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Sunday, October 08, 2006

back in action!-

BOO! i am back to update finally after my promos!

finally promos is over, but i dun feel happy somehow! some strange feelings which i am unable to describe? A level MT and PW? sigh. dont know!

promos is terrible! i did badly for sure! argh, i can kill myself now or later i guess! last friday, my GP paper and MT paper, oh no! i am like worry till crazy for my GP! i know i wont do well, but that day, it is worse than what i expected! sigh! MT paper, the most unpredictable topic come out! totally sian diao ah! argh! >.< somemore it is so funny that, mr nonsense actually ask me about that chinese topic the day before the MT paper! OMG, his sixth sense so accurate! ARGH >.<

after that was my MATHS & ECONS on monday! CHEMISTRY on tuesday! PHYSICS on wednesday! then i am done with that! argh! EVERYTHING IS SO ARGH especially the CHEMISTRY! i just cant recall what i studied at all! not a single thing, how pathetic it was! phy, i dont even recall what i read before exams! sigh! a big trouble for me now! i am worried of being able to get promoted or not! anway thanks mr nonsense, he never fails to call me everyday just to have little chats with me! THANKS! hahas!

after physics paper, we waited for nana and clarence to end their geo papers! xinfang, shujuan, huiayng, zhongxun, vincent, linkai and me played table tennis while waiting for them! then we went to ate seoul garden with nana, juan, zhongxun, linkai, vincent, clarence and jeffery! really had fun there! hahas, I LOVE my CLIQUE! hahas, they are such loving people! hahas, making my lyfe so wonderful! hahas! thanks! bought something for them after the dinner! hahas, although is abit funny, but it the thoughts that count! LOVES-

after exams then got PW to do already! OMG, PW! i still prefer life with things to do, so i love PW so much now! hahas, did pw on thurs and fri! OMG, we are just having all jokes! all funny and lame jokes! we even lame and joke in msn too! OMG, we are seriously nuts! and omg, i love IJ037! hahas! the days with them are always so great! we got PW outing on FRIDAY! omg, it is so great!!!! argh, had lunch with them and we went to take NEOPRINTS! hahas, omg! nana and me feel so sweet after taking the neoprints! hahas! then nana and me went sitting at a corner talking about our lifes again! then saturday went back school to do PW again! ahhas, was quite fun to be with them again! i really love them too much! hahas, PW also seem nice with them ard! LOVES!-

SKIP my guitar lesson because my father's cousin is getting married! hahas, go for his wedding dinner! hahas, quite nice i guess! hahas, all my relatives are so fun and they are nice! hahas, talked to many relatives! hahas! I LOVE my family! hahas! i LOVE I LOVE I LOVE! screams*

today went out with xinfang, shujuan, zhongxun, vincent and jeffery! hahas, we went to play pool at jurong east there! hahas! NICE TIME WITH THEM! played from duno wadd time to 1pm+ hahas! then we went for our lunch! hahas! ate KFC then went to yishun only with xinfang, vincent and jeffery!! HAHAS, tour tour ard and play play ard! hahas, vincent wanna get his comic but dun have! hahas, so we walked until ard 6 then go home ler! hahas! a NICE DAY OUT WITH THEM! hahas! LOVES-

chatted with my xiaoxin*xiaodi sunday 1am+! OMG, i am so happy to chat with him again! ARGH, simply miss him so much! i like 3 weeks no talk to him at all liao! really miss talking to him so so so much! although we sms each other on friday! hahas! just miss him so much always always! hahas! hahas, as usual he is so nice and sweet always! HAHAS, no wonder is my bestest boyfriend ah! thanks xiaoxin! hahas! he still very cute ah, he ask me to come for his wake because he scare his eng will fail then he die ah! omg, hao de bu xue, huai de xue! hahas! anyway, then i started to lame with him by acting in the msn again! hahas! I LOVE my xiaoxin! argh! DAJIE really loves xiaodi! hahas! MISSES and LOVES-

chatted with shuhui*qing ai de! hahas, sms brenda*mummy! chatted with ain*dumb clown! chatted with kye*teddy bear! just chat with anzel*teacher yesterday night! hahas! OH NO! i miss them! really miss them so much! hahas! remember promise qing ai de to bring her out! hahas! rememeber promise mummy and teacher to meet up soon! remember telling teddybear that i am going to stick with her everyday after my promos! hahas! going to spend my time with them more! HAHAS! lets go out soon! really miss them so much! didnt get to chat with them, didnt get to update each other's lyfe! argh, just miss them so much till i could not say how much i miss them! I LOVE THEM! LOVES-

chatted with my BESTEST BUDDY KOH WEE LING! hahas! she asked me to update my blog! see BESTEST BUD! I UPDATED! hahas, dont u feel happy or honoured! hahas, the last met was on teachers' day! seriously, i did not spend much time with her at all! ARGH, sorry bestest bud! i shall make up for that okie! hahas, somemore her present is still my house! omg, fungus are all growiing on top of it liao ah! hahas! her b'dae is on 24MAY and the present is still in my house?! OMG, thats terrible ah LIHUI! going to meet her up soon and spend time talking to her! always did not manage to go any class outing i guess! hahas, I MISS BESTEST BUD KOH WEE LING and i miss 5/1 TOO! LOVES-

chatted with my SLP*jinger! HAHAS! she is still as mad as before! still as funny as before! still as crazy as before! she is still as my SLP as before! hahas, simply love this SLP so much! thanks for being so nice to me always! going to bring her out one day, as promised!LOVES-

i chatted with my dear`wife! HIROMI! hahas! OMG, she this SIAO ding dong la! dont get too stress till siao ah! i think she already siao liao ah! she already wanna start planning if she fails her GP! what kind of dear i have! OMG, so terrible! DEAR AH DEAR! dont worry okie! LOVES-

i chatted with xiaowei too! hahas, talked to him about the midcourse! dont worry so much ah xiaowei! i believe u can do it de ah! hahas, so must got believe in urself too! hahas! he is such a nice guy and clever guy! hahas, choose to die together with the girl she likes! so no one suffers! why didnt i think of that? hahas, he is so clever to know who is mr nonsense! hahas, so clever ah! LOVES-

everday also chat with my mr nonsense! he is forever such a nonsense! hahas, but he is nice! he allow me to do anything to his friendster acc and also his MLG! hahas, i can go in as and when i like! hahas, THANKS mr nonsense! both of us are going to shopping after the nightmare come back! if really things happen, we will be gone! hahas, somemore we had a funny deal with each other! the first is either i slap him or he scold me! the second is either he slap me or i scold him! had lots of chats with him! hahas, saturday and sunday he is like so funny! i think he is mad at night! thanks ah! and I GOT CHOCOLATE ON next monday that means tml! hahas! he is so funny to ask what choco i like? hahas! such a nonsense guy ah he! hahas! then today 12+am we were like argugiing! hahas! he so nonsense one la! hahas, go movie no ask me den of cos i go play pool also dont wanna ask him along la! hahas! den he everyday sms sms sms! den he say me everyday msn msn msn! so like wadd onli la! hahas! ROJAK IS NICE AH? omg! dun like =x! he told me such funny incident that really pissed him off while make me feel so funny and i am laughing like omg!! such a funny guy! hahas! hahas! OMG! mr nonsense told me that he bought chocolate that he feels it like me to me! OMG, screams! HOW CAN HE DO THIS TO ME! hahas, so bad! tml i am getting my choclate with nice plastic bags! HAHAS, such a nice boy! hahas, he is so funny, he really can make me laugh when i am so sad or angry! hahas! he is so nice ah, my mr nonsense rocks! aniway just wanna to thanks him so much! LOVES LOVES LOVES-

linkai wanna make me die ah today! he told me that someone go to my blog! ARGH, scrreams! i nearly die! hahas! aniway he still tell me the truth later on! so nonsense ah he! hahas! PW rocks ah linkai! hahas, leader fainted =x hahas! lets report ah! LOLS!

i made someone angry today! someone who is so nice to me always and someone who always listen to what i wanna to say! argh, i admit i am foolish! how can i did such things when i promise him le ah! argh, i feel like dashing out the road and die! i feel like giving myself a million of slaps! i feel like killing myself! i know no matter how many sorry i say or whatever i do, things wil never be the same anymore. just that it is the trust between 2 people. trust between anyone, i would say it is like sandcastle! it is always difficult to build it up, but if just one little wrong step, the whole thing will just collapse! so due to my carelessness, the sandcastle between he and i had collapse down! so no matter what i do now or how much effort i put in, i just could not build it up again! before this sandcastle collapse, the trust between us is never strong before! now instead of buliding the sandcastle stronger, i went to make it collapse! sigh. how dumb can i be? argh, i really feel so angry with myself. i really feel so bad! i just could not forgive myself now even when he say nvm, dont think about it and stuff. i just could not stop thinking about it at all. i dont know what else can i do to build the sandcastle up again! if time will to turn back, i will never make such a silly mistake again! i will never, but sad to say, time will never be turn back. so what more can i do? can someone tell me what more can i do?

furthermore, this is not the first time i guess! he is always very nice and forgive me millions and millions of time, i just did not cherish all his forgiveness and did not learn not to make the mistake again! instead, i made my mistake again and again! i know i am such a idiot person who do not know how to learn from my mistake! when can i actually learn all my mistake? when! i wonder why am i so dumb to make my mistake again and again! not only that, i always do things without thinking about its consquences! then when the things actually become worse, i will then start blaming myself. however i know, it it always too late for me to feel guilty and sorry about it now. i should not have done it at the first place. all this can just blame that brainless lihui! sigh.

i am so sorry for my own actions and i dont expect you to trust again or to forgive me because i am really that idiot this time round. but anyone willing turn back my time just for this? i am sorry once again!

i am talking to my mr nosense now! he is still so funny now! so nonsense! thanks ah mr nonsense! hahas! LOVES-

well, thats all! everyone takecare and goodbye! hahas!

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