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Sunday, April 02, 2006

failure&useless de jie.

BOO! my flu is like omg now! keep sneezing for the whole day! hahas! even myself also cannot tahan! then sun is so hot, my head is like spinning! my throat is still pain! hais! useless me! i am very very tired! early morning went out with my family members and we went out for the whole day! finally back home at 7+pm! today went to "pay a visit" to my great grand mother, 2 grandfathers, big uncle and third uncle! i miss my grandfathers so mcuh! i miss them alot till i cant express myself in word~ argh, regret not cherish them when they are with me. now then come regret like duno wadd! hais. my lyfe is always full of regrets. hais, thats wadd i hate about.
shigehisa is so funny larh! he asked me whether i know ming shen or not! hahas, of cos i do! well, shigehisa is very ke ai! is a fact that he is super ke ai! please dont argue as u will surely lost de!
my half di is the second best di i ever have so far! hahas, although we are not cook but i told him alot of nonsense lar! hahas, thats me! he sleep one hour later than me and he wake up so late larh! so like wadd onli lorh! piggy half di! LOLS! we sms each other so many today! omg, is like so many things to crap! he went to zoo today! ahhas, cant imagine that he watch the eley's show! so funny larh! i must say that XINHUI is going to be mine soon! hahas, i am going to be her husband soon! hahas! yay-ness! hahas! i saw my half di blog yesterday! omg, my heart is totally so nei jiu lorh! i am like so playful larh! the most playful girl larh! sorry half di! he told me bu zhi ze wu zhui! but i still feel so bad! he punish me in a funny way larh! so cute and funny lorh he! hahas, i think the punishment should be on him and not me ba! i am always the haha lihui lorh! hahas! so used it on you okie! i name him as haha crab half di! hahas, so cute larh! who ask him so look like haha crab! LOLS! well, half di. i know we know each other not long and i also dont know in what ways i can help you. i am not a good half jie ba! is always my di helping me along the way, guiding me, encouraging me and alot more. i shall be the strong half jie of urs. let me assure you that you will not sigh but smile forever with me playing a half jie in ur lyfe. i am sorry for not being good at words, let me tell you in face one day. you just wait for the day to come. halfjie<3halfdi okie! mwarhs! JIEDI lian xin!
NANA! dont be scare about your match okie! i believe u can do it de! CHAMPION lei! dont anyhow huh! u must jia you okie! must put in ur best and more! i give u my best and more too! so u got double, and play like a champion! hahas! jia you nana! i will always support u de!
thanks SLP! she never fail to cheer me up always! i want to thanks her alot alot! i dont know how to thanks someone! i got alot of thanks but dont know how to express! thanks SLP! the best i ever i have too in my lyfe. i know i have make u feel so argh now? hais, i am so sorry. oh ya, dont always feel what i feel.
i am feeling so hais hais hais now! my xiaodi is not online. i dont know who to turn to now. without him, i find myself being more lost when i am lost. feeling more useless when i am useless. hais, i am like dying without anything in my mind now but hais! i really really need my xiaodi now! even when he say nothing at all. he always say so much to make me alive. i am so dead now without him~ did i depend on him too much? hais. let me feel alive now please. anyone will do. hais. well, i am really a useless and failure de jie as my xiaodi say he is failure and my half di say he is useless. so i am both! hais. i keep saying i am kai xin guo or wadeva! i am not now i think! how can i be not kai xin! i am supposed to be the happiest little girl with xiaodi in my lyfe! with cute half di! with great SLP! with great buddy weeling. with nice shigehisa! with best tangge! with family' love! with frends' love! with everyone's love! how can i be? i must be strong! i am the strongest among everyone. i must cheer myself up before i cheer anyone else! i am happy, (: smile.
i know i got alot of friends who really care for me, i know! sorry for those who i make u all to worry for me, i am sorry. i cherish my lyfe too but sometimes i cant help by letting mind to run wild. my mind keep on thinking over and over the same questions? someone please tell me something. someone please wake me up! my lyfe? i wonder again.
TU RAN FA XIAN WO YI SHUANG SHOU WU LI QU GAI BIAN, ZE YI GE XIAO REN WU ZAI DA SHENG NA HAN! ARGH, i want this song now! hais. die die die! what is going on me now! hais!
good nites and take care. tml maths test, dead- note: sorry to SLP, sorry.

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