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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

SWEET; BITTER; SOUR; HOT! <3<3<3

AHA!! back to update. today is a long and tiring day. took bus to causeway point as usual but this time round, omg, all my surrounding are all riversidians! i feel so like being a riversidians again! I MISS RIVERSIDE! I MISS 5/1! I MISS MY TEACHERS AND FRIENDS! I MISS RIVERSIDE LYFE! suddenly, i just feel like going back to past when i used to disturb my teachers and laugh aloud in class! haha! echo laughter in class, walk walk and alot more! memories just flash back so fast! omg, i <3 riverside! once a riversidian, always a riversidan! i feel it now! the RSspirit will never be apart from me! HAHA! RIVERSIDE ROCKS!
first period-PHYSICS lecture. we have our re-quiz today! lesser questions. then did my mass pe again- running 2.4KM! haha, is fun running! (: did sit-ups, standing board jump and shuttle run after 2.4KM! haha! damn tired! BREAK time after PE. i was listening to my MP3 player and feel like singing at that moment! haha, was damn high at that time! half an hour break passed fast, so was GP! BOO! our teacher is back, so we got GP lessons again! haha, quite boring i think. haha! NEXT was civis lesson! OH NO, boring! haha. desmond even say is a waste of time! AHA! after civis is lunch, ate with christinaNANA, HUIYANG, LINKAI AND HANMUN! shujuan and allena didnt come today! kinda of miss them! hehe! we had our maths tutorial after lunch! crapped with mr chin awhile! LOL! he is so funny as he really can jokes so well! LOL! a funny and nice and clever teacher! MATHS rocks, so maths lecturer rocks alSO! lol! last period was physics tutorial! HOHO! finally, we all were tired! went through some questions! haha, get to know more new things. happy thing i supposed. LOL!
christinaNANA was damn angry during the last part of phy tutorial! OMG, so damn angry larh! i also got a shock! HAHA! somemore the bunch of us were talking about the BO thingy! LOL! we are evil but he is evil-est larh! who ask him so hao lian? LOL! aiya, smart jiu hao dont need show out de wadd. haha! hao lian de yao si, tao yan larh! LOL! went home with christinaNANA, huiyang, linkai, guanhan, billy, hanmun and chandra! LOL! then went causeway point walked walked awhile and went home with NANA accompany me to wait for bus again! thanks NANA! lols! we chatted quite alot too before my bus come! NANA, dont regret wadd u have do, he deserve it somehow? haha! so not to worry so much okie
SHIGEHISA is so siao one larh! he say his picture is more shuai then my xiaodi*xiaoxin! eh, haha, no comments larh :DD to be fair, well both also bu hao kan! LOL! somemore he complained that i am fierce huh! wadd only larh, since when i scold him lorh! that nonsense kia! LOL! somemore he told me something is a bad word! so sorry huh, i dont know larh! thanks for telling me, since i know now. i will not use it anymore okie! haha, see i am guai and ting hua! (; somemore he HUMPH larh! so funny larh! like xiao hai zi liddat, sa jiao-ing sia! LOL! funny funny funny. he say my xiaodi bei wo pian huh! wadd onli lorh! i am really a good jiejie, so u die die also must admit it! LOL! somemore he say something like so kuangzhang when i allow him to steps my toes! wadd my nails will break! LOL! =/ thats is being too OVER! he just like a parrot sia, repeat what i say! LOL! parrot, well he must admit i am a good jiejie! somemore he always SAY SORRY when he told me apologise too much is useless! LOL! then he say i also always say sorry, so he bu guan larh. so must say too? LOL! siao ding dong! i am not scare him larh, he argued that i am scare of him! u wait and see, then u will know who scare of who! LOL! i was so shocked that he says: GF sucks! =/ that is really wadd a siao ding dong will think larh! LOL! somemore he say i bian tai when i say i feel WOOT! lols! dont know who is bian tai sia! LOL! nonsense daoooo. lols. say i in love with my xiaodi! WADD SIA! then he must be in love with his DI liao lorh! HOHO :X his prey! LOL! he really make me feel like talking to my xiaodi[well, he feel honoured about it] a million of thanks. haha, REALLY THANKS LARH! i give him 2 full pages of nice thing hor! so better cherish me! LOL! GREENY MAN[he wore amkss U again]! i just trust you how much i trust my xiaodi! u really really rocks my world, thanks!
this para is for SIAO DING DONG jinger again! LOL! she is crazy larh! but I LOVE HER SO MUCH THAT I COULDNT BEAR TO HATE HER larh! LOL! she is so funny =/ she gets so ji dong when i kiss her? LOL! somemore her friend is crazy one lorh! haha, so easily jealous de! wadd onli larh her friend! HAHA, well, you want me to tag again in ur tagboard? then blogged about the reasons! LOL! i know you need me to tag, so just say it larh! SIAO DING DONG! STUDY HARD FOR UR CT1 okie! then i can celebrate with ya ur b'dae liao! JIA YOU!! haha! i give u all my luck!
my saidi is in LOVE now hor! LOL! that siao one! sms me just to tell me he miss me! OMG, saijie so happy larh! LOL! somemore he suspect whether did i really miss him =/ well, should i be the one who suspect whether he miss me? LOL! saidi, all the best for ur CT and rememeber no matter what happens, i will always be there for u like how i did in the past (: LOL! stop saying u miss me when u dont! stop saying u love me when u dont! LOL! alrights, saijie know saidi are honest always! so i trust him! LOL!
we walked passed each other today. i didnt even bother to say hi to YOU because you are with your classmates. we are fated or not fated, even myself also lost currently. should i be the one taking all the zu dong and not you? argh, i dont know. i am lost lost lost lost lost! but i really cant take my eyes off! really! i wanna to see you now and then. <3
i am tired of everything now. let me get over all this and i will be free from all the trouble le! i just need a break- people, take care! good luck to all Riversidians! all the best for the CT1! bye peepz!
Feb. 27, 2006 at 05:34 AM >>> simple plan - untitled
currently, i feel like blogging here now.
i am feel so sad now! SAD UNTIL i nearly can die larh! the sadness is not the normal saddness i always have, is different, is pain and i feel so much like dying now. i wonder issit i just cant get the songs and that is the treatment i get from you? oh ya, can i choose to die now if those are the treatment i get from you. wadeva u want to say, i dont want to know. i really dont know who to face to now. my online chatter no online, who can i pour my problems too? my xiaodi online but he got common tests, well i think i really need to let him study for his common test. i can never always bother him. so who can i turn to now? NO ONE AT ALL! i feel so terrible now. feel like dying now. why not just put a knife in my throat now. i can really really die now. i rather die than being wu ru in front of people. first, u asked me to called. then once i get into the conversation, dont tell anyone about this? hais. should i say no? i dont get a point what is there to hide? then you started to say this and that, i give u the address, u dont want. then come tell me this tell me that. argh, what you want from me seriously? SERIOUSLY, i dont know what you want at all? can u like just tell me. issit i am the one at fault or u? issit i am the one who is so freak but not you? issit the one that i really pissed you so off that you cannot stop shooting me? issit this and that? why not u just tell me and i will GET AWAY FROM U! NOW AND FORVER! den u wont see me and i wont see you den we have no hard time for each other anymore. SHORT PAIN IS ALWAYS BETTER THAN LONG PAIN! seriously, i hate the feelings now. hate i used to have now. i really hate myself more than anyone of you do. i really hate until i can just bang myself against the wall! i really cant help but only know how to cry~ CRY AND CRY THAT'S ALL I KNOW! well, a crybaby i supposed! i know it is pointless to cry over such things. but i really really cannot take it anymore. i feel the breakdown inside me which make me cant control my tears not to drop now. i cant control. why can we just take one nice picture and let me keep for memories for the rest of my lyfe. why cant u just grant the wish i have for friends. are u really that cruel that you can just say wadeva u want to me. everyone dont want people to critise them, so before we really want to critise anyone. we really need to think hard of what are we supposed to say. sometimes words are hurting, actions are hurtings and most importantly, u are hurting me. u want me to hurt you too and let you have a feel of wadd i am having now? DO YOU WAN? really. i feel so worst. the feelings just cannot speak anything at all. i feel so dui lian. why dont you put urself in my shoes? is nice to have jokes or wadd but everything and everyone must have their limits. i really dont want to make things so bad at all. but you are the one who forced me to do all this thing. whenever someone comment about wadd, you will just say U LARH U LARH! everything me. why everything me? WHY! why not someone else? issit becos i am not a girl? okie, let me tell u i am a girl. i have the feelings of girl. i have the thoughts of girl. i am really a girl who know how to laugh and cry. would you rather to see me with tears of joy or tears of sadness? hais, i dont know! i really feel so argh now! why! why must be me! why must it happen on me? i always feel i create lots of trouble already. i dont want anymore. i really dont wish to create anything anymore. i know i am really irritating at times, really stupid at times and really 38 at times. but whoever told me i OVER, i will try to be back to the limits. why cant you be too? what is there to be afraid of when you did nothing wrong? must we really keep a distance away from each other? if there is really a need, i will. but i feel there is no such need. we are PURELY FRIENDS wadd. why should we be frends under so sheng mi? why? i dont get a point there. maybe i should scream to the world, maybe i should announce to the world, maybe i should prove to the world. is this what you want me to do? is it? maybe this is wad you want, i will grant you from now onwards. somemore we are not that close anymore since you told me this and that. we are not that close anymore since this matter happens. we are drifting away from each other too. i know it myself too. this is call friends, oh no. then i what should i call those who are nice to me? can u tell me! U CANT RIGHT! so respect me. if u want me to respect you, then you should respect me. dont expect me to respect someone whom i dont think i should. i respect you before anything happens, do you ever respect me before? u ask urself. somemore are there trust between us? do you trust me? if no, THEN why bother to tell me things and ask favour from me? WHY, are u using me in another words? why not just tell me the FACT and DONT USE ME ANYMORE. should i be really harsh that we break off everything including our friendship. issit what you really want me to do? hais. why must forced me into this state. why. cant we just like the same as before. we can always be the BEST pals with such a same character! i really enjoy the times in the past. can we just turn back the time? can we? i rather be the best pals with you, rather to be the best ENEMY with you. it is terrible to see such a thing happens < when friends become foes. i dont want to see that happens on you and me. you can comment that i am rude to hang up the phone. but the problem is i cannot take it anymore. if i dun hang up, will i get more wu ru? will i get more worse than previous? U TELL ME. what am i supposed to do. i did try not to hang up the phone since you told me the rude-ness for hanging up but the problem is i really really really really cannot take it anymore? if u really wan to wu ru me, why not talk to me personally? u wan me xia bu liao tai issit? ISSSIT WADD U WAN ME TO BE! i hope i never come to this world at all too. i feel i am always a burden to this world, why should i come here! why should i know you. why. why must fate let us know each other? will you and i be happier if we do not know each other? would it be better? i dont know. why must i be born? i used to have the thinking of ending my lyfe soon but whenever i am feeling down, there is always someone who save me from jumping~ should i be grateful to the person or hate the person? because if i am not around, i wont be suffering anymore. i will be living happily in the other world, with no happiness, no saddness, no worries and most important NO YOU anymore. you really make an impact in my lyfe, a positive or negative impact? i dont wish to talk about it. hais. i feel like runnning away from everything and DIE! the sooner the better! u can say me little gas over such matters, but it really hurt my heart < do you ever feel this way before? DEFINITELY NOT! you are not me, and u can never be me always. so u can never never understands what i undergo now! I REALLY HATE MYSELF MORE THAN ANYONE OF YOU WHO HATE ME SO MUCH. CAN I DIE NOW?
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I FEEL THIS SONG REALLY SPEAKS MY THOUGHTS (:
i cant take any things anymore, just let me off please, i am begging you now.
-GONE

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when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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