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Friday, April 21, 2006

CAMP - I LOVE o612B!

back from my 3days2nights camp! OMG, seriously i love camp now! i dont mind staying now there forever with my class and other taurus members! i just love camp now! hahas! lets me blog from tues!

went to school with AHs*GF in the morning to go to school for our cca morning run! ran 9rds again! improve the timing! hahas, feeling happy of cos! hahas! went to change up and went for our morning assembley! then my student pass was lost and it is announce in front of the whole school! omg, i nearly feel like dying after hearing LEE LIHUI ur student pass has been found, please come to the front and collect it! i nearly went omg all the way! then the ryan and NANA*darling were laughing! i was totally shock! hahas, went to collect it back and i saw KS! sian diaoz, malu larh! hahas. went to phy prac! basically today exp was totally gone case for the class! hahas! mini golf! wadd onli! hahas, went for a break after that! hahas, went for our chinese lesson after the break! chinese lesson was basically reading articles! hahas. went to hall for Civis! hahas, last lesson was maths! hahas! she finish the last part of the topic! was totally ~.~ with DAPH*beloved! hahas, went to causeway point with daph*beloved, nana*darling, zhongxun & clarence after school! went to have our lunch and buy things for our camp! hahas! went back to school with ahS*GF and zhongxun because we got our cca! ahS and me - floorball and zhongxun- wu shu! hahas, cca ended late as usual but we enjoy ourselves! hahas! went back home finally to pack my bag for tml camp! hahas!

19 Apr- first day of camp! hahas! meet daph*beloved,, NANA*darling,, AH S*GF and shujuan! we go school together with our BIG BAGS! hahas! saw guanhan and desmond on the way! went to school feeling abit scare or should i say very scare? hahas! went to bookshop to buy the orientation shirt with AH S*GF! then went to her locker to take her things. went to canteen after that, sat there, kept myself very quiet because i am just scare! BUYONG DA GE DA WAS WITH US FOR THE CAMP! HAHAS! yay-ness for us! time for us to assemble! feeling more scare sia! hahas, but no choice still have to go! hahas, reach there! saw alot of people! get settle down, spot check on attire and went to board the BUS! hahas! our class was the last to board but we got the bus all by ourselves! so good huh! was listening to my MP3 on the way there! feeling scare still, hahas! reached the camp site! saw little primary school kids and they asked where are we from! hahas, we are from INNOVA JUNIOR COLLEGE! hahas! the kids just say : they are from Junior college not ... i didnt get to listen to it after that hahas! went to assemble at the high-elements area there! we sit on stones >.< waited for quite long before we actually start our camp offically! we handed in our HP and wallet to them and went to put our bags in BUNK 9! hahas! went back to assemble again! hahas, missLEE joke with us too! hahas, we joke with mrANG and mrNG too! funny larh! mrNG says mrANG is stone! hahas, daph*beloved is little pebble! hahas! funny sia, was laughing! went to have camp fire prep with o641b! talk talk, crap crap and laugh laugh! finally we are offically the "resident" there! hahas!
first we have field cooking as our lunch! hahas! our class guys are really COOL especially kelvin, yy and ryan! not only i was totally shocked by them, i am sure NANA*darling and DAPH*beloved were shocked too! they were totally so nice i must say! hahas, all of the guys in our class are really MAN, REAL MAN! 12b guys rocks! hahas, all of them didnt even let the girls cook and open any canfood! isnt it nice? hahas! we helped them by washing their plates! hahas, share the job equally! hahas! went for our first act for the camp! hahas, all high elements! sian diaoz! was totally OMG all the way! i played the caterpillar thing! hahas, so funny larh! first time i played this! hahas! was laffing as i climbed up! cant stop laffing! hahas! nice one! I LOVE MY CLASS! hahas! i did belaying for a few classmates also! hahas, feeling so NICE! hahas! after the 4 act1, we went for our act2! which is low element! we broke the climbing over the wall record and we were like cheering like mad huh! i feel like i am ultraman`superman`spiderman and alot of man after flying over the wall! hahas! that climbing over the wall really make the group of us to be more bonded together! all the girls agreed on it! we really have a diff point of views for our class guys again! hahas, camp make us realise they are so great Huh! LOLS! did more low elements games! we really smell each other alot during the flying from one pt to another! all smell nice man! hahas, was hugging each other and screaming for our lyfes liddat! is funny BUT FUN! hahas! all the games were totally so fun! hahas!
we went to bath and then went to eat our dinner! mrNG say i am waitress because i have so many plates in my hands! i nearly take all the plates and throw him larh xD hahas! after dinner, we got class interaction too! hahas, was basically talking craps huh! fun larh our class! every single moment is fun with them! went for a short video clip in the canteen after that! before going, shigehisa acutally can see me w/o his specs! i was like totally got a shock out of my lyfe! hahas! everyone was tired and no one really pay attention! i only look at the images without listening! hahas! then later on was our supper time! no one eats the supper in our class! haha, the guys went to clean the toilet and we wanna clean too but got people cleaning so we cannot do anything! chatted with the guys awhile outside the toilet and they told us abt the toilet condition =/ nearly faint! hahas! went to brush our teeth and went to sleep after that!

20 Apr-day 2 of the camp! hahas! wake up at 4am in the morning! hahas, went to brush our teeth around 4.45am! hahas! we went to the campfire site and around 5.35am! hahas, went there to assemble for morning PT and also flag raising! morning PT was totally so rocks! hahas, I LOVE IT! o612B loves it too! hahas, the PT make me sweat so much! ahhas! went for breakfast after PT! eat beehoon in the morning >.< hahas! just eat and went for our act3 which is water games! hahas! went to change to dark T-shirt! hahas! went there and did push up! sian diaoz, my legs was somehow, i duno how to say huh! went for water confidence first! hahas! supposed to have the formation of one girl and one boy! hahas, my left was ryan and my right is zhongxun! hahas! was feeling scare at the first! hahas, daph*beloved was between ryan and yy! so we are very near to each other! hahas, feeling quite scare at the first time but feeling so shuang after that sia! hahas! FUN FUN FUN xDD hahas! we did alot of chatting while moving in one big circle! hahas! my neck feel so tired!! hahas! after that we have our own free time! daph*beloved was splashed by people larh! hahas! by mrANG! hahas, i was laughing loudly and the water went inside my mouth! so er xin!! hahas! i feel like VOMITTING! NANA*darling and me try to drown yy but failed >.< hahas! did success after pushing a few times! hahas, fun sia! hahas, i was drown by ryan! he is so clever to make me inside the water by using one of his legs to trip in between my legs! i was fall and he pressed my head down! sian diaoz! somemore i so gong to use my hands to push his head in! hahas, he told me how he trip me and i tried on him but FAIL! wadd only lo! instead i fall down and drown myself too! hahas! i drown him too larh! hahas! GOOD GOOD! daph*beloved is so funy larh, she scream for me when someone want to attack her! hahas! was like laughing so loudly! went for kayaking after that! my hands were totally no strength after that! hahas! went to rafting after kayaking! we were like anyhow do one raft to the teacher and the raft look rather funny! daph*beloved and me were laughing to see some people playing with the blue container! hahas! finally end the water games and i quickly go and throw my shoes away and went to bath! hahas! went for act4 after bathing! it was high element again! hahas. did flying fox again! hahas, I LOVE 12B and OFF i go! hahas! was having fun this time because i also duno why! i become so daring so suddenly! hahas! then we went for rock wall climbling! hahs! okie, didnt manage huh! but nvm :X hahas! my class guys all go up! so COOL! the girls only daph*beloved, xinfang went UP TO THE TOP! hahas! went for another station again! did nothin this time round and only see the guys doing and 2 girls huh! hahas! last station was challenging POLE! hahas! ryan went up the first one and catch the pole! OMG, everyone just CHEERED for him! hahas! then the rest didnt manage to catch the pole! DAPH*beloved and NANA*darling were so brave to play the challenging pole! hahas! you 2 really rockss!! hahas!
went for our lunch in the canteen and after that was like got alot of time for us to discuss about the camp fire thing? hahas, our class came up with alot of ideas and finally we decide on the gay camp! we were like laughing at all sorts of ideas that we come out with and YY laugh till drop on the floor! omg, more funny and we laugh more! hahas! did a few times of rehearsal and finally prepared what we are supposed to prepared! hahas. went back to bunk to chat with NANA*darling, DAPH*beloved, huiyang and shujuan! we chatted alot alot and we laugh like mad too! i was the one hr kola bear! hahas! went for our dinner after a long long break! hahas! after dinner was campfire! hahas. the main thing for the day! campfire is FUN! hahas, taurus rocks totally! hahas! have fun cheering and crapping with my classmates there! hahas! went to listen to wad mrANG wanna say to us and i really feel that the class is more bonded! totally agree* everyone become sad when we know buyong our da ge da will be leaving ler! cries* BU YONG BU YONG! then yy and me were like singing the frendship song which i duno how to spell! hahas! went to take a bath after that and went to bed! hahas!

21 APR-last day of CAMP! the last day of camp! sad one! hahas, my hands were in pain and not other parts of my body! hahas! today exercise didnt really make me sweat so much and i also duno why! hahas! went to have breakfast after rest~ hahas. do area cleaning and have our debrief finally! OMG, camp ended and i really feel so in LOVE with the camp! board on the bus! hahas, mrANG gave the class something to eat! hahas! was busy chatting with NANA*darling, DAPH*beloved, clarence, YY and kelvin! hahas. we chatted about the NAFA test! hahas! everyone in o612b must jia you for the NAFA test! we must did tarus proud! ahahs! went back to school and took clas pic with the class! i am in LOVE with my class totally! V.BOMB! hahas!
went to causeway point with NANA*darling, DAPH*beloved, shujuan, huiyang, guanhan, desmond, clarene, biyong, zhongxun, linkai, jianwen, jinlong and mrANG! hahas! walked to causeway point and the guys eat burger king while huiyang and shujuan went home! hahas! walked to the hauunted block after that while i went back home to put my things and come out to meet them again! my house is only 1 to 2 stops away! ahahs! walked to the duno wadd wulu wulu place after that! feeling so HOT and make me feel like expedition! hahas! we 3 girls and jinlong, zhongxun and linkai waited outside for them! hahas! they all go inside explore! hahas! come out finally and we went to causeway point again because we the girls wanna eat something! went to MOS with NANA*darling and DAPH*beloved! hahas! was chatting and laughing like mad because of everyone's joke? hahas! it is very funny! went home after that! hahas!
went back home online and chatted on the phone with shuhui*qingaide for 2hrs+ i think! hahas! chatted alot larh! hahas. teddybear called in too and chat! hahas! was busy talking and finally end the call at 7pm! hahas! chatted with alot of people because i dint online for so LONG! hahas!

shigehisa! he so nonsense larh! how can he say i am guilible! wad onli larh he! hahas, aniway he is still the cutest in my heart! hahas! thanks for saying morning to me huh! hahas!
halfdi! u so nonsense de lei! wadd cuter than the cutest! issit so funny to hear my malu things! hahas, tell u more next time and thanks for every concern u give me!
jinger*SLP! i miss you badly! mwarhs!
hey vincente u this crappy guy! hahas! i called you to sleep earlier le right! hahas, calling me at 11pm and talk nonsense and say duno wadd huh! hahas! faster go sleep larh u! hahas!
BU YONG DA GE DA! must remember us okie and have outing always hor! hahas! i know you will miss us and we will miss u too! i remember how u become BU YONG BU YONG! i remember the time when u says thanks to me because of a card! i remember how u become our da ge da! i remember the jokes u told us! i remember the expired washing powder and stuff! I REMEMBER U ALWAYS! BU YONG BU YONG! i really miss u now already!
I LOVE MY CLASS o612B! I LOVE EVERYONE IN o612B! I will remember all the GOOD and FUNNY times we have always! we are the best! V.BOMB!
bye everyone! sleep early and rest well! i still got alot of homework waiting for me! hahas, tests too! great huh x)

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

11:58 PM

trust ?

back to update my blog again! hahas, today reached home around 9pm! hahas! a nice day i supposed! x)
went to school meeting NANA*darling and ah S*GF again! saw my xiaodi*xiaoxin! hahas! happen to see my pri sch bestest friend somemore is she see me not i see her >.< sorry ya! ahhas, chatted with VEELING*my primary school bestest friend! hahas, miss her alot! chatted with her only for awhile! ahahs, she told me about RP! she now YEAR2 le hor so must work hard kies! hahas! went to school crapping with them again! my mood is good because i am happy forever now? hahas! went to school and sit in canteen to chat again? ahahs! went to parade square to assemble! was kind of sad when the VP talk abt the PW results. went for maths tutorial! hahas, mr chin is still funny in the way he speaks? hahas, learn some tricks of GC huh! next was PE! hahas, did our 2.4KM for pe again! my timing improve again! was happy and went lalala all the way? hahas! i dont know why, i was running thinking of how sad teddy bear is! then i start to chiong non stop with the same speed after that? thanks teddy somehow? hahas! my mind is totally just went so clear after running! did broad jump again! as usual, fail =.=! sad larh, going to make it to a SILVER best if to a GOLD! hahas! after that was break! a nice break ar? hahas! went for physics lecture after that! my beloved was sad huh, the person so bad can! hahas! went for lunch with beloved, darling, huiyang and shujuan! hahas! did my gp after eating finish! haahs!
after lunch was chem lecture! ahahs, mr bryan is still so funny huh! ahahs, a interesting snail he told us! hahas. going to find out more on the snails? hahas! went for GP after that! clear my doubts for my PI! thanks teacher! hahas, have a 30mins break again after GP! stayed in the class! hahas, was crapping with our JIEMEI*clarence! hahas, he so funny larh! we keep talking about guys? hahas! okie, thats over! hahas! went for chinese after break! hahas, chinese is nice today! I LOVE LISTENING to chinese history! ahhas, nice nice nice! hahas! finally after school! yay!
meet ahS*GF after school! she so siao today! keep dont wan to go for floorball! so like wadd only! in the end still go larh because of ME! hahas! i was very nice to help her carry her things to the area lo! hahas! practise basic skills and play matches! FLOORBALL is always fun? hahas! my team-mates are funny! they called me LG! hahas, Laughing Girl! hahas, somemore they got so many comments on me! say the way i laugh very funny? very cartoon? very cute? keep laughing nonstop? hahas! called me LG is okie huh! still call me LG flatron; LG flatphone! wadd onli lah! nvm :X forgive them because it is fun huh! hahas! FLOORBALL rocks! hahas!
end my cca at about 7.30PM! hahas! stayed in school with cca-mates for awhile then we went off to CWP! hahas! got KS! yvonne! XL! YUEBING! little coach! the one who dont let me carry the sticks! ahS*GF and me! hahas! went to CWP with them for the first time! feeling so excited and were crapping all the ways! hahas! I LOVE MY CCA-MATES! hahas! went to foodcourt with them! hahas! chatted with KS*idol! hahas! she was very funny larh! she say we are scare of her? hahas! funny funny! told her i am not afraid of her because we are same age wadd! ahahs, somemore she younger than me! hahas, she also very cute larh! in order to know her b'dae date must not be afraid of her! hahas! so funny! hahas, ahS*GF actually got the same b'dae as her! OMG! so funny man! hahas, did alot of other chatting too! after chatting so much, she went home first! then ahS*GF and me went off second! hahas! finally HOME SWEET HOME!
LEX*halfdi! thanks ya~ i know u care for half jie but dont care too much as i am well taken care off! ahas! thanks, i really feel alot of better after all this.
REG*BAOBEImei! thanks ya too! i know what am i supposed to do and i will follow my heart always! hahas! thanks ya!
shuhui*qingaide! hahas! dont liddat lei! see u liddat i am so sad larh x( must be happy de okie! hahas! remember i will always be there can ler! cheerup qing ai de; mwarhs!!! hahas!
jinger*SLP! yapyap, i know i am happy. faster do ur hw hor! then u can come talk craps to me wadd? hahas! missya! mwarhs!
please please, i am telling that someone please dont force me to no way out please. i really dont know whats going on? you dont wish to say and how am i supposed to know? i think you can either talk to me or dont talk anything about it? i wont be drift away from you because of some matters. i think you are the one who are drifting yourself away from me dont you? you can say all you want, i cant really really really be bothered now? you can choose to post in ur blog by arguing on what i say, go ba~ overall nothing matters? you can choose to think whatever you want, i cant stop ya? if you ever feel i drift apart for u, then pull it back dont u? why must i be the one doing all those things for ya, cant u pull it? everyone around you are concern about ya wadd, so less me does it matters? you told me i am like heaven like god, overall i am still JUNK right? no diff i think! you can say whatever you want about me after reading this but whatever you say will you ever think if it is true? hahas~ i wonder what will happens? i was curious because you are good at ... hahas! i also nothing to say to ya? i got no comments because you make me no way out totally!
too many things for me to care now! i got my PI which is making me a big big headache! i got so many more things to do? my tests, my tutorials and my assignments! my camp! my cca! my friends ard me who are down! the class? i have so many things to do, so stress but i am happy with my lyfe! because of my great friends which make whatever stress i have is worth it de! hahas! somemore i am happy always so everyone please dont assume i am down or wadd because i will never never be down anymore huh! hahas! laughing is always the best medicine for me and i am doing that always! hahas! thanks for all my great friends around me x) i really really love u guys alot! hahas, cherish everyone of u! hahas, i got what i want, must be contented! hahas! thanks!
humans are xu wei dong wu! hahas, include me huh! i lost my trust on some people totally! i know who to trust now x) hahas!
enoughh of it, feeling not good at all. no one ever knows how i feel! chinese hw still undone =/ tml need to hand in! die x( hahas. nites everyone! qingaide, remember to cheerup! hahas!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

11:16 PM

o6;o7;o8;14;23 - we last forver!

back to update my blog after days~ days are all the same huh! nothing big deal actually? haahs!
fri-went out with family<3! went to bugis with my family and uncle's family too! hahas, lazy to blog in details! only know shuhui*qingaide called me and told me teddy bear not okie! felt so worried for teddybear! went to the airport around midnight! hahas, watched planes! suddenly i feel like flying too! then went to changi village cos they wanna eat something huh! sian! hahas! wanting to go home and use my computer! hahas, went home around 1am in the morning! hahas! slept at 4.28am! argh, cant slp well! i dont know why!
sat-did nothing. slack at home for the whole day! hahas! dint do any homework! was with the comp for the whole day! my uncle and my cousin came my house today to eat? hahas! slept at 6.28am this time round. i was like turning on the bed when i was on the bed at 5.02am! cant slp! my mind was thinking so many things! hahahs! all good things of cos? hahas!
sun-wake up at 9am! feeling abit of headache maybe becos no sleep enough ba! hahas, online for the whole day again! hahas, did my homework but alot of homework to be done! ahahs, went out with my sis and bro at ard 2+pm~ went back home at 3+pm then my aunt come my house! my cousin came again! hahas, talk craps to me as usual! she is funny, my father is funny-er and i am funny-est! ahahs! my daddy did something so scary, i nearly got shock but is fake one! so like wadd onli! i scream at him and he was like haha!
xiaoxin*xiaodi- finally you told me something at least i wont be worry for you always. i really really feel like screaming your classmates like duno wadd, they are consider evil in my heart! how can they liddat, one day if i cannnot tahan i will sure go scream and scold them like hell! hahas! he still say nvm! argh, so heartpain to see my xiaodi hais in front of me! where is the 5yrs of not allowing to hais gone to? hais! then later we went on to chat happy thigs by lame-ing around ler! he pierce his ears! feel so happy for him! ahhas! OMG, feel so great to have a nice nice di! ahhas! hahas! somemore today in order to see his smile need to say he win by himself de x( SIAN DIAOZ! ahhas! let him win lor, since he is younger wadd =x hahas! just know he is okie ler ! hahas! i got a strong di huh! xiaodi, dajie loves ya! mwarhs!
lex- HALF DI! i know what are you facing now! i know is difficult to choose between a friendship with trust or a frendship without trust. furthermore, the someone is always the someone who u trust on. i am happy that you still choose to trust. thats mean u are mature ler, dont need let halfjie worry so much ler right? i know u always wanan to be happy to let everyone around you to be happy. but if u are too tired to smile, dont smile anymore ler okie. i rather see u cry than faking all the smiles on ur face x) remember, no matter what, ur halfjie will always be there for ya. always.
shuhui*qingaide- thanks for being so understanding always! i know u are always there for me, and i will always be there for u too. hahas! sorry for being so playful okie! i promise not to do that anymore ler. i am touched by u guys totally larh! i realised all of guys really really played an important role in my heart. thanks all of you! i will never leave even if u want shoo me off! hahas! just remember to stay happy and dont be sad! i will always be happy de hor! muacks; love ya!
teddybear! HAHAS! hope you are fine larh! was quite shock when u can so calm de geng wo lame in msn huh! i even paste the down lyrics for her lo! ahahs, see i am so nice to her right! she say i am cute but i dont like so she change to aduorable! wadd e diff huh! LOLS! she is cutest larh! ahahs! cutest teddy bear i ever have! hahas! okie larh, i really really wanna see u happy like siao rather than sad like siao right? hahas! somemore u are a strong little teddy bear! hahas, no matter wadd, kaixinguo will always be there de wadd! remember what i say to ya, i will be there to do everything for ya. all u need is to just stay happy and smile smile x) kaixinguo<3teddy bear right! hahas! just smile but not fake smile hor! hahas! the prank is nice right? hahas, want somemore? hahas! stop rarrrrrr me off to that place lei, so hurting de hor! my heart feel so erm, when she sae kaixinguo make me sad! omg, cries! haahs! i am touched by ur words! especially when u sae no one can replace my kaixinguo and even if can i also dont want to find new one de! OMG, i nearly cried when i see those words! is really make me feel that i am alive somehow! u are also my one and only teddy bear! even if got another i also dont want! hahas! takecare my one and only teddybear! giving you all the love i have okie! mwarhs!
clown! thanks ya for all the backup okie! so fun right but make both of them so sad! are you touched by their words? hahas! u are so nice to say i am blur huh! i know i am BLUR CAN! hahas! stop saying my DP blur now cos i admit liao hor! hahas! thanks for saying thanks to me in ur blog! hahas!
SLP! hahas! i update ler hor! thanks ya huh! just always smile! hahas! oh ya, congrats to my SLP for running so fast hor~! gogogo SLP go!
shigehisa! he is so cute larh! hahas! u are the first one dont you x) hahas! take care cutie! haahs!
i really love all my friends!
i promise to be happy ler! so everyone sad or wadd just come find me ba! i make sure you go HAHAHAHAS!
nites everyone! somemore homework need to be done! ahahs! BYE!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

10:53 PM

teddybear+clown+standingground = SMILE

i found back my file ler! went to school early morning with NANA and AH S*GF! hahas, my uncle drove me to causeway point, my auntie is so funny larh! i just went LOL in my heart? hahas! meet NANA first, AH S was late! hahas, nvm! went to school crapping with them, i wonder how can i crap with my file still being unfound? hahas, bought choco for them because i want to thanks them for so many things. thanks both of ya~ went to school, saw KS running again! omg, so cool to look from the far can! AH S and i were like going GAH GAH GAH again! so cool larh she! went to so many places to look for my file, it is still not found yet! went to parade square to line up, feeling depressed for my missing file. after that went to bio lab to look for it and i found it! the auntie keep it for me! thanks auntie, and i am going to cane by file for not going home! hahas! my mood just went LALALA at that moment! feeling that those people who cheer up up yesterday were so great! hahas! thanks U ALL! <3 U ALL!
have gp for the first period! hahas, played taboo today. then was maths lecture! ahahs, learn a new topic again! dint quite really understand so need to revise! have break after that, then was PCCG! went haha, hoho, during that times! i got new jiemei in my class~ the person is clarence! hahas! went hahas all the way! was like so funny de lorh! he say he got very strong sense that i like shigehisa! HAHAS, I GO MORE HAHA when i heard that lo! i really cant stop laughing! PCCG was so fun today! after PCCG was lunch! chatted with all my JIEMEI again! went hahas again! have econs~ he re teach last lecture things again xD hahas, have phy lecture after econs! same LT! the phy lec is fun today cos we see alot of things? hahas! saw ks during the last break! OMG, SHE IS JUST SO COOL! hahas! cant stop looking u see! hahas, is nana told me she is there de :X ahhas! have chinese for the second last period! have my 5 mins presentation! ahhas, i was so scare when it come my turn! my legs just went so jelly and my heart beat so fast xD ahahs! cant stop being so anxious! hahas! have PE for the last period! did belaying for PE! crapped with MISS LEE alot of things! hahas, she very funny larh! FUNNY TEACHER AND FUNNY STUDENT! hahas!
finally after school but it is not the end of the day! we still got PHYSICS test! OMG, so sian diao de lo! hahas, i din really study! OMG, going to fail ler ba! chatted on the phone with qingaide before the start of the test! ahahs, she was telling me abt teddy bear! argh, everyone dont bully my teddy bear pls! hahas, cant u all be nice to her since she is the one who is nice to ppl always? if ppl bully her, i will go scream the person like duno wadd lo! DUN BULLY TEDDY JIU DUI LER! teddy bear cheer up ba, hahas! KAIXINGUO is here! okie, i did my phy test in a not good, not comfortable, not nice, very er xin place can! i really feel like dying larh! i am so angry!~ argh, i just cant stand it please. i think not only me, all the people within 4 pr 5 seats away also cant stand it! i was like so pek chek that i press the calculator so loudly larh! argh, cant stand the smell! is like the worst of my lyfe when the air con is OFF! i was like dying! JINLONG say i am funny! hahas, am i? he say my reaction is so big! hahas! HAI HAO BA! went to have dinner with AH S, NANA and AH S friends! hahas, walked to causeway point chatting with NANA! feeling very pek chek sia the both of us! hahas! was like EVERYTHING BOILING AT HIGH TEMPERATURE! hahas! went to foodcourt and have our dinner! saw alot of people! hahas! meet qingaide at foodcourt but she and dumb clown go somewhere else to eat! hahas! sian de lorh! saw JINGER*laopo and friends! so long time no see her liao! SO MISS HER LARH! cant stop miss-ing her! ahahs! LAOPO! u rocks! mwarhs! hahas! chatted with them after eating! hahas, have chocolate MILKSHAKE! hahas, it is nice! hahas!
went to popular and sportlink after that! hahas! i smell BO suddenly! told nana and she dont believe me! then i go smell her! OMG, the smell came from her! i was LIKE OMG, she went OMG too! damn er xin lorh! argh, spray~~ hahas, wadd we did always! i wonder did the both of us have illusion lo? hahas! went home after that! hahas!
chatted with the phone with vincente that nice guy! hahas, he very funy larh! called me and say he knows that i need his entertainment! i just cant stop laffing after that! he thinks too much lar? we chatted alot of things again! he keep saying that i keep saying someone lo! sian diaoz! hahas, chatted on the phone with him for 1hr+ hahas! he say he is going to call me again tml! heyhey, sleep early xDD hahas!
my tang ge told my my korkor PW grade! hahas, ah S told me KS grade! all 3! good ler! hahas, everyone cheerup!
everything changes, the same goes for friends. i just cant hold things well at times. i just cant prevent things happen at times. so many cant. is just all fate thats all i can say! is fate that brings me here so i have to learn to accept things. i must learn to be happy since i am kaixinguo. i must learn to take things easy and dont keep hais-ing now anymore!
friends say u are the best wadd wadd wadd, then they are different now. i am not the one changing, i feel that u are the one? sometimes say i am good but now is diff? hahas, i dont wish to say anymore as i lost the trust ler ba? whoever i am to you, it doesnt matter anymore. i dont wish to ask so much again and again, i am just so tired after so many.
nite everyone! i need teddy bear, clown and standing grd. thats it. BYE!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

11:58 PM

DOWN&SICK&TIRED - DEAD

ARGH, feeling so troubled and down now. how can i forget to bring my file home today, i was like feeling so sad without having anything of mine to study for the phycis test! hais! somemore my the right side of my head is so pain. feeling so not well at all.
yesterday was a short day. i got morning run for my cca at 7pm! it is 9rds this time, feeling so =/ at that point of time because of my flu. running is fun, so i complete it ah S with KS passing us 3 times. she show us *thumb up* and say good for our timing with a clap! omg, we nearly faint after hearing what she says. thanks KS! supposed to end lesson at 140 but have econs at 520 so break for a very long time before our econs. thats sound so sian diaoz. meet teddybear and qingaide after my econs, they ate their dinner and qingaide went to buy things. after that we send teddy bear home first, then wait with qingaide for her daddy and went home after everything. at night, did my PI with the help of dumb clown ain! thanks girl. i must really thanks her for all her ideas. is so nice to have friends being there for you always.
today had chem prac in the first lesson. did experiment again. the right side of my head hurt so much after listening half the prac. i dont know why, it just hurts so much. went for maths tutorial, gp and pw! end my lesson at around 230 so meet AH S to go for our floorball training. did nothing today at there because of my head just get so pain. argh, feel so bad when i did nothing but sit there and drink lot of water. went to wash up at about 515 or later? got a shock in the toilet as KS come in. i just jumped up and she knows i got a shock. was feeling so paiseh, she is a very nice person indeed. she ask me to drink more water. thats the second time she say that to me. omg, nice person! walked to CWP with ah S and shunfa[did i spell right?]. chatted with both of them, talking craps. my head more when i start to laugh more, not a good thing to laugh at all today. realised that i forget to bring my file home only when i reached foodcourt. argh, feeling like killing myself after knowing that i left my file in school. went down to MCdonald as there are floorball people there. ah S and i were afraid of telling KS that we are not going for the floorball morning run tomorrow as i am going to search for my file early morning tml. by the time i finish telling her, i can feel that my eyes are abit watery. hais, feeling sad and i just cant cry in front of them. shunfa told her that ah S and i are scare of her, her face just keep on smiling. the way she smile is so erms, duno how to say.
went home feeling very depressed and told my sister that i lost my file. she told me to find my file tml at school, so i went back to room and wanna try online study but there is nothing for me to study at all. feeling more depressed after online-ing!
xiaodi*xiaoxin! thanks ya for what you say although u say u did nothing. good luck for ur x-country tml~ be confident and i am sure u can run fast. all the best xiaodi!
KS! thanks for all ur cheers, i know what to do. thanks for allowing me to find my file and thanks ya for ur concern. i am not really afraid of ya okie. i will drink more water de.
christina! thanks ya! i am feeling so bad for being so not in good mood as i lost my file with everything inside the file! thanks for trying ur means and ways to help me to study. thanks alot, i duno how i can thanks u furthermore. goodluck for ur test tml.
qingaide! sorry, i do not know what to say to ya because i am feeling down. sorry if i choose to bottle up again but no worries for me because i am strong. u take care of urself ba.
dumb clown. thanks ya for ur english yesterday, thanks alot! thanks for being my clown, u are a nice friend to me! i really want to thanks qingaide for letting me to know ya, thanks!
teddybear! dont always sad sad then dont want say okie, must learn to voice urself out de. no pt keeping everything to urself. kaixinguo is there always de. i know NYP is good but with me, it will be BEST. cut hair liao show me okie? sorry if i dint speak much to u yesterday, we will be more cook soon! i want to hug teddy bear (:
i am feeling so troubled still, can anyone tell me how. lyfe is getting up and down again and again. i am so sian and tired ler, i cant take it anymore. can i choose to give up? LOST&DOWN!
thanks someone for the scanning of phy things, thanks. bye everyone. take care!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

9:29 PM

DOWN-

BACK TO blog again! i am so tired and my right leg arre still in pain ~ hahas, tml got morning run again! 8rds again~ how i wish i can fly everywhere! hahas, think too much i know!
yesterday was too lazy to update my blog anyway did nothing much! just chit chat with my friends. hahas! was a nice chat overall! hahas! everyday also chat de huh, so no big deal!
today went to school again! hahas. have pe and we ran 2.4Km again! in fact my jc lyfe is all about running! yap, running makes me run away from everything! hahas! a long long day in school, did debate! i just cant stop laughing when it come to my turn to speak! i laugh till my tears drop! ahahs! i just cant speak well in class and i dont know why! is a nice thing to have wonderful classmates inside your class! hahas! we did compo during our chinese lesson, no ideas come to my mind. suddenly i think of my gong gong! argh, i miss him! hahas.!
went to meet shuhui*qingaide but ain*dumb come fetch me to her house becuase shuhui*qingaide is in her house! ahhas! then we went to meet kye*teddybear!! went to bball court to see them play bball again! hahas! bought the 3 of them somethin to eat! ahahs. when we reach there, 3 more people come! ahahs, should say their friends came! ahhas! asked teddy alot of Q huh! feeling so paiseh while asking her! hahas! i cant deny that she is very chio and cute! a nice girl always! so ppl please treasure her! (: went home around 8+pm, walked home! along the way was like arguing with teddy bear! she damn good at arguing larh! straight and crook! hahas! nvm, i shall let her win! dont want friend her liao larh! hahas! back home and daddy chase me to bath immediately because he want to wash the clothes! so sian diaoz, so guai guai go bath first! hahas!
anzel, not only you facing up and down. i am facing it too. just that i am facing different from you. dont be dishearted on what is happening now. come on, where is the cheerful anzel i used to see or have! hahas, kai xin guo is here! cheerup wo de ren; mwarhs mwarhs mwarhs!
teddy bear. sorry because i think i talk too much yesterday larh! didnt expect myself to talk so much when we come to that topic. maybe i am not in ur shoes so i wont be able to understand ur suitation as you. maybe i am not you so i dont understand you as well. i dont want to see you so sad and down always over the matter as i think it is not worth ur sadness or wadd ba. you give in wadeva u give ler, you take whatever you can take ler. so is a chance to let others to do it for ya right? cant be ya the one always doing all these things. dont because ur heart say you like so you take all the suffers hor! i see liao also heartpain larh! 2 hands make a clap, so it apply to this matter too. no matter what, make the right decision you want. i just want to see my teddy smile okie! <3ya , kaixinguo is always there for ya de! cheerup! ahahs, thanks for the wonderful chat today~ thanks! mwarhs! i hope i can make your index finger straight somehow. oh ya, tml must enjoy urself for the orientation okie! hahas! take care!
shuhui*qingaide. i know you are very hais now. i think the only way is to let ur parents and sister accept the fact? no point runnning away from it anymore. remember what i told you okie, anything just give me a call ba! mwarhs! <3ya.
down, yesh i am just so down. have been listening to this song 24/7 since yesterday or saturday~ i just cant stop playing this song. my mood just so DOWN! super down! i feel like screaming, running and banging myself against the wall! i dont know why! hais! even if i got teddy bear, clown or standing ground, i just cant cheer myself up. i want a teddybear and i got a teddybear frend. i want a clown and dumb say she is clown. i want standing grd but dont have. so 2/3 of what i got, so i am not happy overall? hahas! thats sound so stupid. i never forget i got my xiaodi with me. what would u do when u are down? friends? family? nothing? hais. i want nothing with me but only the song down. too many things to do. i am not so stress by my homework i think but other things. what to do? argh, can i just run away from all this things, can i dont face anything.
growing up~ why must we grow up? wo bu xiang zhang da ler. the problems we faced are much more stressful! argh, can i just dont grow up? teddy told me mature things, i understand what she say. thanks teddy~ i would have hug her and cried if she is in front of me! i remember hugging myra for the first time and i feel so safe! i duno why! maybe my heart and mind are always running wild thats why need a hug to control it ba~ i also duno huh! running away is always a bad thing so i am thinking not to run away but to face the fact now. facing is a hard thing to do too. i tried to fact alot of facts but in the end i am just still so sad overall? or can say i am even sadder. practise make perfect < teddy says~ she told me about her bball too. i know practise make perfect so i will do something de. i am onli afraid of setbacks? setbacks will make you stronger. cries, i dont think so somehow. hais, no matter what, i will remember what my friends told me always because they make me stronger somehow. thanks all my friends.
are things always straight or bend? can someone tell me something. will straight become bend or will bend become straight? someone tell me please.
i am afraid now because of some matter which i dont want to tell anyone at all except for my xiaodi. i dont wish to be a useless and weak jie to her too but i want to be a strong and a useful one. dont know what to do to make myself strong also!
i have been asking a lot of people one question. hahas. all the answer i get is the same. i dont feel nice afterall because i feel that i am cursing them somehow. argh, i am lost. curse-ful hui!
did i ever choose to bottle anything up? hais. even if i did, i just dont want to see people ard me feeling sadder with me around. so people dont get me wrong of not trusting you guys. i want everyone ard me to be happy always, thats the most important thing. the main purpose of me being their friends is the cheer everyone up. i am kai xin guo wadd. everyone make sure you are happy with me okie (:
DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN! still DOWN! going to finish my PI today! bye everyone! cheerup everyone and smile!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

10:36 PM

<3everything&everyone around me ((:

i am finally free to update my blog now! hahas, went to town today with rigel, nana and ah S! fun xD! okie, let me blog from the start! hahas! went online around 10am! hahas! chatted with my xiaodi*xiaoxin! kye*teddy bear! shuhui*qingaide! nana! ah S! gel! chatted with my xiaodi*xiaoxin alot alot alot! hahas, busy crapping huh! shall blog about those chatting later on! hahas! then went offline at around 1.20pm! chatted with charlotte on the phone while preparing to go out! hahas, then off i went out to meet NANA, GEL AND AH S! hahas! supposed to meet them at 1.30pm! i reached admiratly at actually 1.30PM! hahas! still chatting with charlotte at that time! hahas. end my call after sitting down on the MRT! hahas! then nana and i chatted alot on the MRT! busy gossipping i supposed! that's wadd girls do? realised that i forget to bring the money out and it was still on the table! sian diaoz huh! hahas! nvm, heng i still got money! hahas! finally reached orchard! hahas, we nearly miss the stop! hahas!
went to fareast center first! ah S and i went around looking for our floorball sticks! hahas, we all finally found the shop at duno which level! hahas! the sticks werent as cool as what we think! so we see see look look! no the same brand as the person who we go gah gah over her! sian de larh! ahahs! next we went to see nana's bat! haahs! walked walked see see looked looked! all oso not the one she wants~ so in the end we bought nothing! hahas! went to eat our lunch at 3+pm! hahas, was like crapping and laughing! we chatted alot of things larh! ah S was like so mad at that time! trying to act les! i am her les partner somemore! it is the worse thing huh!! hahas, she feed me fries! hahas, so unlucky to have her as my GF/BF! hahas! nearly cried :x hahas! kiddin! i feed her too okie! hahas. funny larh! we laughed so loudly there as if we owe the place! hahas! then someone laugh when we laughed too! hahas, more funny! went to walked around again! i also duno where we walked! hahas! road idiot! hahas!
went to hereen and bought my friends things! hahas, bought things for xiaoxin*xiaodi, lex*halfdi, shuhui*qingaide, kye*teddybear and ain*dumb! hahas! we walked and walked and walked! went off at 6pm! hahas! was eating sweets with them! hahas! took MRT home! hahas, we take to marina bay and back to woodlands! all of us laugh so loudly on the MRT! we took photos on the MRT! hahas! were like all siao char bo! all laughing so loudly! time seem to pass so fast and my station reached! sian, so say bye to them! hahas!
shuhui*qingaide called me on a very nice time! hahas, thats the time when i walked out off the MRT station! hahas! she want to meet me and go to see them played bball! hahas. so agree to go with her! hahas! so i went home first because it is just like 5mins away from my house! i saw weeling*laogong`bestbuddy and her mother while walking home! hahas! say bye to her mother huh then weeling turn around and say: why no say bye to me! ahhas! i was like okie, BYE weeling! hahas! funny larh! went home and took my pencil case and the money that was on the table and off i went out again! hahas! meet her at around 7pm! hahas! she went POOL-ing with her friends! so meet her and we walked to the park again! hahas! went to buy for teddybear and dumb drink before meeting them! hahas! by the time we went there, they decided to go somewhere nearer to my house there! ahhas, so walked there! i saw teddy bear running towards shuhui! so funnny larh! more like teddy bear! ahahs! reached there finally and my legs were in pain! hahas! so wrote and give whatever i want and give it to them personally today! hahas! so pro huh! shuhui*qingaide send me until the bridge there and she went to the bball court again! reached home at 7.55PM! hahas!
my xiaodi*xiaoxin is so funny today larh! we chatted alot today again! was basically crapping! hahas! he so funny larh and suddenly he say i am cute! hahas! then i sae he is shuai! hahas. he got really nice DP today! hahas, nearly faint after seeing it! hahas. he was like so kua zhang larh jie! ahhas. fun fun! told him about how cool my captain is! hahas, i think he will think i am mad! hahas! he is ready to meet me out soon! hahas! i was very excited of meeting him also larh! hahas! let him xin yang yang on what i buy for him! ahhas! bleahs! purposely dont want tell u lei! ahhas! he so bad larh, say i funnny ! hahas! although i know i am funny but dont need to say de larh! i am UR CLOWN to cheer u up! ahhas! we are talking back to each other now! hahas, so funny again! we also do and chat funny things! hahas! admit that u bully me please hahas! who ask u really got bully me! ahahs! bleahs! we argue till the sky! i say the sky is black becuase he knows my xiaodi dont want admit and my xiaodi say he is not angry because got stars that shine! omg, thats so lame! he say i am polite! hahas. so sian diaoz larh! becos i onli sae one welcome when he say thank you! hahas! he is so naughty huh dont want do homework and dont want pull his ears and say sorry to me! somemore he dont scare that i will take cane and beat him! hahas, so notti! he ask me to slap his dp as it is his side view and it say slap me! ahhas! so funny and so lame! hahas! cant stop laffin! daJIE<3xiaoDI! mwarhs mwarhs mwarhs! i just love chatting with my xiaodi and thanks for those nice nice song! hahas!! we got the same taste!
shigehisa! hahas, he is so funny larh! he knows i miss him! that's like so OVER! hahas! i played a trick on him again! hahas. he really shang dang! so cute lar he! cant stop laughing when i know! hahas! he is always so sotong de! haahs! worse than me! hahas! he will get a chance of hearing my voice one day. i promise to sing as he will say me :( and say no chance! i give u chance larh, hahas. honoured huh! hahas. SHIGEHISA rocks my world!
NANA! i confirmed they same class as ultraman liao! omg, i feel so sad when i know! how can ultraman know such people! sad for him! hahas! remember to play well and i will support u always! cheer up with me around and i will protect u from all the harm! hahas!
jinger*laopo! faster get ur msn fixed and talk to me! i miss you so much! hahas!
shuhui*qingaide! hahas, take care of ur legs larh! i will heart paIN TO see that u are injured de lei! somemore thanks for hearing me also! i really really thanks u so much that i duno how to say thanks to u~ hahas. u are BO's sis? hahas! if u are sad, i will tell u funny things! hahas! just smile qingaide! remember to treat me nice or not i will break with u! ahahs, u know my power~ hahas!
TEDDY BEAR! omg, she looks more like teddy bear! thanks for the DOWN today! hahas. i am kai xin guo always and not shang xin guo! u cheer up okie! hahas! kai xin guo is there for ya! hahas!
DUMB! thanks for ur songs huh! ahahs. i shall not call her teddy or what liao! i so scare later she come bashing me up! hahas! next time we post please give us 1 min $1 please! hahas! thanks for ur songs!! hahas!
HEYE KOR! happy 18th birthday! i still remember the time when he sing birthday song for me last year on the phone! i am so gan dong at the point of time! i miss my kor kor alot! i miss his crappings! i miss his lame jokes! i miss him! i miss his voice! i miss calling him he bao dan! i miss him calling me mo li hua! memories! coming back to me again! i just miss my kor loads overall! ahahs! somemore now we study different place ler! omg, i miss him! hahas! we are going to meet next week! i am going to give him his birthday prsent! ahahs! yay! finally going to see my korkor again! KOR, happy birthday again! remember to stay cool and happy always huh! u rocks too!
down; yesh i am down today~ thanks shuhui*qingaide, teddybear and xiaodi! thanks! i am fine!
someone say something today and i feeling something that time! hahs, i also dont know how to xplain!
i am finish updating! hahas. going to tv till 3am today! tml i am going out with my siblings! yay-ness! i love going out with them! nites everyone!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

11:21 PM

<3FRIDAY! [ks rock]

FRIDAY! omg, i love friday because i got date with my qing ai de! hahas! lets talk about today! first period is chemistry! omg, funny lar the lecturer mr bryan! hahas! very cute huh, daphne say de :x! we sit at the first row for today, so heng huh! LOLS! the NANA keep saying my meng zhong qing ren because long story! not that i like the guy or what, just that he appear in my dreams for 3times! omg! hahas, i feel funny too! have GP after chem! hahas, debate!~ kinda of fun and sian! hahas, i also duno huh! next was break~ we ate burgers! hahas! after eating we went for chem tutorial! hahas, mr john ng is still so funny ever! ahhas, cute larh the way he behaviour. i just cant dont laff! hahas! next was phy tutorial! hahas, have a small quiz! sian diao larh! my answer is 2 times mr ang answer! OMG, i am like so "pro" huh! lols! nonsense! nvm! after that was lunch! crapped with the class guys larh! ahahs. was very funny! i just went hahaha for the whole topic! i cant stop laffing cos it is just so so so funny! went for econs tutorial at 2PM! hahas! time pass so slowly! finally is 3PM and i am ready to go for my FLOORBALL! yay!
went to floorball excitedly with ah S! hahas! learn about the rules and basic today! hahas. was very fun because floorball is always fun! hahas! AH S is so funny when KS come ask me for time! hahs! funny larh she! i see her face also laff! hahads! end the training at 4.30PM! HAHAS! stayed back to play with AH S nonsense thing and also waiting for NANA to finish her project! haahs! we were playing lots of things! i did some marching with her also! hahas! fun huh! LOLS! playing with bottles! hahas! finally NANA end about 5+pm and we went home together! ah S and me ran when we saw someone walking home too! chiong huh :x ahahs! the 3 of us were like mad women huh! running here and there, doing all sorts of stupid actions, laffing, jumping and alot more! hahas! was very funny overall!
chatted with KS at the traffic light there! hahas! she was behind us all along, was like sian diaoz to see her because she can see our chou side sia! sian diaoz! we walked with her by waiting for the other traffic light, see we are nice juniors : dD hahas! we were like mad as we scream BYBYE so loudly and i accidently scream the wrong name! hahas, paiseh sia! ah S and me were like crazy over! going gah gah gah at the underblocks near CWP! NANA cannot tahan us! hahas! we were like siao and we form ourselves KS! HAHAS! was fun! precisely nonsense! hahas! went foodcourt to have our dinner with ah S, NANA and rigel! hahas! eat and chatted alot of things. laff again! ahhas! went to see NANA's bat after that! saw brenda mummy! omg, hahas! cool huh got guitar! hahas! next saw billy and his frends and then saw shimin*mei, vien*mei! hahas! after that huize*teacher! OMGOMG! i miss my teacher lots! i saw her was like HUIZE! hahas, going to hug her liddat larh! hahas. so happy to see my teacher! hahas!
finally take bus to meet my qing ai de! hahas, meet at 888 huh! just directly opposite to my house! LOLS! went to MCdoanld! hahas. ain was eating and shuhui*qingaide were drinking and i am playing with ain's bball! hahas! was very very full at that time! hahas. craps with the both of them larh! laff and laff and laff! someone keep saying i BLUR! sotong! argh! i am not! hahas! we were drawing on tissue papers oso! hahas, ain[dumb ass ion] #o7; shuhui*qingaide[tigger] #o6; chunli[teddy bear] #14 and me[ultraman] #o8~! hahas! we are bestie huh! wadd onli but i love them as friends!! hahas! so they are still my besties ! hahas! teddy bear come only at 9 or 9+ which is so "early" huh! we chat until like want die liao den she come! hahas! we crapped again! ahhas. this time more to jokes ba! hahas! saw teddy bear's parents too! hahas. so funny larh, i decided to call her teddy XIONG! hahas! is like so unlucky huh! when its time to go home, it rained so heavily! must be the teddy bear singing all the way larh then it rain! hahas! must be her fault! called my daddy to come and fetch me although it is just opp to my house! hahas. my daddy come and fetch me home, i got nice real daddy! thanks daddy!
reached back home finally at 10pm! hahas! took a bath and finally settle everything around 10.30pm! hahas! chatted with ain, rigel, nana, yusi! hahas! AH s and i chatted with the gahgah person too! omg, the both of us were flying up to the sky! hahas. so omg! haahs! flying up to the sky! hahas! we just love floorball! hahas!
shigehisa! how is ur econs test huh! i haben chat with ya today! argh, miss ya!
xiaoxin*xiaodi! hahas! OMG, i am touched by his sms~! i was like so touched when he send me that sms! thanks xiaodi! u are the best in my heart! we love each other as best friend! hahas!
JINGER*laopo! where are you huh! today OC how? lols!
shuhui*qingaide! hahas. nice day again? hahas! must remember what i tell you today okie? dont be sad and i will be there for ya! haahas!
TEDDY BEAR MUST FORGIVE ME OKIE! hahas! TEDDY BEAR IS CUTE! hahas! just take it as i am praising you cute ba! ahahs!
i feel fine when you say never mind! hahas.
today is just so nice and i love friday! 7 is really a nice number overall! today i meet alot of people and have alot of fun! friday rocks <3.
tml going town with nana, ah S and rigel! to go and take buy at nana's bat and see see look look our sticks! hahas! yay-ness! floorball rocks! hahas! bye everyone! ahahs! nites!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

11:44 PM

-nothing to say.

THURSDAY! soon will be friday! was not quite looking forward to it because i dont want friday to come! hahas! today went for cca morning run agauin! hahas! very tired! ran 8rds! omg. 3.2KM! my flu is like omgomg, i also duno how to sae! hahas. Usee and me were still going gahgah over that someone! hahas! later on got lessons and was like coughing like duno wadd! lazy to say out the details of lessons and stuff just that chinese lesson is fun with all the things we say during our PE lesson! GE REN DE YI JIAN huh! lols! have PE again! we ran 2.4km! total ran 5.6KM today! this week is already run 13.2Km le! tml got cca training again! running again i think! OMG, my lyfe is just KM now! hahas! is fun too!
went back home with NANA! chatted alot alot larh! her seniors of her cca are all so evil! i hate them bullying her! how can they do that to J1~ argh, somemore is like cowardly bullying her! i hate them :X hahas! i will protect NANA de okie! so NANA, anithin just tell me and i go lecture them! ahhas! NANA, cheer up, i will oways be there for ya!!
shigehisa is so funy larh! he saw me turning away! LOLS! feeling so pai seh to see him after my cca morning runs! haha, dui lian larh : dD hahas, good luck for ya econs test tml! hahas! u can do it de! gogogo! dont hao lian to me okie! u rocks!
my xiaodi is okie ler! hahas, good larh! today just sms him to talk craps again larh! hahas! xiaodi is the best in my eyes okie!
thanks half di, cheerup too okie. half di + half jie = full jie di. hahas.
jinger lao po is always the best because she is always there to make me laugh! i will never divorce de larh, who ask u so cute right? LOLS! thanks laopo.
shuhui's DUMB suan me so much larh! she sae i cry alot and hope tml come! so evil lorh! i dont want tml to come, she wants! so bad larh! her english not good de sia! hahas :x aiya, she must respect me okie! hahas. somemore say i weird? OMG! is like so OVER can! i am not weird. u this weirdo! hahas! 7 is a suay number lorh, i just dont like 7! hahas!
SHUHUI*qing ai de! she is so funny larh! she is going to die soon lo and i am saying bye to her! hahas! no larh, just kidding only! my qing ai de rocks huh! thanks for ya concern last night! i am touched by you always! thanks for being there for me always.
TEDDY BEAR is like so bo liao de lei! i ask her dont reply she reply =.=! wadd onli larh she! i threaten her if she reply but she just like to reply! argh, teddy bear teddy bear! i want to sing teddy bear! LOLS!
i am sorry to that someone. i am so sorry, dint know that you will be surprised by me~ i feel so sorry.
sometimes i just feel so curse. hahas, dont know why also larh! knowing me is a good or bad thing in your lyfe? hais, i also dont know! the happiness i bought is lesser than the sadness i bought to people around me. argh, why am i feeling this way now. hais. i just love walking home listening to my MP3 at the same time. i love it. i am just the kai xin guo that everyone used to know.
omg, is so late now. time to do my econs section B and i am done with my hw! yay! update more tml. hahas. bye everyone! nites!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

11:17 PM

xiaodi is the best in my eyes.

i am back to update my blog again! hahas, my coughing is getting worse! LOLS! i think my lungs are going to be cough out soon! LOLS! flu is still the same, no improvement at all! hahas. my class 0612B love ultraman! LOLS! i made them sign on a piece of paper with 0612B love ultraman today! haha, all of them signed! so happy! ultraman rocks my lyfe to the max! LOLS! today is also a short short day and i got my CCA! hahas, my CCA is fun! LOLS! the seniors are fun too! hahas! Usee did not went to the training because she got the COP thingy! haha, sad! hannah come today! hahas! good good! did 5rds of running! hahas! my flu! ahah, like cannot breathe liddat huh! LOLS! played match too~ Usee onli come back after training. after that got some seniors' numbers and email! we xchange! hahas! Usee and i was going hahahas over the person again! OMG, COOL sia! hahas. got the person number and email too! omgomg, we will like so excited but Usee more larh! that lao tiko huh! LOLS! went back home at 6pm hahas! is rained heavily when i alighted from the bus! hahas, HENG huh! LOLS! went home safe and sound! LOLS! i realised that i left my water bottle in school again! it is the third time! hahas, 3 same water bottles are lost within one month or less? ahhas!
somemore got someone say i am FORGETFUL larh! lols. duno is who hor! lols. hahas. i am not forgetful larh! just accidently forget onli :x LOLS! i am like so sad when my $10 000 water is inside lorh! lols. the water bottle is being cursed by 3 people! somemore the 3 people are my friends. hahas! i am going to buy a new water bottle again, sians!
XIAOXIN*xiaodi! dont be keep on saying urself this and that lousy! wadd onli good at lousy! >.< see liao so sad one larh! cries*~ must remember what you told me okie! must remember to use it on urself too larh! as usual u always hurt me so much by saying so many usless points of u in front of me. how can ya liddat! hahas, i saw u again! well, dajie<3xiaodi! hahas!
shigehisa! i send him a WU LIAO de sms this morning! hahas! okie, can see him having lots of fun in his cca huh! LOL! good for him! hahas! happy for him also! hahas! he is so lame lorh and he dint fall into my trick again larh! LOLS! hahas, somemore he hao lian to me again lorh! but his hao lian-ness rocks my lyfe hhas! he just so rocks! LOLS! i love his hao lian-ness! hahas! remember to cheer up! dont be sad okie! i think he is not sad afterall because i am the one who is sad huh! LOLS! because he break my little heart larh! LOLS! he is saying i am weird larh! haha, he is still the ke-ai-est boy i ever seen!
shuhui*qingaide! thanks for ya concern! i also dont know what to say larh because i am not good at words. i know you are there for me also just that sometimes i am so BLIND! lols. thanks ya so much and i love ya for being there for me. i will be there for u all! hahas! mwarhs!
JINGER*laopo! omgomg, she is really really the best best lao po i ever have!! no matter how fan i am, she will always try her best to make me feel good and everything! she is so so great! thanks laopo! i will also make you feel good some other day if u are feeling down! hehe! love ya loads!; mwarhs!
i know i am being so rahs today. i feel so unwell after i sense whats is wrong. i dont know what am i supposed to do to ya. i was shocked to know that you really get so argh over the thing. i was shocked by ur actions too. by ur speech. by ur behaviour. i was just totally so shock and i do not know how to react in front of you. i dont know what to say to ya. i dont know what is happening to ya. i really dont know. i wish time could turn back and this wont be able to happen to ya and you wont be able to feel this way anymore. never did i know you will feel this way. maybe i dont know you well, thats why you feel argh~ i just want to say sorry to ya even though when nothing happens. the above is just a pure friend.
thanks ming shen de concern! i am so touched! LOLS!
sick and tired of nothing. i am feeling so sick. my lungs are coming out due to my coughing! tomorrow got morning run for cca again and also PE! omg, my sickness will never be fine by then. i am going to do my tutorial soon ler. so bye everyone!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

8:50 PM

sick+breakdown = die ~

hi everyone! today is the shortest day in school, so i end school early! yay-ness! hahas, still in sick condition! flu+cough and my throat hurts too!! feeling very uncomfortable with blockednose! argh, so like cannot breathe. had floorball morning run today! 8rds and my legs' nerves are so pain after the 6rds! haha, did not do warm up! haha, onli the kasim do i think! yusi and me are like chatting before running! after running go and apply deep heat! omg, the feeling is so OMG! lols. hahas! yusi and i were like keep seeing someone after the training! we are not that tiko or wadd, just that we love to see cool people. (: omg, the person is so freaking cool larh! we cant take our eyes off from the person! hahas! cant believe the person is so cool and the person behave like one of our pe teachers!! hahas. totally same! COOL people rocks my lyfe nowadays! hahas. had lessons~ time flies today! hahas!
after school went home with daphne&juan&huiyang! hahas, we all go causeway point! huiyang left to meet her cousin so the 3 of us went to have our lunch! hahas, after lunch chatted the whole afternoon time! gossiping, crapping and laughing! saw jinger*laopo! omg, she is deaf larh! i called her so many times and she dint hear me! haha, her frends told her i called her! so funny larh she! went to walk around too! went back home finally at 6pm! hahas! was very tired and my legs are still in pain. cries*~
shigehisa! he is so cute larh! hahas, he give me his blog to listen to the song i want! so sian diaoz de lorh! somemore dare to lie me that is his frend's blog lor! hahas, see he is so bully lorh! hahas. he also funny because he say he dont want let me see the blog in the end let me go enjoy his blog music? LOLS! so cute only larh! shigehisa rocks rocks rocks!
SLP! stop saying i weak! wo shi ni de lao gong lei! LOLS! she very cute one larh! dont want wife me becos i walk away! LOLS! so cute onli! hahas. i only sick for a week and she is complaining that i am weak! what only larh she! LOLS! she is playing maple now! so funny! hahas! SLP, thanks!
i am feeling so hais now! so so so so hais now! i keep on hais-ing now! i know i am supposed to smile & not to sigh forever, but sorry i cant. i am feeling so sorry for what i am doing now. i dont want that too but what to do when i feel so down again and again. how many times of down must i face in order not to feel that again? i wonder my cousin & frends words somehow can let me regret alot of things? words dont affect anyone but it seems to have effects on me somehow.
i am going to be real dead if i continue to be like that. hais. going to be dead for alot of things. feeling so breakdown whenever i face anything. i am feeling useless now. i tried to be strong but i fail. i tried to stay happy but i fail. wad a kai xin guo i am. totally fail to be a kai xin guo. i tried to think positively but i fail again. how many times i fail, i forget. everytime i turn back and realised no one behind me. should i move forward or move backward or remain on the same spot? afterall, i am just a small small girl in a big big world. my mind are starting to run wild again. i dont wish to think that again too but i cant. i cant afford to stop thinking whenever i cant take on to something. i hate myself for being that useless too. sorry people who i promise. hais. i remember when jinger say: let me be the big bottle. i was totally touched by her words. so can i have a big bottle instead of a small one. i wonder how many bottles i filled up already? how many more bottles do i need to fill again? i wonder when can i stop all this feelings. so many wonders but not solve eventually.
dont know what to say anymore. thanks SLP again, the best lao po i ever have! thanks; mwarhs. bye everyone.

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

9:30 PM

<3 today; niceday with nice&cool people!

my flu is getting from bad to worse! today nearly die in LT1 because it is so cold and my nose block! argh, hate it! hahas, my head was spinning too! getting sick again and again! i wonder why i sick so often in jc, argh, i dont like! must be that vincente who spread his sickness to me de larh! ahhas, he so funny larh! he say wad he die, then i will cry! LOLS! so funny lo! lols. ran 2.4km for pe today again! ahhas! that dawei is so naughty and he come BOO me again! ahahs, as usual i got shock again! i will revenge one fine day, lets wait for the day! hahas! got maths test too! hais, sure die de. was not feeling fine after the test because i wasnt fine since yesterday. lessons were like so long, my flu just so tao ren yan!
shuhui*qing ai de called me during lesson time =/ so heng huh the time! LOLS! called her back but no answer and finally she called me back again! ahahs! she told me that she, chunli and ain want to go train their shooting huh! so ask me to go! hahas, she need me :x LOLS! someone scold me blur again on phone! argh, they keep on switching people to talk, how i know who is who! LOLS! so i am not blur afterall! lols! so went to meet shuhui*qing ai de and ain after school! hahas, the rain just poured~ omg, i got stuck in civis centre! finally reach causeway point so took 969 to meet shuhui*qing ai de and ain because i dont know where is the duno wadd park huh! lols! well, now i know! hahas! that chunli so funny, she really thinks that she is rude because i say so! LOLS! well, feel so bad when she say sorry for nothing! wo shi kaixinguo ^^ chunli looks like teddy bear! ahhas! shuhui told me she is retarded eeyore. LOLS! siann diaoz larh! lols!
went there! omg, so many people larh! hahas, well, kind of =.= but they all play basketball so pro lar! got really no comments about it! hahas, chatted with shuhui*qing ai de! LOLS! basically talking and gossiping! lols! tthe ain say i am siao! omg, i am not siao but crazy only larh! around 6+pm, alot of them left so only qingaide, chunli, ain and me! hahas, i was basically laughing larh! is good to laugh i think too! so everyone must laugh more! hahas! see shuhui, chunli and ain shoot shoot shoot! omg, all pro too! so ji bei lei! hahas, maybe i should learn larh so to be better than shuhui! LOLS! bleahs! went home finally at around 8pm! hoho!
SHIGEHISA is so cute larh! he want to ask me something, he sae to ma fan me again! LOLS! so well-mannered! lols. we chatted about something sensitive huh! LOLS! i also dont know why he dont like because for me is okie larh! then what influnced! LOLS! so cute larh he! oh ya, he send me a song for me again so i can sing again huh! LOLS! he will get a chance of me singing to him! lols! shigehisa rocks my world and you run so fast lo!.
let the rain fall, wake my dreams! i wish i can really wake up from everything now. everything changes so fast so soon. give me a chance, will i turn back? make a U turn or wadd? i dont know. someone please tell me dont ever look back again.
tu rang fa xian wo yi shuang shou wu li qu gai bian, zhe yi ge xiao ren wu zai da sheng na han. yuan lai zi you zi ji ke yi rang zi ji kuai ler. i am happy always! kai xin guo always for everyone!
still got a little bit more of chinese homework to be done. some Q i dont know how to do! bye everyone!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

10:49 PM

failure&useless de jie.

BOO! my flu is like omg now! keep sneezing for the whole day! hahas! even myself also cannot tahan! then sun is so hot, my head is like spinning! my throat is still pain! hais! useless me! i am very very tired! early morning went out with my family members and we went out for the whole day! finally back home at 7+pm! today went to "pay a visit" to my great grand mother, 2 grandfathers, big uncle and third uncle! i miss my grandfathers so mcuh! i miss them alot till i cant express myself in word~ argh, regret not cherish them when they are with me. now then come regret like duno wadd! hais. my lyfe is always full of regrets. hais, thats wadd i hate about.
shigehisa is so funny larh! he asked me whether i know ming shen or not! hahas, of cos i do! well, shigehisa is very ke ai! is a fact that he is super ke ai! please dont argue as u will surely lost de!
my half di is the second best di i ever have so far! hahas, although we are not cook but i told him alot of nonsense lar! hahas, thats me! he sleep one hour later than me and he wake up so late larh! so like wadd onli lorh! piggy half di! LOLS! we sms each other so many today! omg, is like so many things to crap! he went to zoo today! ahhas, cant imagine that he watch the eley's show! so funny larh! i must say that XINHUI is going to be mine soon! hahas, i am going to be her husband soon! hahas! yay-ness! hahas! i saw my half di blog yesterday! omg, my heart is totally so nei jiu lorh! i am like so playful larh! the most playful girl larh! sorry half di! he told me bu zhi ze wu zhui! but i still feel so bad! he punish me in a funny way larh! so cute and funny lorh he! hahas, i think the punishment should be on him and not me ba! i am always the haha lihui lorh! hahas! so used it on you okie! i name him as haha crab half di! hahas, so cute larh! who ask him so look like haha crab! LOLS! well, half di. i know we know each other not long and i also dont know in what ways i can help you. i am not a good half jie ba! is always my di helping me along the way, guiding me, encouraging me and alot more. i shall be the strong half jie of urs. let me assure you that you will not sigh but smile forever with me playing a half jie in ur lyfe. i am sorry for not being good at words, let me tell you in face one day. you just wait for the day to come. halfjie<3halfdi okie! mwarhs! JIEDI lian xin!
NANA! dont be scare about your match okie! i believe u can do it de! CHAMPION lei! dont anyhow huh! u must jia you okie! must put in ur best and more! i give u my best and more too! so u got double, and play like a champion! hahas! jia you nana! i will always support u de!
thanks SLP! she never fail to cheer me up always! i want to thanks her alot alot! i dont know how to thanks someone! i got alot of thanks but dont know how to express! thanks SLP! the best i ever i have too in my lyfe. i know i have make u feel so argh now? hais, i am so sorry. oh ya, dont always feel what i feel.
i am feeling so hais hais hais now! my xiaodi is not online. i dont know who to turn to now. without him, i find myself being more lost when i am lost. feeling more useless when i am useless. hais, i am like dying without anything in my mind now but hais! i really really need my xiaodi now! even when he say nothing at all. he always say so much to make me alive. i am so dead now without him~ did i depend on him too much? hais. let me feel alive now please. anyone will do. hais. well, i am really a useless and failure de jie as my xiaodi say he is failure and my half di say he is useless. so i am both! hais. i keep saying i am kai xin guo or wadeva! i am not now i think! how can i be not kai xin! i am supposed to be the happiest little girl with xiaodi in my lyfe! with cute half di! with great SLP! with great buddy weeling. with nice shigehisa! with best tangge! with family' love! with frends' love! with everyone's love! how can i be? i must be strong! i am the strongest among everyone. i must cheer myself up before i cheer anyone else! i am happy, (: smile.
i know i got alot of friends who really care for me, i know! sorry for those who i make u all to worry for me, i am sorry. i cherish my lyfe too but sometimes i cant help by letting mind to run wild. my mind keep on thinking over and over the same questions? someone please tell me something. someone please wake me up! my lyfe? i wonder again.
TU RAN FA XIAN WO YI SHUANG SHOU WU LI QU GAI BIAN, ZE YI GE XIAO REN WU ZAI DA SHENG NA HAN! ARGH, i want this song now! hais. die die die! what is going on me now! hais!
good nites and take care. tml maths test, dead- note: sorry to SLP, sorry.

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

10:27 PM

<3 everyone and everything ard me xD

it is weekend again! hahas, time to rest again but alot of homework waiting for me! hahas! wadd onli larh! today morning wake up, argh! my throat is so pain! so pain >.< hahas! today went out with my sis and bro for the whole afternoon! so fun! my bro keep scaring my sis and i, but fail larh! he so young, should be we scare him! LOLS! so cute larh he! i love my silbing always x)
yesterday ended my school late! haha, sian diaoz! then meet shuhui*qingaide! haha! she wants to meet me and tell me something! so we meet at 888 again! ahhas! chatted for a long long time! then i send her back home and went back home around 9pm! hahas! we chatted alot of things larh! chunli's hair is so cool larh! was like totally omg! i believe shuhui*qingaide is happy nowadays! hope she will be in that way always! i dont want to see her cry anymore. promise me that you will be happy always, take care qing ai de. mwarhs!
chatted with xiaoxin*xiaodi yesterday! hahas! was totally so funny larh! he named lex my half di de GIGI as shi xin hui! LOLS! combination of linxin & lihui! hahas! he more lame than me larh! i see liao, must shang sian diao lorh! how come he more creative than me! LOLS! he say is a fact that i am blur! argh, so bad larh my xiaodi! somemore dont apologise to me! hahas! so bad! LOLS! then ask me dont blur ler! hahas, so cute onli! he think he saw me yesterday morning too! hahas, so cute! my xiaodi rocks!
my half di lex is so funny larh! we were like talkiing nonsense again yesterday! hahas! we always talk nonsense one larh! i think he will kill me for name-ing his GIGI! lols! his GIGI is really so so so cute larh! hahas!
shigehisa! he is so cute larh! LOLS! he told me his specs lousy! LOLS! funny huh! i cant stop laffing when i see that! how can someone wear lousy specs! LOLS! haha, nvm! he is more pro than me larh! he left his dont what in school! so many things he left in school! so pro larh! win me! hahas, shigehisa still rocks my world! hahas! second time i say hi to him ler! LOLS! where is he now! i miss him x(
jinger*lao po! she is the cutest lao po okie! hahas! please take care of ur beautiful eyes okie! no more pretty, i will li hun de huh! LOLS! take care!
chatted with WEELING*BEST BUDDY`lao gong! omg, i so miss her larh! i miss the times when we go home together! ahhas, i miss my secondary school times! we chatted so much again! finally she is starting her poly soon~ so fast time passed! hahas! she is free for now and i am suree we will go out together de! yay! serene*nu er is free also! GOOOD! i miss all of them so much! hahas! the best i ever have!
memories is what i have always! i love everyone and everything! i cherish everything and everyone.
i am so sick now! my throat can omg. hahas! tml going to somewhere with my family! dont know where also! so goodnites and take care everyone!

when i say i love you ; i really do (:
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only illusions;

11:00 PM