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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

LONG ENTRIES (:

2-01-2006 5:30 AM >>> XIAODI ROCK, XIAOHUI STONE
HAHA! SECOND TIME BLOGGING TODAY!
DID GP HW! < SAD I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT AM I TRYING TO DO! HAHA!

chatted with XIAOXIN*XIAODI! over larh. i told him what happen in class today! even the GROSS part i also told him larh! i dont know why i just PI LI PA LA SAY OUT LIAO! haha. he always sae sia larh sia larh! LOL! somemore he told me i am not suitable for spike hair huh! LOL! haha. okie lor! dun spike, u spike onli lorh! haha! we talk about a sec 2 girl huh! she crazy one! every sentence also got one word - F*** de lorh! somemore he told my xiaodi something larh! SO OVER HUH! MY XIAODI JUST TOLD ME THIS! HAHA. CAN LAFF TILL OVER!

SHIGEHISA! OMG! i dont want him leave IJC larh! haha! alrights, i dont think he will fail the MATHS TEST LORH! SERIOUSLY LARH! i going to pray for him day and night! haha! alrights, he is nice ((: budden always =.= his b'dae also coming larh, i will wish him like siao one u noe! ahha! i noe i very crazy! >.<

i got nothing to say/
O levels! hais/
wadd can i do ?

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2-01-2006 1:56 AM >>> <3 0612B!
alrights! i am so tired larh! yesterday sleep so late den wake up so early today! tired tired tired! haha!

went to uncle's house and orchard road yesterday! we watched the lion dance, dragon dance outside NGEE ANN CITY huh! lol! so crowded! LOL! like wadd only lorh! somemore many people just keep on shooting and shooting! see alot of flashes HUH! OVER! after watching they all still dont want go home! instead they wanna go find something EAT! lols! sian de larh! i wanna go home sleep! tired >.< boring there, so sms-ing with xiaoxin*xiaodi and shigehisa! LOL! over right! that lame xiaodi! HAHA! reach home at 10 plus lorh! haha! tired larh, on the computer and put away in msn! haha. then go do wadeva i need to do huh! sleep at around 12+am! haha! TIRED DAOOOOOOO! haha!

school ends early today! HENG huh! or not i will not survive! LOL!
today is so damn fun in school larh! laugh until like so kuang zhang u see! LOL! haha! almost everyday also liddat one? so nothing special i supposed! haha! i dont understand cantonese at all! did i spell it right? LOL! i will try to understand huh! haha!
we are noisy in chinese lesson! the BILLY IS OVER! he speaks dont know what xiao long bao nice to eat or not in guang dong yu! < is DAMN DAMN FUNNY LARH!!!! LOL! haha! lame right! but cool right! then the group of us- christina, allena, XX, desmond, ryan, linkai, guanhan and ME is like LAUGHING! haha.
the guanhan and XX is over during the chemistry PRACTICAL! haha. BOO ONE LORH! THEY TALK UNTIL LOL! BIAN TAI MAN! CANT TAHAN >.< haha. budden we are the noisest group huh; christina, allena, XX, guanhan and ME! LOLS! budden is FUN TO HAVE ALL TYPES OF PEOPLE IN THE CLASS. biantai one, lame one, se one, erxin one, noisy one, crappy one, quiet one, OVER one, nice one, clever one, sensitive one, crazy one, like to act girl one and alot alot more! haha! no BAD PEOPLE IN CLASS! I LOVE MY CLASS SO MUCH! HAHA!
went causeway point after school! with christina and fangfang! haha! allena need to rush to bishan and the XX need to go watch movie with people huh! LOL! chatted alot with christina and fangfang at LJS! lols.
saw weeling*laogong`best buddy, gary, serene*nuer, boon kiat*er zi and dont know who at MCdonald while allena buying food huh! SO OVER HUH! LONG TIME NO SEE LARH. MAKE ME MISS THEM SO MUCH!

my xiaodi says he is nice yesterday! LOL! alrights he is nice! somemore he says he lazy! haha! we somesort like saying the both of us are lazy! i think i am lazier than him larh! ahha! he always think toooooo much de lorh. i am used to it ler huh! haha! i was so HAHA WHEN HE SAYS I THT U SAE U MY BEST FRIEND LIAO! haha. yeah, we are BEST FRIEND HUH! lols. SCREAMING ON THE PHONE! LETS TRY IT OKIE, XIAOXIN! haha. we crapped alot always! haha! got people come his house huh, soon will be ME huh! LOL! i will ask him come my HOUSE TOOOOO IF I GO HIS LARH! haha, wo shi hao jiejie huh =/ haha! he is damn goooooooooddddd larh! XIAODI U ROCKS SO MUCH OKIE! WE ARE SIAN IN SCHOOL COS WE ARE NOT IN SAME SCHOOL THIS YEAR!

shigehisa is OVER! i also dont know what to say! haha. maybe lion dancer is cool-er than break dancer huh! haha. u should go take more notice! LOL!

GUANHUI*SAIDI! > i put in my MSN NICK LER! haha.
LET ME SAY AGAIN.
THOSE WITH GUANHUI*SAIDI MSN CONTACT.
PLEASE DELETE THE OLD ACC AWAY AS IT IS BEING HACKED ((:
THANKS ALOT.

oh god! GP HOMEWORK! LOL!
so many things need to do huh!
got to do them soon! haha! tired larh!

[030106] - TWO TIME!
[050106] - ONE TIME!
[090106] - ONE TIME!
[110106] - ONE TIME!
[120106] - THREE TIMES!
[130106] - TWO TIMES!
[160106] - ONE TIME!
[190106] - ONE TIME!
[250106] - ONE TIME!
[260106] - TWO TIMES!
[270106] - ONE TIME!
[010206] - TWO TIMES!
the number of times i saw ultraman*kor ((:

i am afraid of the results. i dont wanna change anything currently! is good (: i dont wanna change! please please!
well, i <3 0612B SO MUCH! EVERYONE IS SO FUN LARH! ((:
i will definitely MISS THEM IF WE ARE NOT IN THE SAME SCHOOL, SAME CLASS ANYMORE. THEY ARE GREAT!
MOST IMPORTANTLY! THE F4 ROCKS (:

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1-30-2006 7:12 AM >>> SHIGEHISA's SIAN-ness doctor < ME!
HAHA. i am back from erm.. i also dont know where!
is really fun to go out with FAMILY! it makes me feel good!

yesterday wasnt happy about something.
i will only tell xiaodi*xiaoxin and maybe shigehisa < but i scare shigehisa will scold me larh! he seem xiong to me! i also dont know why : DD

i chatted with xiaodi*xiaoxin so much yesterday. he always told me that its alrights for girls to be short! haha. hmmm, that make me feels so good huh, thx XIAOXIN! lols. we chatted about best friend and stuff. i realise that he is quite lonely inside, haha. maybe because he look too cool that will make people think that he is fierce or wadd then results him in little friends! ALRIGHTS, LET ME MAKE AN ANNOUNCE! MY DEAREST XIAODI*XIAOXIN IS THE BEST PERSON IN THIS WORLD! haha. my xiaodi rocks okie! WE ARE BEST FRIEND FOR NOW AND EVER! one thing which i dont like is that he always say himself bad when he is not! i really trust my feelings or impression towards him! somemore is he cannot control himself de, so cannot blame anyone at all. this is temper! i know i know! all people have temper so does my xiaodi! whoeva bully him, i sure hiak hiak slap u all! >.< he told me he himself cannot do wad he wants! haha, so he need my helps! HOHO! is so nice to have a di liddat u see. heng he still got talk to her real meimei one huh! i only scare he bottles everything up! haha, i dont want my xiaodi to be like so zi bi u see. haha! hope his family give him MOREMORE love and concern! he knows that i very dependent on him de! haha. in terms that i always talk to him whenever i faces anything, good, bad, happy, sad, shock, everything also tell him! EMOTIONALLY DEPENDENT ON HIM! everything i have also go into him de :x haha. my personal dairy huh! lols. haha! SOMEMORE MY SAIDI*GUANHUI is a xiao hai zi in both our eyes! LOL! haha, i realise whenever we chat, we sure out of topic somehow somewhere sometime de! LOL! then we will start to talk about age and stuff! WADD onli lorh. we will talk about his WU LA LA smile and alot alot larh. haha. he always promise to smile to me when he saw me! haha. so NICE right my xiaodi! budden one topic we will sure go into is LAME topic lorh! we talk about stupid stuff there! LOL! like wadd onli ? >.< we told each other's parents happy new year huh! so like wadd only lorh! is FUN : DD HAHA! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! then we will sian here sian there! HE IS A GREAT SINGER TOO, ask him sing to me, he jiu sing lorh! MY GREATEST DEAREST XIAODI LARH! <3'

WOAH! so first time shigehisa SMS me huh! he told me he is sian. alrights, LOL! haha. wadd only. i intend to call him up de budden scare u see >.< LOL. so din called! so just sms him huh! somemore he gamble KING LARH! haha. oh ya, at first wanna send him one MMS de budden i send it to my UNCLE ACCIDENTLY! so like wadd onli lorh! with his full name somemore! very pai seh one! all his fault larh! xDD haha. i still got send him the MMS lorh! see i so nice, haha! wei le prevent him for taking LONG LONG NAP!

I GOT INTERNATIONAL FREND- ALLENA! hongkong huh! OMG. so COOL!

tml going to OUT again huh! >.< haha.
tired-

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1-28-2006 5:35 AM >>> FAMILY <3
YOX!
i am back from my both ah ma house huh!
LOL! eat 2 times reunion dinner xDD
sian de lorh!
hoho, go my mother's mother house there first. saw my uncle but didnt saw my cousins! haha, one of them went to m'sia and the other din come lorh! wadd onli :X
night go my father's mother house there! HOHO! saw alot of people huh! got many cousins! LOL!
talk craps with my tangge*zhikuan and tangdi*gengyuan first! LOL! we talk like din talk before lorh! LOL!
then played cards with tangmei*mingzhen, tangdi*shaohui, tangmei*huishi, sanmei*minghui, simei*yinghui and xiaodi*jianhao! my ermei*wenhui sit there watch tv until very lu sheng huh! LOL!
then talk to my AH WEE korkor! consider my tang ge too bah! he is 23 this year! woah, time pass real fast lorh! LOL! we chatted alot lorh! LOL! like almost cover till U liao! somemore he ask me jia you huh! >.< wadd onli, i oreadi LOL! ler! haha, anyway he is studying U this year[1st year] haha, cos he just finish his NS! haha! he grow up al0t huh! LOL! after that he went off meeeting his friends! LOL!
then go play with my little cousins! SO FUN only!
my TANGGE*zhikuan still sae i am gin na tuo! wadd onli lorh! children gang HEAD! rahssssss! new year so i forgive him lor! if not he sure LOL de larh : DD
I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH! <3<3<3!

i chatted with shigehisa alot! really thx him loads! hehe. if we can time travel, hope we can travel together! (:

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1-27-2006 6:00 PM >>> hui&xin < bestfriend!
the power of my xiaodi*xiaoxin really make me feel so good!
he is the one really make me feels alive. he is the one who can really make me feels better no matter the worse thing come into my lyfe. the words by him make me really feel so good. i dont know why.
although he is less than 1 year younger than me. he seems to know more things than me. he seems to be more mature than me too. he seems to be kor kor and i seem to be his mei mei huh. hais.
i pour out wadeva i have always to him. i just trust him so much till nothing i cant tell him. whenever i feel so lost, i will talk to him. after that, i will surely feel very very good or better. i told him what happen to me yesterday. hais. fate ba.
i wonder as his jie, how can i help him. how i wish i understand my di better so that i could help him in wadeva ways i can. i dont wanna see my di suffers too cos i am suffering all along. i know the hardship.
we are best friend now and forever. we are jie and di for lyfe. this friendship and siblingship last forever till anyone of us die. we even invite each other for reunion dinner huh! i know where he lives le huh! he sure LOL le larh, wait i go put bOMB at his house den he noe lorh!
i love my xiaodi alot. i realise i cant live well without my xiaodi.

i am LOST -

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1-27-2006 8:13 AM >>> HATE MYSELF
I AM SO SAD NOW! CRIES-
totally sad until i could not use anything to describe my feelings in me.
i feel so USELESS.
the pain in my heart hurts me so much.
the knife just poke into my heart directly.
somemore it is a DEEP DEEP cut!
i could feel the pain in it.
i could feel the blood that is flowing out.
i could not stop either the pain or the bleeding in it.
i lost everything <
just because i am not careful enough.
I LOST THE first time when he talk to me in MSN!
i lost it, how can i?
the memories of what we chatted.
i lost them. i treasure them alot.
it is the only memories between my kor and i.
cant i just keep it for memories?
maybe we are un-fated?
this is what we call you yuan wu fen?
can i dont ren ming <
maybe ? maybe not ?
i dont even know what am i supposed to do right now.
this is not the first time anymore.
my heart say this;
my mind do that.
kuo bu dui xin < this is wadd i oways been.
the things which dont supposed to be ours,
no matter how much effort u put into it.
it will never be urs < i realise it now.
maybe because of my stubborn-ness last time.
i am hurt with all wounds now < all different kind of wounds which will never recover.
time fades feelings away,
but it will never heals the wounds of mine.
i am injured, i choose not to let go.
this is what i get in the end < is it not i want too.
i dont wish to blame anyone because its all my fault.
i am FOOL totally.
i hate myself for loving you.
i hate myself for holding it.
i hate myself for being such a fool.
i hate myself for being so stubborn.
i hate myself for every single thing.
hais-
if i were to end my lyfe now,
i will say i love you now.
jin sheng jin shi wo men zhi neng zuo peng you he xiong mei <
wo ren ming ler.
wo xue hui fang qi ler.
wo yi jing shou shang ler.

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1-27-2006 6:31 AM >>> sian.
haha, today my class only 9/19 came! that's over! haha. chinese new year eve eve so everyone not here? LOL!

i just played quite alot of games with shigehisa! he is so damn pro larh! or duno is i suay or wad huh! i played with him wadd lost wadd < XIE MEN ? LOLS! . den he so happy larh! like BT liddat lorh! ahah! nvm! as long as he is happy, den okie ler! somemore he say i duno how to argue back! wadd onli lorh! i will argue de lorh! u wait and see, argue until u beg me and ask me to stop (: HAHA!

my sweet lao da is mad! i also duno wadd to sae? ahah!

yenhwee keep saying i siao! ask who is the crazy one >.< LIKE wadd onli lorh! sian de leh! LOL.

i am bored! as bored as shigehisa! haha
sian-ness kills me!

alrights, happy chinese new year in advance!

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when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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