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Friday, November 10, 2006

the end of pw; but ij037 last forever!

i am back to finally back update my BLOGGER! i miss blogging here! hahas, well today marks the end of PW for the whole school! yay, IJ037 is done with their PROJECT WORK! proud to say this, we did it. Well let me blog about IJ037, my LOVEones!

summary of IJ037! (i shall try to remember as much as i can)
5 students of 0612B form a PW grp of IJ037 in around april 2006!
LEADER- JIN LONG
SECRETARY- LIHUI
TREASURER- FANGWEN
FILE MANAGER- CHRISTINA
IT CONSULTANT- LIN KAI

after the group is form, we are supposed to do our first GPP, that is when we got our first project work meeting! we meet up at outside civics centre mcdonald for the first time, i remember fangwen is late as he saw the wrong time in the sms that was send by jin long. then the 4 of us went to the CWP's mcdonald while waiting for fangwen to arrive! remember that christina and linkai ate their breakfast while waiting for fangwen to come! jinlong got himself a lemon tea i think! hahas, thats the best i can remember! hahas, then come fangwen!

as soon as he come, we started our projects by looking at each other's PI to see which one is better to do! i remmeber fangwen say my PI can kill people cause i want invent new medicine! HAHAS, then we also brainstorm for ideas! at times, we think of coming the 5 PI together to come up with something, but it is so funny la! hahas, aniway it is just nosnense! we had a hard time choosing which ideas to do! in the end, we choose jin long's PI! he got the best PI among us! then we spend at CWP's mcdonald thinking of his PI and what can we do to make it better! then we spend almost 3hours there sitting and thinking and talking then we went to popular to look for ideas ah! HAHAS, then we go down to under block to think again! we spend 5hours just to think one SCOPE! the worst is that, it was raining cats and dogs that time! argh, that is the most terrible thing and i will remember that for lyfe! HAHAS!

then i remember the first time i talk with nana on the phone till 2am in the morning just to discussion on the ideas of the GPP! then we come up with ideas but it is so funny! MUST DO IT! i still remember that! hahas! anyway, that is so terrible! then after that nana and me were in charge of the ideas for our project! the next day after the 2am talked over the phone, we still meet up as a group to do our GPP! hahas, we went to the library, borrowed some books! then we went to under blocks to discuss our GPP and also our ideas! hahas! after the first GPP done, we send to mrs yap! HAHAS! after our gpp is done with aims and target grp, we also approach mr john ng! we approach him because he is the GREEN club teacher ah, and we are doing on 3R so he is the right person! he is keen to co-operate with us, after his talk, we found out that our things are not well done at all! so we change our target, from residents to students!!

then after that jinlong spend 24hours just to think of the proposal! argh, then we also spend time discussing with mrs yap and mr john ng! then there are alot of mistakes here and there, then keep changing and changing! do alot of GPP drafts!hahas, i also remember the one of the GPP is done at jinlong's house and we left his house at 10PM! the first time we went to his house, nana and i got afraid by nikki, his dog! he is scary, make me lock myself outside his house! hahas, anyway we ate dinner at his house for the first time! we are joking with each other as we are eating! hahas, the funny thing is jinlong's mummy cook alot of vegetables which make us so GREEN! hahas! then come the holidays! hahas!

holidays is always PW for the 1st 2 weeks! everyday without fails, go back to school for pw i think! argh, PRO hor! hahas! remember counting the numbers of trees in school with fangwen! hahas! we also had our survey being set by fangwen! nana and i set the survey but it is terrible i think! sorry fangwen! then we also had a lot of time that we meet up with mr john ng to talk about our project!! not only that, we also went to the library to do our literature review during the holidays at bugis national library! that time we went without jinlong as he is sick! aniway, IT IS SO OMG, due to our first time experience! we are like so blur there, hahas, so funny! then we start looking at schools' year book at the library! i managed to see xiaowei, teddybear, clown and a few photos there! hahas, they are all so cute ah! fangwen just dun wanna let us his primary school year book! so nonsense! hahas, well, nvm! then we ate long john silver and went walked walked before we go home! hahas! we had a nice trip eh!

then we also went to conduct our first interview with the GVN! then i remember kenna say by jinlong they all cause i dont know there is such station! sian diaoz, ah! well, it is okie! we meet early and actually reach there early! but as it is the first time we went there, we actually lost in finding that place! hahas, OMG, the place is so difficult to find! spend our time finding so hard just for that place! alrights, reached that place but was late by a little! the first time interview is so gan chiong la! fangwen and jinlong did the talking with the GVN ppl, linkai, nana and me were like writing ah! we also got laugh a bit la! hahas! hahas, then we had our lunch at the place where we conduct our interviews, i dont know what is the place we had conduct our interview and had our lunch!! during the lunch time, i still remember fangwen and jinlong ask me to do duno what as i like beach cleaning so much! so nonsense, sad ah! hahas, aniway, A NICE experience for me i think to know there are such places!! then went to marina bay with nana and linkai to study our phy and chem! hahas! HAHAS, so in conclusion, holidays = PW! good ah!

after holidays! after holiday! we had our interviews with more people such as NEA! hahas, fangwen, linkai and me went! hahas, i am very gan chiong due to my "good" ang mo you see! hahas, i kept very silence until it is at the end of the interview! ahhas, pro hor! then also got laugh ah! hahaha, STRAW-LESS DAY! hahas! while around that time, jinlong also conducted interviews with his secondary school teacher! hahas! everytime different interviews, different people go! we also had e-mail interview with the GVN and also other ppl! not only that, we also give out our survey for students, find out more literature reviews, monitor our GREEN WEEK! oh ya! i remember that time we wanted to do the leaf bookmark! we went to jinlong house to do our experiment for the first time! sad to say, it fail! sigh, everyone of us are very sad! not only that, all of us also got tried doing the leaf at our house! argh >.
before GPP is submit, an overview is needed to be handed in! remember that got someone told us that our Project is duno what and what! she even say our project is too big scale, i guess everyone got a shock! ARGH, STRESS at that time! then we do extra things to it to make it something god! finally the day when the final GPP is submit, i remember i did not sleep! HAHAS! aniway the GPP is submit, so the start of WR! well, WR is written by FANGWEN! IJ037 IS VERY THANKFUL FOR ALL HIS EFFORTS! thanks fangwen! IJ037 LOVES YOU!

the start of WR is also the start of more substaination for the WR! so nana and me were in charge of this! we went to the library, spend hours there but nothing useful is obtained x(! we were depressed and we went so crazy doing nonsense thing in the library! we looked at old newspapers and also others books to make sure we can find something useful, in the end we told them that we could not find anithing! well, linkai helped us in the end! thanks linkai! he really got so many BOOKS that are useful to our project! hahas, so nana and i copy down all and went it the next day to read and photocopy those relavant pages! hahas, then we highlight and mainpts that we need and send to FANGWEN! hahas, well, substaination is so hard hard hard to do! >.< then fangwen used those substaination to do the WR! hahas! remember our meeting for one of the WR is at the library! hahas, we went to the library, book a discussion and disscus! hahas, well, that time it is so funny! hahas, all of us keep laughing and laughing! hahas! IJ037! I LOVE!

the day when WR is to be handed in! stayed up late to print one copy and fangwen printed 2 copies! everyone is anxious when we found out that there were some mistakes in the WR! cries! then finally when the final final final final WR is okie, we handed in! OMG, the feelings is duno to be happy or sad! that is when we say byebye to our WR! then we start our OP slides~!! hahas! all of us did about 20+ R-marks at jinlong's house! hahas, we also do some of our OP's slides! hahas!

spend day and night doing OP rehearsal! OMG, we practise almost 30times i guess! NOT 20 TIMES I THINK! we after lunch also practise! we also got go jinlong's hosue to rehearsal ah! HAHAS, JINLONG'S HOUSE IS ALWAYS OUR PW meeting most important and comfortable place! so we love his house! the last day of rehearsal at jinlong's house is the most memorable to me due to nikki's attack on me! we, IJ037, shall remember nikki's that notti peace maker! hahas, i think jinlong practise about 50 times ah, not more not less! HAHAS! rehearsal day is always fun because we are always joking and playing with each other! HAHAS! i love those days!

OP actual day which is monday, the first day! reached school early and jinlong actually make us laugh again with his lame joke! HAHAS, i remember nana saying, only our grp dare to laugh and joke! we are so crazy especially lunch time! hahas, singing and laughing! nana and me were like keep singing the 3R-songs that we know making the fangwen more anxious! hahas, OMG, IJ037! jinlong keep asking me to druen druen druen! hahas! so nonsense! 1.30pm is coming! then before the start of the actual OP, we sing the GO GO POWER RANGER! hahas, THE 5 OF US ARE THE R-RANGERS! 230PM! END OF OP! IJ037 ARE DONE WITH OP! hahas!

then today it is the end of PW! arghh! sad sad! jinlong was not in school so i helped him do those stuff! i realised how stress a leader can be at that point of time! leader, hard on you liao ah! OMG, i really dont wanna to end PW somehow! hahas, somehow i miss PW so much! so sad! x( still have to say byebye to my dear PW!

i really remember nana saying, today[5 nov] is the last time we are going to jinlong's house ler!
sad ah! i listen liao also feel so sad! we can move to his house to live or not? hahas!

while IJ037 braved through so many rains or shines, up and down times! finally, we had ended all these!
there were so many unhappiness times, so many cold-wars times, so many arguement times, but we are proud to say that we brave through all these ALSO!

we had alot of fun and laughters that i will remmeber too! all the lame jokes provided by TAN JIN LONG! i just cant stop laughing at all this lame jokes! hahas! then we still got so many funny things that make me feel so happy when i think about it! i remember the times when we always have fun and spend our times laughing so hard after every meal times! by the way, our leader is always the us saying PW band 3 liao, concentrate on ur 90% =x hahas! so nosnense la! but he still do pw the most i think! HAHAHAS =D

i also remember those times when all of us stayed up so late just for this pw! nana and me had long chats over the phone till the next day morning! also all of us always almost went crazy when something in the pw went wrong! i also remember that we went wrong track somewhere around june i think. we always had a lot of meetings, no matter is face to face or online msn meetings! oh my god, those were the time when we crap, had fun and at the same time talk about our project! we never fail to laugh during any meetings as there are always jokes! hahas, so happy ah, I LOVE meetings! hahas!

i feel that all those unhappiness in my group has make the group feel closer with each other, we are now very bonded!! not only that, through that, we know each other's character better, like each other temper! we understand each other better too! we also try our best to make each other happy by compromising each other! we also understand each other limits and dont go over it! this must thanks fangwen who do the whole WR just not to give nana, lihui and jinlong stress in doing the PW so we can concentrate on our STUDIES for midcourse! ARGH, how nice he can be! i am really touched by his actions! i bet others also feel the same as i do!

we always solved every problems we faced as a group! all those cold wars and quietness will be gone as the time pass by! i think we always fight and quarrel especially at the start of this PW but as the time pass by, the fights and quarrels IS NONE! as we know, no matter what unhappiness we really had, it will be gone, very very soon! i like the way that everyone of us solve those unhappines between us!

i believe through PW, it really make the 5 of us feel closer and bonded to each other! just like what nana say, they will be us, so not to worry! like what linkai say, no one dies, so ask me dont miss too much! he also tells me that i still can continue calling jin long leader! HAHAS! i just cant stop calling him as my leader! he is really a nice leader! hahas! just like jinlong say PW can end, IJ037 wont end! OMG, it really make me so gan dong!

JINLONG! IJ037 leader! hey, thanks for being such a nice leader to me always, u must really forgive for my mood swings! sorry to scold you so many many times until you can go and crry liao!! i know you wont cry one la! hahas, aniway he used to say he is an IN-leader as he is IN-effective, IN-decisive, IN-efficiency and alot more which i forget liao! nonsense one la he! hahas, aniway he is also the one who make the group work so hard! he is also blur i think, always forget to attach file befor sending to us! hahas, his fav is to do TO DO list i think! hahas! aniway, thanks for being such a understanding leader to me, most understanding leader award goes to you for sure ah!! he likes to provides the group with all those lame jokes which make me really can laugh until fall from the chairs la! hahas, such a funny leader! most importantly, stop being so LAME as it can kill us! hahas! lastly, i shall continue calling him LEADER~ LEADER~! hahas, LOVES!-

NANA! my bestest bestie! thanks for being so nice to me always! we always had so many chats and nice talks whenever we take train or walked around in CWP! sorry that we argue a lot of times but we always solve! hahas, i think no one knows that we argue! hahas, I LOVE NANA! arguements make us stronger, so through arguements, i LOVE u more! i believe that u noe that no matter how many times we argue, we still trust and love each other! i still remmeber those times when we fa xie together in CWP! hahas, we always make ourselves comfortable by scolding other ppl ah! thanks for being by my side always, i know you are always lack of sleep due to pw! hahas, now no more pw! so sleep more okie! so we can go more swimming and we are going to challenge leader one ah! hahas! hahas, i LOVE my bestie! LOVES!- hahas!

FANGWEN! stop showing me what my brother will do to me 16 years down the road! thanks for always telling me what is right or wrong! hahas, thanks for educating me so much on PROJECT! thanks for ur efforts, i will make sure that i will success in making myself the manager of some waste collection company okie! hahas! i will try not to disappoint you!! dont get so fierce always la! hahas, aniway i think i also no scare of you liao as i am LIHUI! hahas, alrights, must really thank you so much on the WR! hahas, the best WR writer surely goes to you one la! hahas, remember got problems must can find IJ037! we will always be there!! LOVES, hahas!

LINKAI! stop doing all those dangerous actions! HAHAS! IJ037 dont wanna to see u injured ah! later u injured liao, ij037 will cry for you one okie! hahas, oh ya, remember to wait for me to o2JAM! lets play maple, gb also ah! hahas, IJ037 played toegther!! hahas! hahas, thanks for always explaining to me what are the definations of so many wordsss if not i think a lot of things i cannot make it one! thanks for ur helps in my studies too! smartie! hahas!! hahas! XIE XIE! dont always sleep so much ah! hahas! LOVES!-

IJ037 really give me alot of support! they are always the ones for me whenever i need them! they never fails to make me happy whenever i am with them! they never fails to be by my side whenever i meet problems and unhappiness in my life! no matter what happens, they always ask to stand up and start all over again! their words can always full of encouragement that make me feeel stronger and stronger! not only that, i always feel that we are just like one family! it makes me feel so safe and secure when they are with me always! thanks IJ037! i really glad to be in this group!

AFTER 8months of PW, IJ037 are proud to say it is all over now! just one blink of eyes, it is all over!
although PW is ended, everyone is happy but definitely i will miss those PW times. they will always be my fondest memories!

oh ya! THANKS MRS YAP! she is always the one who never give up IJ037! she never give up on us which make us stand even stronger even when we meet any setbacks! she never fail to reject any consultation that we wanted! IJ037 really really LOVES her! no HER, no IJ037! thanks for all ur help always! remember to keep that certificate that IJ037 give u one hor! hahas, i shall play with her HP more often! LOVES-

2006 has been a wonderful year for me with such one and only IJ037 and LOVELYclqiue that i found in 0612B!

we took alot of photos as a group and also we took our first pw neoprints! OMG, they are so precious to me now and forever! thanks them for giving me such a wonderful memories, I LOVE! we had also our first PW outing which is at cwp! really so memorable! hahas! more outings! hahas!

I WANNA TO TELL TO THE WORLD THAT I REALLY LOVE IJ037!
I LOVE CHRISTINA TE LIFANG!
I LOVE TAN JIN LONG!
I LOVE LIM FANGWEN!
I LOVE LEE LINKAI!
I LOVE MRS YAP!
I LOVE MYSELF TOO!
I LOVE IJ037!
LOVES LOVES LOVES-
i know IJ037 will last forever!
THE BEST IN INNOVA ALWAYS! WE WILL LAST FOREVER! LETS HAVE MORE PW OUTING AND NOT PW IN-TING OKIE! =D

i think that is about it! bye everyone! takecare, goodnites! be happy! ^^v

I REALLY LOVE IJ037 > MEMORIES! - Nov. 06, 2006 at 06:03 AM

OP is over! all we left is I&R, GPF, after that, it marks the end of Project Work for everyone in IJC, especially IJ037!

=sign off=

LOVES- - Nov. 05, 2006 at 03:15 AM

YO. after 2 days of break, i am here to UPDATE! hahas, alrights, this 2 days are just PW! hahas, aniway i LOVE PW! hahas!

sat - went to meet nana, clar, shujuan at admiratly for breakfast!! hahas, i was late! sorry for those waiting! hahas, then i saw teddy bear there! OMG, seriously i miss her! hahas, saw her and i chatted with her as she is going off to chalet! hahas, she looks more and more cute ah! hahas! i did not eat breakfast as i dont like to eat ah! hahas, then nana, she was testing me! HAHAS, good job lihui! hahas, manage to answer those Q! hahas, feel happy! then come zhongxun! hahas!

then we went to jeffery's house! HAHAS! then we slacked at his house! HOHO, played and had fun! but nana and me were like tired that we are going to sleep on his BED! hahas! the 2 of us were like bored bored de, but it is nice to be with my lovely clique! hahas, then nana and me went off to jinlong's house for PW at 1245pm! hahas!

walked from jeffery's house to jinlong's house! hahas, walked around 25mintues? hahas, then we reached at around 115PM! hahas, we are late ah! hahas, then we start our OP rehearsal! hahas, QnA by IJ037 to lihui! hahas, i can answer! OMG, seriously i am feeling more confident with them beside me! I LOVE IJ037! hahas! do our project till about 4pm! quite fast ah! hahas! then nana, linkai and me went over to my house first, took my guitar and off we go to jeffery's house again! HAHAS! nana, linkai and me were like chatting about jinlong dont like to go out so we should have IN-ing inside of OUT-ing!

reached jeffery's house! saw lifeng on our way to his apartment! hahas, then we went in! saw a lot of people! zhongxun, shujuan and clarence are still there and xinfang is there too!! HAHAS! then played o2JAM! hahas, i am like OMG, seriously NOT born to play such things! hahas, nvm! then went in to jeff's room and see his friends around too! hahas, that day is the day that i know i spelled jeffery name wrong all this time! OMG, sorry! then went to eat dinner with nana, clarence, linkai, shujuan and zhongxun! hahas! nana and me left early for our dear guitar lesson! hahas!

reached bukit gombak at around 740pm? hahas, then went to buy bubble tea! hahas, chatted so much with nana before the guitar lessons! we talked about our PW! hahas, going to miss the times we spend at JINLONG's house! we talked about how we used to hate the stress from pw in the past, now everything has come to a end and we are like missing them so much! we chatted about how much sadness and sufferings we had go through as a group! how many fights, arguements we had. how many cold wars we had! no matter how many it is, it is all in the past. then we say about our JC's life! hahas, so sweet! argh, i miss so much! hahas!

went back home after my guitar lessons! then did my IandR draft 2 and submit to mrs yap! hahas!

sun - went to JINLONG'S house at 12pm! hahas, we had OP rehearsal again! hahas, then had fun and laughters also! hahas, seriously, i am enjoying my day with IJ037! hahas! i was bullied by NIKKI! OMG, I AM going to sue NIKKI! hahas! then we stayed back and see how others play o2jam! seriously, there are so PRO until i went omg! hahas!

went to 768 to have my lunch with nana at around 4pm! hahas, ate and then we sit 913 going one big round! hahas! then went back home! hahas, reached home and then on my comp! hahas, i am so msn lover? hahas =DD

nana told me that she was touched by one of jinlong's words! hahas, i think all of us are touched too just that we all dont wanna to show it out! hahas, one for all, all for one!

time flies so fast till i am lost in my world.
why did time pass so fast always?
i dont wanna it to pass so fast,
lets hope that time will slowly down its pace one day!
let me spend more time loving my love ones,
let me spend more time with my family,
let me spend more time with my friends,
let me have more time!
TIME,
are you willingly to slow down just to let me feel a little more happier and fortunate than now?

OP tml, it is going to be the last time we are going to suffer! soon everything will be over.
IJ037, i love my LOVELY PW group!
TAN JIN LONG - THE BEST LEADER!
LEE LIHUI - THE BEST SECRETARY!
CHRISTINA TE LI FANG - THE BEST FILE MANAGER!
LIM FANGWEN - THE BEST FILE MANAGER!
LEE LIN KAI - THE BEST IT CONSULTANT!
IJ037 - THE BEST PROJECT WORK GROUP!

i shall post one of our PW grp's pic!

my room is in such a mess now!
shall tidy them next saturday!

=SIGN OFF=

LIFE (: - Nov. 03, 2006 at 09:12 AM
CHINESE A level is gone, coming up next is OP on next monday! after that i will be free! then can meet my LOVELY ONES!

yesterday went to study with nana at library but we change our venue ah! hahas, we changed to jeffery's house! HAHAS! the day is full of fun and laughters ah! hahas, OH no, i guess we spend time playing more than studying ah! hahas!

then at night, i called vincent up for help! hahas. thanks ah! LOVES-

chinese A level today! OMG, i guess i did not prepare well before the exams ba! well, nothing more i can do, so i shall look things from a positive side ler ah!

after chinese, got lecture from our principal! then we went back to class to get back our results slip! 12B, no one retain! OMG, LOVES-

had OP rehearsal! OMG, everything is so ARGH. nvm, still the lowest in the group no matter how much i do! sigh, i am worry somehow!

went to eat dinner with nana, clarence, vincent and jeffery after school! hahas, then meet up with weeling*bestest bud, gary, angeline, serene, jazzreel, kuanyen, simtheem and ginny! hahas, I LOVE THEM! i miss them! LOVES- lets have more outing! I WANT THE WHOLE CLASS OF 5/1 to be there, LOVES-

mr nonsense called me up today! hahas, he get promoted! OMG, i am like so happy for him! hahas, just feel so so so happy till i can laugh non-stop! hahas, i guess i should believe the power of belief! mr nonsense, u rocks! hahas, see that, you are J2 now! LOVES-

now i am thinking of so many things,
certain things are back in my mind again.
i just could not shake it off,
no matter how hard i try to shake it off.

that is the reason why am i feeling so emotional right now.
i cant stop myself from being so emotional.
this is going to kill me if its continue.

i dont wish to be any burden.
if i am ever a burden,
i shall choose to go and die.
like that, there wont be any more burden.

i dont know how to bring myself from all those negative thoughts in my mind,
some things which really make me feel that i am going to bring so many harm.
i cant let myself feel better by telling myself the positively when i know there are no positive things at all.

no matter how i feel or what,
this time round, i wont show it on my face.
i rather to bottle all of them up in my heart.

you dont get what you want always in your life,
although u work hard for it.
everyone has unlimited wants,
how many of them can actually has all their wants.
i cant understand why some people enjoy their wants by not working hard,
while those who work hard for that did not get what they want in the end.

i did really try my best,
what more can i do now?
i really got no ideas.

life is just so unfair i guess,
so i just have to accept it (:

not to worry,
i'll be fine after this entry =D

=SIGN OFF=

BORING DAY! - Nov. 01, 2006 at 07:51 AM
HELLO PEOPLE! hahas!

stayed at home for whole day today! omg, the feelings is great just that i find it too boring! hahas, ONLINE almost for the whole day! erm, can say not online but ON the comp for the whole day! hahas!

mr nonsense called me in the afternoon ah! then we were like chatting then he told me not to be scare for OP =/ not to scare for QnA =/ hahhas! sian diaoz ah! hahas, then can feel that he is worry for his chinese ah! hahas, so i tell him that wo dui ta you xin xin! hahas, he say i am the 2nd person ah! HAHAS, NOT BAD NOT BAD! hahas! then chatted a few more things! LOVES-

tml i am going to library with nana! LOVES-

=sign off=

lovely clique < LOVES- - Oct. 31, 2006 at 07:57 AM

today is OP mock! omg, the feelings is terrible! Oh no, i really feel so gan chiong that before i speak i feel the pain in my stomach! my hands are very cold and i feel so anxious! argh, sigh! no matter how i feel, i still manage to get over and done with the OP! my A&Q still cannot make it and i do not know what can i do now! either is i could not answer or is never elaborate! sigh, sad ah!

had OP debrief after school and we got back our OP mock comments! i got a terrible grade and seriously i dont know what to do! today i tried to be calm but somehow i am still unable to do that! sigh, the burden to the wonderful grp i think! i can never help them in any ways! useless me! sigh x(

seriously, i hope the group performance will not be affected by me. i just cannot do well although i try my best ler! i really try, but where does all my efforts paid off to? so even if i cannot present well, i hope it does not pull down the grp thing one!

after school, took so many pictures! first, we took a clique photos! the photos were wanted before the promos but we did not take! so take it now, it is late but still better than did not take it at all! clique < nana, jinlong, fangwen, linkai, xinfang, clarence, huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun, vincent and me! 11 of us! hahas! alrights, i love my clique so much! hahas, LOVES- after taking the clique pictures, we took so crazy pictures! hahas, mostly is nana and me! HAHAS, LOVES- then waited clarence, xinfang, shujuan and vincent at the canteen! hahas, took pictures with lifeng too! hahas! then nana was telling me something, i was like sian diaoz! then come the 4 of them we were waiting and off we go! hahas! LOVES-

went to CWP to do whatever i need to do and i feel so happy! hahas! clarence praise me! hahas! then we went to ang mo kio with nana, xinfang, shujuan, zhongxun, vincent, clarence and linkai! hahas, a nice trip there only i am very tired! hahas! walked around there and buy something to eat! went home around 7pm! hahas! HOME SWEET HOME! LOVES-

i wont be sad in front of people anymore. no matter what happens, i will still carry that smile of mine in front of anyone! i dont want because of me the whole group of us get so affected! just like what mr nonsense told me > happy or sad, life still has to go on. so why not be happy? hahas! it makes sense! so people, dont think too much okie! LOVES-

i heard something which i dont wish to hear at all. did she try harder than me? i know she is better in the sense that her english is better than me, fluency better than me, pronounciation better than me. didnt i have confident? some one tell me how to show that i am confident! i shall continue to try harder, that is the only thing i can do only! i will do it, i can do it.

no matter how much you hate one person,
the hatred will slowly fade as the time goes by.

i love my clique!
they are so wonderful!
i really wish this last now
and forever!
LOVES-

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the first time i feel so guilty! - Oct. 30, 2006 at 07:01 AM
yesterday i only sleep from 5+pm till 7+pm! hahas, because afternoon i was having fun by chatting online! HAHAS! yay!

well, today is monday which is the start of the school holidays! hahas but we still need to go back to school for chinese and also OP! hahas, a long long day for me!

first in the morning, i got a SHOCK! hahas, my chessmate eddie trying to kidnap me using a BOX! hahas, alrights, i really got a SHOCK that i nearly die! hahas! then clarence told me something about someone! really is REN BU KE MAO XIANG AH! hahas, forget it!

OP, i always canot stop laughing when it come to Q&A! totally dont know what should i say! argh, stop laughing, i am going to do it! give me some time!

after school, do a few times of our skit and went home with nana, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, linkai and jeffrey! hahas! then we went to CWP and xinfang and clarence came! hahas, so we went around and go home after that!

bought things for my 3 little sisters and 1 youngest brother! i realised i neglected them for so long! argh, i am not a good sister! somemore i neglected spending more time with my family! i shall spend more time with them now! hahas, LOVES-

went home and realised something so serious! OMG, i really wonder what is wrong with me! i am like OMG OMG all the way on the bus! i could not think properly! argh, i am feeling so guilty! told my clique about it and i am not so afraid after them telling me what should i do! hahas, LOVES-

mr nosnense is chatting with me now! he is forever so nonsense de la! hahas, but always nice! LOVES-

all i can is to wait for tml to feel better!

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sunday morning! - Oct. 28, 2006 at 06:11 PM
YO PEOPLE! hahas! now is 9am, sunday morning, so good morning everyone! hahas! feeling so energentic now because i took a bath at 8am! hahas!

finally i had finish transfer all my old computer things into my new computer and i also rename all the files! hahas! it took me hours! hahas, from 12am or 1am till now! HAHAS, the feelings is nice because i always want the old stuff to be back on the new computer! so i am happy NOW! hahas!

currently chatting with my xiaoxin*xiaodi! omg, he very crazy ah! wake up so early one ah! chat with him about deathnote! hahas, he likes KIRA! hahas, he is so funny la! hahas, i simply LOVE my xiaodi!, LOVES-

sat- went to jinlong's house at 1245pm to do our project work! HAHAS, nana and me were the first to reach, follow by fangwen then linkai! hahas! started to do the project by editing our skit ah! then we do rehearsal at his house! HAHAS, we even do OP dry run again at his house! this time i did not laugh ah! HAHAS, not bad not bad lihui! hahas, then took pictures! HAHAS, nice pictures and i will love them lots for sure! HAHAS! i just LOVE IJ037 no matter how hard Project Work is! ((:

then went to eat with nana at 768! hahas, ate then walked around there! hahas, then we walked back to my house! hahas, around 30minutes okie! HAHAS, nana and i were exercising after our lunch`dinner? hahas! then went home, take my guitar and off we go to bukit gombak! then went to nana's house and took her guitar! hahas, off to guitar lesson! this time round, we pay our attention okie! hahas, i am sure the teacher got a shock too ba! hahas, we were like lost? hahas! nvm, we shall try harder!

reached home about 1030pm and i saw my daddy! hahas, i did not know he was behind me till i got into the lift! hahas! then went home and something bad happens! well, things are fine now! hahas, then mummy bought food for us to eat! HAHAS, i ate and started to do my things!

i am sorry daddy and mummy, i know both of you are always so nice. sorry for being such a unreasonable daughter today!

will the past always better than the present? some times i really wish to go back to the past so much, i rather to start everything all over again, i know it is impossible.
i guess today i speak too much or rather give too much of my point of views. i should keep my mouth shut and keep all thoughts for myself only.

i am still convincing myself some things that i want it to be to make myself feel a little better.

life is hard,
i will still go on (:

LOVES-

my room is so messy,
i shall pack it during the holidays.

i am not tired after the bath but i am supposed to sleep so i am going to try sleep later ah! before sleeping, let me chat with my xiaoxin till i get tired! hahas! nights!

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NICE DAY! - Oct. 27, 2006 at 08:07 AM
HERE TO UPDATE AGAIN!

went to school as usual with nana, shujuan and zhongxun! hahas, had a long day today! no OP today but there is A&Q! seriously, my A&Q is like omg, cannot even interpret the Q well. lihui ah lihui, better know that day! hahas, well, whole day do A&Q with my grp! LOVES-

ate lunch with nana, jinlong, fangwen, linkai, huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun and vinCENT! hahahas! a nice lunch ah! hahas, fangwen, linkai, nana and me were like making fun of our leader! hahas! i was like laughing like mad because i did something so terrible to my leader, jinlong! hahas! oh my god, it is funny! hahas!

then xinfang and clarence came and sit with us! hahas, full clique present! hahas, sad to say! i forget to take PICTURE! DUMB LIHUI! how can i forget! hahas, nvm, there will always be a NEXT TIME! hahas!

clarence update nana and me about something today! OMG, so over la the thing! hahas, we are going to burn away chinese books? hahas!

had chinese mock exam today! omg, i am sleepy, very sleepy! hahas, i even write the word GREEN on my paper! that is like so terrible! i love PW too much i guess! hahas! then saw 2 miss calls by angeline! hahas, called her and she want to meet me! HAHAS! yay!

after school, walked to CWP with nana, clarence, fangwen, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT and jeffrey! then i meet up with ANGELINE! hahas, then we walked around CWP! hahas! then faizal came and meet up! hahas, soon kuanyen and serene came too! HAHAS! then amaluna happen to passby! hahas! then we took alot of pictures! soon, faizal and amaluna went off first! hahas, angeline, kuanyen, serene and me went to took neoprints! hahas!

then after that angeline left! hahas. then kuanyen, serene and me went walked around! went to MCdonald and chit chat! hahas, mr nonsense called and chatted with me that time! hahas! he is on his way back home after his duno wadd ah! motorcycle training, i think so ba! hahas! hahas, so funny la he! hahas, he is nice! hahas!

went home around 9pm with serene! hahas! took 912 and i was talking with her! hahas, updating each other with our lifes! hahas! so happy! hahas, she is always my bestest sister! hahas! just love her so much! we are going to meet each other out again as she wanted to watch DN! i am going to watch with her again! hahas, LOVES-

mr nonsense is chatting with me now! hashas, he sound so dead as he had just came back home from a run! a long distance run ah! hahas, chatted and i sing songs for him! i know it is quite terrible but he still listen! hahas! oh ya, he is working tml! hope the best for him! LOVES-

i am trying to convince myself with some things that i am having negative thoughts in it! was i feeling the way that i am supposed to feel? was i thinking the way that i am supposed to think? i really dont know what more can i do now beside convincing myself to what i wish i want to be!

i am happy with my life now x) it is because i make all my unhappy things into happy things. however, a corner of my heart is craving more, i dont know what is missing <

there is PW again tml! LOVES-

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HAPPY =DD - Oct. 26, 2006 at 08:27 AM
BOO! BACK AGAIN!

the most important thing of today is that our class got selected for the tablet PC thing! OMG, screams! next year, whole year AIR CON! so happy ah! we are the best, LOVE 12B! hahas!

today had the whole OP thing~! OMG, Q&A! i cannot stop laughing! omg, it is just so funny! i dont know why too! cannot stop, just cant! stupid la, i feel so dumb to laugh! sigh.

as usual, got chinese lesson and also PW! hahas, thats the lesson we had for the next few days!

after school went to chess club! hahas, played 2 different chess with shujuan! hahas, fun i can say! ended at 630pm! hahas, a long day in school! hahas, went to ate dinner with nana, xinfang, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, linkai, clarence and jeffrey! hahas! a nice dinner!

chatted with clarence while accompanying him to wait for his bus with vinCENT and linkai! hahas! omg, clarence keep asking me to go PHB! hahas, so nonsense! hahas! thanks for ur concern!

chatted with ultrawoman`darling, poixin! OMG, seriously i miss her! i miss her! hahas, talked to her and she say i am sweet! hahas! i love my ultrawoman! HAHAS, LOVES-

talking to mr nonsesne right now! hahas! he is so funny la! LOVES-

MY TANG DI got a SIAO A-Maths teacher! hahas, going to teach my tang di maths! hahas, so nonsense la he! keep on promoting me! hahas, siao tang di! hahas!

tml there is chinese mock exam, OMG, i am so gan chiong!

happy day i guess! (:

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MY HOUSE! =D - Oct. 25, 2006 at 07:45 AM
YO people, i am back to update my blog!

today i got my OP rehearsal, OMG, it is so terrible! i could not stop moving around and most importantly, i dont even have any eye contact! a big big sigh! i must done extra extra for my OP, if not i am going to be dead for sure!

today was not a long day for me, can say it is rather a short one! hahas, so ate my lunch at CWP with nana, clarence, shujuan, vinCENT, huiyang and yiling! we went to buy things after eating our lunch! hahas, after that, nana, shujuan, clarence and vinCENT came our to my house! hahas, omg, my house is messy ah! hahas!

played the show that they wanted to watch! hahas, after that nana, clarence, shujuan took picture with my brother! then they continue to stay as shujuan doing her project! hahas, nana actually slept! clarence looking at my school year book! hahas, then vinCENT reading comic! hahas, so nonsense! hahas!

after that we left my house about 5pm and we went to westMALL with nana, clarence, shujuan and zhongxun! HAHAS, OMG! IT IS SO FUN! reached home at about 7+pm! hahas, had a nice day! hahas!

nana, clarence, shujuan and me talked so much on our trip to westMALL! hahas, a nice chat! hahas~!

oh ya! I SAW MY DEAREST XIAODI XIAOXIN TODAY! omg, i am so happy to see him! he is so handsome la today! hahas, cant take my eyes off my xiaodi ah! hahas, alrights, actually called him up and appear in front of him! such a idiot dajie ah me! hahas, I LOVE MY XIAOXIN! we shall go out soon! LOVES--

some times i just dont have the luck and also the ability! i guess i should stop dreaming and waiting, i shall end my dreams.

somehow i am convincing myself about some things.

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sigh! - Oct. 24, 2006 at 08:10 AM
*SCREAMS!

i am feeling so worried now! i am feeling so worried till i could not even think properly now! how! what am i supposed to do! i cant stand myself for being so useless as i could not do anything, but just to keep asking myself WHY! the fact is i dont know what can i do now? keep talking to myself?

I DUNO WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW! People will just think that it will be over soon but for me, i really cant think it. i admit i am useless but i am really afraid. who can understand me? sigh.

thanks mr nonsense x)) thanks for listening to me yesterday! jia you for ur model ah!

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LONG ENTRY! (: - Oct. 23, 2006 at 09:26 AM
i am back to update again after so long! hahas, should say i miss blogging? hahas, somehow miss to blog but i dont know why i did not blog!

now only busy with my MT and also my PW! OP OP OP for PW! i am going to be so dead for that! i dont know why, i feel so afraid always! i just cant afford to present myself in front of people! argh, i wish i can speak as well as what others! sigh.

now i shall try to blog whatever i remember ah! hahas! going to test my memory!

i remember knowing 2 new friends! hahas, one is my chess mate! hahas, we know each other just for a game of chess! hahas, the other is know her when playing with my chess mate! hahas, is fun okie! hahas! knowing more people! i get to know more people during the IJC open house! hahas, knowing more people is always good! i would want to have unlimited friends always in my life, that is like what i love and what i want (:

16-10-06! mon! dont remember what happen for the day! just remember that is the day i got back my econs results! OMG, my heart is like going to stop beating when i got back my paper one! it is done badly! argh, i feel like crying but i did not because i want to see my paper two! hahas, in the end, I PASS! hahas, i screamed and throw the paper when i received it! hahas, nana got a shock when i did that! hahas, thanks nana for giving me that wonderful courage! LOVES-

17-10-06! tues! hahas, had my lunch with shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT and linkai at CWP! hahas, i remember something happen that day and sj was not happy about it ah! juanJIE! dont be sad ah! got USSSSS! hahas, then went back to school for chess club meeting! meet clarence and xinfang! hahas! hahas, it is so funny and i cant stop laughing at it! hahas! after the meeting, we went to play Table Tennis! hahas, happen to meet gary, nik and edide*my chess mate! that is also the day i get to know shufen! hahas! new friends made! hahas! then went back home at around 7+pm! hahas, nice day with them! LOVES-

18-10-06! wed! stayed back in school to gossip with shujuan and nana! omg, we really chatted so many things ah! hahas, nice day! hahas, ate dinner with them! hahas, A REEAL NICE DINNER! hahas! thanks and i love my clique! LOVES-

19-10-06! thurs! had a long long long day in school! hahas, PE was cancel! hahas, so no more PE! so stayed in school with clique to play Table Tennis! hahas, nana and me did not play so we went walking around and in the end went to help xinfang's group! hahas! stayed in school till very very late but i forget what time! i think is about 9pm! hahas, then went home! hahas, HOME SWEET HOME! LOVES-

20-10-06! fri! only remember we had a very short day and it is the day that we submit our WR! finally that is submitted so there is no more to change! argh, PLEASE PLEASE, we did our best! then had chinese lesson! did my compo and realised that i forget to write the most important thing that is required in the compo! sian diaoz! after sch, stayed back with nana, clarence, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, jeffrey! hahas! nana and me actually sleep for 1hour! hahas, i am feeling so energentic after that! hahas! LOVES-

21-10-06! sat! went to birdpark to do my COP with nana, xinfang, clarence and linkai! hahas, nana and me were together again! this time round, we are like gardener ah! hahas, cutting of grass! so nonsense la! then xinfang, clarence and linkai went to duno where! hahas, just know that is the place where nana and i did for the last time! hahas, nana and me had almost 3hours of slacking time! in fact, we only do like 1hour+, the most 2hours! hahas, the rest of the time is for slack or is the uncle do we just need to take the things to the trash bag! hahas, simple hor! hahas! then we went to took lots of picture after our COP! hahas, is so so so so fun! hahas, nice time with them! hahas, ate ben and jerry after our COP! hahas, omg! it made me feel so full after eating it! then we went to jurong point to walk around with our drinks! hahas! it is fun again! hahas, then went home peacefully! i love my friends! hahas! LOVES-

22-10-06! sun went to our leader house to do project! hahas, we are doing for our OP slides! hahas, i was drawing my things and nana was helping me out! hahas, was fun with them for sure! hahas, we are having all sort of stupid ideas for the OP! hahahs! we got real crazy and we also got real serious! hahas, no matter what, it is just so fun! hahas! after doing our PW! we slacked at JL's house! hahas, played guitar and JL is sure better than nana and me! sian diaoz ah! then he teaches me some new things also, thanks ah LEADER! hahas, his house is fun with nikki! hahas! then we went home about 6+pm? hahas, is really nice to be with IJ037! HAHAS, LOVESSSSSS-

23-10-06! mon! no sch for IJC! hahas, went out with my beloved clique! hahas, not everyone present but it is definitely fun! hahas! went to meet clarence and nana to catch world trade center first at vivo!! hahas, omg, it is just so touching! everyone should go and watch! then shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, linkai and jeffrey came and meet us after our movie! sad to say, vivo got no more tickets for DeathNote so we decided to catch it somewhere else, that is bishan! hahas! before that went to buy shujuan's laptop! hahas, went into candy empire and bought choco for mr nonsense! OMG, i got a shock for my life! i think nana and clar did too! the choco there are expensive! bought one not expensive one and also limited edition for mr nonsense! hahas, just hope he likes it!

headed to bishan! hahas! bought the tickets for DeathNote! hahas, went to have our lunch after that and we bought some snacks inside too! here we go for the movie! the movie is nice! hahas, YUE is handsome! hahas, many of us agree! omg, L is so girl in the movie! argh, cannot tahan! hahas, then went home at 8pm! hahas, bought things back home for my family as they requested me to buy! hahas, thanks vinCENT! hahas! =DD home sweet home after that! hahas! LOVES-

specially for NANA > thanks for giving me wonderul pats on my back when i am feeling so down! thanks, you make me still continue to believe what i always believe in! that is only true friends are able to brave through all rains and storms toegether, share happiness, sadness, hardness all together! thanks! LOVES- rememeber that no matter what happens to you, i will always be there for you, no matter how hard is life, you got me and i got you as bestest BESTIE! u say that we are ULTIMATE best friends! so u going to trust me and i will trust you, we are able to overcome lots more of things okie! about you asking me to read ur blog, i read and i believe that you wont think too much after blogging okie! hahas, LOVE ur family and love urself! just rememeber u still got RQ to love u okie! and there are many more people who love you! LOVES- rememeber lihui LOVES you alot okie!

specially to DAPH > beloved, I READ ur blog! dont be sad when people say u ah because i am nothing better okie! dont take people words into heart, i tht u ask me not to take ppl words to heart! now i am asking to you to do that okie! hahas, remember you still got ur bestie zhilun and mel to be there for you always! so be happy and life goes on! hahas, nana and me will be there too if u need us! (: oh ya, dont say u pulled the class down, because as a class, we survived together and scored well together! no one is ever a burden in this class okie! LOVES- last say, hope u know ur CC4 soon! hahas! LOVES-

chatted with my qingaide yesterday! hahas, she say i got good memory! hahas, i hope it is true so i can memorise my organic chemistry well! hahas! we are going to east coast to skate ah! hahas, lets fall toegther! hahas, going to ask anzel*teacher, brenda*mummy, kye*teddy and of cos ain*clown! hahas! all of us are going to SKATE! hahas! oh ya, my qing ai de is not supposed to hate the word LOVE that come out from LEE LIHUI! hahas! yesterday clown and i were playing nudge in msn! hahas, we seem that we first time use nudge! hahas, nice time playing! hahas, nice chat with them again! hahas! LOVES-

i remember there was a few moments i feel so strange, those feelings i could not even describe. i guess i think too much as things get better as time goes by. should i think things in a positive way instead of letting my mind running wild and getting lost in the end? i think i should allow my mind to think positive and not to allow any negative thoughts to get into my mind! thats what a happy lihui should do! hahas!

suddenly, i miss so many things that were in the past. i miss the PAP gang in sec 1 and 2 < angeline, kuanyen, sherleena and me! i miss the times when the 4 of us are together in sec 3 and 4 < angeline, kuanyen, weeling and me! i miss the times talking to sherleena every afternoon and also going to school very very early to school! i miss the times the 3 of us hang out together during sec 5 < weeling, serene and me! i miss the times when the big clique of us hang around together and watched movie together always! i miss the times when weeling and me go home together! i miss the times when i got SJAB and i always complain it is a waste of time! i miss the times when poixin and tania will scream my name in school! i miss the times when i get to see my xiaoxin in school and i always aviod him as i am shy! hahas! i miss the times when i get to know anzel my wonderful teacher and she walked past my class everyday without failed! i miss the times when qing ai de and me went to the library together! i miss the times when qing ai de, clown, teddy and me hang out together after my school! i miss the first 3 mths when nana, allena, XX and me hang out together! we named ourselves F4! i miss the times when 12B first stick together as a class! i miss the LCD when i used to have in the past < nana, daphne and me!

there are still many more things that i miss! why is there past, present and future?

well, as promised, i am going to my bed at 1230 today! LOVES-

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when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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