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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

DOWN&SICK&TIRED - DEAD

ARGH, feeling so troubled and down now. how can i forget to bring my file home today, i was like feeling so sad without having anything of mine to study for the phycis test! hais! somemore my the right side of my head is so pain. feeling so not well at all.
yesterday was a short day. i got morning run for my cca at 7pm! it is 9rds this time, feeling so =/ at that point of time because of my flu. running is fun, so i complete it ah S with KS passing us 3 times. she show us *thumb up* and say good for our timing with a clap! omg, we nearly faint after hearing what she says. thanks KS! supposed to end lesson at 140 but have econs at 520 so break for a very long time before our econs. thats sound so sian diaoz. meet teddybear and qingaide after my econs, they ate their dinner and qingaide went to buy things. after that we send teddy bear home first, then wait with qingaide for her daddy and went home after everything. at night, did my PI with the help of dumb clown ain! thanks girl. i must really thanks her for all her ideas. is so nice to have friends being there for you always.
today had chem prac in the first lesson. did experiment again. the right side of my head hurt so much after listening half the prac. i dont know why, it just hurts so much. went for maths tutorial, gp and pw! end my lesson at around 230 so meet AH S to go for our floorball training. did nothing today at there because of my head just get so pain. argh, feel so bad when i did nothing but sit there and drink lot of water. went to wash up at about 515 or later? got a shock in the toilet as KS come in. i just jumped up and she knows i got a shock. was feeling so paiseh, she is a very nice person indeed. she ask me to drink more water. thats the second time she say that to me. omg, nice person! walked to CWP with ah S and shunfa[did i spell right?]. chatted with both of them, talking craps. my head more when i start to laugh more, not a good thing to laugh at all today. realised that i forget to bring my file home only when i reached foodcourt. argh, feeling like killing myself after knowing that i left my file in school. went down to MCdonald as there are floorball people there. ah S and i were afraid of telling KS that we are not going for the floorball morning run tomorrow as i am going to search for my file early morning tml. by the time i finish telling her, i can feel that my eyes are abit watery. hais, feeling sad and i just cant cry in front of them. shunfa told her that ah S and i are scare of her, her face just keep on smiling. the way she smile is so erms, duno how to say.
went home feeling very depressed and told my sister that i lost my file. she told me to find my file tml at school, so i went back to room and wanna try online study but there is nothing for me to study at all. feeling more depressed after online-ing!
xiaodi*xiaoxin! thanks ya for what you say although u say u did nothing. good luck for ur x-country tml~ be confident and i am sure u can run fast. all the best xiaodi!
KS! thanks for all ur cheers, i know what to do. thanks for allowing me to find my file and thanks ya for ur concern. i am not really afraid of ya okie. i will drink more water de.
christina! thanks ya! i am feeling so bad for being so not in good mood as i lost my file with everything inside the file! thanks for trying ur means and ways to help me to study. thanks alot, i duno how i can thanks u furthermore. goodluck for ur test tml.
qingaide! sorry, i do not know what to say to ya because i am feeling down. sorry if i choose to bottle up again but no worries for me because i am strong. u take care of urself ba.
dumb clown. thanks ya for ur english yesterday, thanks alot! thanks for being my clown, u are a nice friend to me! i really want to thanks qingaide for letting me to know ya, thanks!
teddybear! dont always sad sad then dont want say okie, must learn to voice urself out de. no pt keeping everything to urself. kaixinguo is there always de. i know NYP is good but with me, it will be BEST. cut hair liao show me okie? sorry if i dint speak much to u yesterday, we will be more cook soon! i want to hug teddy bear (:
i am feeling so troubled still, can anyone tell me how. lyfe is getting up and down again and again. i am so sian and tired ler, i cant take it anymore. can i choose to give up? LOST&DOWN!
thanks someone for the scanning of phy things, thanks. bye everyone. take care!

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