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Sunday, February 26, 2006

FRIENDSareFOREVER!

my mood is not good currently. NOT GOOD! i think if i talk more to shigehisa i will quarrel with him sia. just because we got 2 different point of views. he feel the sadness over the coming friday while i feel the sadness upon the taking of O level results. so is from 2 different point of views. i also dont know what can i say or do to help him seriously. his class got the most number of people staying, at least better than my class. my class quite a number leaving and we all are really tired over the word leaving or separation. our class used to blog so much over separation and persuading[pleas] them to stay, but it has no effects at all. after the JAE submission is over, we cannot make a second choice anymore. we can never go back to the past anymore. we must never blame those who are leaving as most of them have their reasons [eg, good results, parents not allow] so we must be understanding. they feel jing tui liang nan too so we must be understanding in order not to let them feel sad over their decisions.
no one can stops time to pass, days to come and O level results to be taken. i really hate 10 FEB 2006. if time were to stop, please stop at 10 FEB as before that we all really enjoy the days before the results were taken. upon taking the O levels results, we just phone and sms each other automatically. i also dont know why, after calling my mummy, all the rest of them i called are my JC mates. we just told each other our results and ask whether still staying in IJC or not? most of them answer: i am not sure. eventually we online at the night to ask again, we conference again to ask, we blogged for them to stay, linkai even do one skin for the class with all our names there and we do alot of things to get each other to stay. but did it success? all our speech touched them, all our entries touched them and all our action touched them. but what can they do if they are under their parents? we can never do anything to overpower their parents, never. the only thing that we can do is to wish them all the best and dont ever let them regret for leaving.
i really wonder why humans must go through separation when fate is present. FATE brought us together and is FATE separate us apart. no one likes the feeling at all. but what can we do? precisely we cannot do anything to stop this from happening at all, so have to learn to accept reality. i also dont know learning to accept reality is wrong or right. i am confused by all views. the reality is cruel even if we choose to accept it or not. the world is just reality.
maybe through JC life, we get to know alot of good friends who we can really get along so well in such a short period of time. is a time when we really cherish our friendship so much, is a time when we really go through alot of rain and storms, is a time when we really enjoy and suffer, is a time when we went through what we never go through and alot more. JC life can really changes a person life, just how it change your life and my life. i am totally a new lihui because of 0612B.
i still remember what mr john ng say, if they are leaving, let them leave without any more regrets. dont ever let them feel the friendship that is fading. just let them leave. if not, they will always be missing us and wont be able to concentrate in their studies. so we must be harsh somehow in order to let both parties feel better. should i agree what he said? when he said that, christinaNANA, linkai and me were just listening as we dont know what to say anymore. should we just be harsh to those who are leaving?
i still remember my xiaoxin*xiaodi told me: you really cherish your friendship so much till you can be so sad over this matter. YES, i do really cherish this friendship. i told him how much i cherish and why i cherish so much even though it is just a short period of time. i told him about crying over this, he just say: dont cry anymore. i just cant help but only crying.
i still remember when chandra say: separation cannot be avoid and our aim is to go university. i agreed, our aim is to go U so we are able to see each other there again < is just fate are playing a small separation test with us. if we are able to pass the test, we will not be separate anymore. chandra say: i cant believe you are such a emotional person. yesh, i am emotional over you guys. i told him how 0612B change me which make me feel like coming to school more often even if the days are long. i told him that i never regret coming for JAE at all as i really get to know such great guys! i cherish all of them just like how he cherish us too.
i still remember what christinaNANA say: we cannot do anything to ask them stay, those who have good results are supposed to go to good school. we are friends to persuade them to reach for the furtherest and the best. we are not the ones who stop them from reaching what they wants. no choice, we must wish them all the best. christinaNANA also told me how sad she is when FANGfang is leaving but for the sake of her future, she still ask her to leave and go better JC. she told me to cherish the class time we have from 10FEB to the last day of the 3 months, so we really enjoy our times during our civis lessons. she even told me that we must always look from a different point of views for lyfe.
i still remember what linkai say: i want all 0612B to stay, i am selfish, who is not? everyone is selfish in wanting the best for themselves, i am too. who dont want people to stay by their side. i want! i want all my friends to be with me always and dont ever left me! linkai: i really regret for coming to the JAE! that really hurts somehow. who ever know JAE makes us suffer so much for just the word-SEPARATION! i HATE SEPARATION LARH! HATE HATE HATE!
i still remember the first person who make me feel so touched is DESMOND. my DEAREST CG REP! his nick: 0612B, can we stay as a class, is not a question, its a order! Yours truly, ur CG Rep. i was totally touched by his nick and linkai and i just put it. my CG rep, i can never imagine a guy will type this, never! he is the first guy who i feel so touched by his little actions.
i still remember what guanhan blog: XX, chandra and allena, i know you guys got good results but ijc is not a bad school afterall! desmond even changed as he is more enthu and committed towards the class. OH GOD! even this prevert gh type that too. i really just go so ~.~ at that time. even he want the class to stay! even somemore who is so biantai is so emotional too.
i remember allena's nick: full house doesnt matter anymore, twiins doesnt matter too, what matter most is 0612B! but she cant do anything as her parents really dont want her to stay. we understand. she told me F4 will always be F4, even they are not physically there. i will remember the F4 for lyfe!
i remember after 10 FEB 2006, all 0612B peepz blogged about the same issue! i really cant imagine all of us are so emotional.
FRIENDS ARE FOREVER ALTHOUGH EVERYONE SAYS NOTHING IS FOREVER. i know no matter where we are, our hearts remember each other for lyfe, the times we spend together, the fun we have, the bian tai talk that we say, the sufferings we went through and alot more and most importantly the greatest friendship in lyfe! I REALLY LOVE EACH AND EVERY 0612B PEEPZ! we were still be together! i really enjoy myself with you guys around and i never never regret coming to IJC for my first 3 months!
i hope shigehisa will be better somehow. i still like the shigehisa who keeps on hao lian-ing to me, craps to me and talk everything under the sun! i LOVE HIS HAO LIAN-NESS larh! first time i feel so different between him and i. first time i feel so lost in front of him. I <3 0612B THE MOST.

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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