didnt change and think she is the best. i tell you, that is obviously she didnt change at all! because she is always my ultrawoman`darling. we cannot never judge whether a person has change or not through one matter, it is unfair to the person totally. dont ever say a person change unless u know the person from outside to inside and spend ur days with the person. well, we chatted alot alot! i dont want to blog because is our personal chat larh! we just pi li pa la say so much sia! haha, she realy feel better after chatting and i feel happy when she says that too! because as her friend, i dont want her to suffer and feel sad over things. somehow i become her MILK sia! MILKY LIHUI! alrights, that is totally JI BA BONG! nonsense! haha. she understands me and of course i understand her! no one can understands the both of us unless you are us. so dont judge her anymore < she is still the little perfect, sweet, nice, pretty, cute and unqiue poixin i ever know! LOL! i lame her with my craps also larh, she just laugh and laugh! LOL! somemore she say wadd i look guai qiao den inside ~.~ LOL! funny larh she. i am still the lihui larh, crazy little poixin!
MY XIAOXIN*XIAODI so funny larh! when i put my nick : the nicest girl-friend i ever have is poixin, my bestest friend . then he come and talk to me : HEY i tot ur bestest friend ish mi.. LOL! is so funny sia! then i told him he is my BESTEST BOY-FRIEND AND POIXIN IS MY BESTEST GIRL-FRIEND! MY BESTEST BOY-FRIEND jealous i go find new bestest friend larh! somemore is the first time xiaoxin talk so funny thing larh! is totally make me ROFL! lols! my xiaoxin's b'dae is coming ler! haha, he is excited over it because i am going to celebrate with him larh! LOL! hoho, THE BEST AND UNFORGETABLE B'DAE HE WILL GET FROM ME LARH! LOL! MY DEAREST BESTEST XIAOXIN*XIAODI! hoho! alrights, both bestest friend! both of you are the greatest bestest friend i can ever find :] we are the BESTEST friend forever!
oh god, i haven done all my homework! especially physics larh! i can really die lar. somemore i still got the mood to go online chat with poixin and linxin sia! HAHA! i am dead meat! well, i hope shigehisa is fine now! i think he go play bball ler? haha, maybe good for him to fa xie by playing bball larh! LOL! as long as he happy, i am happy too
hoho, i am happy now! i got my 2 bestest friends to talk to just now! omg, i feel like living in a heaven larh! LOL! LIHUI<3POIXIN&LINXIN FOREVER! THE BEST THING IN MY LYFE IS KNOWING THE BOTH OF THEM! zaijian everyone! I AM STILL LAUGHING!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

8:26 PM

FRIENDSareFOREVER!

my mood is not good currently. NOT GOOD! i think if i talk more to shigehisa i will quarrel with him sia. just because we got 2 different point of views. he feel the sadness over the coming friday while i feel the sadness upon the taking of O level results. so is from 2 different point of views. i also dont know what can i say or do to help him seriously. his class got the most number of people staying, at least better than my class. my class quite a number leaving and we all are really tired over the word leaving or separation. our class used to blog so much over separation and persuading[pleas] them to stay, but it has no effects at all. after the JAE submission is over, we cannot make a second choice anymore. we can never go back to the past anymore. we must never blame those who are leaving as most of them have their reasons [eg, good results, parents not allow] so we must be understanding. they feel jing tui liang nan too so we must be understanding in order not to let them feel sad over their decisions.
no one can stops time to pass, days to come and O level results to be taken. i really hate 10 FEB 2006. if time were to stop, please stop at 10 FEB as before that we all really enjoy the days before the results were taken. upon taking the O levels results, we just phone and sms each other automatically. i also dont know why, after calling my mummy, all the rest of them i called are my JC mates. we just told each other our results and ask whether still staying in IJC or not? most of them answer: i am not sure. eventually we online at the night to ask again, we conference again to ask, we blogged for them to stay, linkai even do one skin for the class with all our names there and we do alot of things to get each other to stay. but did it success? all our speech touched them, all our entries touched them and all our action touched them. but what can they do if they are under their parents? we can never do anything to overpower their parents, never. the only thing that we can do is to wish them all the best and dont ever let them regret for leaving.
i really wonder why humans must go through separation when fate is present. FATE brought us together and is FATE separate us apart. no one likes the feeling at all. but what can we do? precisely we cannot do anything to stop this from happening at all, so have to learn to accept reality. i also dont know learning to accept reality is wrong or right. i am confused by all views. the reality is cruel even if we choose to accept it or not. the world is just reality.
maybe through JC life, we get to know alot of good friends who we can really get along so well in such a short period of time. is a time when we really cherish our friendship so much, is a time when we really go through alot of rain and storms, is a time when we really enjoy and suffer, is a time when we went through what we never go through and alot more. JC life can really changes a person life, just how it change your life and my life. i am totally a new lihui because of 0612B.
i still remember what mr john ng say, if they are leaving, let them leave without any more regrets. dont ever let them feel the friendship that is fading. just let them leave. if not, they will always be missing us and wont be able to concentrate in their studies. so we must be harsh somehow in order to let both parties feel better. should i agree what he said? when he said that, christinaNANA, linkai and me were just listening as we dont know what to say anymore. should we just be harsh to those who are leaving?
i still remember my xiaoxin*xiaodi told me: you really cherish your friendship so much till you can be so sad over this matter. YES, i do really cherish this friendship. i told him how much i cherish and why i cherish so much even though it is just a short period of time. i told him about crying over this, he just say: dont cry anymore. i just cant help but only crying.
i still remember when chandra say: separation cannot be avoid and our aim is to go university. i agreed, our aim is to go U so we are able to see each other there again < is just fate are playing a small separation test with us. if we are able to pass the test, we will not be separate anymore. chandra say: i cant believe you are such a emotional person. yesh, i am emotional over you guys. i told him how 0612B change me which make me feel like coming to school more often even if the days are long. i told him that i never regret coming for JAE at all as i really get to know such great guys! i cherish all of them just like how he cherish us too.
i still remember what christinaNANA say: we cannot do anything to ask them stay, those who have good results are supposed to go to good school. we are friends to persuade them to reach for the furtherest and the best. we are not the ones who stop them from reaching what they wants. no choice, we must wish them all the best. christinaNANA also told me how sad she is when FANGfang is leaving but for the sake of her future, she still ask her to leave and go better JC. she told me to cherish the class time we have from 10FEB to the last day of the 3 months, so we really enjoy our times during our civis lessons. she even told me that we must always look from a different point of views for lyfe.
i still remember what linkai say: i want all 0612B to stay, i am selfish, who is not? everyone is selfish in wanting the best for themselves, i am too. who dont want people to stay by their side. i want! i want all my friends to be with me always and dont ever left me! linkai: i really regret for coming to the JAE! that really hurts somehow. who ever know JAE makes us suffer so much for just the word-SEPARATION! i HATE SEPARATION LARH! HATE HATE HATE!
i still remember the first person who make me feel so touched is DESMOND. my DEAREST CG REP! his nick: 0612B, can we stay as a class, is not a question, its a order! Yours truly, ur CG Rep. i was totally touched by his nick and linkai and i just put it. my CG rep, i can never imagine a guy will type this, never! he is the first guy who i feel so touched by his little actions.
i still remember what guanhan blog: XX, chandra and allena, i know you guys got good results but ijc is not a bad school afterall! desmond even changed as he is more enthu and committed towards the class. OH GOD! even this prevert gh type that too. i really just go so ~.~ at that time. even he want the class to stay! even somemore who is so biantai is so emotional too.
i remember allena's nick: full house doesnt matter anymore, twiins doesnt matter too, what matter most is 0612B! but she cant do anything as her parents really dont want her to stay. we understand. she told me F4 will always be F4, even they are not physically there. i will remember the F4 for lyfe!
i remember after 10 FEB 2006, all 0612B peepz blogged about the same issue! i really cant imagine all of us are so emotional.
FRIENDS ARE FOREVER ALTHOUGH EVERYONE SAYS NOTHING IS FOREVER. i know no matter where we are, our hearts remember each other for lyfe, the times we spend together, the fun we have, the bian tai talk that we say, the sufferings we went through and alot more and most importantly the greatest friendship in lyfe! I REALLY LOVE EACH AND EVERY 0612B PEEPZ! we were still be together! i really enjoy myself with you guys around and i never never regret coming to IJC for my first 3 months!
i hope shigehisa will be better somehow. i still like the shigehisa who keeps on hao lian-ing to me, craps to me and talk everything under the sun! i LOVE HIS HAO LIAN-NESS larh! first time i feel so different between him and i. first time i feel so lost in front of him. I <3 0612B THE MOST.

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

2:40 PM

confused- BECAUSE OF YOU!

saturday is a boring day! i am sure christinaNANA agree with me! LOL! alrights, supposed to do homework but i didnt do huh. at home slack! LOL! like wadd only lorh! but is fun slacking and i will do my homework later on and of course continue tomorrow!!
JINGER! she is a siao ding dong larh! she is as crappy as me! which really make me feel so nice chatting with her! LOL! we chat about nonsense! remember yesterday was the first time i met her, then we seem like enemy liddat! bu we are not! LOL! funnny sia! LOL! she is damn cute sia! SMS me when she kenna DC! lol! damn funny, i got a shock larh. haha! somemore she can UN-CHOCKED! lols. that is totally over! well, she will see this MSG for her right! she must be so happy now! happy over the MOON! she must be yay-ing larh! that siao char bo! LOL! oh ya, she ask me whether i blog about her yesterday? LOL! alrights, i will blog about her cute-ness i found in her! JING ER! U ARE SO CUTE THAT MAKE ME FEEL SO LALALA! can? haha! she is siao overall and jia you for ur common test! :X
XIAOXIN*XIAODI! he is having common test next week! OH NO! so fast! haha, ahjie`best friend wish you good luck in advance okie! i know my xiaodi can do it de! jia you xiaoxin! LOL! dont over stress or wadd larh! remember no matter what happens, i will be there for you.
SWEETlaoda! just now asked him one Q about whether his school PE T will fly or not! then when i say he nice, he >.< so i say he sweet, then he say its okie huh! LOL! like wadd onli larh! how i know what he wants sia! he is both nice and sweet cos he is my SWEETlaoda!
shigehisa no online. he is out for sure! argh, so sad one larh! feeling so terrible now! i am missing him so much again! again so much! i really cannot dont see him online sia! if not i will go around sian sian sian! LOL! i really really miss him x( can he like faster come back and online! SHIGEHISA! FASTER COME BACK CAN OR NOT! I MISS YOU LIKE SIAO LIAO LARH! haha, I MISS HIM
alrights, someone is anxious about my msg for her! LOL! that siao jing er larh! i am dying to see shigehisa to online now! < HE ONLINE NOW FINALLY! HOHO! so goodnites and everyone sleep well okie! hehe!

Feb. 24, 2006 at 06:56 AM >>> <3
BOO! back to update here and then will transfer everything back to blogger.

shigehisa send me nonsense photos which make me really ~.~ sian dia0z larh! haha. he got so high for phy larh den come hao lian to me >.< so like wadd onli lorh! only 4 marks higher than me nia! no big deal! he is funny, find the smallest face in one of the photos den send it to me! LOL! how to expect me to see? LOL! thats so OVER larh. somemore running away from camera larh! he says he look no good in photograph! LOL! wadd onli larh. real person looks good can ler wadd! why so nonsense? he send me so many of his teacher photos! OMG, what the use of seeing his teacher =/ he is like so BO LIAO lorh! more BO LIAO than me larh! LOL! see his teacher, i rather see him larh! cause i know him wadd. his teacher i dont really know huh! LOL! sian diaoz larh he! LOL! he is OGL! omg really OGL! his classmates going to be OGL of WALLA WALLA! how i hope, if time will to turn back, i will ...... let me be in WALLA WALLA! i wanna see how is the fate of us. are we fated or unfated. LOL! i miss him loads, seriously! i <3 him loads too, seriously! LOL!

you make me regret for not doing something which i want to do for a long time.
am i so stupid that i choose not to do what you dont want in the past?
but now everything change because of you.
you do the things you dont want in the past.
i do not do things that you dont want.
am i really fool, i feel i am already one.
why you changed? why i changed?
you changed because of your di or your class?
i changed because of you or my class?
since when i become so guai and ting hua,
listen to every single word you say and dont do the things that you dont want.
give me one more chance, i will do those things, for sure.
i am afraid, afraid of alot of things.
i am afraid that something will really change you and me.
i dont want to see the change as currently is good.
the feelings is just so not good and not nice.
the words you say really make me feel like banging myself against the wall and die.
really feel like dying when the time you say so much things about what you doing.
i really feel so regret that i just feel so ARGH!
can i just turn back time now!!
give me one more chance, let me turn back!
i will do whatever i want! please.
i dont want to live in regret, i am already living in a life full of regrets now!
can die because of so many regretsssssssssssss.
WHY! WHY! WHY!
why am i so dumb! why!

i have fallen, i think so.
i dont know where to go.
i dont know which to follow.
there is nothing in front of me, to lead me through.
maybe because of you, i learn to be stronger.
maybe because of you, i learn to be happier.
maybe because of you, i learn to be guai.
maybe because of you, i learn what is right&wrong.
maybe my heart no longer the same.
maybe my mind no longer the same.
maybe i am not the same lihui anymore.
i wonder if you ever feel the same too?
wadeva it is, i will let it be.
i dont want to do anything anymore.
you make me up and down < GOOD & BAD
your speech make me feel so good&jealous at times,
your silence make me feel so lost.
i dont know how to live without seeing you online.
i miss you when u are not around.
i miss you and your everything.
how i hope i could know you earlier, then i wont be suffering as much as last time.
how i hope i could be in the same class as you, how i wish.
i wish for alot...... but it dont seem to come true.
what if, alot of what if.
i dont know is good or bad for knowing you.
its all abt you, its all abt you baby.
i dont know what to say, speechless*
you say it best, when you say nothing at all.
all i wanna to say is I<3YOU.

=sign off=

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

11:21 PM

shigehisa's hao lian-ness rocks <3

back to update my blog again! finally is friday! the last day of the week! so happy that i can rest le! LOL! well, today so many crashers huh! LOL! got allena best frend-adeline[not sure] and ryan&linkai de friends too! haha! ryan&linkai one is damn obvious huh! whole row of amkss! LOL! green somemore! LOL! sian dia0Z LARH!
we end our lesson 2.5hours early again as there is no lunch, independent study and GP! woot! ^^ first period was CHEM lecture! LOL! go through those shells and stuff de huh, dont really get it until we tried out 2 examples! LOL! chem is fun huh! LOL! next was maths tutorial! LOL! only go through the tutorial worksheet! then was break ler! lol. ate bread with christinaNANA, shujuan and huiyang! LOL! allena and her frend eat another thing huh! LOL! after break was physics, go through the physics quiz! LOL! before starting the phy lect, mr clayton ang was somesort like correcting my eng huh! so like wadd onli lorh! den mr alvin ng says, his english also not that good! LOL! ROFL! i am laughing like mad larh! LOL! funny lecturers! LOL! before going out of LT2, dawei waved to me as he was wearing the catholic school U larh! haha, i just feel so funny and said: it look so ugly on you larh! LOL! ooops* hope i dont hurt me somehow ba as i am just kidding! LOL! dawei should know me well ba! LOL! actually looked not bad too larh! haha, i even sms him to say sorry! LOL! well, let me say again, dawei, i am sorry. =] last period was MOTHER TONGUE! lol. we got back our composition and go through the different phrases we can use to describe people huh! christinaNANA is damn over that time! she is talking to LINKAI as someone else! then say and say! i am just laughing larh, i am sure linkai ssure =.= de huh! LOL!
after school walked to causeway point with christinaNANA and met allena and her friend on the way! LOL! so we walked together! LOL! then christinaNANA shout BO name when she saw rubbish TRACK! i laugh until dont know like wadd larh! damn freaking funny! LOL! then we went to causeway point to have our lunch while waiting for FANGfang huh! LOL! christinaNANA and me chatted so much, all topics just pi li pa la de say out : DD is so FUN huh! after FANGfang came, then we went walked walked and went home around 6.01PM huh! LOL!
NANA! jia you for ur 2.4KM run okie! well, let us go for morning run every morning to make sure that ur 2.4 PASS with SILVER okie! NANA, u can do it okie! NANA, JIA YOU~!
shigehisa wore amkss U sia! LOL! green MAN! lols. he looked funny on it larh. lols. somemore he and his frend[amk] were like so siao that they even xchange their bags =/ LOL! however, i feel that shigehisa looked better in white Uniform! LOL! somemore yesterday he asked so funny questions? eg, do i look evil? do i look fierce? LOL! was like so =.= alrights, i answer him trufully okie! LOL! shigehisa say me weird? LOL! omg, dont know who is weird ba because he say cannot say him CUTE! lol. rofl! somemore he like pity my xiaodi got this kind of dajie sia! like wadd onli lorh! is u dun have dajie so u jealous right? LOL! he always hao lian to me de larh, so like wadd onli. but no matter wadd, i still <3 his hao lian-ness sia! LOL! he also very POLITE one huh! he say sorry when i dont even ask him to say! SO GUAI LARH he! LOL! he say i bo liao cos i did something which i feel that it is so bo liao too larh! HAHA! wadeva! OH YA, he is walla walla OGL! i wanna go WALLA WALLA huh! i am also ex-WALLA WALLA! hope so ba, but think posibility is quite low? LOL! i still wanna to pray. he rocks my world. he rock without doing anything at all. FINALLY! he is not okie yet! OMG, wonder he got REALLY REALLY take care of himself de ma? LOL! so like kid larh. maybe he need me to take care and scold him like siao lorh! LOL! shigehisa, take care and hao lian more to me okie! HOHO!
i am feeling GOOD today! i think that's all, everyone take care and good bye! LOL! weekend=homework! LOL!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

7:26 PM

RUNNINGaway < allaboutYOU!

LOL! i am back to blog again xDD today went to school[0612B make me wanna go school more] only with jieying as yusoff not feeling well! take caRE, yusoff. as usual we sit in the canteen and chit chat about stuff. haha! first period GP, is a free period as my teacher not here again[went for course], so we slacked there. i just listen to MP3 player, at that moment, i feel like being alone. i am feeling right at all, hais. then was maths lecture! LOL! COOL! we learn things again huh. maths rock! then break and it was PCCG! haha, 2 police officer came to our school and give us a talk about terrorism. everyone has a part to play in preventing terrorism! LOL! after the long talk was lunch! haha, eat eat, chit chit and go library do homework huh!
AFTER lunch is ECONS lecture! LOL! well, it is quite fun and econs started to be FUN :x next was chem tutorial! i am proud of myself able to do my CHEM corrections as is like finally i understand something again. i feel that only after the practical then i can really understand wad i learn in lecture~.~ haha. finally it is PE which means the last period! haha. same as last week, we played touched ruby! LOL! is FUN and i just keep on laughing, can really kills me for laughing! is just so FUNNY! oh ya, our CT always join us for PE on thursday huh! such a NICE CT we have!
after PE, our class sit down and chatted with our CT! haha, we chatted until 4.40PM! which is 1hour after our PE! so damn pro huh! LOL! went home with christinaNANA and allena after that! reached home at about 5+PM! haha, tired!
christinaNANA! dont get depressed over it as i think i also fail ba! we can always try harder de. is you who really make me think positively! so if now u cannot think positively, how can i do that huh! no matter what happens, we will brave through this 2 years of rain and storms! i will always be the friend when you need a friend most! take care, MY NICEST NANA! SMILE =]
well, today morning i online and shigehisa also online! so we chatted a while ONLY! haha, he is still sick! wonder if he really take good care of himself? so like kid only! he is a GOOD liar larh! lie me that he is going to SP-areospace electronics! LOL! i nearly believe him and feel so sad! in the end, all are lies! like wadd only lorh he! rahs, cant stand him! haha. well, forgive him! because i am the one who ask him to leave IJC first. LOL! somemore he know he is just to nice that i could not bear to hate him :X LOL! i like his hao lian-ness alot! i dont know why sia! his hao lian-ness really rocks larh, haha. hao lian to me more okie! he know how to say sorry de huh! so GOOD huh! LOL! today i saw him around 4.40+PM, he is going to for PE and he walked behind my back! i just turned and looked away, haha. aniway i dont think he see me also! he is so BLIND larh! LOL! well, you miss your voice, so please dont eat those that hurts ur throat de lar. still can tell me ur class bring you go eat good food! alrights, i shall have a nice chat with ur classmates xDD thanks for being so rocky!
my xiaodi very funny larh. he always ask: why i haben say u already okie le? LOL! that's so nonsense! LOL! because i feel nicer after talking to you. < you say best, when you say nothing at all. so just trust me for that! LOL! hope he dont feel so FRIEND-LESS anymore le okie! u still got dajie`best friend here! no matter what, we are BEST FRIEND!
the one whom i hung my phone, we are friends no matter what happens! haha, just trust me for that. we are friends once again! hehe
my mood just shoot down. 100% down. well, i also dont know why. you make me feel so good at times but worse at time too. are you doing for ur di? haha, i wonder. wadeva, i dont wish to know anymore. i just want to be in your tribe. so give me one more chance, lets see how fated can we be? i want it that way. i am not the lihui anymore after i know you. really. i dont know the change too but i feel different (: hais. my heart dont feel right, i feel like RUNNINGaway from EVERYthing again. i dont know why. i feel depressed at times and i dont understand myself. i am feeling LOST and the feeling just so argh! can i just SCREAM and SHOUT here? i wish too. -gone.
alrights, i need to go do my tutorial le huh! take care and goodbye! especially SHIGEHISA! muacks.

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

6:35 PM

happy b'dae hiromi// RUNNINGaway

YO! today is my dear`friend birthday HUH! so happy 18th b'dae HIROMI! lols. finally 18 ler huh, can do alot of things ler hor! HAHA! in the other words mean she old liao larh : DD haha! no matter wadd, just stay happy always and goody luck for ur A levels! LOL! love ya huh, mwarhs!
i have to thanks my doctor yesterday. thanks for all his concern and speech. i know is very difficult to handle depressed people like me, i am sorry. thanks for trying to make me smile although i am always so siao. thanks alot my nicest doctor. i told him one secret yesterday and i still so blur.
today was a short day! ((: had chinese lesson for 1.5HRS! then follow by break! HAHA! taking photos with my class GIRLS-friends! LOL! fun larh : DD busy laughing and laughing. after that is CHEMISTRY PRACTICAL! we did experiment again! haha. took a few photos with my classmates! haha! all of them rock (: we are off at 12.10PM but we chatted with mr john ng for 1 hour, so we left the lab at 1.10PM! then christinaNANA and me went to canteen and looked for FANGfang! LOL! we went to TOWN after eating our lunch at ljs huh! LOL!
went to town, FANGfang buy the wallet she wants and NANA looking at bags! then we walked walked here and walked walked there, around 5+PM then we left (: after that i went to meet hiromi and both of them went to CCK! lols! happened to be in the same MRT as hiromi! so SHOCK! lols. but when i went out of the MRT, i could not find her and i saw my SWEETESTlaoda! then i was about to go down the esclator and find her, but she appeared huh. then i ran up! LOL! so dui lian larh! LOL!
after meeting her, we went causeway point walked walked and i bought a small little cute MANGO cake for her : DD LOL! hope she likes it larh as her presents are all in my house >.< LOL! oh ya, must thannks her for the MANGO ice sia! LOL! then went home at around 6.35PM and took one long bus journey home! reached home at 7.05PM! HOHO!
SHIGEHISA, i think he is really really blind lar. even if i am 2 seats away from him or just a few steps in front of him or EVEN IN FRONT OF HIM! omg, he can never never see me de sia! is like so >.< LOL! somemore today morning online chat with him huh! so like wadd onli lorh! LOL! say wadd he under medication de larh. forget liao! >.< OH YA, he can do 1000 SKIPPING AND RUN 2.4KM without any injuries huh! LOL! so in the other words is saying i LAN huh! haha. but i will always forgive him de larh : DD he is BIAS, very very BIAS de larh! LOL! aniway shigehisa rocks my world!
i am sorry for the one who i hung the phone last night. i am very very sorry but my mood is not good. partly because i was wondering if i am suitable for JC life since i am so stupid. i wonder can i catch up? hais, i dont know. i know i am an idiot too bah. i dont know. i feel so fan! i know you guys are clever-er than me. there is a difference between humans always. hais. somemore i must be sorry about other stuff. i dont know what to say anymore but only sorry. whether to forgive or not and continue to be friend or not, is up to you. i cant do and say anything at all.
alrights, i should go take a bath and do my homework! i am still lost and feel like running away from everything.

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

7:36 PM

my legs-BAI KA!

YO! i am back again. have been updating daily so far huh! maybe because i want to remember my memories! LOL! in case one day i forget and stuff huh!
SCHOOL is fun today! LOL! my legs are like totally useless larh, can chop it off. lol. have problem walking down STAIRS and get up after a long sit! LOL! the legs are like PAIN DAOOOOO omg! LOL! firstly we got physics lecture, that means we got our physics QUIZ haha! is difficult? LOL! hope i can pass huh! : DD pass a little also can! LOL! pray pray! then we got PE, i still got run huh! LOL! i LOVE running so much NOW! haha, running rocks! my legs are worse after running =/. lols. the pain is MORE! lols. after running is break, was busying chatting and crapping with christinaNANA, allena, huiyang, shujuan, chandra, hanmun and GUANHAN! lol. we talk about OB! our class know who huh >.< LOL! is funny!! laugh until i can DIE! LOL!
next was GP lesson! LOL! our teacher did not come, so in the other words, means no GP lesson! HOHO. chatting with our class girls larh : DD got do homework also huh! THE christinaNANA too into music liao, starting singing! LOL! huiyang and shujuan were like laughing huh! lol. so evil! :x after which is CIVIS lesson! LOL! this is the time when i get so ji dong huh! LOL! i even scream at mr clayton ang! LOL! who ask him so overly over overation larh! somemore that GUANHAN! rahsss. dont want say larh! >.< haha. linkai, shujuan and huiyang were laughing at what i was drawing huh! JI BA BONG, =.=, MAPLE, STARS, MOON AND TELEPHONE! wadd so funny lorh! haha!
NEXT NEXT IS LUNCH! lol. the girls all ate the same stall, we are UNITED! lols. went to library after lunch to do some work but in the end we didnt larh. haha! after that is MATHS tutorial huh! first time waste so much time on MATHS huh! LOL! basically we were chatting with mr chin! LOL! i think more than 40 minutes? LOL! left 20 minutes in the END! lols. finally the LAST LESSON WHICH IS physics tutorial! LOL! 2 hours >.< TIRED... lols. but still fun somehow! went home with christinaNANA, guanhan, linkai and chandra! LOL! we were chatting on the way too! LOL!
went to cuaseway point with christinaNANA to buy her earsticks, my liquid paper, my sister's duno wadd, her food and our DRINK! haha! we sat at the 900 there chat too! haha. i miss one BUS because we wanna chat more :x HAHA! went home around 5.45pm huh! LOL! reached home 6pm! HOHO. i am earlier than NANA! LOLS : DD
BOO! pass the sweets[medicine] to SHIGEHISA ler! haha. i dint pass personally but called one my friend to pass. special thanks to that person. haha. i was so PAI SEH LARH, how can i go and pass him things with all his CLASSMATES! lols. so over! hope he get better somehow larh : DD haha. he is nonsense! thanks me for medicine[sweets] and i thanks him for taking! LOL! wadd only lorh! i am his wonderful doctor! LOL! :xx yeahyeah? lols. so nonsense. LOL! take care okie! haha! MWARHS! i am not missing him anymore cos i get a chance to SEEE him! LOL!
NANA! dont be NA JIU over the person larh because at the first place, u dont even noe is him wadd. aiya! cant blame okie! HAHA! SMILE SMILE! i wanna see a CHEERFUL NANA! alrights, i will tell desmond about our planning okie! HAHA! yeah, going to chandra's house to play so many things right? LOL! we can have class gathering there : DD his house rocks with so many sports facilities! LOL! thanks for ur WONDERFUL 5CENTS huh! lols!
LINKAI that LAMER! say wadd i lame lorh! somemore say i BAI KA! rahs! later he got bao ying den he noe larh. haha! BAI KA IS SO FUN, HE SHOULD TRY IT SERIOUSLY :X
currently chatting with my bestfrend`xiaodi! that is xiaoxin! LOL! he very funny larh. smile to me in msn and i also smile back huh! LOL! somemore i said that he forced me to smile! then he sae where got! i just laugh! LOL! finally i know the different between guanlan and shanglan ler! haha! yeah! he told me so many things in bball today! we chatted so many stuff on that! LOL! somemore he got friend 180CM huh! while i got 188CM friend! he show me a link when a person slam dunk in front of a person who is taller than HIM! omg. cross over! BIAN TAI! seriously as a dajie, i will learn more for the sake of my xiaodi cos i always make him speechless. haha! i will try not to animore! trust me! my xiaodi say he is not biantai to do wadd the guy do but hope can huh! LOL! my xiaodi damn tall sia! 171CM! ahha. i guess 170CM! omg! nearly larh! LOL! he is so good larh, i suggest all girls should know him and they will understand me! LOL! xiaodi, u really perfect! LOL! rocksss, stonesss, starsss, fansss < they are link somehow! he is eating dinner now =.=
today i got NO HOMEWORK! yeahyeah. busy HI5-ing with NANA :x so tak care and goodbye okie! haha! NANA, faster update okie! haha! i am a good doctor with nice SHIGEHISA! lols! MWARHS!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

9:06 PM

MY LEGS >.<

back to update again. today have a long long day. was very very tired, seriously. sad thing to say, i got my physics test tml! OMG. can JI BA BONG huh! BONG BONG BONG! LOL! somemore my legs are like bai ka now! really walked like bai ka, my 2 younger sisters and youngest brother were like laughing like MAD! LOLS! wadd onli larh : dD tml still got PE! OMG. can kill me now. but running is FUN! I LOVE RUNNNING! lols. today reached home at 7pm+ today as i was busy doing GP with christinaNANA and bought my MP3 new earpiece. haha! was shocked that i passed my econs test! LOL! very very very shocked! LOL! basically the whole class passed. LOL! yeah. oh ya!! i hope DAWEI STOP TREATING SO NICE HUH! i really really apprecipate ur kindness! REALLY! be more evil to me okie! HAHA, I WILL THANKS him for that and just dont treat me nice jiu can liao.
SHIGEHISA did not come school today! sad thing one larh. i bought something for him den he is not around. like wadd onli lorh! nvm, shall pass it to him tml! LOL! alrights, i am scared over one survey! LOL! very very scare! haha, somemore he says he is not a BABY! obviously he is NOT! haha! OLDER than me still baby den i am unborn liao larh. lols. nonsense. hope he gets well soon[he is SICK] and hope to see him in school tml! I AM STILL MISSING HIM SINCE I DINT GET A CHANCE TO SEE HIM!
NANA! we must chiong huh! LOL! 2 YEARS! OMG. SO SHORT AND TOUGH huh. alrights, somehow i agree with YANGYANG too lar but i will try my very very best okie! oh ya, we plan to call whose phone at wadd time huh! wadd 3 to 6 yangyang de, den NANA de, den FINALLY MINE! haha! we like conference so much? somemore everytime very LONG de larh. lols. craps there. haha! thx for being so nice oways! MY NICEST NANA! HAHA!
LINKAI! stop lame logic okie! haha! PON somemore i will break UR LEGS huh! LOL!
alrights, i going to study my physics ler! or not tml die larh : dD nites everyone. good luck to all taking H2 physics! haha! jia you huh! SHIGEHISA, MWARHS MWARHS! I MISS YA LOADS!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

10:18 PM

SHIGEHISA IN COMA; LIHUI SIAN!

MUHAHAHA! i am back to update again! yesterday sleep around 3am and wake up 7.15am today! haha, i am still feeling so fresh now! LOL! alrights, i have been doing my homework >.< LOL! got econs tutorial, physics tutorial, GP, maths tutorial and chemistry tutorial! but some only complete a little nia larh : DD LOL! basically is all subjects bah! LOL! the physics do until i can die larh : DD then finally come ONLINE~ hoho. my daily routine >.< LOL!
currently on the phone with christinaNANA and billy BONG! haha. BILLY sings very well< can join SINGAPORE IDOL! we are talking about alot of other things too. haha. we always conference to talk only huh! LOL! BILLY, dont suan me anymore ((: haha. thanks in advance. yap, i agree with christina that we should do our revision at school then go home huh! HAHA! or not come home, i will automatic go ONLINE and CHAT! or not is talk on the phone always! LOL!
SHIGEHISA is still in coma bah! LOL! he is very very tired >.< to tired to argue with me so let me WIN! lols. HE SAYS I AM POWER! LOLS. well, i am ENERGY! lols >.< the feeling of seeing someone i miss with a status ONLINE! the feeling is SO WOOT! GOT NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE! but now he is away sleeping larh : DD so sad but is okie ya! cos is understandable! LOL! oh ya, he lost his voice >.< so sad one larh. hope i can do something to make him recover but haha. strange sia! LOL!i am still missing him now! haha, hope he faster wake up and chat with me! HE ROCKS my world, somehow (: thanks!
REGINAmei! dont liddat larh : dD MAKE FRIEND WITH HER larh. lols. someone so HAPPY NOW hor! LOL! cheers* haha. somemore say i am nice so she treat me nice huh! LOL! like wadd onli lorh! wo men shi hao jie mei! HAHA! ah JIE <3 ah MEI okie! haha, you are so OVER TOO. not only i am OVER okie! LOL! we are OVER JIEMEI! lols. HAHA!
alrights, i am still talking on the phone! LOL! bye everyone and takecare! LOL! SHIGEHISA rocks! MWARHS MWARHS! <3

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

8:48 PM

HE IS BACK !

Feb. 18, 2006 at 06:47 AM >>> homework- MISSshigehisa loads still.
saturday! HAHA! i am busy over my computer! LOL! i havent do any homework at all. is like so dead- haha. nvm, going to do all homework later on! LOL!

shigehisa, he is chalet-ing right now! ooops. forget that he got class chalet! haha. seriously, i am still missing him so much now >.< i dont know why. no one to send songs to? no one to argue to? no one to bicker with? no one to craps with? no one to talk nonsense? no one to laugh with? no one to ... LOL! that's nonsense! i miss HIM! still miss his hao lian-ness, miss his ;p, miss his wor, miss his nonsense, miss his craps, miss the time he goes for a LONG and LATE nap, miss his presence, miss his status of online-ing. so many miss. i am really missing him x(( shigehisa, FASTER COME BACK CAN OR NOT! lols. he is coming back tml! LOL! by the time he is back, i think he is already half dead due to tired-ness! LOL! I STILL MISS HIM LOADS (:

i am loaded with homework!
i should start working on around 11+pm or later! LOL!
i dont feel like sleeping early at all.

=sign off=

Feb. 17, 2006 at 07:17 AM >>> miss shigehisa lots <
finish chatting with my xiaodi! LOL! omg! so miss him huh! LOL! long time no talk to him. erm. about a week? haha. realise everytime it will be nice after chatting with him. i was singing to him all along huh! the song where are you is so so nice! LOL! told him i wanna learn skating and he also wanna learn! : DD maybe the both of us can learn together huh! LOL! xiaodi, do wadd u wan and jia you okie. dajie will be there always for ya no matter what happens (: haha. xiaodi, you rocks my world.

christina-take carre hor! we got 2 years of journey! so take care huh, i will remind u not to take egg de huh! dun worry and sleep well ((: take care NANA!

shigehisa is not back yet. he gone for skating at downtown east. sian. my life is not wonderful without him. hais. seriously, i miss him so much! >.< mY ONLINE CHATTER is gone. sian one lorh. haha! how i wish i ................ could skate :X i wanna be what i want (: i miss him so so so much. miss his ;p. miss his hao-lian-ness. miss his nonsense. miss his speech. miss his chat. miss him online-ing. i am seriously, seriously missing him alot right now. (:

=sign OFF=

someone dont know how to go into my lastest entry huh! always in 2005 huh! living in the PAST! LOLS! SLOW HUH! LOL! so like wadd onli lorh! FINALLY , i miss of someone has ended ((: HAHA! MISSING SOMEONE IS NEVER GOOD, i can die of it! LOL! shigehisa, welcome back! cheers* i really really miss him LOADS!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

12:32 PM

friday; NICEday; TIREDday

I AM BACK to update again huh! today is FRIDAY! finally. we ended school 2.5 hours earlier huh! LOL! because we skip lunch, independent study and GP lesson[our teacher not in school]. walk to causeway point with christina, huiyang, xx, billy, jacob, guanhan, desmond and ryan! LOL! the jacob is so nonsense larh : DD canot tahan him. haha. he keep calling christina but heng she was busy listening to my MP3 player ~.~ LOL! then huiyang, christina and me went to eat LJS for lunch. after eating we chatted for so long and FANGFANG came huh >.< went walked walked ard and went home! LOL! but on the bus, i saw hiromi*dear de sms huh! LOL! wanna meet me! so i take the 900 back to causeway point again, dint alight at all! LOL! went causeway point walk walk with her, chit chat and 6pm den we went home huh! SHE IS SO SO SO NONSENSE de larh : DD lols.
shigehisa went skating at downtown east huh! sian dia0z de lorh! haha/ he so nonsense de larh, morning online also shock issit. i canot online so early huh >.< like wadd onli lorh. i send the wrong sms to him. is not the first time anymore, is the second time! feeling so PAISEH u noe. haha. i bet he must be laffing at me right now! LOL! hope he dun skate until fall down and stuff larh : DD *ooopss, being so evil huh! LOL! he keep on playing his bball and skates will be enough ler hor! LOL! who ask u so nonsense go tell someone u are huh! LOL! i dun want hai ren hai ji larh! LOL! he is so so so nonsense de lei! HAHA! still say waddd huh! LOL! SHIGEHISA *MUACK* ME! lol! is damn nice huh! LOL! haha. IJC rocks? LOL!
i am tired >.< but i still got so many homework to complete huh! OMGGG. nightmare? LOL! alrights, take care people and smile^^

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

7:45 PM

HI 5 x))

Feb. 16, 2006 at 03:25 AM >>> jealous >.<
i am so so so JEALOUS larh. i dont know larh. somehow i am so angry huh! LOL!

something bad happens just now. well, should not bring it up. econs is funny with the nonsense answer that our class give! funny class with nonsense peepz.

christina! YA! DUN LINK u with the SOMEONE LORH! damn er xin right! haha! I WILL help u de huh! he so irritating!

SHIGEHISA! omg he promised to show me how he skate next time! HAHA! omg! so GOOD huh! LOL! yaya.. >.< go SKATE with his DEAREST DEAREST DI huh! haha.. lang man huh! LOL! today saw him but duno to see or not! sian dia0z larh!

alrights, i am still so jealous.
i feel so so so chu huh!
rahs.. duno larh!
bye peepz.

=sign Off=

Feb. 15, 2006 at 05:58 AM >>> moody x[[
alrights, my mood just shoot so down just now. i also dont know why. i feel so stress that time. i feel so lost. i feel so hopeless.

went to eat mos with class huh! the guanhan still so er xin ever! LOL! we sit there like so long and chat so may things larh : DD sian dia0z lorh! I <3 MY CLASS.

thx christina for being there to help me. thanks alot. haha. u got ME and i got YOU. thanks huh.

saidi*guanhui- pls show saijie some respect huh! haha. SI LIAN huh! lols. wadd nonsense is that. haha. well, saiije really know how to take care. please huh. dun get too excited or wad larh! thanks saidi aniway.

shigehisa- he is totally so nonsense! someone trying to say i am nonsense huh! LOL! we argue so many huh! i think i win too much larh cos i only know i will say i hate you larh! who ask him so hao lian larh! hao lian his class hao lian his running hao lian alot alot larh! LOL! that's totally so nonsense! haha. budden he is nice huh! he must be GAN JI FOR THE 2 SONGS! haha. he is so funny larh. keep on hypy huh! RAHS! somemore say i start all this first. fine huh!

laoda- i duno wadd to say huh! haha. just wanna him to lol once per day.

ultraman kor- he so funny. i dont know why. i told him pe so rocky, he says it always been liddat. ahah. ya lorh. continue liddat. world war 3 come i can run faster than areoplane ler! LOL!

alrights. wadeva is say is say.
wadeva is done is done.
i dont wish to say anymore.
i fallen, will i get up ?

=sign off=

Feb. 14, 2006 at 07:06 AM >>> shigehisa's MUACK!
YEAH! finally end called and do whatever i need to do! FINALLY! oh yeah!

LOL! shigehisa is damn funny larh! i cannot believe he will actually type *muack* LOL! omg. i nearly laugh till faint on the floor. so pai seh huh! den he OOPS! lols. so funny larh! somemore he always say sorry to me when he told me not to say sorry! wadd nonsense! LOL! funny larh, i still cant believe it! LOL!

laoda! OMG, I REALLY SEE HIM! haha. happy valentine day laoda! LOL! (:

XIAOXIN*XIAODI-can u dun everytime send me CURSE sms can or not! i ur bestfrend`dajie leh! LOL! haha.

DAWEI! OMG. HE BOO ME! THEN MAKE ME SO PAISEH! rahs! kill him soon! ((:

CHRISTINA-NO SCARE NO SCARE GOT ME! lols.. haha. no matter wad e both of us will promote huh! LOL!

BILLY- WADD ONLI LORH! haha. someone say SORRY TO ME huh! LOL!

omg, the shigehisa! LOL! i am still laughing! LOL! am i dreaming or wad! LOL!

=siGn off=

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

7:35 PM

<3 0612B foreva/

Dedicated to 0612B

Fate brought us together,
and now,
in a huge twist of fate,
we'll be saying goodbye.
Just as the future looks bleak for us,
we must never forget.
0612B, the memories I've had,
will be kept in a small corner of my heart.
Remember the times we went through PE together.
The bonds we forged,
the fun we've had,
all these is about to change.
As we move on in life,
the 0612B spirit will be kept strong,
never to fade.

Good luck in all your future endearvours.

this is what linkai wrote specially for us, i feel so touching.
alrights, today we got our first class outing. haha. sad that not all turn up huh as some not free. so is alrights. we did still enjoy ourselves to the maximum.
first, we are supposed to meet at 11am at amk mrt station huh! LOL! linkai, christina and me reached exactly at 11am! LOL! then desmond and allena reached at 11am+, xx came too. finally GUANHAN AND HANMUN come huh! so like wadd only! so late! LOL. we walk quite a distance to the duno where. linkai lead the way huh! LOL! the guanhan started talking nonsense stuff on the way. ya, he always talk nonsense one so nvm huh! LOL! we went to pizza hut for our lunch! is really unbelieveable that amk got pizza hut, so christina and me were like how come a pizza hut poke up from no where else! LOL! alrights, we were like eating and crapping there. LOL! nonsense stuff again! that guanhan! like to mo fang ppl laughther de lorh! so irritating but funny larh! then we eat until i think all of us can =/ liao! LOL! after the lunch, we were like duno where to go so were discussing there larh! LOL! they even lied jacob that most lame one huh! LOL! so damn funny larh. keep laughing and laughing. lols. then we decided to go K-POOL there huh! LOL! aiya, sian one lorh. all the guys were playing and the girls all stone-ing huh! LOL! then huiyang called me! LOL! she told me she reached amk so allena and me went to fetch her come. allena and me chatted alot on the way too. haha! personal stuff! LOL! then played around duno how long liao, den we decide to go K-BOX but billy come le huh! LOL! so we were like LOST at that moment. lols. then the XX squat there den the guanhan so evil lorh. go throw $10 to her! LOL! wadd onli! haha. then finally we went to play POOL again huh! like wadd onli lorh! BILLY SO DAMN PRO LARH! i got nothing to say at all lorh! PRO UNTIL LIKE DUNO WADD LAR! somemore he play pool VERY VERY MAN one lorh! MAN-ER THAN GUANHAN, DESMOND, LINKAI AND HANMUN larh! LOL! REALLY NOTHING TO SAY LORH! haha. chatted with huiyang too! ALOT ALOT! personal thing again huh! LOL! she told me hers too! lols.. haha. so like wadd only! i still treat that BILLY drink lorh! LOL! somemore he pushed my head again! second time liao lorh! rahs. one day i am going to kill him larh! LOL! wadd nonsense larh! LOL! then allena, christina, linkai, huiyang and me go arcade while the guys continue with their POOL lorh! LOL! finally they finish playing their pool and we finsih playing our games, we meet each other at amk mrt station! LOL! but linkai and allena went off first. LOL! then one of guanhan friend is there huh! somemore that guanhan talk craps one larh! i say nothing about the BOY lorh! he just so anyhow de larh! rahs. kill him then he noe. then xx, huiyang, christina, desmond, guanhan, billy and me went to take MRT to northpoint huh cos the mrt end at yishun. billy and huiyang went off huh! sad one huh! that BILLY so like wadd onli! LOL! then guanhan, desmond, xx, christina and me went to northpoint eat our dinner lorh! LOL! so like wadd onli. suddenly we came into the topic of JC when we are talking. i dont wish to say anithing at that time cos my heart begins to ache somehow at the point of time. i also dont know why! hais. that kind of feeling, i really dont know how to say. we went home after our dinner!
i dont know why. i really love this class till nothing can expressed the love for this class. the bonds. the everything. why must we take our results? i really hate the time when the results is out. it show that is time for us to leave? hais. why! FATE! why are FATE doing all this to us? what's the point of staying when those enthu ones are leaving? u all leave, will you all rememeber us? remember what we went through? i really cherish this frendship. i really do. <3 all of u guys no matter what. hais. currently i am lost when you all are not around me. seriously, i need each and everyone of you.
currently chatting with my xiaodi*xiaoxin and told him how i feel when 0612B peepz are leaving. hais. i just can pour everything to him. oh ya, congrats! SHIGEHISA! u make it! HAHA. i am so happy for ya! or not i really feel so sad when u say u fail.
alrights, no mood to blog anymore. i just <3 0612B so so so much! can u guys come back? hais-

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

9:03 PM

hais((-

2-10-2006 11:14 PM >>> FATE of us .
currently chatting with chandra. yap. he is leaving IJC and going to somewhere else. like he says separation cannot be avoided. i agree on it. so that's why we feel the pain in each of us. once someone leave, u will feel that the atmosphere is not the same anymore. nothing is the same anymore. everything changes. but we can never force each other to stay, because they will leave eventually. so what's the point. forcing will not cause happiness but only saddness. so we shall ask them to go with their hearts. i love everyone from 0612B. i dont know why i feel so upset that someone is leaving. the pain inside is really unbearable. the heart just feel the pain at the momemnt. we conference the night. after the call, i was thinking that if we could go back the time when we haben get our results. i just feel so sad and i feel like crying. somehow the pain just still with me. hais. i remember how i get to know the girls in the class first. haha. then follow by BILLY, JACOB and chandra! then with the rest of the people of 0612B. finally we get closer and closer. its like a small class with just one group of friends that cannot live without each other. more united than our secondary school, i supposed. although we are crappy and crazy but make me feel more attached to each and everyone in 0612B of IJC. i dont know why. crappy, fun, crazy, nice, noisy, and alot alot more. i dont know how much more i can type if i continue. thats why i feel stronger in JC. make me feel that english is a nice subject. make me to communicate you guys with english. make me feel so happy. make me feel so OPEN. make me feel like coming to the school and have fun with you guys. make me know so much things. thanks to everyone. make me learn so many things within a month plus. we have really really strong bonds within us. this is what i really cannot describe at all. we just build a strong friendship liddat < is not easy to build a STRONG friendship always. is more than a frendship as i think is a whole class thing. should be a class-ship! we go through alot of hardship together too during our PE. FATE. chandra told me our aim is to go U, so maybe after the separation in JC we might be together again in U! why not. haha. so 0612B peepz must go into U! we are great peepz. go for ur future.
well, whoever is leaving, i wish you guys all the best and dont regret in whatever you all do. we will be there to support you all always. whoever is staying, lets be more united. i still love 0612B no matter what happens and no matter where you all are. we will remember each other for lyfe and keep in contact. we will have alot of outings. thanks FATE for letting me to know you guys. thanks you guys for playing such a wonderful role in my life. thanks for being part of my memories. i will remember. <3.
i will never regret coming for the first 3 months.
0612B - JAN 2006 - MARCH 2006
Ronan Keating - When You Say Nothing At All

=sign 0FF=

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

4:14 PM

happy birthday ultraman; mwarhs!

YOX! HAPPY B'DAE ULTRAMAN! WISH HIM ALL THE BEST IN WHATEVER HE DO! most importantly! A LEVELS! JIA YOU okie.. haha. ultraman rocks.. I <3 ULTRAMAN TO BITES AND PIECES! MWARHS!
get back results. not really happy with it at all ba. kinda of disappointed bah. hais. forget it. 5/1 rocks huh! LOL! we did proud for school. ((: conrgrats vera by the way! hehe!
chatted on phone with gary huh! LOL! very very long chat. i also forget how long but my ears hurt somehow! LOL! we chatted so many things under the sun huh like depression, taxes, smiles, laughter, heights, results, his course and friends/classmates! haha, maybe we are gossiping larh! LOL! so nonsense. somemore he say i din see the real evil before but keep on saying that he is so evil huh! lols. he say i am very ji dong and laugh too much huh! wadd onli lorh he! so nonsense de lei he! then he says i speak too fast! WADD ONLI LORH! no lorh! LOL! DUN ANIHOW huh! is you speak slow huh. haha. he sound so like my saidi*guanhui sia! so damn xiang lorh-the voices and the way the talk lorh! OMGGGG! ahah, imagine myself talking to my saidi huh! LOL! he larh, keep on saying i laugh at everything when i did not! haha. wadd onli lorh! i just feel like laughing then i laugh larh. or not cry meh? LOL! haha. we argue huh! argue about whether suck is bad word or not! LOL! that's totally nonsense larh. lols.. budden always he win one larh. he got really good memories cos he still remember how i describe my kor to me! haha. i was like totally OMG larh. haha. somemore he knows so much things sia! haha, realise i am so stupid larh! LOL! alrights, you are so great in my eyes okie. haha. thanks for being so nice to me at all, mr nice guy! haha. mwarhs! thx thx thx!
alrights, i want the whole 0612B peepz to stay. i am really so touched when desmond put in his msn nick - 0612B, can we stay together as a class? Its not a question , its a order ! Yrs truely , yr CG rep - alrights. i am very very touched by what he put! hais. make me even more attached to this class! i love 0612B to the maximun! i really really love u guys. can u all dun leave? is really hurting to see each other apart. FATE brought us together and now FATE separate us away. hais. i dont know what to do or say. but there sure be some leaving which i really really dun want. 0612B is the best! hais. how i wish... hais. no matter what, just wish the 0612B peepz all the best, we will be the best class with the fondest and nicest and sweetest memories. I LOVE U GUYS ALOT ALOT. frends4lyfe. we will keep in touch for sure! 0612B rocks!
so everyone take care and goodbye. stay happy too. hehe!
message
to 5/1'o5-WELL, its all over. all our classmates did very well. we make our teachers proud of us. haha. we will always stay in contact and frends4eva! haha. well, remember, staying alive with 5/1. i miss and love you guys.
to weeling*lao gong`best buddy-YOYO! CONGRATS TO YA! hehe. all the best in whatever u do. jia you ler huh! frends4eva
to xiaoxin*xiaodi-XIAODI! omg. cant imagine that you and guanhui want come find me huh! LOL! haha. oh ya, thanks to you. always be there for me when i needed someone the most. always the one who cheer me up. always the one who encourage me to brave through the storms! i will do the same for you too. haha! we are BESTFRENDS right! hehe. DAJIE<3XIAODI! MWARHS! hoho! COOL!
to guanhui*saidi-SORRY! saijie promise to have lunch next time okie? sorry my dearest saidi! haha! thanks ya! saidi miss saijie huh! i am so so so gan dong u noe! LOL! haha! u must take care too okie! haha although u are big ler! haha! ni yong yuan shi jiejie xin zhong de xiao hai zi.
to shuhui*qing ai de-alrights! qing ai de. must remember to stay happy always and dont think about the past anymore. look forward. no matter what happens, u still got friends around you. you are not a burden to anyone at all. well, must remember to take care of urself and stay happy always. thanks for ur concern too.
to ultraman*kor-HAPPY B'DAE KOR![1002] hoho. actually blog in front ler. budden blog again! all the best! stay shuai and cool always. hehe. smile more okie! korkor, u rocks so much huh! LOL! mwarhs.
to zhijun*sainuer-HOHO! SAI NU ER! happy b'dae huh![1202] stay pretty and cute always! hehe. all the best in wadeva u do. most importanly anything happens, sai ma is always there for ya de! hehe!
to hiromi*deaR-DEAR! happy b'dae in adavce![2202] remember to stay happy and dun dun STRESS urself too much larh! haha. all the best for ur upcoming A levels exams huh! hoho! <3ya. take care
to vincent-YOYO! happy belated b'dae huh![0102] haha! well, all the best in whatever you do and stay happy always! nice noe-ing ya in IJC orientation! hoho! WASHO ROCK! WALLA WALLA RULE
to GARY*shigehisa-HEYHEY! CONGRATS! for being the top student of ur school! so proud of ya u noe. haha. no larh, we are equally good huh! haha. today chatted on the phone so long right! lols. but FUN HOR! wadd onli lorh!haha. we chatted so many things larh! I LAFF UNTIL WANNA CRY LIAO larh! oh ya, u rocks so much in my world! hoho! happy belated b'dae too[0802]! haha! I SEND U so many things le huh! dont need say anything more that that, i supposed! haha. staying in IJC right! see ya ard there! all the best in whatever u do! LOL! stay happy oways! i will remember the auto smile you gave to me! thanks.
to anzel*teacher`wo de ren-HAHA! congrats to ya. hehe. that day conference lame right.. lols. wad i lawyer, u judge and shuhui the victim! LOL! wadd onli lorh. well, all the best in whatever you do.
to SWEETESTlaoda-thanks for ur idea huh! but too bad! i am not that rich enough at all! LOL! lao da, i miss ya loads huh! who ask u always >.< LOL! please LOL once everyday : DD thx ya!
.x((___* hoow coulld ann anggel breaak myy hearrt? ]]* ;
0612B are all angels
ANGELSfrends i promise . x =]

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

9:10 PM

hi5 (:

2-09-2006 5:01 AM >>> <30612B - the best ever
i am still feeling not so well.

tml ultraman*kor de b'dae.

currently chatting with my xiaodi*xiaoxin.. i still told him what happened. maybe like he says.. i should not think too much. thanks xiaodi huh. somemore he still say wadd sai huh! i did an wei my xiaodi. because he is feeling LONELY and BLUE! hurts me so much to see my xiaoxin*xiaodi liddat one. somemore he says he is better after telling me! yeah, it will always be. i always feel better after pouring out whatever i have. no matter is how dui lian or sad or whatever. thanks xiaodi.

sorry shigehisa. i also dont know what happens but i got listen to you that is to REST. thanks for being there. you are so nice too larh. i also told him alot of things. replace my xiaodi when he is not around issit? wadd onli.

well, i still like my class alot. i believe wadd my VP says today that is FATE bought each of us in IJC. 0612B the best class i ever have despite of such a short period of time. the best of the best. i realise i love this class too much that i dont ever want anyone to leave at all. i love 0612B of ijc. all the best for everyone tomorrow. lets keep in touch.

hais.
[030106] - TWO TIME!
[050106] - ONE TIME!
[090106] - ONE TIME!
[110106] - ONE TIME!
[120106] - THREE TIMES!
[130106] - TWO TIMES!
[160106] - ONE TIME!
[190106] - ONE TIME!
[250106] - ONE TIME!
[260106] - TWO TIMES!
[270106] - ONE TIME!
[010206] - TWO TIMES!
[020206] - TWO TIMES! > HE SMILES TO ME!
[030206] - ONE TIME! > HE SMILES TO ME!
[060206] - TWO TIMES!
[070206] - TWO TIMES!
[080206] - ONE TIME!
the number of times i saw ultraman*kor!

=sign 0ff=

2-08-2006 7:07 AM >>> HAIS-
I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPEN TO ME..
THIS MOMENT I FEEL MYSELF SO NOT WORTH ANYTHING..
I AM NOT THE LIHUI ANYMORE..
I AM NOT THE ONE WHO GO HOHOHO FOR TODAY..
WHY..
I DONT KNOW..
EVEN SIMPLE THING I ALSO DONT KNOW..
AM I SUPPOSED TO BE ON THIS ROAD?
DID I MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE?
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?
RESULTS COMING OUT -
I DONT KNOW WHAT CAN I DO?
HAIS..
CAN SOMEONE JUST SAVE ME TODAY?
JUST TODAY WILL DO..
I FEEL SO SMALL AND USELESS..
XIAOXIN, WHERE ARE YOU?
I JUST FEEL LIKE CRYING SO SO SO MUCH..
THE TEARS JUST ROLL DOWN MY CHEEKS..
I CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO STOP IT AT ALL..
sorry everyone.
thanks to lots of people..
thanks for all ur concern..
i am still not okie..
happy b'dae gary yuen. HAPPY MAN 18 okie. hope u will enjoy ur life and stay happy oways. frends4lyfe. thanks for being so pro in emotions. thanks for ur concern.

=SIGN OFF=

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

7:10 PM

0612B of IJC < is damn FUN!

YO! blog a short entry huh! haha! a formal entry will be on 10 FEB! haha! ultraman's b'dae is am important date for everyone ((:
alrights, my class is still as cool as before! haha. very very OPEN huh! omg! too open huh! haha. can rank the bian tai-est class in the level liao! LOL! everyone is fun! LOL! haha. <3 0612B alot alot! i hope we wun be separate larh! first time feel so ON in the class within such a short time! can see the bonds between us! just that we dont show it out! our class is so damn FUNNY larh! those who are in the class will sure agree huh! we got OPEN XX, INTERNATIONAL ALLENA, NICE CHRISTINA, SOFT HUIYANG, CUTE SWUJUAN, BIANTAI GUANHAN, LAME JACOB, SHUT-UP BILLY, SPORTY CHANDRA, RESPONSIBLE DESMOND, BLUR HANMUN, EMOTIONAL MELVIN, TORO RYAN, CLEVER LINKAI, QUIET VINCENT, HELPFUL BIYONG, SHY ZHONG XUN, SERIOUS LIFENG AND STUPID LIHUI! haha! < woot! is cool! haha. 0612B is the best of IJC! lols! I LOVE 0612B LOADS HUH! i think we will never chat enough cos even in MSN we also chat like siao! haha! all of us are CRAPPY HUH! lols! but it is fun! LOL!
ultraman smiles to me again! haha! PURPOSELY WALK M BLOCK staircase! omg! he smiles! i nearly fainted again! his smile really make me alive! haha! my heart just melt on the spot huh! LOL! U MAKE ME WANNA GO SCHOOL MORE! ur smile make me melts! haha!
SHIGEHISA! WADD ONLI LORH! he got the mood to play with me when he is damn tired! somemore trying to lie me! heng, i am not 3 year old kid hor! u dun play play lorh! haha! somemore i thought i dreaming huh! LOL! cos today he says HELLO TO ME! haha, he everytime no see me but today he see me huh! LOL! eyesight getting better le ar? LOL! he is OUT now huh! win liao lorh! next time should go wild wild yi xia with him okie! LOL! FASTER COME BACK CHAT WITH ME! HAHA, I ENJOY CHATTING WITH HIM! LOLS. COS HE IS VERY WOR WOR DE! LOLS!
XIAOXIN*XIAODI! OH NO! HAHA! congrats to me and you! haha! u cannot do anything to help me u see, how sad hor! LOL! haha. jia you for ur soccer okie! we will be melting once we see their smile right! haha! MELTSSSSSSSS-

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sometimes i feel like letting go but the smile he gave to me makes me fall again<3
what should i do?
the O lvl results is coming out.
i am afraid. hais. what can i do?
i hope the whole 0612B will stays, or not i will miss them or maybe cry >.<
I LOVE 0612B ONCE AGAIN!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

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HAPPY ^^

2-02-2006 3:19 AM >>> ultraman's smile <3
YOYO! MUST MUST BLOG TODAY ! cos i am rreally happy larh!ULTRAMAN SMILES TO ME TODAY! we meet each other huh, cos i going to maths lecture at LT1 and he happens to go out from LT1! OH NO! i nearly fainted on the spot larh! his eyebrowns OMGG and his SMILE more OMG! damn MI REN LARH! MOVING ONE LEI! omg! HAHA! OH MY GOD, MY HEART JUST MELTS LARH! AT THAT POINT ! how i hope time dun pass! den i can see until i die! HAHA! OMG! TILL NOW I AM STILL SO HAPPY U SEE!! THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THAT WO MEN ZHEN YAN KAN DUI FANG! omgg. haha! so many first time things happen this year! haha.. omg. i started to feel so HIGH huh! first time he talk to me in msn! haha. OMGGGG! i really feel so happy and contented larh! OMGGGG. I LOVE ULTRAMAN SO SO MUCH!

I LOVE MY CLASS ALOT TOO! haha! PE IS FUN TODAY! KICKING AND PASSING BALLS! AHHA! OVER LARH! next tuesday RUNNING! SO COOL HUH! LOL. PE ROCKS! IJC ROCKS TOO! MOST IMPORTANTLY 0612B ROCKS!

POIXIN*ULTRAWOMAN`DARLING! over larh! she say i easily contented huh! hoho, maybe the day will come! she told me to trust her! i also want larh : DD thanks so much girl! haha! my bestest girlfriend i ever have!

XIAOXIN*XIAODI! HOHO, i always told him everything! so nothing to hide huh! he told me more to come! LOL! OH NO, IF MORE TO COME, I WILLINGLY WAIT MORE! HAHA! somemore he told me ultraman DIAN ME! omg, that is nonsense! LOL!

GUANHUI*SAIDI! HORHOR! LET AH JIE KAN DAO LE HUH! lols. dun need jiajia okie! wadd onli! WEET U WEET WAD! I SHOULD WEET U WEET U LARH! haha! u this AH SAI DI!

ALLENA*WADD ONLI LORH! do ultraman's eyesbrown till very shuang huh! i no smile okie! dun anihow sae larh! i only happy huh! haha! lalala! V4; F4; C4 ROCKS HUH! lols. budden i feel C4 is not nice : DD

CHRISTINA*i din give up the forest okie! dun anihow only larh! HAHA! ang mo rocks huh! HOPE YA FIND A ANG MO BF! haha. den show me!! haha!

SHIGEHISA* HE HUH! OVER LARH! keep saying math s** larh! BTH! haha. we quite lame in the sense that passing of maths genes and pushing it back! OVER huh! he still got set wadd FIREWALL! damn lame larh! haha! somemore he sae i am pure! wad onli larh, i onli dun wan learn okie! haha. yaya! BIAS DE LARH U! haha! still sae wadd huh! LOL! he huh, ask me go see something! got something come out larh! i scream until like siao can! rahs, next time i will revenge! SOMEONE B'DAE COMING HUH! WHOSE AR? LOLS! haha!

SWEETESTLAODA! OMG! THX U FOR SAYING THAT THAT GOOD FOR ME HUH! OMGG. lao da! i am so happy laRH! haha. SWEETEST LAO DA ROCKS! lols.

I FEEL SO GOOD LARH! happy happy happy! hoho!
no matter got how many homework or wadd.
i feel so happy! lalala!
i am going to happy till dont know wadddd.
ULTRAMAN ROCKS (:

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when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

7:21 PM

LONG ENTRIES (:

2-01-2006 5:30 AM >>> XIAODI ROCK, XIAOHUI STONE
HAHA! SECOND TIME BLOGGING TODAY!
DID GP HW! < SAD I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT AM I TRYING TO DO! HAHA!

chatted with XIAOXIN*XIAODI! over larh. i told him what happen in class today! even the GROSS part i also told him larh! i dont know why i just PI LI PA LA SAY OUT LIAO! haha. he always sae sia larh sia larh! LOL! somemore he told me i am not suitable for spike hair huh! LOL! haha. okie lor! dun spike, u spike onli lorh! haha! we talk about a sec 2 girl huh! she crazy one! every sentence also got one word - F*** de lorh! somemore he told my xiaodi something larh! SO OVER HUH! MY XIAODI JUST TOLD ME THIS! HAHA. CAN LAFF TILL OVER!

SHIGEHISA! OMG! i dont want him leave IJC larh! haha! alrights, i dont think he will fail the MATHS TEST LORH! SERIOUSLY LARH! i going to pray for him day and night! haha! alrights, he is nice ((: budden always =.= his b'dae also coming larh, i will wish him like siao one u noe! ahha! i noe i very crazy! >.<

i got nothing to say/
O levels! hais/
wadd can i do ?

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2-01-2006 1:56 AM >>> <3 0612B!
alrights! i am so tired larh! yesterday sleep so late den wake up so early today! tired tired tired! haha!

went to uncle's house and orchard road yesterday! we watched the lion dance, dragon dance outside NGEE ANN CITY huh! lol! so crowded! LOL! like wadd only lorh! somemore many people just keep on shooting and shooting! see alot of flashes HUH! OVER! after watching they all still dont want go home! instead they wanna go find something EAT! lols! sian de larh! i wanna go home sleep! tired >.< boring there, so sms-ing with xiaoxin*xiaodi and shigehisa! LOL! over right! that lame xiaodi! HAHA! reach home at 10 plus lorh! haha! tired larh, on the computer and put away in msn! haha. then go do wadeva i need to do huh! sleep at around 12+am! haha! TIRED DAOOOOOOO! haha!

school ends early today! HENG huh! or not i will not survive! LOL!
today is so damn fun in school larh! laugh until like so kuang zhang u see! LOL! haha! almost everyday also liddat one? so nothing special i supposed! haha! i dont understand cantonese at all! did i spell it right? LOL! i will try to understand huh! haha!
we are noisy in chinese lesson! the BILLY IS OVER! he speaks dont know what xiao long bao nice to eat or not in guang dong yu! < is DAMN DAMN FUNNY LARH!!!! LOL! haha! lame right! but cool right! then the group of us- christina, allena, XX, desmond, ryan, linkai, guanhan and ME is like LAUGHING! haha.
the guanhan and XX is over during the chemistry PRACTICAL! haha. BOO ONE LORH! THEY TALK UNTIL LOL! BIAN TAI MAN! CANT TAHAN >.< haha. budden we are the noisest group huh; christina, allena, XX, guanhan and ME! LOLS! budden is FUN TO HAVE ALL TYPES OF PEOPLE IN THE CLASS. biantai one, lame one, se one, erxin one, noisy one, crappy one, quiet one, OVER one, nice one, clever one, sensitive one, crazy one, like to act girl one and alot alot more! haha! no BAD PEOPLE IN CLASS! I LOVE MY CLASS SO MUCH! HAHA!
went causeway point after school! with christina and fangfang! haha! allena need to rush to bishan and the XX need to go watch movie with people huh! LOL! chatted alot with christina and fangfang at LJS! lols.
saw weeling*laogong`best buddy, gary, serene*nuer, boon kiat*er zi and dont know who at MCdonald while allena buying food huh! SO OVER HUH! LONG TIME NO SEE LARH. MAKE ME MISS THEM SO MUCH!

my xiaodi says he is nice yesterday! LOL! alrights he is nice! somemore he says he lazy! haha! we somesort like saying the both of us are lazy! i think i am lazier than him larh! ahha! he always think toooooo much de lorh. i am used to it ler huh! haha! i was so HAHA WHEN HE SAYS I THT U SAE U MY BEST FRIEND LIAO! haha. yeah, we are BEST FRIEND HUH! lols. SCREAMING ON THE PHONE! LETS TRY IT OKIE, XIAOXIN! haha. we crapped alot always! haha! got people come his house huh, soon will be ME huh! LOL! i will ask him come my HOUSE TOOOOO IF I GO HIS LARH! haha, wo shi hao jiejie huh =/ haha! he is damn goooooooooddddd larh! XIAODI U ROCKS SO MUCH OKIE! WE ARE SIAN IN SCHOOL COS WE ARE NOT IN SAME SCHOOL THIS YEAR!

shigehisa is OVER! i also dont know what to say! haha. maybe lion dancer is cool-er than break dancer huh! haha. u should go take more notice! LOL!

GUANHUI*SAIDI! > i put in my MSN NICK LER! haha.
LET ME SAY AGAIN.
THOSE WITH GUANHUI*SAIDI MSN CONTACT.
PLEASE DELETE THE OLD ACC AWAY AS IT IS BEING HACKED ((:
THANKS ALOT.

oh god! GP HOMEWORK! LOL!
so many things need to do huh!
got to do them soon! haha! tired larh!

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i am afraid of the results. i dont wanna change anything currently! is good (: i dont wanna change! please please!
well, i <3 0612B SO MUCH! EVERYONE IS SO FUN LARH! ((:
i will definitely MISS THEM IF WE ARE NOT IN THE SAME SCHOOL, SAME CLASS ANYMORE. THEY ARE GREAT!
MOST IMPORTANTLY! THE F4 ROCKS (:

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1-30-2006 7:12 AM >>> SHIGEHISA's SIAN-ness doctor < ME!
HAHA. i am back from erm.. i also dont know where!
is really fun to go out with FAMILY! it makes me feel good!

yesterday wasnt happy about something.
i will only tell xiaodi*xiaoxin and maybe shigehisa < but i scare shigehisa will scold me larh! he seem xiong to me! i also dont know why : DD

i chatted with xiaodi*xiaoxin so much yesterday. he always told me that its alrights for girls to be short! haha. hmmm, that make me feels so good huh, thx XIAOXIN! lols. we chatted about best friend and stuff. i realise that he is quite lonely inside, haha. maybe because he look too cool that will make people think that he is fierce or wadd then results him in little friends! ALRIGHTS, LET ME MAKE AN ANNOUNCE! MY DEAREST XIAODI*XIAOXIN IS THE BEST PERSON IN THIS WORLD! haha. my xiaodi rocks okie! WE ARE BEST FRIEND FOR NOW AND EVER! one thing which i dont like is that he always say himself bad when he is not! i really trust my feelings or impression towards him! somemore is he cannot control himself de, so cannot blame anyone at all. this is temper! i know i know! all people have temper so does my xiaodi! whoeva bully him, i sure hiak hiak slap u all! >.< he told me he himself cannot do wad he wants! haha, so he need my helps! HOHO! is so nice to have a di liddat u see. heng he still got talk to her real meimei one huh! i only scare he bottles everything up! haha, i dont want my xiaodi to be like so zi bi u see. haha! hope his family give him MOREMORE love and concern! he knows that i very dependent on him de! haha. in terms that i always talk to him whenever i faces anything, good, bad, happy, sad, shock, everything also tell him! EMOTIONALLY DEPENDENT ON HIM! everything i have also go into him de :x haha. my personal dairy huh! lols. haha! SOMEMORE MY SAIDI*GUANHUI is a xiao hai zi in both our eyes! LOL! haha, i realise whenever we chat, we sure out of topic somehow somewhere sometime de! LOL! then we will start to talk about age and stuff! WADD onli lorh. we will talk about his WU LA LA smile and alot alot larh. haha. he always promise to smile to me when he saw me! haha. so NICE right my xiaodi! budden one topic we will sure go into is LAME topic lorh! we talk about stupid stuff there! LOL! like wadd onli ? >.< we told each other's parents happy new year huh! so like wadd only lorh! is FUN : DD HAHA! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! then we will sian here sian there! HE IS A GREAT SINGER TOO, ask him sing to me, he jiu sing lorh! MY GREATEST DEAREST XIAODI LARH! <3'

WOAH! so first time shigehisa SMS me huh! he told me he is sian. alrights, LOL! haha. wadd only. i intend to call him up de budden scare u see >.< LOL. so din called! so just sms him huh! somemore he gamble KING LARH! haha. oh ya, at first wanna send him one MMS de budden i send it to my UNCLE ACCIDENTLY! so like wadd onli lorh! with his full name somemore! very pai seh one! all his fault larh! xDD haha. i still got send him the MMS lorh! see i so nice, haha! wei le prevent him for taking LONG LONG NAP!

I GOT INTERNATIONAL FREND- ALLENA! hongkong huh! OMG. so COOL!

tml going to OUT again huh! >.< haha.
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1-28-2006 5:35 AM >>> FAMILY <3
YOX!
i am back from my both ah ma house huh!
LOL! eat 2 times reunion dinner xDD
sian de lorh!
hoho, go my mother's mother house there first. saw my uncle but didnt saw my cousins! haha, one of them went to m'sia and the other din come lorh! wadd onli :X
night go my father's mother house there! HOHO! saw alot of people huh! got many cousins! LOL!
talk craps with my tangge*zhikuan and tangdi*gengyuan first! LOL! we talk like din talk before lorh! LOL!
then played cards with tangmei*mingzhen, tangdi*shaohui, tangmei*huishi, sanmei*minghui, simei*yinghui and xiaodi*jianhao! my ermei*wenhui sit there watch tv until very lu sheng huh! LOL!
then talk to my AH WEE korkor! consider my tang ge too bah! he is 23 this year! woah, time pass real fast lorh! LOL! we chatted alot lorh! LOL! like almost cover till U liao! somemore he ask me jia you huh! >.< wadd onli, i oreadi LOL! ler! haha, anyway he is studying U this year[1st year] haha, cos he just finish his NS! haha! he grow up al0t huh! LOL! after that he went off meeeting his friends! LOL!
then go play with my little cousins! SO FUN only!
my TANGGE*zhikuan still sae i am gin na tuo! wadd onli lorh! children gang HEAD! rahssssss! new year so i forgive him lor! if not he sure LOL de larh : DD
I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH! <3<3<3!

i chatted with shigehisa alot! really thx him loads! hehe. if we can time travel, hope we can travel together! (:

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1-27-2006 6:00 PM >>> hui&xin < bestfriend!
the power of my xiaodi*xiaoxin really make me feel so good!
he is the one really make me feels alive. he is the one who can really make me feels better no matter the worse thing come into my lyfe. the words by him make me really feel so good. i dont know why.
although he is less than 1 year younger than me. he seems to know more things than me. he seems to be more mature than me too. he seems to be kor kor and i seem to be his mei mei huh. hais.
i pour out wadeva i have always to him. i just trust him so much till nothing i cant tell him. whenever i feel so lost, i will talk to him. after that, i will surely feel very very good or better. i told him what happen to me yesterday. hais. fate ba.
i wonder as his jie, how can i help him. how i wish i understand my di better so that i could help him in wadeva ways i can. i dont wanna see my di suffers too cos i am suffering all along. i know the hardship.
we are best friend now and forever. we are jie and di for lyfe. this friendship and siblingship last forever till anyone of us die. we even invite each other for reunion dinner huh! i know where he lives le huh! he sure LOL le larh, wait i go put bOMB at his house den he noe lorh!
i love my xiaodi alot. i realise i cant live well without my xiaodi.

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1-27-2006 8:13 AM >>> HATE MYSELF
I AM SO SAD NOW! CRIES-
totally sad until i could not use anything to describe my feelings in me.
i feel so USELESS.
the pain in my heart hurts me so much.
the knife just poke into my heart directly.
somemore it is a DEEP DEEP cut!
i could feel the pain in it.
i could feel the blood that is flowing out.
i could not stop either the pain or the bleeding in it.
i lost everything <
just because i am not careful enough.
I LOST THE first time when he talk to me in MSN!
i lost it, how can i?
the memories of what we chatted.
i lost them. i treasure them alot.
it is the only memories between my kor and i.
cant i just keep it for memories?
maybe we are un-fated?
this is what we call you yuan wu fen?
can i dont ren ming <
maybe ? maybe not ?
i dont even know what am i supposed to do right now.
this is not the first time anymore.
my heart say this;
my mind do that.
kuo bu dui xin < this is wadd i oways been.
the things which dont supposed to be ours,
no matter how much effort u put into it.
it will never be urs < i realise it now.
maybe because of my stubborn-ness last time.
i am hurt with all wounds now < all different kind of wounds which will never recover.
time fades feelings away,
but it will never heals the wounds of mine.
i am injured, i choose not to let go.
this is what i get in the end < is it not i want too.
i dont wish to blame anyone because its all my fault.
i am FOOL totally.
i hate myself for loving you.
i hate myself for holding it.
i hate myself for being such a fool.
i hate myself for being so stubborn.
i hate myself for every single thing.
hais-
if i were to end my lyfe now,
i will say i love you now.
jin sheng jin shi wo men zhi neng zuo peng you he xiong mei <
wo ren ming ler.
wo xue hui fang qi ler.
wo yi jing shou shang ler.

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1-27-2006 6:31 AM >>> sian.
haha, today my class only 9/19 came! that's over! haha. chinese new year eve eve so everyone not here? LOL!

i just played quite alot of games with shigehisa! he is so damn pro larh! or duno is i suay or wad huh! i played with him wadd lost wadd < XIE MEN ? LOLS! . den he so happy larh! like BT liddat lorh! ahah! nvm! as long as he is happy, den okie ler! somemore he say i duno how to argue back! wadd onli lorh! i will argue de lorh! u wait and see, argue until u beg me and ask me to stop (: HAHA!

my sweet lao da is mad! i also duno wadd to sae? ahah!

yenhwee keep saying i siao! ask who is the crazy one >.< LIKE wadd onli lorh! sian de leh! LOL.

i am bored! as bored as shigehisa! haha
sian-ness kills me!

alrights, happy chinese new year in advance!

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