somewhere over the rainbow;

Friday, October 05, 2007

sick >.<

i am sick again, and that is so irritating. i want to get recover fast and hope that my toes infection will get better as well. i had been wearing slippers to school this week, it was pretty cooling ah! hahas, well, if not my toes will be worse! >.<

chatted with my buddy like many days/weeks ago! we were talking about serious stuff, it was rather a heart-to-heart buddy chat and i really enjoyed it! thanks buddy along! oh ya, buddy come back from shanghai without me knowing ah! you this buddy, good la! come back liao den forget me is it! i am going to ignore you then you know! well, i still love my bestest buddy! (:

something is better to be left unsaid. the reason is because i do not wish for any unhappiness, tension, coldwar, fight, or i do not want to be so sensitive. sometimes i would rather avoid than facing the reality. i know i am such a loser for doing such things, but i cant bring myself to be so strong and firm. i know i would most probably teared if i am going to do anything, i just feel so emo recently. i find it hard to accept the emo me as well, i just cant be that joyful and happy-go-lucky, i wonder what is wrong. the emo me has really caused me alot of troubles and unhappines as it makes me to tear much more easily and i feel that i am really so omg, super useless to cry over silly things. however i am still afraid that i would went crying for one day, i just pray that i wont do that. for now, i just do not wish to say anything to avoid any problems to arise.

why would the person who hurt you always be the one that you love and care for? i dont understand, and that does not mean that you should not love or care for someone anymore. the reason is because i am being troubled by something, i do tell myself that i should not be so sensitive and things will be better if i look from a different point of view. however, i failed to do it, or you can say that i cant do it. so for now, i was rather confused on what should i do, i do not wish to think about it as well.

things get better, you will be happy for it. i cant deny that i was happy for it as this is what i wished for along. however, it caused another things to occur because of it. so what should i do or what should i choose? alrights, i dont know it as well. sigh, lets hope things get better before i become real crazy. i wish for the best, and of cos happiness!

ONE LIFE,
LIVE IT!
how far do you agree with this statement?

alrights, just hope things get better! everyone takecare and goodbye (:

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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