BACK TO blog again! i am so tired and my right leg arre still in pain ~ hahas, tml got morning run again! 8rds again~ how i wish i can fly everywhere! hahas, think too much i know!
yesterday was too lazy to update my blog anyway did nothing much! just chit chat with my friends. hahas! was a nice chat overall! hahas! everyday also chat de huh, so no big deal!
today went to school again! hahas. have pe and we ran 2.4Km again! in fact my jc lyfe is all about running! yap, running makes me run away from everything! hahas! a long long day in school, did debate! i just cant stop laughing when it come to my turn to speak! i laugh till my tears drop! ahahs! i just cant speak well in class and i dont know why! is a nice thing to have wonderful classmates inside your class! hahas! we did compo during our chinese lesson, no ideas come to my mind. suddenly i think of my gong gong! argh, i miss him! hahas.!
went to meet shuhui*qingaide but ain*dumb come fetch me to her house becuase shuhui*qingaide is in her house! ahhas! then we went to meet kye*teddybear!! went to bball court to see them play bball again! hahas! bought the 3 of them somethin to eat! ahahs. when we reach there, 3 more people come! ahahs, should say their friends came! ahhas! asked teddy alot of Q huh! feeling so paiseh while asking her! hahas! i cant deny that she is very chio and cute! a nice girl always! so ppl please treasure her! (: went home around 8+pm, walked home! along the way was like arguing with teddy bear! she damn good at arguing larh! straight and crook! hahas! nvm, i shall let her win! dont want friend her liao larh! hahas! back home and daddy chase me to bath immediately because he want to wash the clothes! so sian diaoz, so guai guai go bath first! hahas!
anzel, not only you facing up and down. i am facing it too. just that i am facing different from you. dont be dishearted on what is happening now. come on, where is the cheerful anzel i used to see or have! hahas, kai xin guo is here! cheerup wo de ren; mwarhs mwarhs mwarhs!
teddy bear. sorry because i think i talk too much yesterday larh! didnt expect myself to talk so much when we come to that topic. maybe i am not in ur shoes so i wont be able to understand ur suitation as you. maybe i am not you so i dont understand you as well. i dont want to see you so sad and down always over the matter as i think it is not worth ur sadness or wadd ba. you give in wadeva u give ler, you take whatever you can take ler. so is a chance to let others to do it for ya right? cant be ya the one always doing all these things. dont because ur heart say you like so you take all the suffers hor! i see liao also heartpain larh! 2 hands make a clap, so it apply to this matter too. no matter what, make the right decision you want. i just want to see my teddy smile okie! <3ya , kaixinguo is always there for ya de! cheerup! ahahs, thanks for the wonderful chat today~ thanks! mwarhs! i hope i can make your index finger straight somehow. oh ya, tml must enjoy urself for the orientation okie! hahas! take care!
shuhui*qingaide. i know you are very hais now. i think the only way is to let ur parents and sister accept the fact? no point runnning away from it anymore. remember what i told you okie, anything just give me a call ba! mwarhs! <3ya.
down, yesh i am just so down. have been listening to this song 24/7 since yesterday or saturday~ i just cant stop playing this song. my mood just so DOWN! super down! i feel like screaming, running and banging myself against the wall! i dont know why! hais! even if i got teddy bear, clown or standing ground, i just cant cheer myself up. i want a teddybear and i got a teddybear frend. i want a clown and dumb say she is clown. i want standing grd but dont have. so 2/3 of what i got, so i am not happy overall? hahas! thats sound so stupid. i never forget i got my xiaodi with me. what would u do when u are down? friends? family? nothing? hais. i want nothing with me but only the song down. too many things to do. i am not so stress by my homework i think but other things. what to do? argh, can i just run away from all this things, can i dont face anything.
growing up~ why must we grow up? wo bu xiang zhang da ler. the problems we faced are much more stressful! argh, can i just dont grow up? teddy told me mature things, i understand what she say. thanks teddy~ i would have hug her and cried if she is in front of me! i remember hugging myra for the first time and i feel so safe! i duno why! maybe my heart and mind are always running wild thats why need a hug to control it ba~ i also duno huh! running away is always a bad thing so i am thinking not to run away but to face the fact now. facing is a hard thing to do too. i tried to fact alot of facts but in the end i am just still so sad overall? or can say i am even sadder. practise make perfect < teddy says~ she told me about her bball too. i know practise make perfect so i will do something de. i am onli afraid of setbacks? setbacks will make you stronger. cries, i dont think so somehow. hais, no matter what, i will remember what my friends told me always because they make me stronger somehow. thanks all my friends.
are things always straight or bend? can someone tell me something. will straight become bend or will bend become straight? someone tell me please.
i am afraid now because of some matter which i dont want to tell anyone at all except for my xiaodi. i dont wish to be a useless and weak jie to her too but i want to be a strong and a useful one. dont know what to do to make myself strong also!
i have been asking a lot of people one question. hahas. all the answer i get is the same. i dont feel nice afterall because i feel that i am cursing them somehow. argh, i am lost. curse-ful hui!
did i ever choose to bottle anything up? hais. even if i did, i just dont want to see people ard me feeling sadder with me around. so people dont get me wrong of not trusting you guys. i want everyone ard me to be happy always, thats the most important thing. the main purpose of me being their friends is the cheer everyone up. i am kai xin guo wadd. everyone make sure you are happy with me okie (:
DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN! still DOWN! going to finish my PI today! bye everyone! cheerup everyone and smile!
