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Saturday, February 25, 2006

confused- BECAUSE OF YOU!

saturday is a boring day! i am sure christinaNANA agree with me! LOL! alrights, supposed to do homework but i didnt do huh. at home slack! LOL! like wadd only lorh! but is fun slacking and i will do my homework later on and of course continue tomorrow!!
JINGER! she is a siao ding dong larh! she is as crappy as me! which really make me feel so nice chatting with her! LOL! we chat about nonsense! remember yesterday was the first time i met her, then we seem like enemy liddat! bu we are not! LOL! funnny sia! LOL! she is damn cute sia! SMS me when she kenna DC! lol! damn funny, i got a shock larh. haha! somemore she can UN-CHOCKED! lols. that is totally over! well, she will see this MSG for her right! she must be so happy now! happy over the MOON! she must be yay-ing larh! that siao char bo! LOL! oh ya, she ask me whether i blog about her yesterday? LOL! alrights, i will blog about her cute-ness i found in her! JING ER! U ARE SO CUTE THAT MAKE ME FEEL SO LALALA! can? haha! she is siao overall and jia you for ur common test! :X
XIAOXIN*XIAODI! he is having common test next week! OH NO! so fast! haha, ahjie`best friend wish you good luck in advance okie! i know my xiaodi can do it de! jia you xiaoxin! LOL! dont over stress or wadd larh! remember no matter what happens, i will be there for you.
SWEETlaoda! just now asked him one Q about whether his school PE T will fly or not! then when i say he nice, he >.< so i say he sweet, then he say its okie huh! LOL! like wadd onli larh! how i know what he wants sia! he is both nice and sweet cos he is my SWEETlaoda!
shigehisa no online. he is out for sure! argh, so sad one larh! feeling so terrible now! i am missing him so much again! again so much! i really cannot dont see him online sia! if not i will go around sian sian sian! LOL! i really really miss him x( can he like faster come back and online! SHIGEHISA! FASTER COME BACK CAN OR NOT! I MISS YOU LIKE SIAO LIAO LARH! haha, I MISS HIM
alrights, someone is anxious about my msg for her! LOL! that siao jing er larh! i am dying to see shigehisa to online now! < HE ONLINE NOW FINALLY! HOHO! so goodnites and everyone sleep well okie! hehe!

Feb. 24, 2006 at 06:56 AM >>> <3
BOO! back to update here and then will transfer everything back to blogger.

shigehisa send me nonsense photos which make me really ~.~ sian dia0z larh! haha. he got so high for phy larh den come hao lian to me >.< so like wadd onli lorh! only 4 marks higher than me nia! no big deal! he is funny, find the smallest face in one of the photos den send it to me! LOL! how to expect me to see? LOL! thats so OVER larh. somemore running away from camera larh! he says he look no good in photograph! LOL! wadd onli larh. real person looks good can ler wadd! why so nonsense? he send me so many of his teacher photos! OMG, what the use of seeing his teacher =/ he is like so BO LIAO lorh! more BO LIAO than me larh! LOL! see his teacher, i rather see him larh! cause i know him wadd. his teacher i dont really know huh! LOL! sian diaoz larh he! LOL! he is OGL! omg really OGL! his classmates going to be OGL of WALLA WALLA! how i hope, if time will to turn back, i will ...... let me be in WALLA WALLA! i wanna see how is the fate of us. are we fated or unfated. LOL! i miss him loads, seriously! i <3 him loads too, seriously! LOL!

you make me regret for not doing something which i want to do for a long time.
am i so stupid that i choose not to do what you dont want in the past?
but now everything change because of you.
you do the things you dont want in the past.
i do not do things that you dont want.
am i really fool, i feel i am already one.
why you changed? why i changed?
you changed because of your di or your class?
i changed because of you or my class?
since when i become so guai and ting hua,
listen to every single word you say and dont do the things that you dont want.
give me one more chance, i will do those things, for sure.
i am afraid, afraid of alot of things.
i am afraid that something will really change you and me.
i dont want to see the change as currently is good.
the feelings is just so not good and not nice.
the words you say really make me feel like banging myself against the wall and die.
really feel like dying when the time you say so much things about what you doing.
i really feel so regret that i just feel so ARGH!
can i just turn back time now!!
give me one more chance, let me turn back!
i will do whatever i want! please.
i dont want to live in regret, i am already living in a life full of regrets now!
can die because of so many regretsssssssssssss.
WHY! WHY! WHY!
why am i so dumb! why!

i have fallen, i think so.
i dont know where to go.
i dont know which to follow.
there is nothing in front of me, to lead me through.
maybe because of you, i learn to be stronger.
maybe because of you, i learn to be happier.
maybe because of you, i learn to be guai.
maybe because of you, i learn what is right&wrong.
maybe my heart no longer the same.
maybe my mind no longer the same.
maybe i am not the same lihui anymore.
i wonder if you ever feel the same too?
wadeva it is, i will let it be.
i dont want to do anything anymore.
you make me up and down < GOOD & BAD
your speech make me feel so good&jealous at times,
your silence make me feel so lost.
i dont know how to live without seeing you online.
i miss you when u are not around.
i miss you and your everything.
how i hope i could know you earlier, then i wont be suffering as much as last time.
how i hope i could be in the same class as you, how i wish.
i wish for alot...... but it dont seem to come true.
what if, alot of what if.
i dont know is good or bad for knowing you.
its all abt you, its all abt you baby.
i dont know what to say, speechless*
you say it best, when you say nothing at all.
all i wanna to say is I<3YOU.

=sign off=

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

11:21 PM