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Monday, September 18, 2006

HI-5 ENTRIES!

LAST ENTRY! - Sep. 17, 2006 at 12:38 PM
FINALLY i am back to update my blog but this is going to be my last time to blog before my PROMOS are over! argh, promos are killing me now!

13 SEPT -WED- had a very short day in school! hahas, not really that short because we studied in school again! not only that, nana and me did our PW again! hahas, i phoned up those boss of companies again! nothing to say, just know my english is really so TERRIBLE! cries, when can i speak really well? sigh, went home quite late! hahas, ate PASTA as my dinner with my LOVELY CLIQUE who are nana, huiyang, shujuan, linkai, vinCENT and zhongxun! hahas! i love my clique!

14 SEPT -THURS- OMG, it is the longest day of the week! hahas, went back home straight away after school with my CLIQUE which is like EARLIEST SO FAR! hahas, reached home at 7pm+? hahas, very EARLY! hahas, just know the first time i reached home so early and i think my parents would get a shock =x! hahas! OH YA, happy birthday to my dearest clown! hahas! hope u had a real good and nice b'dae okie! LOVES LOVES LOVES ALWAYS!

15 SEPT -FRI- had quite a long day i supposed! argh, friday! OMG, i only remember it is the most terrible day of the week! argh, i broke down when i received my EoM from fangwen! cries, i was totally so sad! argh, i broke down after physics tutorial because i cannot get the things that mr ang teaches during the lesson! i really cant take it anymore so my tears rolled down! sigh. after that was econs! argh, my econs test! argh, i broke down again! ARGH! then someone make me so argh!!! then phoned nana or nana called me? argh, i dont know! i just know both of us were very sad! argh, cries! anyway thanks to my lovely CLIQUE- nana, jinlong, fangwen, linkai, xinfang, huiyang, shujuan, vincent, zhongxun, clarence! thanks u guys for making me to see the light in my lyfe again!

dinner with nana after school only! linkai just sit and watched us eat =x hahas! chatted with linkai and nana so many things, somemore we got a shock by seeing something so NEW! hahas! OMG! hahas, a very nice dinner! after that waited for huiyang, shujuan, vincent, zhongxun to come CWP! hahas, went to buy zhongxun's sister gift without nana because she went home! hahas! anyway, went home by taking the train to Jurong east then back to admiratly with shujuan and vincent! hahas, was like sending zhongxun and huiyang home! hahas!
anyway, hope shujuan gets better okie! dont get too stress up hor JUAN JIE!

chatted with vincent so much on the way back home! i told him so many things and i think he should be sian diao ba! i told him how i feel and some things, argh! thanks vincent okie! hahas! he is such a wonderful friend! hahas!

i am happy to find such a wonderful and lovely clique in IJC! i really love them so much!

oh ya, something terrible happen during chemistry tutorial! OMG, i feel like jumping out from the building! mr johnNG took my B as a HEART shape and he asked me not to be so da dan to propose my love for him in front of the class! OMG, thats like so NONSENSE LA! argh, my whole face just went so RED all thanks to him! OMG, how can a B be a HEART? although i admit it look quite similar! SCREAMS* everyone is laughing eh! hahas, sian diaoz huh!

16 SEPT -SAT- slacked at home for the whole day! well, not for the whole day! went to CWP with my little brother! OMG, it seem like a long long time i bring him out ler! argh, such a terrible sis ah me! got a shock in the LIFT! argh, sian diaoz lo! hahas, nvm! went to return my books and after that went to walk and buy things for my little brother! well, he is so funny, he just ask me to buy a chicken wing for him! hahas, so cute! hahas, so i bought for him and i bought food for my 3 little sisters at home too! argh, i love my family so much but nowadays i seem to neglect them so much too! sigh.

went to guitar lesson with nana! hahas, chatting again! argh, this time round we are supposed to perform something for the teacher as birthday gift! hahas, nana and i were playing the guitar and not only that, we were singing too! OMG, hahas! i love the day because we played quite well! hahas!

alrights, i just know i got a silly dear*hiromi on sat! she is so sweet ah, suddenly say she misses me! OMG, i got a shock in my lyfe! hahas, such a sweet but silly dear! hahas, somemore i am going to teach her guitar soon as she wants to play songs for me! hahas, not bad ah! aniway study hard hor, hiromi dear and i will do what i am supposed to do, thats to study right =D love ya always ttttooooooo! HAHAS! muackies!

mr nonsense called me again! hahas, one night received 5 calls from him! somemore one is like early in the morning duno what time! argh, he is studying so hard always! takecare ah, mr nonsense!

18 SPET -SUN- i did not sleep till 5am+ in the morning! argh, i am so dumb to doze off! LIHUI, u this siao ding dong! who ask u to slp! argh, cries! whole day do nothing, just locked myself in my room and did not do anything at all! argh, i just could not let my mind settle down! sigh, such a big failure ah lihui!

i did not talk much today too. sigh, i dont know what is going on me! argh, lihui! i am feeling so sick! headahce, backache, slight flu! argh, sick? i dont wanna fall sick again!

finally completed my new EoM on 2.15am! argh, finally! i am afriad of what mrs yap will say again! sigh!

i dreamt of having SPA on 24th SEPT! argh, it is a sunday! argh, i am afraid when i woke up! such a scary dream i had! i told nana and vincent about it! argh, i am really really afraid, who can understand me?

nana, sorry for being so siao ding dong on sat nite again! hahas, u are forever so nice to forgive me! hahas! thanks for being such a wonderful bestie to me! aniway, take good care of ur eyes huh! go see doctor if it worsen! it is a must to see! hahas! LOVES-

shuhui*qingaide, ain*clown, kye*teddybear, anzel*teacher, brenda*mummy! I LOVE U GUYS SO MUCH! LOVES-

i am afraid now! i dont know what to do with myself. i guess i sleep too much this few days! i should not be sleeping so much always! i should sleep less! LIHUI, why are you sleeping so much! such a LAZY pig!

time should stop now! i want time to stop now! i really dont wanna it to pass because i am afraid of promos! i am really afraid that i do not wish to take the challenge at all. sigh, what can i do now and when can i concentrate?

i am not concentrating well i guess. i dont know what is bothering me again! i guess it is my own stress, pressure or illusions again! why am i having such a strange mind always! argh, someone please save me!

saw my primary school friend on sat on my way back home from CWP! hahas, he lives just next blk to me! hahas! he still look so like chinese and he looks still handsome ah! hahas! takecare ah shah!!!! hahas!

chatted with clar*jiemei! argh, he said something that really make me feel so sad! cries!

somethings is not the same anymore. this is not between one person but between a few people around me! sigh, it is because of my doings? sigh.

now is 3.33am! such a funny time! i guess i wont be sleeping anymore ba! argh, i am afraid to sleep because i dont wanna to dream! sigh!

i am going to let myself free from all those thoughts, the only thing i could do is to RUN or walk a long route! argh, someone please save me!

i am losing myself `
sigh.

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LOVEones > x) - Sep. 12, 2006 at 08:14 AM
MSN is active again! yay, i am happy!

KOH WEELING !!!!!! > BESTEST BUDDY!
JAZZREEL GOH !!!!!! > NU ER!
GARY KOH !!!!!! > SITTING PARTNER!
SERIOUSLY, I AM TOUCHED BY THEM! VERY VERY VERY TOUCHED BY THE 3 OF THEM! thanks for giving such a HUGE surprise for me! is really a big surprise for me! you guys never fail to make me touched always, especially KOH WEELING! u guys really make me feel like crying when i see them! HOW I WISH I COULD FLY TO U GUYS NOW AND GIVE U GUYS A BIG HUG! i really really really dont know how to express how much i love you guys! i really dont know how to express how touched am i too! i really could not use any words to describe how i feel! you guys just make me feel so alive, feel so touched, feel so fortunate, feel so happy, feel so thankful,! just so many feelings mixed up! argh, thanks the 3 of you, you guys never fail to be my side always! i love u guys! LOVES- friends4lyfe, no matter where we are (: i will never forget the good times we enjoy in our secondary school lyfe too! memories stay with me forever! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

today is a short school day for me but i got extra maths lesson! still end lesson early! hahas, i am still very active today! i am abit crazy too! stayed back with my CLIQUE! this time round i stayed back with xinfang, huiyang, shujuan, clarence, vinCENT, zhongxun! HAHAS! nice time doing my homework with them! this time round without my darling NANA so feel abit weird! nana went out with her rq! hahas, her bestie =D argh, nana i miss you! hahas! went home after that and met my senior junjie! hahas!

seriously, i dont know how can i express my love for those my love ones? i wish they could feel my love for them because i really could not find any ways to express my love out to them! I LOVE THEM! i really love all my friends!

mr NONSENSE aka mr vincente called me up again! it is like finally i answered his call and i feel so nice talking nonsense to him again! HAHAS! mr nonsense rocks!! hahas! he say he is not DAO, lets see! hahas!

omg, fangwen is funny today! hahas, i strongly agree with nana! he is funny ah! somemore he can show all his actions in MSN! omg, it just get so funny! hahas, act cute =x hahas! somemore he wanna sue me! hahas, so NONSENSE ah he! hahas!

tml i bringing nice chocolate for my LOVE ones in 12B! argh, i cannot afford not to love them because they are the one who bring me hopes in JC! seriously, without them, i dont know where will i belong too! without them, i cannot even study well i supposed. thanks for being by my side, never fail to give me up! (:

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MSN DOWN > bored =D - Sep. 11, 2006 at 08:11 AM
oh my god! i am still so active and energentic now! argh, someone please ask me to be stop being so active! HAHAS!

slept too much during sat and now causing me to be so energentic now! hahas, i cant even sleep for the last 2 nights! ARGH! i slept too much i think! hahas, should not be sleeping too much the next time! hahas!

i bought my bag! hahas, that bag i wanted long time ago! hahas, the CHECK one i will buy it the other time ba! hahas! asking my sister to buy maybe so can share share and use? hahas =D such a evil idea! hahas, cannot blame =D! hahas, i am happy because of the bag! at the same time, i felt so worried for the bag i am going to carry now! argh, someone please save me! hahas!

today is a long day at school and i am feeling so energentic! hahas, for the first time! hahas! oh ya, today school start early! hahas, 20 minutes earlier! hahas, was kind of sian diaos! hahas! so the first lesson is like 1hr and 20mins! OMG, hahas, thats like LONG?! hahas!

had tennis as PE lesson! hahas, OMG! IS FUN! just that i cannot control the ball well! so SIAN diaos de lo! hahas! then got 2 lectures! hahas, both chem and phy! hahas, i was attentive this time round because i am not TIRED! hahas, pro ba! hahas! first time being so attentive for lecture! hahas! DID AQ after that! OMG, i simply just wrote nonsense on the paper! arghh, sad! going to fail it! cries!

chinese lesson is fun today because we were simply just arguing! hahas! not arguing, should be debating ba! hahas! hahas, quite fun huh! hahhas! erm, end chinese lesson quite fast i supposed! hahas =D

went to CWP to have my dinner with my clique! hahas, just simply LOVE them! hahas, dinner is always nice with them! hahas, then went to the library with shujuan, vinCENT and zhongxun! hahas, after that, they accompany me to bishan to get my reserved bag! hahas, I AM HAPPY! hahas! thanks them so much! hahas!

my ah kor and i sms-ed today for the very first time! hahas, i am quite shock! hahas, erm, feel happy too! i just simply love my ah kor!

i am feeling somehow like sad, not because i am not happy with the bag! it is just that some times things happen too fast! i cant even stop the thing from happening! arghh, useless lihui!

i am thinking too much i think! argh, i should not care so much about what other people think at all! i should just dump whatever people think of me to one side of my mind! argh, i just cant stop thinking all these things! STOP STOP STOP! argh, lihui lihui lihui! i feel so useless when i could not do what i am supposed to do! just a simple of stop thinking i also cannot do that! SIAN DE LA! argh!

i am feeling different now! sad, i dont know what should i do now! i am giving up on something that are not meant to be mine at the first place! i am going to give up! argh, just keep telling myself, to let the person go means you are giving the person the best happiness he can ever get! (:

how could this happen to me, i made my mistake! argh, i feel so bad after doing some things, sorry! although i say sorry too many times, i just cannot afford not to say sorry to you since i think i am always at fault! trust me there wont be anymore time! arghh! sorry!

maybe it is the way i am showing to you make you feel that something is wrong! just trust me that, i am not those kind of people who make people to allow them to think much i supposed! i know myself well, so i know what can i do and what things i cant. i know what are the things for me and what are the things not for me! i am so sad when i let you feel this way!

i feel bad after treating you this way! argh, people see, people comment, people say! they really make me feel that i am so bad! ARGH, i am going to wake myself up with those badness!

seriously, i do have some problems which i cannot solve always! LIHUI, time to be independent and grow up ler! stop behaving like a little kid!

argh, screams!

msn down-
bored (:

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sadness > happiness - Sep. 09, 2006 at 09:56 AM
out of a sudden, i am feeling so strange. i am feeling sad. i am feeling lonely. i am feeling unwell. i am feeling different kind of pain in me. i am feeling down. i am feeling stress. i am feeling afraid. i am feeling bad. i am feeling so useless. i am feeling so weak. i am feeling tired. i feel like crying for no reasons.

my back is giving me big headache < sigh. i just dont want to see any doctor!

just slacked my day! i really did nothing for today, just went for my guitar lesson with nana!

qingaide is not feeling okie i think but she did not want to say it out only! however, she still come and asked whether i am okie? so touched by her always! thanks my qingaide! i hope she will be okie because i love her! HAHAS, i want my qingaide to be okie la! hahas, OH SHU HUI, must be okie if not i will be sad! hahas, LOVE ya always! LOVES-

'the more i love you, the more i have to avoid you.' < it is a very beautiful as well as a meaningful sentence to me! is sentence is taken from my qingaide!

i tried to put myself in a coma state! argh, i sleep alot alot today! i think i almost sleep the whole day! i did not feel anything better instead i feel worse! argh, why everyone told me sleeping is good because you will feel better after a good sleep! why didnt i feel the same as others? argh, screams*

i was having alot of thoughts in my mind. i was thinking about alot of things on the way back home from my guitar lesson. i questioned myself alot of things and i was not able to answer them.

should i feel useless because i cannot answer to my own questions at all. i cannot even figure what what is wrong with myself now. maybe that is the reason why i am feeling so strange now?

i did not tell anyone about anything nowadays. i just keep everything i had in me. i sealed them up in the bottle which i used to have always. i dont want anyone to be bother by my problems, i dont want to let people have extra burdens. i just keep everything silently to myself and i wish those thoughts will be remain in the bottle forever.

i am always a trouble to people. i created so many problems that i cannot even sloved them by myself. sorry guys, i always create so many problems. i am sorry.

sadness more than happiness. this is what i hated always. i rather sadness is the same as happiness or the other way round where happiness is more than sadness. if sadness is more than happiness, the only way to make myself happy is to turn all the sadness to happiness. this is the only way where people will feel best i think. a way of comforting myself and trying to convince myself that i got only happiness.

i always try to hold on to something which is going to be let go by me sooner. i am too stubborn to let go of anything i supposed. i always tell myself, lihui, this thing is not meant for you, whats the point of holding on to it? after scolding and telling myself all these, i will try to let it go but later on i will hold it on again! this is totally so nonsense! argh, lihui lihui lihui! just let it go and everyone around you will be happy about it.

why did you let me have the feeling that you are afraid of me. why did you let me have the feeling that we are not the same anymore. why did you let me have the feelings that you dislike me? why did you let me have the feelings that i am irritating to you? why did you let me have the feeling that you do not trust me anymore. sigh, am i over sensitive?

i had lost a friend recently. on the surface, we might remain as friends but deep in my heart i know i had lost her. i dont know what can i do.

i feel i have to take initiative always! thats what i really dislike? i dont like to take any initiative at all because i feel that whatever i do will only be wrong. sigh. why must i always be the one at fault? maybe it is because i am too bad! thats why i guess.

i may be always laughing in front of everyone and telling them that i am a very cheerful girl. who ever knows what am i thinking in my heart? i may be laughing on my face but bleeding in my heart. laughing is the best way to hide the sadness in me from others.

i am hiding, just dont want to face any cruel reality. i dont want to face anything that i dont like or to face anything that i am afraid. i dont want to face reality as reality is also cruel.

i always want to put a strong face in front of others. i dont want others to know that i am weak but how longer must i put that strong side of me? i am afraid that one day i will just show all my emotions out! sigh!

maybe i am just too tired, so i am feeling this way now.
just some random thoughts x)

i dont feel like sleeping tonight because there are too many things for me think! argh, go away all the thoughts.

=sign 0ff=

NICE DAY < LOVES- - Sep. 08, 2006 at 08:44 AM
FRIDAY! time passed so fast! REALLY SO FAST TILL I LOST MYSELF! argh, holidays are going to be over soon! seriously, i love holidays and i will miss holidays! holidays = spend more time with clique! I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE!

went back to school with nana, xinfang and huiyang today for phy consultation! hahas, OMG, i am so crazy! hahas! hmmm, did not really consult very long, just one and an a half hour! hahas! went in at 1pm and went out of the library at 230pm! hahas!

headed to admiratly to meet shujuan, zhongxun and vinCENT! hahhas, so nana, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT and me headed to TOWN! hahas, went to check our bags at check! then xinfang meet us at city hall or duno where! hahhas, then we went to bugis! hahas! went walk walk and see see!! then we went to eat our dinner? hahas! had a great time with me CLIQUE! hahas!

finally reached home at 7pm+ hahas! A NICE DAY WITH MY DEAREST CLIQUE AGAIN! hahas! LOVES-

i bought 2 ultraman badges today! it is so NICE and CUTE! i love ultraman =D

thanks mr nice vinCENT always! he always tried to lighten my LOAD! hahas, thanks for being such a nice guy! i hope whatever i do will make you feel much happy okie! hahas, remember what i told you and i will do what i promise him de! hahas! thanks always! it is always so nice with him around! so everyone, try to know him ba! hahas! LOVES-

xiaowei is so funny! he told me expensive things mean better quality! hahas. what only but quite true ba! hahas, he say i am easy to bluff! OMG, i feel like killing him! hahhas! thanks xiaowei! hahas! LOVES-

out of a sudden, i feel that i could no longer be myself. i found myself being such a fool. why am i such a fool. hais, lihui, time to stop being a fool.

i guess jc changed me alot. i am not the same lihui anymore. i told like no one else business. i feel that i dont know what is pai seh anymore. i feel that i am being too noisy. i feel that i am being too crazy. i feel that i am being too bad always! argh, screams! someone save me from all the thoughts please! SCREAMS!

dont ever link me with people who i hate. why did everyone wanna to link me with him which really make me feel like crying. i feel that i am always such an unlucky one to be link with people who i dont like at all. seriously, dont make me feel worse. i am already dying-

i am always over sensitive that will seriously make everyone around me feeling so unhappy always. sorry people. i feel so bad with my over sensitiveness too! i shall try not to be that way anymore.

concentration is always so hard for me! argh, can someone teach me how to concentrate well! i need guidance i think!

my back is aching so much till my stomach also aches! argh, i feel so sick now with backaches, headaches, flu and abit cough! argh, i dont wanan feel anything worse! sigh. i dont want to see doctor also! i dont want! argh, someone just cure me please!

why did you let me fall again. why why why! stop letting me fall while you walk away from me! argh, i dont know what am i feeling now! i should not let my mind run wild. i dont wanna have any thoughts of other anything! argh, stop making myself being such a fool!

i love the way back home always! (:

i miss the times always.
i wish the time will stop in the past always.
i am feeling sad.

i miss my xiaoxin so much now, where are you my dearest xiaoxin. dajie miss you so much!

=SIGN OFF=

HAPPY > <3myCLIQUE! - Sep. 07, 2006 at 07:37 AM
back to update my blog! my back gets a little better i supposed till i carried the back pack! argh, forget it because i dont wanna see a doctor! hahas!

went to school today! hahas, stayed in school until like 5+pm then we went off ler! hahas, today is the day that we went off the earliest! hahas! quite good i supposed! i had successful teached mr vinCENT how to fold little birds although he doesnt want to learn! hahas!

went to CWP! hahas, bought something for my dearest nana and mr nice vinCENT huh! hahaha, mr vinCENT looks so moody after dinner and i dont know why! hahas! anyway tml i shall give the rest to my dearest clique! hahas! nana and me are in loved with the bag which we saw and we wanna buy the same one! argh, excited!

went back home with mr vinCENT! hahas, i was very scared of giving him the things i am supposed to give! haha, just feel that guys will think it is so BO LIAO! haha, i still gave in the end! hahas, i am brave! =D aniway i wanna to thanks him for carrying my bag always although my bag is not willingly to be with him! hahas! i also want him to be happy eh because he looks real moody! hahhas, try to get more sleep okie! hahas, thanks for being so NICE to me always! NICE PEOPLE RULES ME! hahas! oh ya, thanks for the trip back home! LOVES-

oh ya! i bought a toy today but it lost half of it! BIG BIG SIGH! ARGH! SAD! i find it so funny when i lost my toy and nana, huiyang, shujuan, vinCENT and zhongxun were helping me to look for it too! hahas, it is so funny but sweet! I LOVE THEM!

tml there is conslutation with mr ang! hahas!

seriously, i love my clique! thanks!

did alot of quiz just now! hahas, quite fun i supposed! hahas!

the reason for being happy is simple - to be loved and love others.

i love the way it is now. i am happy because of many reasons! hahas, thanks!

why am i still wasting the time now when i know i got no more time left! argh, when will me feel the heat! i know i am slow in learning when i am still wasting all the time i had? argh, seriously there is something wrong in me which i do not know as well. sigh, time is running out!

i guess is time for me to be awake now!

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nice day < happy =D - Sep. 06, 2006 at 07:51 AM
BOO! back to update my blog with my backbone still aching! argh, it aches so much especially at night! i cannot stop the pain! help! hahas!

today went to school with my clique-nana, shujuan, huiyang, zhongxun and vinCENT again for chinese lecture! hahas, my first ever chinese lecture! I SUPPOSED i didnt pay much attention to it as i was busying laughing! hahas, nana, jinlong, fangwen and clarence make me laugh so much! omg, i was telling them how one of the teacher in sec4 read my name! she actually saw the liHui as liNui! argh! terrible! hahas, then jinlong started saying lame things! OMG, it is so funny still! hahas, it get so funny when the part i said something to fangwen! OMG, am i still lihui! hahahas!

after chinese lecture had lunch with my clique-nana, huiyang, xinfang, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, clarence!! this time round got 2 more friends- yiling and mingli who are close friends of my clique! hahas! had a very wonderful lunch! hahas, i love my clique! hahas!

went to library after that! argh, the librarians are so OVER! haha, went to the foyer at 3pm+ to study again? hahas! nana and clarence went off first because nana's friend coming her housE! finally went home at 6+pm with huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun and vinCENT! hahas, is a nice trip back home always! hahas!

anyway today read my laoda's webby again! seriously, i am falling in love with his webby for sure! i just get so addicted to his webby! once i go to his webby, i can stuck there for hours reading all the things! argh, i love his webby so much! hahas!

i feel strange somehow, a feeling which i cant even describe with words. i dont know why am i feeling this way! are we drifting apart not on surface but in our hearts? am i thinking too much again? did i have a wrong feeling? i hope there is someone there to tell me what is the real feelings now.

i do not wish to face you again because i know i will be lost in front of you. i will be not lihui in front of you. i will not be able to do what am i supposed to do in front of you.

i am afraid to be lost again x(

it's too far away for me to hold... guess i'll let it go < should i ?

i am afraid to fall again/ sigh `
think i have fallen -

out of a sudden, i wanna go back to the past so much when i browse through my photos.

=sign off=

BACK HURTS < SCREAMS ! - Sep. 05, 2006 at 08:50 AM
ARGH! my back hurts so much now! it is like getting from bad to worse! i wonder how am i going to survive~! I AM STILL strong i supposed so i will sure survive! hahas!

today went to school with my clique! hahas, before that mr vinCENT meet me! hahas, he cute la dont know how to come and still say want come find me! hahas, CUTE AH HE! hahas! then went to woodlands interchange to find nana, huiyang and shujuan! hahas, sad to say zhongxun didnt come with us! is fun coming to school with people that i love! hahas!

went for my GP lesson! omg, i am very tired! hahas, feel like sleeping~! hahas! didnt do the AQ test because the class managed to stop ms ester leong from giving us the test! HAHAS! after that went to have lunch with my clique again! hahas~! LOVES-

nana, xinfang, huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, clarence and lifeng! all of us went to eat at vista point again! ate and went back to school again without lifeng!! the clique is effective today ah because all of us did our maths! HAHAS! WE ARE PROUD TO SAY THIS! hahahas!

went at 6.30pm+ to CWP to have my dinner! hahas! went to have dinner with my clique again! HAHAS! LOVES- i got too full i supposed! the noodles! omg, i am so full! hahas! reached back home finally at 9pm!! hahas, omg, i am tired!

mr vinCENT! thanks okie! the bag carrier of mine and the one who always listen to me! hahas, i am so so so touched okie! hahhas! oh ya, he is the first one to manage to get me on bed for like hmm, about 6 or 7 hours? hahhas! thats so PRO! hahas! thanks okie! stop arguing with me! LOVES-

thanks NANA for saving my lyfe! hahas, u are so nice always to me! bestest bestie rocks! LOVES-

LIM FANG WEN AND TAN JIN LONG ARE SUCH NICE PEOPLE TO ME! hahas, i am greatly happy to know that in my lyfe! thanks for bullying me! thanks for helping me to establish my career huh! hahas! I REALLY NEED TO THANKS U GUYS! hahas, thanks for all the bully thing but it is so fun! we are still the same as before! hahas, i am so happy! argh, no words can describe how i feel! just feel so happy! thanks for the wonderful chat and bully! hahahas! I LOVE THEM! I LOVE MY PW GROUP ALSO! HAHAS! LOVES-

i am so bad to hurt someone! sorry jiemei! i guess u are really hurt this time round! i hope u will be fine okie! no matter what, i will be there for you surely!

i wanted to forget you, but i forgot to!
maybe i really need a long time to do so.

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LOVE 0612B < SCREAMS ! - Sep. 04, 2006 at 07:31 AM
I AM FEELING SO SWEEET AND HAPPY NOW JUST BECAUSE OF A TURTLE! hahas! my class is such a kind and sweet class! everyone put the turtle for the croc hunter!

If u haven't heard already, Steve Irwin-crocodile hunter died today on the 4th of September, on the Batt Reef, near cairns. "He came on top of the stingray and the stingray's barb went up and into his chest and put a hole into his heart " As a sign of respect for the Australian tural icon, please place a turtle ( tu ) at the start of ur msn name and forward this message to others pls spread!

i feel the love from the class! i really really love this class! this class forever making me feeling so sweet and nice! hahas, I LOVE 12B! even mr ang is also a nice teacher! hahas, i love mr ang too! hahas! i really really love 12B! i hope we will last forever! there is no end to JC lyfe! there is no end to our friendship! I LOVE 12B; I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS MY LOVE FOR YOU GUYS!

today went to school for PW lecture! hahas, the OP lecture! argh, i am feeling so nervous always for that! i wonder will i be able to overcome the fear in me? hahas, i believe i can because there is 12B with me! hahas!

after pw lecture went to have my lunch with nana, shujuan, huiyang, jinlong, vinCENT, zhongxun and clarence at vista point! omg, it is such a great lunch with them again! hahahs! that clarence is abit siao ding dong! cannot really tahan him la but he is nice! hahas!

then went back to school with nana, huiyang, shujuan, clarence, vinCENT and zhongxun to study and also do PW! hahas! clarence went off early! hahas! then we didnt study because quite a few do not have the mood to study so in the end we went to CWP instead! hahas!

went to eat and also walk around at CWP! hahas, vinCENT and zhongxun bought lifeng's b'dae gift! hahas! such nice friends ah they! hahas! the rest of us just went hahahas! finally went back home at around 7pm! hahas! it is raining!

the moments in CWP are forever so sweet and nice!i love the time i spend with my clique! hahas, oh ya! i am too dumb to know that the MMS vinCENT send to me got music! hahas! i just know today! hahahas! it is so funny! hahas!

i love my clique! hahahas! thanks for being so nice and sweet to me always!

my back hurts so much! argh, i dont wanna go and see a doctor again! sigh! what should i do?

called my qingaide to chat just now! hahas, OMG! i miss my times chatting with her and talking to her everything! hahas, now i am singing to her! i am being such a crazy little girl! i miss teddybear's voice too! too bad her dinner came home late x( hahas! i miss qingaide < shuhui, clown < ain, teddybear < kye, teacher < anzel and mummy < brenda! argh! i miss them! LOVES!

his words still make me feel that i cant bring back the friendship between he and me! what can i do? i really got no ideas on what to do in order to make things the same again! i really did not hate you, trust me!

little things can make me happy for the whole day! LOVES-

i feel happy whenever i feel so sweet! hahas! i love 12b for sure! i love my clique for sure too! i love all my friends for sure too! hahas!

somehow i am missing xiaoxin now! LOVES-

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mixedUP < x( - Sep. 03, 2006 at 09:05 AM
HI EVERYONE! hahas, today did nothing ah! hahas, just went out with my meimei and didi! hahas, went to changi airport there! OMG, just went there and walked around! hahas! then we went to CWP to buy wadd my mummy wants us to buy! then finally reached home at 7+pm! hahas! i love spending my time with my siblings! i love my family too! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

i am feeling so sad when one of my friends keep insisting that i hate him! i really really dont hate him at all! why did he wants to keep insist that i hate him, i really dont know why! he told me that he believe his instinct more than my words. sigh` i really got speechless when he said that! i dont know what more can i say! sorry is all i can say! just to say again! i dont hate you at all!

i am feeling bad because i am behaving too over! i should seriously learn how to control myself! dont get too much! just remember to think of people's feelings and thoughts! i didnt know my limits always! i didnt know what is others limits too! i really got no brain at all! i cant even feel what others feel! am i a human?

i guess i had been speaking too much all these times! seriously i just cant keep myself silent for a minute! i just cant behave myself always! i dont have my image always! please make lesser noise ah lihui!

lihui, time to grow up! his words strike me and make me to grow up! sigh. is time is time is time for me to grow up!

i must learn how to survive by myself without anyone by my side. i guess is really time for me to learn things! to be independent and to be strong! i must not cry too often! dont get too emotional!

xiaowei got a shock when i share the background picture with him! hahas! he look so cute in the picture! hahas! aniway i must really really thanks him for yesterday! i told him what happen and ask him for advice! hahas! thanks xiaowei! my nicest and cutest friend! hahas! LOVES-

thanks mr vinCENT too! hahas, thanks for hearing my words and stuff! thanks for sending me his first ever MMS! hahas, thanks! the picture of the MMS i will keep for lyfe for sure! hahas, thanks! LOVES-

nana is funny and she says my nick is funny!
nana's nick : tell me when will the wind stop
lihui's nick : to nana: i also dont know when the wind will stop!
i love my BESTEST bestie always! LOVES-

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the WEEK < LOVES- - Sep. 02, 2006 at 05:55 AM
BOO! i am back to update my blog! a week and a day that i did not update my blog le ah! hahas! getting abit rusty liao! hahas!

26 august-sat! a free day for me i supposed! only went for my guitar lesson in the evening with nana! hahas, talking all the way again! yay, we are going to intermediate ler! finally! hahas! guitar lesson rocks (: i only remember doing my homework until i only sleep at 6am+! hahas, i was very very stress when doing my homework!

27 august-sun! went to meet vinCENT at morning dont know what time, 10am i supposed! i also forget liao! hahas! we- nana, shujuan, xinfang, zhongxun and me going his-vinCENT house to play and study! hahas! i was busy doing my sketch book! omg, it is so irritating! i dont like to do midmap! i do until i also wanna cry liao! we play the cluedo! omg, i am too dumb! everyone know the murderer while i am still guessing who is the murderer! argh, somemore play 2 rounds, i didnt even get to guess fully and correctly for both games! ARGH, sad! hahas! played, studied, do homework, chat until 7pm then we went HOME! hahas! went home and continue the last 2 topics for my sketch book! hahas, did not get to sleep again due to my chem test on monday! argh, oragnic chem is killing me! somemore still got equilibrium and kinetics reaction < forget how to spell! hahas! all my killer topics! CRIESSS*

28 august-mon! a long day at school again! had my chem test! argh, i feel so stress and panic before the chem stress test! sian, i am so pek chek with the test eh! argh, someone save me from organic chem pls! sigh! went to library with shujuan, zhongxun, huiyang and vinCENT! hahas, reached home at 10+pm! hahas, went to eat my dinner with nana, xinfang, shujuan, huiyang, zhongxun, vinCENT and clarence! hahas, i love them! hahas! oh ya! is my dearest hothot sweet lao da b'dae that day! hahas, called him and wished him happy b'dae! i was the last to wish him! hahas, happy b'dae laoda! hahas, i love my lao da always! hahas!

29 august-tues! a short day for school! lend my vedio camera to clarence for the sake of his pw grp! hahas, i was so dumb! hahas, too dumb till i video without taking the video camera cover out! hahas, kel*happy fruit told me because i was wondering why no matter where i video also black one eh! hahas! dumb! hahas, went to eat my dinner with them again but without xinfang, clarence! hahas! love love love them! hahas! oh ya! is huiyang b'dae! hahas! so happy belated huiyang! hahas, all the best in wadeva u do! hahas, loves from me always! take care my dearest mistress! hahas!

30 august-wed! 12am! nana and clarence called me up and sing a lot of version of b'dae song to me! hahas! thanks! u guys are so great in my heart! hahas! LOVES- got alot of wishes from all my friends too! hahas! thanks! hahas, a short school day for me again! hahas, had the pop talents programme after school! very very nice, thats all i can say! hahas! do our pw after the pop thing! hahas, my group is so lame la! hahas! i love my pw grp, nana love too! hahas! IJC037 is always the best ever! hahas! went home late because nana and i were waiting for our friends! hahas! went home with nana, huiyang, shujuan, zhongxun, vinCENT, clarence and linkai! hahas, went to eat our dinner too! hahas! always a nice nice day with them around! oh ya, nana thanks for the best wonderful flower i ever received! thanks! loves-

31 august-thurs! teachers' day celebration is nice at ijc! hahas, only got very depressed due to some matters! well, it is all over so i shall forget it! hahas! thanks nana, shujuan, huiyang, xinfang, zhongxun, vinCENT, jinlong, fangwen, linkai, clarence for not giving me up always! u guys are so great till i do not know how to thanks u all! i really really love u guys, i can never ever live well without u guys at all! hahas! i love u guys, always always! went back to rss with dawei! OMG, i miss rss! hahas, i was behaving like a little monkey when i went back! hahas, i just cant stop jumping for a minute! i get to see so many people who i love also! 5/1 is always the best! hahas, went out with them, is always a very nice time! hahas~ i hoppe the 5/1 spirits in us will never die! hahas! LOVES!!

i received a hug from faizal law! omg, the feeling is nice i tell u guys! hahas! the time i spend with my secondary school mates make me feel like going back to my secondary school life! i realy really misss those times! i really really wish time will to pass slowly or stop! memories of us will always remain in my heart, always!

1 sept-fri! hahas, went out to play pool with shujuan, xinfang, huiyang, zhongxun and vinCENT! hahas! a very very nice day again! play pool from 10am to 2 or 3pm! hahas! went to have our lunch and we went to bukit panjang plaza! hahas, the first time i am taking LRT! hahas, i was just so excited! hahas! i am always behaving like a kid and to my clique, i am just 3 years old! hahas! i can be very very crazy till i jump to sit on those put in coins then it will start to move thing, i will go and play with the kids in the playground and smiling and laughing with them! argh, i am going to behave myself! i am going to get the picture that i was on the kids' vehicles picture from vinCENT! haha! it looked funny i think! hahas! lihui, time to grow up! hahas! my day was great with them again! hahas! LOVES-

2 sept-sat! hahas, went to do CIP with nana, xinfang and clarence! linkai was not feeling well, so take care eh! hahas, nana and me saw the biggest bird ever! OMG, it is just so big that some are more than half of my height i supposed! hahas! i am so scare of all those big birds! hahas, they are cute, noisy, big and funny i supposed! hahas! the uncles are nice! hahas! i just love working and talking craps with all different kind of people! hahas! went to tour around the JBP with them after our CIP! hahas! we agreed the next time we are going to buy back home a lot of things from JBP! reached home at 6+pm! no guitar lesson suddenly, i dont know the reason! so i rest myself at home! hahas!

tml is sunday! most probably slacking and resting at home! hahas, i am going to school with my clique during the one week break to study hard! hahas! cant wait to study with them! hahas! i love them them them! LOVES! hahas!

xiaoxin! OMG, seriously i love my xiaodi so much! thanks for being my support always! a person who i can turn to always, i love ya always! hahas, takecare hor! LOVES-

mr nonsense! sorry that i dozed off yesterday! i feel so bad when u called and i feel asleep! sorry! thanks for all ur chats always! hhahas! LOVES-

i love alot alot of people! i just dont know how to express my love for the people sometimes! i wish they could always feel my love for them! the love i have for them will never never die or fade away! LOVESSSSSSSSS-

to give up is never a easy thing to do, i am going to give up! i cant possible hold on to it i think! i cant hold on to the grip anymore, so i am going to let it go. time fade feelings always, all i need is just time i supposed! how much time i need depends on myself. i guess i will need a long time!

he didnt even remember you at all! it realy really hurts me to accept the reality! some told me maybe he is just too busy so it slip out of his mind or he doesnt want to remember! argh, why cant you just remember me for this time. i did not ask much i supposed! just remember me for once, thats all i want.

i am tired, just get too tired to go on anymore. i dont wanna to run away from anything anymore. whenever i choose not to run, i will get very depressed! whenever i choose to run, i will get very troubled over it! so what to do!

never ever make me fall and ask me to stand up again. i am not that strong i supposed, i cant afford to stand up and be the same anymore! i am just too emotionally! sigh`

special thanks to-
zhikuan*tangge!
gengyuan*tangdi!
xiaoxin*bestest boyfriend`xiaodi!
weeling*bestest BUDDY`laogong!
serene*bestest friend`nu er!
nana*darling`laopo`bestest bestie!
vera!
shuhui*qingaide!
ain*dumbclown!
kye*teddybear!
huize*teacher!
brenda*mummy!
allena*laoxiao!
huiyang!
shujuan!
vinCENT!
zhongxun!
jinlong*LEADER!
clarence*haojiemei!
yusi*bestest girlfriend!
poixin*bestest girlfriend`ultrawoman`darling!
jinger*sweet lao po!
hiromi*dear!
marvin*lao pa!
cheewei*korkor!
shiqi*meimei!
anita*meimei!
pey lih*meimei!
shuyi*meimei!
macgyver*didi!
tania*nu er` lover!
timjang*nu er!
jieying*nu er!
jazzreel*nu er!
angeline*nu er!
michelle*nu er!
kelvin*happyFRUIT!
veeling*primary school bestest friend!
laisheng*doctor!
hasanah!
yiwen!
amaluna!
yilin!
kuanyen!
faizal!
garyKOH!
dawei!
junxian!
tinshen!
ginny!
peiying!
jackson!
fanella!
gina!
pearl!
mingfan!
wenping!
cher fu!
caroline!
cynthia!
iyis!
nisha! < she wants to be the last!

thanks!

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when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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