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Thursday, March 23, 2006

XIAODI&SHIGEHISA, cheer up please!

HI! at first dont want to blog de but today i am feeling so sad now so i decided to blog! argh, i feel so sad now! hais.
school was fine today and also yesterday! we got to know each other like dont know what liao huh! everyone is like crapping nowadays! 0612B is still crapping! haha! not going to elaborate on school more but on other things better.
XIAOXIN*XIAODI! today i saw him again! 7.10AM this time round! he take the same MRT as NANA! he saw he think he saw me! LOL! sian diaoz larh! somemore he didnt wear specs this time so in other words, his eyesight improved ler! YAYness! LOL! he called my dajie today! omg, i see ler, nearly faint larh : DD so CUTE onli larh! he so cute larh to ask me whether his hair messy or not! LOL! well, it is obvious not as he is alwyas so cute and shuai one larh! somemore he told me he is the ugliest di of mine when i say the shuai-est! sian diaoz larh! then i cry, he cry too because i want to cry so he cry! LOL! so cute huh! LOL! he report to me his marks ler! all did very well! *claps!* he say himself as a failure and he say since he is born, he is already a failure! argh, this hurts me so much larh, i dont know why it hurts so much still! i cant believe what he say about himself as usually i am the one who say such things to him! you are definitely not a failure if not what i am! i am not even a failure as i think failure cant even be used on me! he always told me to stay happy and dont think too much always but not he is not doing that at all! he told me dont care about what people think too! i remember what you told me everytime and apply it whenever i feel so sad or what! argh, xiaodi since when you become so persimistic de! i am really so hurt when you say such things! my heart just feel sad as i dont think i can help you in anyway at all! but to tell you to dont ask too much for urself! you played ur soccer well and also ur bball well. very well i say! i dont want to set high expectations on ya as i think you are really great in my eyes. what for i ask more from my xiaodi`bestie! he is the perfect bestie`xiaodi i ever have! argh, seriously i dont think he should ask so much from himself! xiaodi, ni hen hao ler bu yong zai geng hao ler! you told me not to worry for ya, but how can i dont worry when you become like this? you never been like this before, i think. hais, now not in same school with ya ler! i cannot see ur expression everyday so i cannot know what you are feeling currently! argh, why cant bestie be in the same school! i always believe you can achieve what you want for your lyfe, dont you! then dont think too much now? you remember STAR&FAN? you will be the STAR& i will be the FAN right! this day will come one day! lets just wait okie! hais! i want only my xiaodi to be happy now! i want him to think positively now! i want him to stop saying he is a failure! i want him to stop stress-ing himself now! i want him to be alot alot more! xiaodi, no matter what happens, dajie will be the one for ya de! dont ever try to hide ur feelings or what so ever as u will feel miserable and i will feel more miserable than you! i want to see your smile on your face now as it is the best to make me happy now. where is the smile you usually give it to me? hais. DAJIE really really LOVE my XIAODI! mwarhs! take care ler okie!
shigehisa is also not feeling well i think huh! he is feeling lonely! argh, how can he feel lonely with so many friends around him! i dont know what to say to him but only tell him dont feel lonely with me around! i am his friend so he wont be lonely de huh! shigehisa, dont ever feel this way anymore. cheer up okie. lihui is there for ya too! hehe. shigehisa, rocks my world still!
my SLP top for her FNN huh! that pro larh! LOL! she shall cook for me next time round! haha, i want nice nice de huh, not anyhow anyhow cook de huh! LOL! she feel so irritated with the guy still! haha, i feel like scolding the guy for disturbing her larh! i know she is MDM nice but she is also MRS MEAN too! so dont bully her larh! she so cute larh, i sad she also sad =/ that sound so funny! haha! i am da ben dan to her larh! wadd onli lorh! wo bu shi ben dan! wo shi stupid nia! LOL! she very bad de lah, i treat her so nice yet so like that to me! so like wad onli lorh! LOL! thanks ya for listening to me toking nonsense everytime!
NANA! dont be so sad larh! today u seem so moody de! what happen to ya huh! i dont really dare to ask ya! but i hope you can smile everytime okie! cheer up and smile! hehe!
when people feel this way, i feel this way too. i just dont want to see any unhappy faces on each other face. i feel hurt now still and the pain-ness is undescrible at all! argh, i am feeling so terrible now! please save me!
thanks jinger lao po for cheering me up! thanks ya. going to do my chemistry tutorial later on and i had completed my physics tutorial ler! take care all my friends especially my XIAOXIN*XIAODI&SHIGEHISA! the most 2 most important people in my lyfe! dont be sad hor, shigehisa&xiaoxin!

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